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how to deal with anhedonia?

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what to do. these guys made friends with me after about six months of avoiding everyone at college. i can't just leave them. im antisocial. i dont work well with friends i dislike normies and my personality is mean. have i screwed myself. if i desert them ill be the ultimate arsehole

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Day 0 of no goon. Tomorrow it'll be day 1. Reppy to join the no goon tournament, last one standing wins.

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i am a exclusively cis and straight man on HRT

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>glasses
>cute but not as conventionally hot for other guys to like her as well
>slightly autistic, likes the same nofono as you do
>understands you and you understands her
>likes to draw
How much more suffering do I have to endure to find a foid like that? do they even exist? I thought i had found her once, but she didnt want me and i just wasted my time (she is like lesbian or ace or something she always comes up with something different to basically tell me i'll never have a chance with her). my only girlfriend ever was also a bit like this but we broke up after like 2 weeks because she is also a lesbian who just used me as a rebound, so i broke up with her (if i tried to continue it past that point i would had probably got cucked) and she ended up going back to her dyke ex and i just ended up as a betabuxx.

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I made my pooner gf not want to poon out, is this winning?

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the juice isnt worth the squeeze

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i got ligma guys what do i do

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I've been told that I need to fix my social skills before I turn an unc so it doesn't cement my ineptitude.
But how?
Most of the time I get approached by students at uni they just talk about SIDCA such as their sexbuddies and Netflix shows and if I talk about my actual hobbies they find it weird and express fake interest because they want to slander me later or want free free shit from me. I have never found a person worth talking to irl.
I used to think it's a peer problem because they're all normie wompas that I don't relate to but I tried making friends online, and usually they go "that's cool" and we never talk again because I feel so exhausted of talking to people about the same shit over and over again with no reward or dopamine from it. So now I'm just wondering what the point of talking to people is if it's completely unenjoyable, doesn't cure my loneliness and takes so much time and energy from me.
I know it doesn't necessarily have to be because I enjoy talking to my closest online friend everyday.
What am I doing wrong? What are you even meant to talk about? What's the point?

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what are (You)r superpowers?

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Do you vape? Share why or why not.

R: 5 / I: 1
I literally can't stop gooning how do I ACTUALLY stop dude

R: 3 / I: 0
is it normal that every time I enjoy a song, book, artwork or some media I liked, I start feeling a strong sense of envy because I'll never be able to create anything even 10% as good

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I found copious amounts of feeder porn and a secret instagram account following 357 fat women on my boyfriends phone. i went into account details and the account was made in 2023 and has been active since. i don’t know what to do. i’m not mad because he hasn’t talked to any other women (i made sure) and has just been viewing content. the account being made in 2023 and active since, which also means he’s bee using this account through all previous partners he’s had, none of them (including me) being fat or obese. should i leave him to it or should i bring it up and do something about it? i’m very conflicted as of course he’s not cheating or personally talking/engaging with these fat bitches and it doesn’t seem like he views such content often in general. when i took a look through his search history he barely watched porn, and if he did it was only feeder content. should i leave him be and let him indulge? i know sometimes you can’t really control a fetish and it can be hardwired to your attraction so i guess i have empathy towards him knowing that. i’m just scared he’ll be less attracted to me because i’m not fat or i won’t be able to please him right because of my body? i’m just so confused and have no clue what to think about this or do about it.

we always joked about fat bitches cause we both find bigger women attractive but i had no clue it was a genuine feeder fetish for him, cause personally i just think they’re attractive but this changes how i was viewing those jokes

and before anyone asks- no, he has not tried to feed me more or force feed me or control anything to do with my food. never shown any signs towards that stuff

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So, it looks like I overdosed on Ivermectin. About two days ago, I took 6-8 ml (40 mg per ml) at once.
<nigger
Before all this, I had terrible bloating. It lasted for about three years, and absolutely everything I tried to get rid of it didn't help. I had numerous stool tests, but the results were normal, no worms. In my desperation, I even thought it was psychosomatic.
<nigger
I eventually came across a thread about the deworm pill. I tried albendazole first. My bloating subsided a bit. I took three pills at once. It got even better. A few days later, I tried veterinary fenbendazole. I took more than the recommended dose for dogs, but it didn't make me sick. My bloating almost completely went away.
<nigger
About two days ago, I took this dose of ivermectin. Then I realized what I'd done. I went to the pharmacy and bought some activated charcoal. I thought everything would be fine after that, so I went home to bed. The next morning I woke up in a terrible state. Everything had such terribly oversaturated colors, my vision seemed limited and tunnel vision. Everything was falling out of my hands. I looked in the mirror. My lips were blue, like a corpse. My consciousness was very confused. In my head, it felt like several entities were having a conversation. I was hallucinating. When I lay down and closed my eyes, I began to see floating geometric patterns. I went to a drugstore and bought a whole pack of activated charcoal. I drank it all in one sitting. I felt very tired. I went to bed.
<nigger
I'm writing this some time after waking up. I'm feeling a little better, and my lips aren't blue anymore, though my vision remains an issue. At least my tummy isn't bloated anymore.

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People often forget how sacred your virginity is. To behold it is nothing to be ashamed of, infact it is something you should be proud of. But in this degenerate normalgroidish world and society it is something that marks you as a retard or something of the like. o algo this is just cope tbh

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My situation is just incredible
I'm just a regular heckin' bigot who hates all furfaggots, I want them dead, they're an abomination
Even cartoon furfags
However, it's different with Averi
for some reason i find averi cute and precious, although I DO NOT LUST FOR HER, very important
I only find her cute, like as a pet
Does this make me a furfaggot? i dont think so, since i dont feel this way with anything else
what do you think r9k wizards?

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i have decided im done being a fucking retard. i dont care if nobody likes me i can love myself. ill be stupid and thats fine. ill improve myself
<reddit spacing
'teens do you have any resources for bulking and exercising in general

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Ever since i had 2 epileptic seizures in 2024 i have just been suffering. I live in the middle of fucking nowhere. I couldn't work and i am stuck living with my parents in a hoarder house. I got my license back last month but i don't even have a car and nobody will hire me. FML i am 23 and 2 years of my young adulthood are just gone

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would you have a boymoder bf/gf if they loved you
i think i would
yes i most definitely would

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idk about you guys in america, but literally everyone in the uk is atheist. its kinda crazy. no one here seems to realise how crazy that is

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idk why everyone wants a gf so much

women are not fun to be around and I don't know why everyone is so desperate to get a gf
I look at relationships and the women act like literal children while having every expense paid for by her boyfriend. so many men are just complete vaginal slaves that put an insane amount of time, effort, and money into a woman just so he can have the small chance of sleeping with her
sex sounds way too overrated too, like just jack off nigga

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What are (You)r opinions on St. Elliot?

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Question for NEETs

Genuinely how do you guys manage to live at your parents house without them kicking you out for not becoming a wageslave? And for the lucky ducks out there who don't live with their parents how do you pay rent without a job?
Also sorry for grammar errors I'm retarded

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grass is always greener

How do I learn to be content with my position in life? My country has gone to shit; we're a laughing stock. Despite this, there are infinitely worse places to live. On one hand, I can't stand the constant bureaucracy and contempt for success here, which really drives me to GTFO despite having zero desirable skills. On the other hand however, I want to improve the situation as much as I can. Is it healthy to let outsider's thoughts negatively drive yours, even if what they're stating is true?

R: 4 / I: 0
Does anybaldi have difficulty having their own opinion on a game/book/show/movie?
<plebbit space
For example I'd finish something and like up but when I look at the reviews and see people criticizing it and I can see it from their view so I start thinking maybe it wasn't that good. But then I see the good reviews and keep switching over.

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women

how are they so superficial at times I wonder if they're really not humanoids being programmed by little jewish goblins. just pisses me off sometimes and then i remember pic attached

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How do I stop being a creep?

This is my first time making a post on /r9k/, but I felt that this was a good place to ask my question since I have been lurking for a few months. I did the robot test a while back and got "cyborg," so I don't know if you guys will be able to relate all that well, especially considering how messed up this post is going to be, but it's anonymous, so it doesn’t really matter that much anyway.

The point of this post is that I need help. Yesterday, I was hanging out with a friend, and we were having a serious conversation. I end up remembering that I was raped by my father when I was very very very young, it had completely escaped my mind until that point (I am a male btw). I realized it messed me up. Not in a conscious way, because I didn’t understand what was happening when I was getting raped, so I wasn’t really that disturbed at the time, but in my subconscious. I ended up finding out about porn through it indirectly, and porn as well as masturbation has fucked up my life pretty bad ever since. My lust has crept so heavily into my life that when I am online in games and other social platforms, or even the rare times I go outside, when I see someone, my mind will sometimes wander into sexual or romantic thoughts, even without talking to them. I used to go on walks all the time, but whenever I would see someone, even if they didn’t even look at me, I would get these visions or thoughts that they wanted to fuck me or get with me. I have to chastise myself for it because 1. It's absolutely despicable. I actually despise uncontrolled lust (partially because of my addiction and partially because of my raped subconscious). I want to be comfortable with myself and my lust, because at the end of the day, I think that lust is human, but I don’t want to hurt anyone. How can I rewire my brain to escape my lust and addiction? This has been weighing on me pretty heavily, so any and all advice is appreciated.

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Catholicism, Pornography, and Homosexuality

Hello everyone, this is probably the gorillion post talking about "OP got groomed into being a homosexual and doesn't like it", but I don't care.
<peepee
Anyways, I was born and raised Roman Catholic, (Although I had my atheist phase) baptized Catholic, etc. As of 2019, I started to become a shut-in, and of course, as you can imagine that just contributed to me becoming a faggot.
<peepee
Between 2021-2023, I joined various discord servers and group chats filled to the brim with groomers, femboys, etc. which shaped me into being an atheist, and becoming attracted to transfems and femboys.
<peepee
At the end of 2024, I started becoming fond of Catholicism again, started attending Church, and became "less woke". However, despite having a profound hatred for trannies, knowing they're pedos and just a jewish psyop in general, I can't stop jerking off to them, idk why, but a regular woman will not get me as horny as a transfem, perhaps this is because I became a misogynist.
<peepee
I've tried many nofap methods, that includes praying, going to Church, having icons, reducing usage of screens, and reading EasyPeasy, but none of it works, (specially EasyPeasy, that's garbage) and yesterday I had a big idea, which was basically fasting, I've tried it before, but it only works like for 3 days until I go back to it. Idk what to do anymore, I can't afford a psychologist and I don't have any close ones to talk to about the issue, I don't think you guys will be able to help much, but it's something I've been meaning to get off my chest. Idk what to do guys.

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what do you g*ys think of circumcision?

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What Christian denomination do (You) believe in/follow?

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deep down the femoids are subservient

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Vaginal tightness

I don't think it's vaginismus (everyone says it is but it just doesn't seem right). I must be some kind of anomaly. Arousal changes things a little bit, but overall it's just too small to fit anything besides a couple of fingers. Never had sex with a moid partially because I'm honestly concerned about how it'll go. Does anyone else have similar problems?

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HOBBY THREAD

itt post about (you)r hobbies.
ill start, i've been learning french and reading a lot more. ive also been doing walking. its really nice these spring walks in the evening watching everyone get on with their lives. seeing all the cute girls out, kids playing, etc. it's heckin wholesome
lets try to make this board more upbeat. if you wallow in misery all day you will stay in it

R: 23 / I: 1
I just got kicked out of another community I've been in for months, all for doing literally nothing to them. We had arguments but I never said something more serious then them and yet they all still hate me. Why does it have to be like this? All of my friends push me away, hate on me, bully me, and then play the victim when I say anything to them. I hate my life, I hate being a sperg, I hate being despised and harassed by every single person on earth. Every community I interact with inevitably ends up kicking me out and hating me. Why are the worst people in this society always praised? There's someone in that community who is loved by everyone while being the most sociopathic and narcissistic person I've ever met. I don't even know if there's a point to interacting with anyone if this is how it ends.

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How do I stop cooming in my sleep? I haven't gooned in over 2 months and it's happened twice so far, last time it wasn't that bad but today my whole fucking boxers got stained. Is it gonna stop entirely at some point or is there a way to prevent this?
>inb4 the worms are sucking your dick at night

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why do i even bother with fake people online when i have friends in real life and people who actually like me for who i am

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So what happens if you take Ivermectin and fast for 72 hours and you still feel gay ?

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how to find somephono to talk

sorry if i sound retarded, im esl and shieeeet. also no ><nigger spaces
im so tired of the lack of communication. in two months that ive been lurking here, ive typed more text than in the previous few years of my internet life. this is one of the few places online that doesnt make me nauseous(except qa). i clearly missed its heyday, cause chatting on a board with 5 pee pee ash isnt really fun, but i kinda like it anyway. i hadnt been on imageboards before btw, browsed 'cuck a bit, but there's so much porn everywhere it's unbearable.

overall, i feel like my life is meaningless. every day, i jump from one distraction to another until its time to go to sleep. mostly watch jewtube or masturbate. its a neverending cycle. i dont have any friends and have never had anyone i was truly close to. irl i feel like people are disgusted by me. online all my halfhearted attempts to chat with someone end with them ghosting me. even if we did start discussing something, that person would eventually ghost me anyway, just because im a sad boring faggot. and even if we some how get a bit closer, ill eventually ghost them myself cause they dont meet some specific criteria for my "perfect friend" image or for some other retarded reason. yet i feel like all my problems are caused by the fact that i never had someone to really talk to. i just dont know what to do. every online community wether feels like flock of circlejerking faggots or has been abandoned for ages and is 90% made up of newfags and passers-by.

sometimes thoughts about wasted time come flooding in, i may cry a bit, but in the end, the cycle repeats itself and i go with the flow again. every other normie is just as ambitionless and amorphous as i am. idk.

i think ill read reppeys and get off the shitty too, idk.

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/r9k/ more like /retard9k/

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ivermectin

what made you wormpillers decide that taking a horse dewormer would get rid of any lust/faggotry/altered mental state would actually work?

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I think I know why it got this way.

To start off, what I am going to write in this is something I've never even uttered to anyone since the event in question took place. I am too embarrassed to tell anyone in person and I feel that an anonymous message board is best to vent these feelings, since I can't see any of your ugly mugs or do I wish to know your names. I simply just want to share it with people since I recently began pondering it in my mind and though this board would be a good place to put into words. Also I have posted here before, about an odd dream about a Frenchwoman I had, so if my typing style may seem familiar, that's why.

So, as of late I've noticed my extreme hypersexual urges constantly overwhelming me. I've always been quite sex obsessed to tell the truth. Even thought I began masturbating at 13, these sexual proclivities began even earlier than that. Always thinking about sex and what it would feel like to have it. And I wondered where it came from.

Maybe it was issues stemming from relationships with my parents, exposure to quite inappropriate content at a young age (and what I mean by this are like adult media, like jackass or family guy and the like). However when I picked deeper in my brain I brushed against a memory that I hadn't forgotten by tried my darndest to black out of my head. And even though you may think that when wondering where your odd sexual oddities originated from that memory like this would instantly pop in your head as THE main contributor. However, I assure that I tried my absolute best to stomp this event out of my mind to make me forget it that I brain was probably aware that I didn't want to relive it or ponder it any deeper as to having to confront it in relation to my current situation.

I shake as I force myself to type out the details of this, but I might as well.

Okay, so as to not go too much into the nitty gritty about what I am going to tell you, it goes like this:
When I was 7 I was friend with this boy who was the same age as I. He lived down the road from me but for some reason didn't go to the same school as me as he wasn't in my year at the time. The first time I hung out with him it was with my brother who was a year older than me after my mother had forced us to not stay inside and go out and mingle with all the other kids. Me and this kid both had the same sorta interests and we bonded over being the youngest and constantly being berated by our older brothers. We had hung out so often that we eventually came to hanging out just by ourselves without our brothers who clearly weren't as interested in hanging out as we were, he would knock for me, while other times I would knock for him. We both liked the same tv shows, like family guy and American dad, which also contributed to our shared knowledge in subjects that 7 year olds shouldn't be conversing about. For example, things like masturbation and oral sex were things we talked about when we definitely shouldn't.

This eventually led to what I wanted to talk about.
One day we were hanging about in his bedroom, and I don't even know how it came up, but if I remember right he asked me if I wanted to 'do it' with him, completely up front, and I said 'yes' as if he had asked me if I wanted a cup of tea.
It probably only lasted like five minutes tops, and I, obviously, had no idea what I was doing and neither did he. We kinda just mimicked what we thought someone would do with their mouth and the other person's 'thing'. Afterwards, I don't remember at all, we seemingly thought it was no big deal if just a bit awkward and weird. We still occasionally hung out afterwards but it dissipated after a while when troubles began in my family life and we just drifted apart. He would eventually move out of the his house down our road and stay with his dad in some apartment flat far away from us.

As time progressed since this event, I slowly realised how wrong it was. I would be in class constantly reliving while desperately trying to forget it, to block it from my mind. "That was so disgusting, why did we do it" and "why was it not brought up after it happened between the two of us" is what I constantly, for years and years, thought when the images in my mind of this incident were played back in my head. The darkness of the room, how willing we were to do it and just everything else felt so wrong and yucky that I almost wanted to bash my head against the wall to try and hit the part of my brain that made me erase the memory from my brain.

But now, 14 years after the fact, I did eventually just forget about it and just not think about it. However, and as I mentioned at the start, the memory made its way back to my cerebral front door and thinks it has the answer to my current predicament. This event most likely explain my behaviours and had a big influence on them. But now that I may have an answer, I'm not sure that to do with it.

Anywaya, that's my spiel.

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I'm sorry nusois but the parasite pill is complete bullshit
>nooo but it healed me and i feel better now n shiet
Drastically changing your diet and emptying your whole stomach will obviously improve things like your cravings for sugar or bloating. People get this by just following a lighter, more healthy diet or fixing their sleep. You don't need to take
<MEGA HORSE DIARRHEA PILL 3000 TOTAL PARASITE DEATH EDITION
to get these improvements.
>but it cured my friggin sissy gay porn addiction or something
You read 50 different posts on the 'arty and some 200 page schizo book all telling you that it would fix your gooning addiction and every issue you have. The placebo worked because what you did was extreme enough for your brain to believe it. And again how do some get out of porn addiction and extreme fetishes without doing all these things?
>there was literally a heckin' wormerino in my pooperino
That's probably not a worm but mucus or undigested food. Your shit looking weird isn't surprising when you're actively trying to cause diarrhea and take random fucking substances.
>IT'S DA FUGGEN JOOOOOOOS
Da joos did many things but this isn't one of them. You're not accessing some forbidden knowledge banned in 109 countries by downloading a pdf written in a completely unprofessional way with a bunch of random pictures and articles thrown together on each page. If everyone has parasites and it causes all the illnesses you can think of then why aren't dead bodies full of them? Someone working in a morgue would see parasites in nearly every body right? And why do some people actually get diagnosed and treated for parasites?
Also isn't it odd that people in the past probably had way more worms than you yet would never think about putting a dick in a man's asshole? Or that LITERALLY the only people in all of history to practice this are image board users with porn addiction and disgusting fetishes? You'd think if it's that big then it would be some censored conspiracy theory believed by at least some medical professionals and normal people. Maybe the cause of your degeneracy is years of watching porn and not magical worms that apparently everyone has because they didnt wash their hands once or something.

Start following a better diet if you feel your gut health is bad. Sleep more, exercise and get more vitamin D if you feel you have no energy. Stop spending all day on your computer if youre a gooner or have mental issues. And most importantly pray to God.

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i want to start going to the gym but i have no idea what to do

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I realized I actually hate socializing and talking to other people, it overwhelmes me too much. I actually have a friend and I hate talking to him longer than a couple of hours also we meet like 4 times a year and I'm fine with it.
I want a gf doe because I want to cuddle with somephono and be loved but I definetely do not want friends.
Anyone same?

R: 0 / I: 0
Wormpillers should call everyone we dont like Mushrooms to spread awareness of the gay fungus that controls people

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Fellow parasite pillists, I need help
I've ordered horse paste (2% ivermectin, 10% praziquantel) via online marketplace and have doubt about its quality. It's supposed to be white and solid like glue for paper even after squeezing out (picrel 1, it's from instruction) but it's beige and liquid like molten ice cream (pic 2, some foid got same problem on that marketplace).
Ate 0.75 to 1 g, couldn't make precise dose cuz it's liquid, taste was terrible. It's supposed to be sweet so horses don't reject it o algo. Looks like it was fake and dindu nuffin, I feel the same as before.
So, how to avoid buying fake paste? Where should I buy it instead? I know how to count dosage so I won't overdose like that nusoi from other thread

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Adhd nigger

I've been thinking about getting Adderall for a long time, since I was little I've had trouble with paying attention, it's plagued me my entire life. I had to go to sped classes since middle school and now I'm in college and I'm struggling with writing down the notes in class without taking five years and I think it has something to do with me zoning out every 10 seconds
Anybaldi have advice about having a shit attention span

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What if movies and games are purposefully designed to make you hate women?

Just a thought, what if this were the case? We know that gamergate was in part due to epstein but what if it goes further than that. They keep releasing these super shitty movies/games with psychopathic female leads then tell us were supposed to empathize with them, and also DIRECTLY push us into alt-right territory by calling us nazis for noticing this, and they have enough botted accounts to make us feel like we are the minority. This sounds like a perfect setup for what was in the files, because they win no matter whether you shill or hate their media because they control and own both sides.

I heard about the Stop Oil movement, and I think that is one of the most obvious psyops considering every protest is not inconveniencing oil plants, big companies, or anything like that. Their "strategy" is to attempt to deface famous works of art and to block the roads for normal people. In the comments people always say that theyre so dumb because it's just going to make people not want to support their movement. But repeat that back to yourself for a moment.

Its also funded by one of the richest person's descendents.
A new "smash hit" game released called Mixtape rated 10/10 by IGN. Many people hate it, because its extremely obnoxious and the characters are awful people.
Whats funny though, is the people defending it keep going to the narrative that you MUST be an alt right nazi to hate it.
When I was growing up, I kind of went down this path because when you're manipulated into thinking that thats the only group that accepts you its easy to fall for since we all want to be accepted.

And lo an behold, the game is funded by one of the richest person's daughter, and everyone with criticism is saying the game is bad because the developers are incompetent and stupid and foolish.
Does this sound familiar to you? Thanks for reading the schizo thread, 4chan is completely compromised and I remembered here being somewhat more pleasant so maybe at least one person reads this and considers what im saying.

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nobody says blacked/bleached irl.
girls don’t think about BBC or BWC.
stop being a retard.
porn is rotting your brain.

R: 4 / I: 0
its time to go monkmode dude. give up on those femoids.

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need some sex soon...

need some sex soon…

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Does losing your virginity actually make you more confident?

What happens when you’re not a virgin but later become an incel? Does just knowing that you’ve had sex before make you feel better enough about yourself that not having a gf/getting laid at the moment doesn’t make you feel as bad?

R: 4 / I: 0
trannies groomed all the autistic girls i could have dated i fucking hate the school system and internet

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Should I go to medschool or study computer science instead?
My mom wants me to be a doctor and hates me for not wanting to be one and says that i will never find a well paying job as computer scientist. I know that the job market is not good in CS right now but I'm hoping it will get better by the time I graduate and I'm sure I'm smarter than most in the field so won't stuggle with finding one in the first place. Programming was the only thing that I ever enjoyed as a child, while I can't imagine enjoying studying medicine. I don't know. Any advice?

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Should I use Tinder to go on dates (no casual sex) if I have never had a gf? Or has anyone here done that and how was it?

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is introversion / extroversion even a real thing

i feel like peoples personalities and how social they are is only a result of receiving either a positive/negative feedback loop in social situations and how they grew up
like i was probably really social and happy to be around people before the age of 10
but then after i turned 11-12 and had to change schools, and got my first 'puter, i started to socialise a lot more online instead of in school or in clubs

now most the time i really couldn't care about other people's lives and i mostly keep to myself
like i just mind my own business and i don't actively go out and socialise

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women shouldnt vote

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whats up /fit/ i went to the food bank and I got lilo ad stich spam and some soy milk 😋 im a happy goy

R: 3 / I: 1
Delete this SNCA board, nobody cares that you have been cucked by Chad in highschool.

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Social media is the greatest glowie psyop ever.
It single handedly ruined 2 generations, killed any high iq thought normalgroids might've possibly had, and made the internet absolute dogshit
What could've prevented this?

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the effect of youtube/watching videos on the autistic mind

its an autistic trait to just spew knowledge at people because you dont know how to have a conversation
but anyone can fall victim to this because of youtube
a sperg is even less likely to realize this isnt good if he watches youtube
watching videos all day subconsciously makes you treat conversation as one person spewing knowledge while the other waits to spew his knowledge
which is not based and socialpilled
(You) might be doing this so make sure you dont make a fool of yourself

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a 29 year old man dating a 24 year old wompa should absolutely be taboo not because of age difference/manipulation but because literally all the dudes are going after the 18-25yo age bracket of wompas and its destroying the opportunity of younger guys. Literally competing with dudes twice their age over a dwindling supply.

R: 2 / I: 0
How do you forget your regrets?

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need to have sex soon

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well, i've pretty much stopped playing video games now and i've played them like my whole life since the age of 4, im 20 now
i've spent thousands if not tens of thousands of hours, though i guess i played it at its peak. i progressed from the ds to 3ds, psp, ps2, ps3, xbox 360, ps4, xbox one to then owning my own pc.

i played a shit load of games, most notable games included halo reach, halo 4, black ops 2, battlefield 3 and 4, and gta 4/5. i guess i was a normie when it came to taste but these were giga-mogger games to play when i was 8-13.
also experienced PUBG, fortnite and overwatch in its prime, shit was a different era
now they can never measure up to it
pc games i mostly just rotted on rust, tf2, cs, war thunder and minecraft again along with roblox when i was younger

now i can't find the energy to even play like 10-15 mins of any game, its just too boring or i could just be doing something else

R: 14 / I: 2
i can read a book for 3 hours but i can't watch a youtube video for 10 minutes. anyone else have this?

R: 5 / I: 1
all women are goonbait

R: 22 / I: 0
i was about to have a wet dream but the girl told me to wait 15 minutes cuz she was busy then i woke up

R: 4 / I: 0
where do I find a femoid like this

R: 4 / I: 1
Giggers why do you do this, stick to your own boards. This is the second time you do this and it isn't any funnier. How about you go rape an off-site nigger instead, go spam gigas to a xitter tranny and harass them instead or something.

R: 33 / I: 4
How do I stop gooning to tranny porn? Seriously, when I get the urge of watching porn, I atleast have the intention of watching straight porn, but in the end I always end up watching jartycuck tranny porn garbage.

R: 11 / I: 1
I have no job, no education, no car, no drivers license and im 18, is it over for me?

R: 9 / I: 2

I hate this fucking stupid shit

The fact that I have to spend hours and hours just studying butthurt subjects with 4 hours of sleep just to get to uni so I can then study harder subjects while living in my parents house until I become 30 to get a paying JOB and to meet a WOMAN and marry and have a life is just so fucking retarded
I don't fucking know how some trannies just have a full gaming pc with all the games they want and keep purchasing everything they ever asked for without a big ass job, do you they suck BBC for the money? Do their parents just give them everything? And when I actually try to save up and buy shit prices just skyrocket like hell? Fuck getting a girl, I just want to live happily and get at least some stuff that make me feel content without any fucking faggotry, I'd love to have a job, but there's not a single kike who wants to hire me. I'd love to study but the fact the I have to do that until I'm 30 and I gotta pay shittons to uni just makes everything so bad.
I'd love to be an unemployed fat cuck but my parents are strict and aren't rich.
At least I got my hamster and friends, they keep me sane, some poor people don't have that and they suffer more than me.

R: 16 / I: 5

my girlfriend just broke up with me

she told me that she wants to be alone for awhile and "figure out herself". I really don't want her to be gone, there was no one i could relate with more than her. when i got with her i had no friends at all and was the one person that didnt think i was a retarded weirdo and now im all alone again. we were so perfect together this actually fucking sucks niggga and i have no one to talk to about this. im a sad lonely faggot ik this is gay asf.

R: 6 / I: 1
Hey guys just gonna drop this in here because it seems that everyones having trouble with porn addiction

https://easypeasymethod.org/
https://easypeasymethod.org/

Its essentially Allen Carrs stopfuckingsmoking book but reorganized for people who cant stop flicking their boy bean. I've used it in the past and while I admittedly am not completely porn deprived it did take me out of it for a while. it's probably worth a look.

R: 5 / I: 3
i miss my dad. i moved out because our house was small, i wanted more independence, i lived far from my job, and a couple other reasons, but i definitely made the right choice. but holy shit i miss my dad so much. he’s the coolest guy ever and raised me while being a single father he’s pretty much my best friend as well. we can talk for hours, watch TV, share music, and i really miss that. i see him twice a week usually but i really miss living with him. if i moved back in i’d be sacrificing a lot and it probably wouldn’t be worth it in the long run but when i get back home after visiting him i just feel a sadness and empty feeling because of how much i miss him. i know it sounds gay but if you guys had a dad like mine you’d understand. i don’t know how to overcome this sadness when i get back home

R: 3 / I: 0
you're all invited in my secret society for the control of the world

R: 6 / I: 0
hey jojofag how's it going with that girl

R: 10 / I: 1
I'd rather be myself with all my problems than be at all similar to any of you niggers. Being autistic sounds like a putrid existence.

R: 29 / I: 5
Can something please just kill me already. I can already feel death coming around the corner. My time is coming it literally has to happen soon. There's zero reason why I've made it this far. Please I don't want to outlive my parents. I don't want to make it to my 20s please I need to die. Please bestow me the gift of death and end my existence.

R: 34 / I: 5
Why am I gay? I have been engaged with this girl for 6 months, right out of HS. I converted to Catholicism for her and want to make her happy. I was a flamer during HS but I thought I was past that point; but now that I have a wife and. I am full 1488 and want 8 kids; yet I still feel a burning attraction to men. Do I JSID? I love her but I don't feel sexually attracted to her.

R: 9 / I: 4
I miss having non political arguments online, now its all a bunch of bullshit politics, wheres fights over like stupid nerdy shit, now its all like "I think that [opinion that was very normal, if not the very progressive one 30 years ago]" then some sjw or tranny screams about you being a "le heckin fashoost"
<
also fuckin trannys fuckin everywhere ruining shit too, cant fuckin joke, I mean hell be a lady boy I dont give a shit, just dont force me to call you a she or tell me I'm a monster for not wanting to fuck you or put up with your delusions, be gay and whatever just dont be a fucking annoying faggot, I wanna see weaboos again talking about how japanese mcdonalds is supperior and shit, now its just trannys and sjws and talking about hating trannys and sjws
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we used to be cool online, we used to be actual people, we used to have stories, now its just fucking complaining, when we should be ignoring and living in spite of, we should be telling them to fuck off and having movies with tits again, not saying dont care about politics, but dont be letting it rule your life and shit
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and if you read this incoherent rant made but a depressed asshole redneck hillbilly mother fucker and you're feeling it too, the fuckin need to escape, just go put on an old movie free from their bullshit, or weapons, weapons is pretty based, i think its about old liberal women grooming kids, RIP Trevor Moore, hes from my state, virginiaGODS always on the up and up, we need to lynch Abigail Spanberger and retake the commonwealth

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Holy shit why hasn’t quote shut down this faggot rape victim hug box already

R: 2 / I: 0
i miss /phonk/

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Why are normies so degenerate?

So I was on a bus and there were some zoomers and foids around me. Most were scrolling tiktok while a group of 20yo foids with overused makeup was gossiping
>Have you seen my new bra? It's so skimpy
>Do you know that this girl lost virginity when she was 11?
>WAOW, amazing!
>My boyfriend left a long comment under my clip from thailand!
On and on, so fucking annoying. While male zoomers were all in tiktok. You know that staring down into phone pose, when they bend their necks downwards like slaves. One of them was beside me, and he was watching some raisin stories with text displaying over someone dancing and jumping like a retard. God, I hate this society so much. I wanted to murder all these e-whores and broccoli heads on spot, so much they enraged me with their degeneracy. It's obvious that at least a half of all zoomers are like this. Terminally online, following the fashion and completely braindead.
So how do you avoid interacting with these imbeciles? I can't even bear observing them.

R: 8 / I: 1
true 200IQ r9k robots lie about having a girlfriend for prosperity, status and approachability

R: 2 / I: 0
You people here are complete psychopaths.
You know those I mean, yes that means you too.

R: 2 / I: 0
Just take ivermectin and everything in your life will be fine.

R: 12 / I: 7
How do you get the confidence to go up and talk to a girl?
Also what do you talk about? I know it's vague but someone help me out here.

R: 7 / I: 0

what is wrong with me?

I've been having small muscle fasciculations, my legs feel weird when walking and i feel unrefreshed when awake, I'm freaked out about my health.

R: 6 / I: 0
A foid has learned from her friend that i just want to be friends with her (i. e. not having a serious relationship) so now she's mad at me. She's a bpd and she is the type of person to genuinely kill herself and I am scared shitless that it'll spread around me that i use women o algo especially when I am trying to have a romantical relationship with a different girl

R: 8 / I: 0
ever since uni has started, and getting involved in participating in society via work and being involved in societies, and just playing sports like basektball or swimming
i've lost the urge to play video games, shit like cs, dayz or squad etc. or even single player rpgs. my favourite video game series is fallout but anyway

i've practically played them my entire life, but now i just don't see a point in playing them anymore
ev&doe they are like a part of my identity somewhat
i think its time i let them go, or atleast just take a break until i hear of a really good release or if i ever feel the natural urge without doing something else that is needed

R: 12 / I: 2

blog-post

Why do (You) have no friends?
and if you do have friends, what’s it like?

i have like two acquaintances that we send reels to eachother and im in another discord group-chat with four other people, where we just share things we accomplish in studies/work/social events etc. but we aren’t really that close on an interpersonal level, we all live across europe

ever since my a-level graduation 2 years ago i have forgotten how to properly socialise with people, i took a gap year. of which i was meant to do my national service, but im such a retard that i failed the language requirements since i didn’t know my native language, (im not english) so i had to go back home and worked in-between minimum wage jobs, from a bar, a cafe, two factories and three different fast food places. i hopped jobs a lot because i was so demotivated most the time, anxious and just socially incompetent that my performance was just bad, usually resulting in my termination in my “trial stage”, where they see if they’re worth keeping me in the first three months of the job.
obviously, these places didn’t keep me since im such a fucking stuttering and quiet moron with poor motor skills. god

now im doing a foundation year in engineering in another country without any of my family (of which i barely fucking like), so im considering dropping out and maybe just considering geography instead since it’s what i loved at school and was best at, and so far my first year i have pretty much accomplished nothing, barely showing up to any classes and have spoken to like 5 people throughout the entire year. i have only made like one friend and that was at the gym, and we barely even see eachother now.

this place, and looksmax.org are my only outlets for community or reading peoples thoughts beyond just sharing memes or life events, like i said my online relationships just aren’t that fulfilling enough
i really just want a close friend or someone i can share my life with on a personal /emotional level

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i have about 4 months of work i left until a week before. i just hate this world

R: 23 / I: 1
i wanna help normies. can someone make a multistep comprehensive guide on how to unnormie normies
(normies as in true normies but also wokies and chuds who lack any in depth knowledge of their ideology and are just following the tides )

R: 37 / I: 2

I hate my body

>obese
>quits sugar
>loses a shit ton of weigh,can literally see my collar bone and a little bit of by rib cage in the mirror
>still looks fat
Do I just starve max now?

R: 5 / I: 1
is xhe SISA?

R: 9 / I: 1
(unsure if i should post it here, but)
So, the UK local election results are coming in.
I voted for reform (least worst choice, even most their fucking reps are all shitskin imports) and jesus christ the amount of braindead somalis and hippie girls that were talking about voting for green, just made my fucking blood boil.
I know all the parties are absolutely dogshit, and britain will probably be the next weimar republic, but man, I really just hope restore will finally fucking enact mass deportations instead of larping

Regardless, I'm not staying in this shit-hole of a country. Maybe there will be a hero who will rise out of this godforsaken slum, just like one great man a century ago.

R: 11 / I: 4
my only friend cut ties with me 2 days ago, hes an avid warno player and loves the usmc but was disappointed that the usmc div in landjut didnt get an abrams. about a few days before he cut me off i told him as a joke that the usmc would get two new divisions in warno and that one would have the abrams and the other would have the f-22.
<preddit
the new warno usmc div has the abrams in it and ive gotten over the initial sadness of losing my only friend but i just wish i could message him something like "i told you the marines would get you the abrams, next is the f-22" but oh well. (despite self inserting as a crying chudjak ive come to terms with the situation and feel like its whats best for the both of us)

R: 20 / I: 0
my dad knows who clavicular is. hes 57 btw.

R: 8 / I: 0
how old was your dad when he had (you)? mine had me very late and i think that made me a least a little retarded

R: 27 / I: 1

I lost a decent amount of friends because I use this site and I don't know how to let go

A couple months ago (December of 2025) I was kicked out of a friend group that I was quite apart of because I mentioned that I browse this site. Worst part was that one of the guys (who was quite chuddy) was close to the friend group and when I got kicked out of the friend group he sent a audio clip of me saying "faggot" (which I said ironically after getting killed in a game of tf2) to the friend groups owner so now the owner thinks I'm some far right chud. I don't know how to let go of this man, I've been told by some close people to simply let go of it but this friend group was the only group of friends that I ever had.

R: 15 / I: 3
What did you guys achieve this week?

R: 10 / I: 0
my life is fvcking awesome AMA

R: 54 / I: 17
I'm currently reading the Brapuvad Gita, AMA
Or just discuss whatever you're reading

>Son of Bharata
>the Great Brahman
>is my womb
>in this I place
>the embryo

R: 9 / I: 0
how to quit masturbation. i can quit porn and have done it for years at a time before. i know can quit porn anytime and i am only mildly addicted but what is the point if i am still cooming. i want to quit for religion, btw.
i hate it

R: 2 / I: 1
there is a bug under my table

R: 12 / I: 1
Why won't I study? I always feel like it's a immoral thing. I know that I have to, but I feel so much anger and pettiness towards it, that it makes me repulsed.
My parents always forced me to be the 'smart kid' and in my highschool days I was begging them to switch me to a more tardy school than the hardest one, they didn't budge however and told me that I could choose what I wanted to after HS. That didn't happen, I still wanted a tardy menial job. I originally didn't want to go to uni, but my parents pressured me into it, and I chose a random one since I felt neutral to it, and didn't want something which I felt passionate for because it would probably make me hate it.
But now I can't force myself to study, it feels like this path is something out of my control. Sometimes I suck and my classmates and professors bully me and tell me to drop out to some low class path instead. I consider and wish it too, but I figure it's way harder because my parents won't financially support me nor help me out getting a 'tard' job like they have been refusing for so long. I know it's what I was meant for, why won't anyone help me?
I like the physical part of the uni, but I have 5 tests which I've failed, and I need to fix, but I feel so angry, but I know that there's nothing I can do.

R: 6 / I: 1
>Oh Chuddy, I love you!

Do you think you'll ever get to hear those words?

R: 1 / I: 0
my condition has deteriorated

im such a idiot with zero fucking situational awareness and my depression has seemed to lead into two seperate states of mania and the worst fucking feeling ive ever had. both of these last for days but usually my depression will last for a solid month or two and its mildly influenced on my surroundings

im fucking ugly and im skinny as shit, i cant tell my parents because i intend on joining the navy and they'd hound at me get me diagnosed and also lie to me on a daily basis

i couldnt reciprocate to this woman i was interested it so she'd found someone else so i basically have nobody irl around me. i am also really fucking stupid because i constantly disassociate to try and prevent myself from ever thinking about how shit my life is

R: 2 / I: 0
every dating app is modeled after Grindr
If you use them you are playing a faggot game
If you know anything about gay culture then you hate it in every manifestation

R: 4 / I: 0
What do (You) think should (or can) be done to fix this site?

R: 14 / I: 3

How do you defeat these people?

>Purposefully misunderstands you
>Constantly makes bad faith interpretations
>Takes any banter as a personal attack
>Takes any opposing opinion as a personal attack
>Everyone who disagrees is perceived to have a moral failing
>Somehow has a clique of 5+ orbiters

How do you spiritually defeat these people? I feel like all social media is infested with people constantly trying to mentally rape you. I struggle to see how any healthy group of people can even exist like this. Is everyone secretly out to get me or is there a secret trick to socialization online that I'm missing? Is it even worth entertaining these people or am I a retard for trying?

R: 13 / I: 3

Time destroys all things, don't waste it.

>22
>kissless virgin
>no close IRL friends
>no known talents
>no driver's license
>still technically haven't graduated HS
>homeschooled with no siblings

Though I'm introverted, I usually do fine in social situations, but as I get older and nothing changes, it feels increasingly difficult to talk to people without felling embarrassed. Every Thanksgiving when my family asks me what I've been up to and I tell them nothing, it feels exponentially more humiliating each time.

I know I can still probably turn things around, but being this far behind in life is nothing short of a humiliation ritual, especially when interacting with your peers.

R: 9 / I: 1
I spend every chance I can getting fucking wasted, as I type this now im getting drunk. Because I cant do anything else, I cant be a productive person, I cant do shit.

R: 4 / I: 0

Good morning

I came across this post by Eris Discordia Montano and i have nowhere else to share this so im just dumping it here lol. OMGXISA

R: 0 / I: 0
Last day was so sunny and warm, I can't even be insufferable anymore, life is great

R: 2 / I: 0
i (KHHV) was in a group vc and one of the dudes girlfriend started loudly yapping about some SNCA work story and she didnt care about my awesome minecraft world. I no longer desire a girlfriend.

R: 9 / I: 1
Does this happen to (You), Chud?

R: 1 / I: 0
i need to change, going to do nofap. will update my day count here everyday (starting on thursday since today is tuesday). join in if you want, i have made ID's on. God willing

R: 8 / I: 1

We are getting too desentisized to violence

I don't want to whine much, but i downloaded 'xitter and im seeing too much niggers killing each other, stabbing and shooting, indians dying like hamsters and troons killing themselves on camera, ISIS and cartel executions.

Im eating all of it up, i feel like i want to do violence to black women and indians now, and im also shaking when i think about it, what do i do about it? I will not cut out the degenerate media doe

R: 17 / I: 5
Devastating french blackpill

I saw this clip in a corey's corner video and now I have to watch the film, especially since i speak frog

R: 2 / I: 1
what plays throughout my mind everyday
>YOU ARE A WORTHLESS, FRIENDLESS, AMBITIONLESS LAZY CHUD WITH NO HIGHER ASPIRATIONS OR GOALS
>NO WONDER MOMMY FUCKING HATES YOU AND DADDY LEFT
>GO ON, ADMIT IT.
^"i'm a pathetic lazy chud.."
>LOUDER
^"i'M A pathetic lAZY CHUD!"
>LOUDERR!!
^"I'M A PATHETIC LAZY CHUUUUUDDDD!!!"
>worthless…

i know what actions i have to take to improve my life but im such a lazy bastard and beat myself up over it

R: 31 / I: 1

Do i sell my pc?

I spent like 10 days recently not using my pc(did use my laptop somewhat doe) and its probs the longest time in the recent 5 years(outside of vacation and summer that is) and i feel pretty great not sitting infront of a monitor, and i spent my time on some other stuff. But would it maybe be a better idea to kick my obvious addiction by selling my pc and instead using a laptop? I rarely play games any more and if not its the 'craft but that runs on practically anything decently compared to my goonmachine 9000 that ive poured way too much money into to justify playing raisin on it. Atleast my plan is to sell it and replace it with a decent machine that can handle some gaming, store my valuable photos and do other stuff i would need a decent pc for. Atleast im under the belief that i need to change my environment for me to truly change for the better and not become a tranny groomerald o algo. As ive almost been groomed on separate occations but because im kinda afraid of most people on the internet, but ive been inadvertedly groomed by the content i used to consume and like most 'teens, EPIed. Albeit probably not as much as some cases ive read about here, but atleast im doing better now.

R: 16 / I: 1
rate my ascension

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Character

^p.s, this is the same guy from >>86974(OP)
I spend a lot of time thinking that I am a terrible person, boring to be around and generally just poor functioning (and i know i shouldn't try to be a crybaby around others) in my day to day life, and think I don't deserve friendship or good things happen to me
<lebbit
I am probably depressed, and I know exactly as to why that is but the causes of it have been building up over the years, and a little dull to read, to be honest. If we go by Maslow's hierarchy my physical and safety needs have always been fulfilled and I guess my parents raised me to be well-mannered and educated enough, but my social and emotional needs have been in toilet, dissolving into melted shit particles.
Friendships to me are tricky, the last time I was in one I constantly monitored how they acted towards me and how reciprocal they were during our conversations about whatever. If I feel like they are losing interest in me, I either gave up the friendship or just blocked them on everything for no reason, despite not saying anything or bringing up the fact that i feel left out sometimes or disrespected etc.
I have done this shit countless times over the years, beginning since the age of 10 whenever my online best friend wished me a happy birthday (but it felt weird to me) and I just felt this sudden urge to remove myself from his life.
I probably have some form of an attachment disorder, like similar to niggas with BPD where I HAVE to know if a friend likes me and that I secretly crave their validation all the time otherwise I feel worthless

How can I tell my brain and nervous system to shut the fuck up about friendships, and that I don't need to be their main focus in life? and also How do I stop feeling like I have to perform and that I NEED to have a use / be useful for someone in order to be their friend
just makes friendships and interacting with people exhausting

R: 18 / I: 0

Parasiteschizos get in here

I've been deworming for about 2 weeks and the results have been pretty insane(ivermectin+fenbendazole, constantly cycled). I do 1 week on ivermectin 1 week off and 3 days on fenbendazole and 4 days off and basically this is what has happened so far:
>bloating COMPLETELY GONE
>sugar cravings pretty much almost completely gone
>i cant jerk off to faggot twink porn anymore. i only do it to straight now whenever i fail
>so much more energy

R: 8 / I: 1

Dating advice

Greeting Sharty
The girl i was dating appeared to have been groom into being a dyke
I need scientific and christian data to refute her
Inb4 Rape

R: 1 / I: 1
posting on boards with 6 pee pee eych

R: 33 / I: 14
What keeps you going foward. Why dont you just give up

R: 10 / I: 0
How long can you go without talking to anyone in real life for? The longest ive gone was 2 days without talking to anyone. Some people say its unhealthy but I prefer isolation in general compared to most people who prefer communicating with each other.

R: 10 / I: 0
guys is getting an e girlfriend worth it if shes within driving distance

R: 11 / I: 3
how do I lock in and stop gooning to 2d characters

R: 7 / I: 0

How can i be so retarded and smart and the same time?

Today i had to retake a communications test i had failed, since i have the same teacher in both communications and language, my dumbass studied for another language test i had to retake (by studiyng i mean 15 minutes before the test)
When they gave me the paper, i had no choice but to hand it blank, the teacher aparently felt bad and told me that i can take the language test right now since i had "studied", i got a 9 (A for the amerimutts) in that test just by reading 15 minutes at the start of class
Why am i like this? (I should say that im 18 and on my last year)

R: 20 / I: 2

Personality

Fuck this, I give up on socialising. I hate putting effort into having "social skils". Most the time, i legitimately do not care about other peoples lives and just want to talk about myself because it makes up for the attention that I never received growing up, and that it feels good for someone to listen to me. Socialising and being around people just feels like a constant battle and competition to see who can garner the most support, respect and loyalty out of people
Every time I enter a conversation with someone, I resist the urge to just talk about myself because I don't want to seem like a selfish bastard
But it feels so fucking good and im tired of pretending otherwise
^inb4 you probably have autism
I probably do have some form of neurodivergence, that or my brain chemistry has been decaying ever since puberty. Growing up, I barely got any attention or actual loyalty from my supposed "friends" and most the time i was left to rot playing video games
The only consistent companion I can think of is my childhood dog, and seeing him age breaks my heart. There hasn't been much for me to like about humanity, or relationships in general
I'm a miserable prick and I think its natural that people should just avoid me, GDE walking.
I don't even view people as human anymore, just things who react to certain stimuli who just happen to share the same physical characteristics as me, albeit with a few mutations
<im probably just losing my fucking mind since the last time i've had a sincere, meaningful conversation with someone in real life has been…idek i legit cannot remember
whatever

R: 15 / I: 3

things i hate

safe horny/edgy humour - femboys, asmr gf, surface level blackpill knowledge (let that nigga clav die please for the love of god just fucking end the popularity behind this wave of looksmaxxing)
run of the mill tiktok humour - again mostly just gen z who regurgitate the newest slop and memes that are popular for like a week, and reaction gif humour
safe sleazy - our generations hipster, the nu-male: i hate these motherfuckers with a passion, i could go on a tangent on these people but these "people" deserve to be sent to an islamic caliphate and thrown off a rooftop
wearing their shitty clothes that are copy pasted and unoriginal, consisting of shit like carharrt, shitty pedo mustache, piercings, ultra performative shit like being a male feminist and thinking men are oppressive and evil, talking about having "empathy" and being a "decent human being"
you can identify their language with staples like "it's almost as if…" "lmao" "my guy" "dawg" "teehee" and talk about being racially blind and being as virtuous as possible
these are absolutely the most insufferable people to be around and are the worst people ever, a friend of mine slowly devolved into one of these and turned out to be the biggest POS i've met.
once you know about this certain archetype its impossible to not recognise them again

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Does anybaldi here do cycling? What's the longest cycling trip you've went on? For me it was 160km last year, this year I'm planning to reach atleast 200km.

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I feel like an absolute 'tard, not like sharty 'tard but like an actual, real life 'tard.
I failed 4 subjects consistently this year. Math, biology, french and galician (SNCA language spoken in spain) and every time i ask for something to my parents, they just say "welp, people that fail X don't get Y" every single fucking time. They make jokes about it every time while we have breakfast and they make sure to remind it to me and even calling me Johnny 3 subjects just to remind me on how much of a fucking retard i am.
I just needed to vent off, thanks for reading nusoi

R: 3 / I: 0
>r9k top 3 pph boards
whats going on here…?

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I haven't had a dream about a girl in months. That was the only contact I'd ever have with girls my age now even that's gone. It's like my subconscious has fully given up on finding love.

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calling all fagcells

how the fuck do people get addicted to ciggs, tried my first one today and it was the lamest experience ever ffs

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i never made a move on a chick who obviously liked me and now shes dating one of my old friends who ended up trooning out.
what can I do in the future to avoid this, and how do I know when its the right time right to make a move?

R: 2 / I: 0
Why does time go by so fast?

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fake fake. i faked i wont stop doing drugs my life is sad and boring pile of shit i need fucking drugs i neednit i disaOoOooozksk

R: 3 / I: 0
Im khhv but am i still truecel if women approach me?

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poop

oh FUCK man i made chocolate cupcake in cup with some recipe on the web, i ate it and it was lowkey mid AND it worked as a laxative…
fuuuuck man im feeling SO BAD help me

R: 87 / I: 21
How do I stop being a faggot? I do find women attractive but men too, I want to become not a faggot finding men attractive. When I was 8 or 9, some older kid touched me and sexually dominated me although it wasn't full-on rape. I think that made me gay, you can see a huge percentage of lgbt people experienced such things. Homosexuality is a mental illness and i want to recover from it. The gayest thing ive done is sucking a dick when i was drunk, so im not extremely extremely pozzed hiv faggot, ive only sucked 1 dick so im not extremely degenerate and i regret thhat deeply and think of it was the worst mistake of my entire life.
And no im not baiting, i genuinely want advice to stop finding men attractive and undo the brain damage and stop fantasizing about men

R: 10 / I: 0
i think i have low testosterone and its severely affecting my life
long story short i just feel like a little emotional bitch, i struggle growing body hair and im always so meek and against violence. im very high in inhibition and always stressed out, people always take pity on me and even say that i look confused or lost during conversation
i fucking hate how much of a pussy i am, i am trying to eat carnivore and sleep well, i go to the gym 3-4x a week but dont play any sport
i think its just because im so anxious and depressed about everything all the time im so socially anxious, and hate being around people
i should just hop on trt, people say that their lives change

R: 14 / I: 3
Today is my birthday, and I turn 19. It is a tragic day that only seems to worsen every year.

I am a failure, deeply unhappy, and [user was banned]
Even fucking though
- I have loving and supporting family
- I have many good friends who care about me
- I have a cute and caring girlfriend
- I do not worry about food, water, or finances
- I live in a nice house in a first world country
I have all the essentials that a normal person would require to feel happy, but nonetheless I cannot move beyond the thought patterns and doomerisms of a depressed shut-in.

Over the past year I made what most would call meaningful progress.
I exited a three year NEETing phase, got a GED, and signed up for the local community college. I gave mental health treatment processes another try. I am again trying coping mechanisms (lol!), how to re-frame negative thoughts, behavioral activation, getting over social anxiety, etc. I started getting outside and exercising more. I learned how to drive and passed the license test. I stopped being an incel and got my first ever girlfriend, and I went on dates with her, and lost my virginity to her. I've been reconnecting and talking more to old friends.

I failed some of my classes, I get in fights sometimes with my girlfriend, and I'm not as fit as I would like to be.
But anyone would think it is progress at least. I understand rationally I am moving forward in life. At surface level it seems I am measurably making progress, getting better at life, and every other synonym for positivity you can think of. I think these are good things - but in reality, I don't feel good about them, and feel no better on the inside. I still lack greater purpose or meaning to live my life and get out of bed for. I have found no sustainable convictions to not just become (an hero). I do not feel happiness or fulfillment in my day-to-day activities.

I wonder if I even have the capability to change. I might have rolled bad genetics with an impossible win condition, and my brain is simply wired incorrectly - that I am not made to live a fulfilling life or experience meaningful happiness.
I have tried different treatment plans, different medications, different mindsets, different environments. I have tried tens of different extracurricular activities - sports, clubs, instruments, hobbies, jobs.
Nothing ever manages to stick. Nothing is enjoyable enough that I don't drop it half a year later. I probably lack a soul or heart. The machine has been built broken, with critical parts lacking.

I will keep trying. If I am still like this by my late 20's I will likely mysteriously-dissapear-forever-for-unknown-reasons. I have not lost all hope, but over the last year of my life I have lost some more - and it is highly probable I will continue to lose hope over the next year as well.

Happy birthday 19th birthday to me

Thank you for reading.

R: 17 / I: 12
my best friend for about 8 years trooned out. how do i help them. what do i do.

R: 0 / I: 0
Never got why eccentrics always gravitate towards idealizing Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold. They are parallels of their very admirers, leaky and loud bullying over-socialized twats with no admirable nor understandable motivation beyond misanthropy. Which itself is conveyed no matter the format in a historically performative tryhard manner. They had style, sure, but there was very little substance beneath that.

R: 5 / I: 1
I don't even understand why I keep failing.
I spent my whole day today without using my computer, around around 5pm I turned it on just to read a book but about 2 hours into reading I got the urge to watch porn and relapsed. How do I stop this? What did I do wrong?

R: 12 / I: 2
For the last couple of days I have been consistently angry, and I know its not good to keep your cortisol levels spiked but I can't help myself

For context, its my last full week at school, we have major exams in less than 3 weeks. I'm the nigga who dumped his best friend like a month ago because he was a psycho that was manipulating people n shieet.

I have literally nobody to talk anything serious to. I had to get rid of my only close friend for being a retarded 'apeson with a massive fucking ego, and now im stuck with all the other niggas. Since exams are so close, all i want to do is focus on revising for those so I can get into the unis of my choice without having to go through the niggerhell of clearing (britbong schools). When I'm not revising, I'd like to have some time to go outside and get some sun and fresh air to remind myself that I'm a human, and I like doing that by skateboarding.
Instead of being able to get enough sleep, revise efficiently, and then go outside a bit every day, I have to go to my shithole school. We already finished all the topics so I can spend every lesson revising whatever I need to. My issue is that I end up spending nearly 3 hours a day on the bus commuting to my school filled with jeets, then I have nobody to talk to because I'm not close to anyone, and then school wastes my time even more by having mandatory "fun" activities during form time, and lunch time. At home I don't even eat lunch, just breakfast and dinner, but since I have to rush breakfast to get to school, I have to eat their goyslop food. What triggered this massive paragraph of SNCA is that in my maths class today a girl (jeet brown if that matters) spoke basically non stop the entire fucking lesson. Normally I don't give a shit but she has a clearly distinguishable voice, so its hard to ignore, and she was practising for spanish oral exams so it wasn't just mixed into the regular english background mumbles.

If I'm thinking logically, I know that the reason I'm angry is because of lack of sleep (i basically never get more than 6.5 hours, normally between 5.5-6) and lack of social interaction, but I don't want to rationalise this shit.

I have also not had a single girlfriend, and only one female "friend" that I will most probably never speak to after exams are over. I'm going to be ending 6th form (high school 16-18 for mutts) with no real friends and no female relationship experience. My secondary was a boys-only school so I had no shot getting girls then.

The more I look at it, the more I am noticing the signs of it all being over before it even began. I'm probably somewhat a sperg so socialising doesn't come easy to me, and I can't force myself to do goy key-jingling activities like parties. I tried, I don't like them. I can't even fit in that well because I'm a euromutt that isn't racially british whatsoever, and I have a retarded sounding voice with an accent anybrit notices ev&doe I spent my whole life here.

<words words words

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Haven't masturbated in three months

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those who are second-generation immigrants, how did you manage to learn your mother tongue
i didn't learn it whilst growing up and it bothers me a bit, i'm sorta blaming myself since i never really read any books or put effort into learning it
tho at the same time my parents never taught me it directly, just expected me to speak it ev&doe they spoke english to make me assimilate better

R: 11 / I: 2
total foid death btw, reminder that they are subhumans who choose subhumans, this is why there is so much violent people in the world, retards (foids) mistake scum behaviour for superior genes. and then the scum becomes the elite and acks foids and becomes a problem for normal humans (normal males).
>muh uh foids dont choose you!
no, i dont choose foids, i choose 2d animeGODS. why settle for less, when there is literally perfection?

R: 9 / I: 4
high rn and I have come to the realization that the simple things in live are the key to "surfing the kali yuga"
Imagine getting high with your friends at like 12am, except one of you whos the DD or some shit and you end up going to waffle house car pooling
yall are getting plates of food, its now 1am yall all work together or some shit probably night shift(getting jobs off ur friends is the method btw, if your homie got a job you can maybe become a coworker if his boss is chill)
but yall all gotta be somewhere at 2am till 10am or later, but rn you dont care about that shit
you get one of those hashbrown stake bowl things with the american cheese on it and some toast
you eat like a starving african child
you all pile into a car playing music and go off to work, then the poor bastard DD can get high in the walk in freezer or smoker ally or take an edible

R: 6 / I: 0

am I irl mulletjak

I went out drinking with my friend and for some reason decided to overcome my shyness and try talking to some foids for fun, there was a group of three girls I approached
they were discussing some guy one of them was currently seeing and she asked me for my opinion, the guy supposedly "raped" or got too pushy with some other foid in his past but now he told this foid that he's scared of doing it again
I told her that at least he's self conscious of his problems and one of the foids said "you sound manipulative", am I?

anyway they didn't seem interested anyways, so I had a quick autistic rant about some snca movie, did a 360° and walked away home.

R: 2 / I: 0
marge why do people keep opening their arms to me when I come back to them even doe I did shitty things to them

R: 4 / I: 0
This is ATHEA.

She is the goddess that the athiest people worship in their religion.

Say hi to her via prayer anytime!

R: 2 / I: 0

ritalin + mcat maximum drug user

hi /r9k/
snorting some ritalin
already high on mcat
talk to me or ask me questions or something…

R: 2 / I: 0
where the women at i need one.

R: 19 / I: 6
I genuinely need help, last night I gooned to dross although I'm not gay

I fear the porn addiction will only get more and more degenerate and none of the porn quitting advice helped me

R: 1 / I: 0
I'm a 4th year community college student but at least I don't have to work since I live with my parents also I'm 6 feet tall.

R: 15 / I: 1
How do I look?

R: 12 / I: 0
He was a handsome young man. Now look at him. Uncanny and doomed to a life of troonery.

R: 5 / I: 1
does anyone here have real friends ? like friends in real life that consciously choose to hang out with you . maybe even form a deeper connection

R: 22 / I: 4
how many of you cacas have homicidal thoughts

R: 10 / I: 2
how hard is it for modern gen-z women to not be obese
jeez
will have a 1000x better dating life than me doebeit

R: 1 / I: 0
rick ross let me suck on yo titties nigga.
maybach muzikk

R: 20 / I: 7
I still got rejected after she spent 4 months flirting with me daily and begged me to go on a date with her
FML

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Jew rant

I don't like being jewish, i completely understand why hitler did the holocaust and if not for the unfortunate circumstances of my birth i'd be the most antisemitic guy around. I'm not religious, but i did try and go to a synagogue to check out my community, and holy shit basically every guy over 40 looks like the happy merchant caricature and they're living human pieces of shit, i've noticed the more jewish they look the worse people they are, and they're all very rich as well.
I do find jews disgusting and parasitic, sometimes i feel like im the only one of (((them))) who wasn't born with unfathomable greed and devilish intentions. How do i form my racial views without contradicting myself? I'll never be able to unjew myself obviously, the ashkenazi blood will be in my veins, but simply siding with jews because they're the same people is really retarded.

R: 0 / I: 0
my coffin is all i see
lately
r9k stop

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tell us some interesting stories from your ancestors/family history

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Idk why but i recently came to the conclusion that the xitter friends i had like 4-5 years ago got groomed by boykisser brimstone by most likely older people, and now im lying in bed thinking about them cause most of them were chill and fun to talk to before they got groomed. I guess its atleast good i didnt get groomed…

R: 4 / I: 0
Does anyone else here have good genes in everything and is just kind of a sperg

Im tall white with an average face good frame and 6.2 hard i just need to stop bring a sperg.

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Do looks actually matter? This is a genuine question and I don't want it to become a BP thread

From what I've seen looks do matter but not so much as people say they do, most people would overlook your looks if youre likable if charismatic and entertaining, what i think this whole "looks matter" thing is about getting a girlfriend/boyfriend and whatnot, ive seen normal looking if mediocre guys have girlfriends (doebeit by societal standards theyre ok), like average height guys who are shorter or the same height as their girlfriend but not so short

i think what matters most is the face tbh but im not sure, what dk you think?

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why does my intelligence fluctuate so much
I used to be smart before but now I'm stupid I feel stupid slow brain fog most of the time but sometimes feel normal sometimes i feel like im very drunk cant do basic things cant read properly cant think properly but im not. am i retarded? i dont do drugs btw never did just got drunk a few times.

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A couple days ago i think i almost overdosed on DXM, i threw up a lot and such (showing certain symptoms of serotonin syndrome). But something feels very different then usual. i feel a sort of deep resonant depression more so then usual, and i cant seem to pinpoint why. Might be the dissociative effects or some related to the fact i almost died, but i feels deeper then that.
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Any words of wisdom?

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i want to make a post on here because pol is just not serious. if you aren't from western europe or north america move on. the question is, how do you feel about the so sudden change of demographics in our countries. it crushes me that the new world order loves it so and that no one seems to care. everyone i know is an atheist who doesn't even seem to care that they are alive. how long can we go on like this. its heartbreaking. i can't be around normies anymore, they are almost soulless. all the churches are empty, no respect for elders, alt-culture is encouraged. how do you cope with your homeland diseapering. it seems there is nothing we can do either. (((shootings))) and et cetera lead to nothing. everyone on here and xitter hypes up some big revival but i just see more and more decline every day. how do we cope? (i have hobbies).

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wordswordswords vent o algo

I have no other friends outside of this site so I might as well type it here

I'm at a point where i'm contemplating ending my life. I’m abused by my stepdad who consistently shoves and hits me, and insults me on a daily basis over the smallest shit. My mother witnesses it and barely does anything, she usually blames me for how HE acts.
>"well you should've just left him alone that's just how he is"

I don’t go out much anymore and I just rot in my room most of the day, I've become incredibly burnt out with college, and over the years I’ve lost most of my friends. The one permanent friend I did have, I don’t speak to anymore. It feels like every day is this permanent hell that I created for myself, and I'm at a point where I’m contemplating just overdosing and getting life over with.

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I WILL FUCK UP MY SLEEP FOR NO REASON

today i didn't sleep, and i thought it would be fun to stay up for three days, i think i can do it, will update but i'll probably fail geg

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where am i supposed to find foids to talk to? the ones at my university are all RETARDED and my hobbies usually dont attract people my age. have any of you ever cold approached anyone? how did it work out?

R: 3 / I: 0
talking to a foid for 2 months only to get ghosted

R: 4 / I: 2
is being a single straight male stigmatized nowadays or am i and every dude i like all at the bottom of every social hierarchy
are people projecting their degenerate desires onto me and assuming that im some kind of predator because i am interested in women

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I don't think I've masturbated a single time in my life. Is this a good thing or are there real benefits to masturbation (is masturbation reducing risk of prostate cancer true?) I'm worried that if I start doing it it'll spiral into an addiction.
And I know you can jerk off without watching porn. I will never watch porn, it's terrible for you.

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Dudes will genuinely be 300lbs, retarded, stinky, dont floss, broke, tasteless, cheese pull when they take out their airpods, but still pull because theyre preselected and have a perm or some shit

R: 4 / I: 2
My mom was scolding me and I said she's obsessed with me and bbc

R: 3 / I: 1
Is this man aryan?

R: 1 / I: 1
life really is over once you hit 18 (unless you are chad)

i have scoliosis and slightly fucked up knees + hip (its all is connected) and doctor told me that treatment would have been possible while my body was still growing but now that I am biologically mature the best they can do is prescribe me some exercises that will keep the pain in check


currently still in denial and will get second opinion (some people grow until their early 20s after all haha …)

R: 39 / I: 27

Robot Test

ITT we do the robot test

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Friendship

I want so badly to have just one true friend. Here I can find fleeting moments of connection with some of you but it will never compare to the feeling of having a lifelong companion whom you understand deeply and love like a brother.

Recently I have been reading Tolkien and it has lead me to understand just how lost this sort of friendship is. They have been almost completely erased from our culture, and don't even let me start on the bastardization of same-sex relationships. Everything is secretly gay now. The world is so focused on romantic relationships that every other kind of relationship is neglected and becomes purely transactional or for pleasure. In tLoR, friendship is something so integral and beautifully written, it hurts so much to think back on my own life and remind myself that I may never see this kind of love. This is all just fantasy and virtually impossible in the modern day. I will never endure such a hardship that leads me to form these bonds and it will not happen naturally because I am socially inept. In some ways, Its not my fault. Modernity has trained all of us to care pick gratification over virtue and most of us almost always will.

Despite all of this, part of me is still optimistic. I see many people complain about the same things I do and it gives me hope that I may find one of them. If you have a similar experience please tell me.

R: 3 / I: 0
working and socialising is absolute hell
i would rather spend my whole livelihood living off neetbux, playing video games and watching anime than to accomplish anything

R: 5 / I: 1
My father has been in the hospital for the past 2 weeks, he almost died after throwing up blood, if my mom hadn't found him he surely would have died. He has needed his leg amputated and only recently began breathing on his own again.

Today I came in to sit with him with a little while, and he is awake now but incredibly confused. On top of that, his voice is gone and he is constantly out of breath, so it takes him a long time to say even a simple sentence.

Anyway, today he called me over and began asking me some random, inane things. Though clearly due to his state of delirium, I let him speak. He said something about a hotel, me giving him my number, and something about going back to a room. After about 10 minutes, I realized in horror that my own father did not recognize me as his son, but thought I was a woman he was flirting with, or a prostitute.

My life is a never ending hell of humiliation.

R: 26 / I: 10
anyone here write in their spare time? like journaling, poetry, storytelling etc.
just as a hobby or to pass the time

R: 2 / I: 0

spergmaxxing and commandomaxxing

most autistic dudes dont engage in basic hygiene and are fat chuds and most autistic women wont tolerate that. I feel like if you self-maximize and pursue autistic women you'll have better odds than the general population. Assuming you're an honest person.
<unrelated space
I know a dude who's 5'4 and commandomaxxed, i think he's an airforce cadet, very fit and competent and a leader. He gets uppies from his 6' fiance and the rest of you are 5'10 worried about being too short.
<related space
most of you cant fuck on account of 4 factors which looks and height won't fix
1. soyciety made it difficult
2. you are a selt-pitiful chud who chooses to think bad thoughts (other people can tell and will avoid you, this can't be masked, you need to give yourself peace, real ones know happiness is a choice)
3. you are autistic (blackpillnuke, statistically this is worse than being crippled and retarded)
4. you are afraid of consequences (which is fair but if you never climb the tree you will never get the banana)
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if you are a young man you should go on an adventure and put shit on the line. Don't be normal or waste your time. We are entering an age of heroes and of devils.

R: 1 / I: 0
Spamming boards with gigas is nigger faggot behaviour

R: 10 / I: 2
The way people treat politics nowadays is completely backwards.
Normally, it should go like this:
>Philosophy is acquired first, it explains moral values and pure political ideas.
>History is linearly learned after that because to understand the motivations behind all the historical events you must understand the ideas that caused them
>Politics, as in current day political news and discussions, comes last since it's the continuation of everything that preceded it.
But in today's society most people start off with politics. It's pushed everywhere because people will judge you for not participating in it. Conclusions are reached based on emotions and social pressure rather than actually thinking. Unlike learning philosophy, it's easy and rewarding to repeat political ideas because of the social applause you get from it. That's why people get indoctrinated so quickly into political ideologies. Some might delve deeper into history (and again they'll probably go backwards on it by starting from the modern day) but without proper understanding of philosophical ideas and logical thought, they will look at it through the lens of their adopted political ideology. And then they finally look at philosophy but once again they will likely use it just to reaffirm their already believed viewpoint and ignore ideas opposing it.
The reason people don't notice this is because it makes them feel like they're getting smarter by going deeper while all it does is solidify them in their false conclusions.
Examples:
>clittycel watches a vril edit on ig reels
>starts watching nazipilled vids on youtube
>looks at history trying to find jews and based germanics everywhere
>joins the nazi network to find other wholesome natsocs
>gets recommended and reads exclusively the authors like nietzche or hitler or smth
<foid hears something about socialism from one of her friends
<starts watching breadtubers on youtube
<fills her tiktok feed with commie 'ganda
<looks at history trying to find the burgerois and based proletariat everywhere
<gets recommended and reads exclusively authors like marx or engels or smth
And no, I'm not different than this. I also fell for this trap, hence why I'm on this website. I'm just sharing this thought I had to maybe give some of you a reality check.
^posted it on r9k award

R: 16 / I: 8
The reason you're not accepted in society isn't because of the jews, or the foids, or whatever other group you want to blame, it's because you're a sperg. I'm not going to act like society isn't super fucked right now but that isn't the main reason for our problems. You can alter society as much as you want, change culture, faith, the economy, or whatever else, but it won't change the fundamental fact that normal society will never accept us.

Does this mean you should turn into a blackpilled faggot who whines about his life all day? No. You can still pursue success and improve your life, but you should always do this with knowledge of who you are. Your experience is not what 99% of people will have, and you need to learn to adapt to this instead of constantly complaining about how difficult life is.

No matter what don't fall for the schizo bullshit you see online, the idea that everything bad in your life is part of some heckin psyop to specifically target you is a coping mechanism. The NWO certainly exists but it's not going out there and altering everything in life just to specifically fuck over you, people still live good and productive lives in the modern day, no matter how much the algorithm wants you to be a doomer.

Lastly, do not hate the normies. Obsessively whining about how people don't like you isn't going to solve anything, their views on society are their own and they understand us no better then we understand them.

Next time you want to write up some schizobabble about how society is a heckin humiliation ritual, take a second to think about whether or not this is a problem non autistic people will actually face

R: 11 / I: 1
uni foids topics of discussion seem to boil down to a few things:
their immediate surroundings
their next plans to go out and get passed around
how chad won't reply to their texts and is so toxic
reinforcing the socially acceptable run-of-the-mill tiktok slop psyop for this week

i swear, none of them have greater motivations exceeding upholding the social dystopia we live in, only men have the capability to go further than these surface zones

R: 11 / I: 0
fuck yes i got £500 extra leftover from my gib-me-dat loan from uni
what should i spend it on

R: 1 / I: 0

rant about family

personally i've never felt close to any of my family members, parents included
when people talk about hanging out with their family and making it their main reason to continue living, i can see it from a logical point of view as to why they do (having consistent, caring parents who actually gave a shit about your development, involving their lives around you) so of course they have great attachment to them
as to mine however, it's a bit less affectionate
i moved away from my native country when i was one so i only had consistent contact with my parents and sister, however my parents constantly fought and separated about 3-4 times, before finally divorcing when i was 12

i struggle to remember a lot about my upbringing, but i can summarise my direct family in this sense
my father was pretty aloof and not engaged with me at all, legit the only things i can remember is him letting him drive his car one time when i was 16 and helping me with homework a couple times, he gave child support and hung out with me at weekends for like a few hours, but i was essentially tagging along to chores and people he had to meet for business purposes/collecting shit and my mother who pretty much raised me was a narcy bitch who lost her shit like once a week, and had mood changes from the smallest things and always ranted on about "teaching me life" and "my parents did this (usually beatings) when you did this, consider yourself lucky you ungrateful rat"
i had probably hundreds of arguments and shouting matches with my mother over SNCA, and i had always seen her treat strangers a lot better than i did, people always said that i was so lucky to have a mother like her which always gave me whiplash
my sister, however i feel a bit guilty about considering i don't know much about her, apart from her failing education and sometimes did hard drugs to cope with her life circumstances and was raised with me, tho i never actually bonded with her a lot like a brother usually would
as for my extended family members, i barely knew anything about my grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins etc. though i sometimes think about the life i could've had chilling with my male cousins and just enjoying my youth with my family playing minecraft and whatever

im 20 now, and just recently heard that my uncle died and i didnt really feel anything when i heard this, now i feel like a sociopathic piece of shit but it just feels like im forcing myself to care about it. once i'll be at the funeral i'm going to feel so fucking weird about it, just like how i was with my grandparents' funerals

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retarded faggot cant do college

im close to fucking breaking
im in a eurofag college i never wanted to go to with my fucking parents breathing down my neck, I hate what im studying i never wanted to go to college in the first place I genuinelly feel like such a looser typing this into the void and each every day i feel myself inching closer to ending it all slowly. the goypills only do so much to block my intrusive thoughts.
I have dreams and aspirations im constantly working towards and no matter how hard i work i get constantly told ill never be able to do it and should just be happy with my complacent faggot life under the thumb of some nigger i probably will want to kill after 20 something years, i know im not special i never will be but im sick of bottling this up.

R: 14 / I: 1
i goon to futa ama

R: 4 / I: 0

phasic vs tonic dopamine

phasic (fast release) dopamine: novelty & quick pleasure. Porn = gambling = doomscrolling = hard drugs. These things are inherently the same.
tonic (slow release) dopamine: motivation & desire. Going on a walk, eating something healthy, self-maintenance
The more phasic (addictive) activity, the less tonic (motivational) activity and you won't feel motivated
<What do?
Before doing complex work (writing, studying, problem solving), stare at a wall for 20 minutes. Minimal stimulation. If it feels uncomfortable, it's working. This will put you back to your baseline understimulated mental state and it will be easy to work. After a few weeks of this practice you will make progress with your ability to focus. You should commit to it for at least 30 days.
When you take a break, don't scroll. Go for a walk or something.
And never goon

R: 6 / I: 5
how does the gooner pipeline go?

R: 24 / I: 4
so im about to finish my first year in electrical engineering and im probably going to fail, so im considering dropping the course and swapping to a humanities subject like human geography or politics for next year
i honestly do not enjoy the idea of working in STEM, the amount of mathematics and physics im doing makes me bored out of my mind and i really dont care about circuit design

i guess i chose engineering since i didnt want to take a meme degree + my parents pressured me into it and im just doing what my dad did, but my fav subjects in school were history, geography and politics
so now i just feel like i wasted my time and took out an extra year of debt for nothing

R: 14 / I: 2
those who interact with a lot of gen-z and people, is it true? that there is a “great awakening” and that people are slowly becoming more conscious or at least aware of certain politics and algorithms being pushed by a certain groups?
the other day in my gym i passed by two uni students talking about someone “getting funded by big yahu” and peoples views on israel when in a safe, non economic effective space is that of slightly negative, and that they shouldnt have influece over uk/us politics as much as they should, and that politicians are incompetent

now, this may be due to me only using insta (no tiktok, shorts, snapchat etc. only use whatsapp or discord for the lads) as my main form of socal media, but i keep seeing and hearing about restore UK. im a bit hopeful but again skeptical, just like how i was with reform. obviously the main issue that presses everyone in the uk is about migration and keir stalins inadequacy to deal with it
plus due to the fact that everyone “knows” what a chud and all the other internet lingos WHICH ORIGINATED from our sphere, makes me feel a bit unsure about everything as to if any action will be taken, is it all just a normie larp?

R: 11 / I: 0

stopped hanging with autist

not sure if anyone remembers ages ago but i posted about making a friend in the gym who is an actual autist and didnt stop talking about ancient rome and is also a instacaca racist (he threw out nazi salutes during halloween)
the dude is absolutely insufferable to be around and is a ticking social suicide time bomb, every time i was out with him in public istg he always did the most socially unconventional things and interacted with so many random students at our campus when he wanted to hang out
he just couldnt stop talking about jews, i even made w comment about the jews livng in his head rent free (haha) and couldnt stop talking about racism and ancient Rome and all the esoteric larping shenanigans

truthfully i think he was just a friendless autist during his upbringing so he just latched onto these things, absolutely tanked his social awareness skills and shit
now it completely beckons me as to how he has so many other friends and shit but im guessing its because of sheer volume and how much he interacts with people
but good god now every time i am around him in the gym out of coincidence i just try not to say or do much around him

R: 9 / I: 1
Whichever one of you faggots is this

R: 19 / I: 0

personal stories of online interactions that pissed you off

ITT: personal stories of online interactions that pissed you off


>be me
>american
>use NewGrounds
>see a post comllaining about age verification laws which effect the site
<if you dont know NewGrounds has a lot of porn but also the ability to filter out porn, which is enabled by default, as it should be in my opinion
>some, what I can only assume to be, boomer liberal faggot future mass grave occupant is talking about how this is all the fault of "teh evil MAGA" cult members
<side note a democrat put in a similar statewide law for my home state
>I say in response somthing like "most of us who vote republican are just choosing the least bad option, the democrats take our guns and raise our taxes, the republicans do annoying shit but yk… we can still have our ability to defend our selves"
>then some other bullshit is said about "le heckin fox news fear mongering" then… on NewGrounds? of all places
<NewGrounds is very pro free speech
>the liberal then says something about "of course you use steam(i have my stesm linked in my NG bio) you probably think censoring videogames is antifreedom of speech, do me a favor and leave me alone"
<I have been nothing but nice up to this point, in a bit i had left out i kindly explained my political veiws(Hoppian Libertarian)
<because they clearly didnt understand that people can be on the right and not 100% agree with the mainstream right wing party
>then they accuse me of being unable to get dates and watching Andrew Tate?
<they clearly went through my account so idk how they missed me saying I had a girlfriend in multiple posts?
>then also accused me of watching the quartering and "le heckin fearmongering"
<they brought up fear mongering a lot
>so then at this point i just kinda lose my fucking patients and decide to say all of my skitzo opinions about drugs in the water and satanic pedophiles and then call them a future mass grave occupant

thank you all for reading this bullshit

R: 6 / I: 1
I feel like I miss something in life, or someone in life in that matter, even doe I never met that 'someone'.

R: 35 / I: 2

told my friends im a faggot

I was chilling with some friends, we stayed up overnight and watched films and stuff, and one of the two guys who stayed started talking about his battles with porn addiction.
Unfortunately due to alcohol and THC in my system and tiredness since it was like 4am, I made a very bad decision and told the other two guys that I was struggling with homosexual thoughts.

At the time they both seemed fine with it and we had all sorta talked about personal stuff so I foolishly assumed the stuff we'd been saying wouldn't leave our circle.
However since then, one of the two guys has apparently been spreading around that I'm a faggot to other people.
I've already got a dm from someone asking about it. What the fuck am I supposed to do now? Do I just own it at this point?

>quit porn, repent to god blah blah
I've tried allat before and it has not worked

Anyway that doesn't change the fact that my friends know I'm a disgusting faggot.

R: 3 / I: 0

something something normgroid

Honestly at this point I feel better being a normgroid then isolating myself to an imageboard about bald men with glasses. I don’t care if muh hecking kikes control me I’m trying to focus more on my real life situation than internet bullshit. Tired of being chuddy.

R: 0 / I: 0
i do gaba so mi aryan skin whit overdozerovka

R: 14 / I: 0

foids > transo peepol

last night I had a dream about hanging out with a friend I havent seen since 2025, who also is transo and we looked around the house while my parents were outside. this dream made me realize "holy shit I need to date women" because every second of the day is about this troon and this tranny and I AM FUCKING TIRED OF IT. I want to date a REAL woman and love a REAL woman and NOT pretend to date one.

R: 2 / I: 0
been thinking a lot about missed opportunities in school
a few jb's were interested in me at the time but i was too socially awkward and shy to pick up on it
and a few friendships faded out purely because i couldnt pick up on queues as naturally
a little bit pissed tbh

R: 2 / I: 0
giggers you missclicked, this is /r9k/, not >>>/qa/

R: 21 / I: 5

A note on looksmaxxers and BP in general

Image is related

No idea where else to write this as realizing i essentially have no friends who i can relate to, but I have realised that being obsessively interested in the lookism circles the manosphere/pills of the internet, progressing from the redpill "hustle" and "grindset" sigma culture to then the blackpill and lookism since 2022 whenever that raisinty mewing and sigma shit memes blew up, from the youtube circle involving initially hamza, tate, fitxfearless, to then fitxfintess, to then WW, FaceandLMS, to then IncelTV (rehab) and DBDR, made me realise that "yo, i might actually just be autistic and insufferable to be around"
Like, honestly if i met another person who shared my similar "interests" or similar backstory, and they actively follow these people, I would be subconciously be thinking that "jesus, this fucking guy is a loser lmao" or that if i met another soyjak.party/4chan user irl i would feel disgusted being around them.

This is going to be a bit of a ramble but being involved in these circles has provided nothing but making me cynical and jaded around people, it makes me nearly non-functional in my workplace knowing the psychology of why some people act a certain way around others (lookism). I feel like I've poisoned myself and lost my childlike wonder knowing that a lot of human interaction is based on subconscious calculations and measurements of "normalness" and how much a person can provide certain benefit to each other, which is why i just do the bare minimum at my wagie cafe job and barely have to interact with customers outside of necessary pleasantries.

Anyway, what was I saying? right, my main point is that interacting within these niche internet circles doesn't really provide you any good (unless you actually have access to good networking opportunities or have a severe physical disadvantage, that of which you CAN solve with plastic/bone surgery) and most likely if you have discovered these circles on your own volition, its a sign that you are just a social reject and making up for lost social interactions by interacting with these extremist sub-cultures.
Normal people don't obsess over "social skills" or "game" or "Looks". They just live life and have fun connections with others without questioning themselves all the time.
So go out and live your life.

R: 7 / I: 0
there are many foids who, succumbing to peer pressure, where skimpy clothes and sports bras in public against their better judgement. Then if a man speaks to them, she assumes its so he will try to hit on her, and she gets angry. When you ask how many sets she has left, she just glares at you.
>WHY ARE MOIDS SUCH CREEPS TRYING TO TALK TO ME WHEN IM CLEARLY IN MY UNDERWEAR

R: 1 / I: 0
Is it normal to be constantly misanthropic and hate interacting with people? outside of the internet i generally do not like being around others
i feel like people constantly look down on me and treat me like im a stumbling moron, so i do the bare minimum when im forced to interact with cashiers, strangers in public areas and whenever im in the city, whenever i have to go there for errands or studies etc.
I can’t be bothered going to societies or any extracurriculars, and i think im generally a miserable person to be around

R: 13 / I: 0
Why is there so much tranny "art" but no mainstream art on the other side (except MDE probably)? It upsets me that we are not the ones making cool shit.

R: 0 / I: 0
grey pil is arianester then blackpill you blackedcells

R: 0 / I: 0
umm, guys?
what in the earth is happening?
what with the sudden gigachad spam eh?
well, i join because its kinda funny i guess..

R: 0 / I: 0

introvert

>Going to the store
>Many people
>Womans
>Scare
>Leave the store
Yes, I'm an idiot

R: 12 / I: 3
hi hi hi drug addict foid here on r9k how is it going !!! i love abusing prescription meds like stimulant adhd meds… how shoul di get help?

Pic is sum art i made in gimp on lots of acid :))))

R: 4 / I: 0
where do i find an evil manipulative woman like this

R: 31 / I: 14

Background Character #Ϫ3

I know this probably won't come off as relatable to most of you, but I feel that I waste so much of my time online trying to connect with people when I know that, fundamentally, it's a futile endeavor. I'm not going to list any identifiable characteristics or names, but I've namefagged, avatarfagged and gimmicked around on multiple different boards (r9k excluded, I'm not that much of a fag), on multiple different websites, just to achieve nothing. Fundamentally, I still feel separate to other people no matter how hard I try. I oftentimes get these thoughts in my head that I'm not human, that I'm a supreme being above everybody else or an animal so far beneath them depending on my mood. Although I prefer my status as a background character in real life, a plus one for others and just another face in the crowd, I sometimes wish that it weren't so online, since the internet is the one place where I should truly be able to truthfully and meaningfully express myself, perhaps even to the point of establishing connections.
<preddit
I viewed the opening of SoyBooru's forums as a new opportunity to take another swing at making myself known, perhaps even establishing some shallow connections, but I gave up after a week following some particularly vexing feelings of shame, inadequacy and hopelessness at my own failures. I know it's stupid to think that something as minor as responding to people or earnestly engaging in a thread about a controversial topic with people I don't know already is too daunting a task for me, but it's quite true. I've tried different chatrooms, different imageboards, different hobbies, but I still somehow always feel as if I am sitting at somebody else's lunch table with somebody else's friend group, one I am not a part of. I have "friends" in real life, although I don't really want to refer to most of them as such, as they're only people I get along with because we share classes together and I know how to act in their presence. It's nothing like how people are friends in movies or television, and I make sure to never act vulnerable or share some of my less normal interests in their presence. None of my friends trust me either, since I actively choose to not speak with or go anywhere with them outside of classes because I don't view them as worthy of my time and energy. Why is it that I can at least make surface level friendships in real life, but its so difficult to do so online, the one place where I can truly be honestly myself?

R: 16 / I: 1
is liking old internet aspects old fag dysphoria?

R: 7 / I: 1
I think my brain might be fucked. I’ve been feeling miserable for what feels like months for no apparent reason whatsoever. I can’t think of many big reasons as to why I feel like this. I have friends, generally good social skills, I’m not out-of-shape, not incredibly ugly, not too retarded, I don’t even live in a shithole country. What’s so niggershit about this is that I’m aware of all of it and ofc don’t want to be miserable, I just don’t know what to do to make it stop. I feel maybe I ruminate on thoughts, but even then it isn’t something I do consciously, and if I ignore the thoughts and distract myself I still feel bad afterwards for no reason. Another thing is that I think I might be scared of time passing or something. Sometimes I count the minutes as they pass, or the seconds in my head and freak out over wasting time ev&doe I usually have nothing to do. But even then I don't think either of these can explain why I've felt like shit. Fuck, sometimes i’ve had waves of suicidal urges, even though I know suicide is retarded and i’d never do it. It’s not even me thinking about killing myself, it’s just a feeling I can’t control and it fucking sucks.
<
My life hasn’t always been like this, and I seriously don’t know if I just fucked my brain somehow or what cause I genuinely can’t think of any causes for this, it’s just slowly gotten worse over time and I just want everything to go back to normal.

R: 7 / I: 0

It's all white

>be me
>in ap anatomy class
>dissecting rabbit's digestive system
>shit is still in the colon
>partner is a foid and some boy that doesn't do shit
>foid doesn't want to help dissect or wear goggles eve&doe the teacher said so
>guy flirts with girl the whole time
>found the liver, stomach, colon, kidneys, and large intestine
>rabbit shit pellets and brown goo that has been chemically preserved cover half the atrophied stomach
>frantically look for the white spot for the pancreas
>find it because I asked the teacher
>teacher got mad and quit helping
>the spleen is attached to some random fold in titfuck nowhere smeared with stomach acid and shit
>can't find spleen b4 class ends because the white spot I am supposed to look for is masked by the stomach acid and rabbit shit
>foid complains that I didn't find the spleen eve&doe she didn't do a single thing

Why are women like this? Who signs up for AN AP course w/o intending to dissect an animal? God I hate group projects so much

R: 3 / I: 0
since i was probably about 7, i've spent almost every waking moment of my life in front of a screen. the addiction has gotten so bad that i can hardly even comprehend that there are worthwhile things to do outside of my computer. what do i even do at this point? i obviously know that it's bad for me but nothing else feels rewarding in the first place

R: 41 / I: 6

I hate being a mutt

Why did my parents have to make me? I am composed of two completely different ethnicities from across the world and do not have a connection to either of them. I have two stupid foreign sounding last names that are not related in any way and an odd first name that ironically enough has Celtic/Germanic origins. I am basically human slop, a little bit of spic, a little bit of Jew, a little European and some sub-Saharan African too. Nothing about my existence makes sense.

R: 11 / I: 0

I wonder what % of us are faggots

(picrel of rob halford cause hes a queer)

R: 6 / I: 1
A girl has called me super smart in my college classes multiple times we never talked before though meaning? Ive not been helping her or anything.

R: 0 / I: 0
They can drug me as much as they want but it still won’t solve me not caring about any job in the future and having 0 aspirations. Nothing excites me and I am unable to visualize a happy future for myself even when I’m medicated and not in a depressive episode.

R: 4 / I: 0

eds

Anyone here take SSRIS/Anti-psychotics?

For the past Month I've been on 2MG of Abilify (Ariprazole) daily because the thoughts in my head are too negative and they get too loud about embarrassing/cringy shit I've done in my 20 years of living. I guess an idle brain is the devil's workshop.

I feel as though I'm getting a placebo effect because yes I've been feeling better but I think my problem was solved moreso because I've been eating healthier and going on hikes daily.

Recreational drugs can also be discussed. Had my fun with them last year

R: 0 / I: 0
how do i stop being an autistic sperg hyperfixating on basic social interaction? sometimes i have these moments of enlightenment where the hyperfixation goes away, it always seems to come back though. Which is honestly even worse because i actually know how much greener the grass is on the other side.

R: 17 / I: 2
>latinx-nigger mutt (Dominican papi)
>fat manlet (1.67m 90kg)
>Probably autistic, can barely socialize with normgroids my age if they aren't autistic like me
>Only Foid that liked me enough to be my gf was a lesbian who used be me as a rebound then nearly cucked me
>Mentally ill
>Gooning addict since 9

I think about suicide daily

R: 6 / I: 1
Why do i have so much self doubt, that I’m like not funny enough or that i cant achieve anything. Like a weird mixture of ego death and imposter syndrome. I also feel like that i cant relate to anybody either, i still talk to people but its like a deeper connection cannot be formed.

R: 17 / I: 11
Hello /r9k/ i had this idea and i wanted to share it here to maybe get some other peoples view points on this idea/theory/philosophy bit.
<
I recently bought 10in pvc pipe, cupling (to go with it), duck tape, and 50ft of paracord because i want to make a home made whip.
<well why?
Because i dont think that forgiveness of ones sins is as simple as asking for forgiveness, ive been making the same mistake for a long time and i think it would be easier to forgive myself if I put myself through some pain. And also because i think i just deserve it in general.
<
No this is not like how women cut themselves they do it for different reasons then of what I’m doing it for, such as hating themselves, getting attention, getting pity and or approval.
Some reasons as to why i am doing it: as a means to aid in self redemption, also ive heard somewhere whips are used for self discipline i dont know how true that is but i can see in my case that it might help to be used in that way. I do not plan on sharing to people in my public life that i needed to put myself through a “purification process” nor would i want to. Most of the scarring (if any) would be on my back covered up. Another thing I do not hate myself as that is a illusionary cycle of self defeat, i hate the part of me that has allowed me to do sinful actions, and again i do not think that forgiveness is just some simple thing you do, it should be much deeper and respectful process more akin to redemption then that of “forgiveness”
<
Let me know your thoughts and such

R: 7 / I: 0
Is this true nigger cacas?

R: 0 / I: 0
iron posting

R: 6 / I: 1

advice for mitigating swearing

Do any 'teens have advice on how reduce frequent swearing. I don't swear (mainly "nigger" "faggot" and "cunt") in conversations, for that I don't have conversations daily. I swear when alone, typically when driving due to how niggerlicious the niggers I have to share the road with are, today I felt bad, as I actually cussed someone out, when a cyclist failed to yield and got in front of me, forcing me to abruptly brake. I was so annoyed that I rolled down my window and shouted 'faggot' at them. Any advice/tips would be appreciated.

R: 1 / I: 0
Doomer is just the rebranding of loser. /r9k/ is the loser board.

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nubmer 1 blogposter

I practically sold my soul to get admitted a heckin' wholesome prestigerino new england college at 18 but would've been 10x happier just going to a local snca college back down south

R: 8 / I: 2
Just go to africa you dumb white niggers the women there will literally throw themselves at you if white all the niggers are short as well. When I went to Zimbabwe and South Africa I had good looking women getting their panties wet over me its a literal cheat code.

R: 0 / I: 0
Holy fauci just look for they/thems in online spaces and it’s an almost guaranteed a mentally ill woman who is attention starved

R: 2 / I: 0

I took ze meds

I was the poster about tips to stop being anxious a little bit ago (if anybaldi remembers) and I got on ssri's
<plebbit space
Also I took the advice and ive been sleeping more and trying not to go on bald man glasses website too late

R: 3 / I: 1
>bosnian oldfag
<huge SNCA leakage, I needed to say this somewhere

Kill all Boomers. TBD (Total Boomer Death).

I hate old people. They had life easier than we can even dream of. They retired by 60, some by the age of 50. Yet they waste all of it. Time, money and freedom is wasted on the old. They sit around all day, refuse to learn anything new for the last 30 years, keep watching their zog news and fuck everything up politically by voting for whatever the jew on the TV told them was the better choice.
Any good boomer died in their youth. I lost a great-aunt ~5 years ago, and never met my dad's dad. They were both hard working people, my grandfather died of a bad blood transplant and my great-aunt got cancer, probably from the stress of her useless children begging for money all the time. All the good boomers are gone. The grandparents I have left are the most stubborn, thick headed animals I've ever known. On my mother's side they have been screaming and fighting since before my mother was born, spent their entire retirement arguing with each other, and now that they are over 80 years old they decide to divorce. Because of these niggers being old as shit, my mother has to help with the online documentation, and I hate seeing my own mother, who is working full time at an age where her own mother was already retired (somehow retired at 40 btw), being stressed by this bullshit. Stress is the biggest killer. Anybody who works hard or worries for others will die young, and the scum will linger the longest like mold. They are killing the nation I live in, the UK, as well, they get paid more through pensions than the average working person gets from work, they eat all the medical resources, and it still isn't enough, the greedy oldfags want more and more and more and want the younger generations to "just work harder" to cover it. They aren't greatful for anything they have. I hear my parents struggle to get appointments for pre-emptive measures, blood tests, etc, while my grandparents complain about doctors wanting to check up on them too often. Kill all boomers. Cut them out of any healthcare system, let them pay out of pocket, then we'll see if they like it or not. Either way they won't leave any money for their children/grandchildren so at least this way they don't drain the state too.
They aren't grateful for what they had and have. They want more. They look down on those who are working harder than they ever did, and suffered more than them, telling them that they are lazy. Even their parents in the silent/greatest generation saw through them, they saw that they were a generation of spoilt, lazy people that would first push for the liberalisation of everything, accepting faggots and trannies, the sexual revolution, etc, and then once all of the policies THEY wanted were enacted, they tell us how the past was SOOO much better, and that everything has gone to shit. YOU did this you stupid old bastards. YOU messed everything up, yet you want us to look after you until you reach the age of Ϫ00, draining those younger of them of their youth like vampires. They act like children, they can no longer do basic actions without help, they think like cacas too, but unlike cacas they have lived a gorillion years and should know better by now.

R: 24 / I: 2
I keep procrastinating on texting this one foid I met in college
I was planning on texting her in January, but now its April
Is there anything I should Do to break this cycle of procrastinating and actually text her?

R: 1 / I: 1
Last night i had dream that i was doxed on the sharty and people hanged 'jaks on my house/

R: 2 / I: 0
4chan is down again

R: 3 / I: 0
hello 'teens. all my friends are lefties and retarded/blind when it comes to politics. they dont know im very right leaning or how much i despise browns/mudslime migrants. i really like my friends though, so much so i almost consider them family. im scared they'd disown me and look down on me.

R: 4 / I: 0
Why are modern men so cucked?

R: 3 / I: 0
Does anyone else struggle with being an irl soyboy? Meaning a man with no masculinity and a complete consoomer. Im probably the least mascuiline man ever, faggots and trannies have more balls than me. I have no mental fortitude and strength to quit my addictions and bad habits, im too mentally weak to work towards my goals. Not only that i have negative testostorone, no capability of aggression and im scared of everything, and i cry often. And im a huge consoomer of goyslop, not only that im racially stereotyped as being feminine and weak, my brain is strong in ethnic/racial self hatred so that gets to me like a soyboy.
my body looks like picrel despite me eating like a pig

R: 3 / I: 0
'teens i need your opinion. I am a virgin despite having a gf before and i am not a fan of short relationships and that kind of bullshit. However i am getting too old to be a virgin and i fear i will embarrass myself when it matters. I look good enough (and im tall) for the ugly girls to approach me themselves. Do i just go on tinder and just accept that beggars can't be choosers and go fuck an ugly bitch and finally get that shit off my chest or do i keep searching?

R: 13 / I: 1
When was the last time you cried?

R: 2 / I: 0
I kind of just fuck with my reputation for fun
I've doing this since middle school and its probably hurting me
Everyone thinks I'm crazy
But whats the difference between a sperg who carefully manages his reputation (and inevitably fails) and a sperg who says crazy shit all the time

R: 9 / I: 0

Narrowly avoided huge faggotry

Just going through r9k and im now realizing ive basically had a strong attraction to a foid thst isnt purely sexual. A good chunk of my freinds are either faggots or foids and as a caca i loved troonslop like undertale and if it werent for my older bros i legiteimately think i would be a plebbit "silly cars :3" nigger

R: 5 / I: 0
How many dates it took (you) to ask her to be your girlfriend? I am pretty sure she likes me just need to time it right

R: 8 / I: 0
tldr; im imagining fake negative things in my head because my brain is addicted to negativity and i want to stop.
Is anyone else's brain so addicted to negativity that the brain comes up with imaginations containing very negative scenarios that upset you?
And those imaginations are not tied to reality at all, its not something like worrying about money or career or politics, or something worth worrying about.
I have nonsensical hypothetical imaginary scenarios often. I wont get into detail but its something like being in some imaginery world in some wilderness and there are a bunch of people there and they hurt me or socially exclude me, this makes me feel the sensations of rejection, humiliation, bullying and loneliness that my brain keeps playing over and over again, sometimes if its extreme those people start attacking me physically because of how much they hate me, and since my brain comes up with such scenarios those imaginery people know my worst flaws and sins, insecurities and generally everything bad about me so their words hurt me deeply. And I'm not crazy or delusional, i 100% know that these are just imaginations and not real at all, but that doesn't stop me from feeling sad and crying from those imaginations. I know how stupid all of this sounds, and I really, really want to stop having these imaginations, but I can't; my brain is addicted to the whatever brain chemicals get produced from me feeling intense feelings of self-hatred, imagined violence and gore, exclusion, rejection, loneliness and general sadness.
I think my biggest problem is intrusive thought rumination. The cure, I think, is mindfulness and staying in the present moment, but I'm mentally too weak to do that. I'm thinking that pills will really help me, but going to a psychiatrist sounds scary, and pills might be expensive in my shithole country.
I would be at so much peace and happiness if I stopped having these imaginations and I could just focus on living my life, appreciating the beauty of the present and working towards building a better life.

R: 9 / I: 1

wordswordswords o algo

Long story short I think I was misdiagnosed with autism.

Since i was a kid i was told that i have autism (high functioning) and there were those weird plans for assistance in school because of that etc. but recently i've been thinking about it and the "symptoms" i have barely match up with it at all. I don't have the usual retarded symptoms and issues of an autist and i've never really felt that different from others around me. The only real setbacks for me are with anger and procrastination

Best guess is either i have adhd or no obvious condition at all, but idk and i'm trying not to overthink it. I guess i could try to improve on my current issues doe.

>snca speaking to a wall o algo

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Howdy soyteens, been awhile since I've been on the Jarty.
Thought I could quit, I got a girl, and she thinks its not good for my health.
But the Jarty never rests, and I never needed much sleep anyway.
Apologies for my soyspeak being rusty as a paintless steamship drifting in the Dead Sea.

How have y'all been Soyteens?

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No women are attracted to women all women are straight and lesbians are all pretending.

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I think I might kill myself soon. I already tied a noose. I'm going to see my doctor but I doubt he can help. Maybe they will institutionalize me if I tell them about my plan.

R: 2 / I: 0
This is my reaction to me reading your crappy blogposts

R: 8 / I: 1

Am I being schizophrenic?

I think for the last several months I’ve been talking with AI more than actual human people

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I spent all 4 years of highschool on my phone talking to retards online in class instead of getting a good gpa

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This my first serious post on this board and I thought I'd start off by sharing something that I kinda need to get off my chest and has really weirded me out since it happened.
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Basically, I woke up this morning (well, actually it was in the middle of the day, but whatever) from a very odd dream I had.
The dream goes as follows, or from what little I could remember…
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It was me in a room alone with a woman, whom I perceived in the dream to be French (don't know why). From what little was comprehensible in the dream visually, we sat at the edge of what looked like a bed and she told me she had been informed by a friend of mine of the details of my personal life and that she was sorry that I was going through such a rough patch.
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The remainder of the dream from this point I can't adequately describe in order of how it happened, but after she had told me this, she hugged me or consoled me to such a point that she had noticed how her words and actions affected me, and saw I was on the verge of tears. She then comforted me by telling me it was okay and rested her head against mine, to which it felt like in the dream a stream of tears fell down my face afterwards. This was followed by her kneeling down in front me, and from the dream if felt like she was ready leave the room, but before she did this she told me it was okay and trusted that I was wasn't going to do anything rash after she leaves.
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She then left the room and I was left there on the edge of bed alone and proceeded to facepalm and breakdown.
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Now, I've always had very weird dreams that I can't explain, like ones about having sex with your mother or little fairy-like creatures flying into your penis as a child and making you orgasm (at least the latter is probably exclusive to me only). So it's not the dream itself I really care all that much for, it was my reaction after I woke up from it. After I had awoke, I tried to at least ponder on the dream and why the fuck I had it. When I spent enough time thinking about the dream, the woman in it, me crying and breaking down at the end, I quickly started to get a lump in my throat, and afterwards started to have my eyes water. I then said to myself "this isn't a big deal, why is this affecting me so much", almost as if I had started to feel emotions that were out of my control. This eventually led to me fully sobbing and a stream of tears falling down my face, probably the first I had cried in a good while (not saying im some kind of badass or something, but I rarely cry or really even get in such a state). When this happened, it honestly felt like it was forced on me, like it was out of my control, something happened in that dream that was so powerful that it forced my psyche to turn the waterworks on after I had simply wondered what it meant, whether I liked it or not.
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Anyway, that's it, it just was a very weird experience and I felt this board was the appropriate place to rant about it.
(call me a faggot and all that other shit, I would expect nothing less :))

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im on day 24 of nofap right now, but i have to wonder, when will i stop feeling sexual/romantic attraction to subhuman roasties of the lesser sex?
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today i woke up with a strong morning erection which is something i haven't experienced in at least a month, although i don't exactly know what caused it. most sexual "fantasies" i conjure up in my mind are ineffectual in making me aroused, even if they are tailored to my specific fetishes, and i quickly tire of them. i already have a pretty low libido/romantic drive to begin with, but sometimes when i see a specific female who is present in some of my classes, i feel a light romantic inclination towards her, which i know is irrational and retarded, given that i will never be able to truly love and have romantic love reciprocated to me in turn. maybe i should settle for tulpamancy, but i dont know. i don't like the idea of letting a demon live inside of my head, even if that demon looks and sounds like pinkie pie. thoughts, soy9ksisters?

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Is it okay to be slow?

And when i mean slow i mean in stuff like understanding concepts,understanding punchlines to jokes,school work growing up and most things in my life. And the thing is
never really realized that im slow until like 2 month ago. The really weird part is that I've never been diagnosed with any disability like autism or dyslexia so I may genuinely be retarded and honestly I feel like shit knowing this probably can't be changed

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I think my friend is a psychopath, he's genuinely a completely different person around everyone he knows and he goes through girlfriends like nothing, he "knows" probably like 100 different people but I don't think he's true friends with even 10 of them. he once told me and our other friend that he doesn't feel empathy for anyone not close to him but later went back on it. he used to be ugly and unpopular but he had a "glow-up" of sorts and I think that caused him to crave appeal, he just wants people to like him because he never really had that before, I think the reason he's so affectionate to all his relationships that barely last 2 weeks is because he enjoys seeing these women vulnerable and dependent on him just to cut it off. he also makes fun of people as soon as its acceptable to the other people around him, I don't really know what to think about it and really its kinda funny to me but I wanna know what you guys think.

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oh no no no no, /troon9k/ what is this raisin?

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dreams

what do you see when you sleep?

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What did you googoogagas achieve this week?

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i think the priests daughter likes me what do i do
And whats with this pattern im noticing of priests/pastors daughter throwing choosing signals to eccentric spergs
Am I being deceived
And one of the homies said the priest would have too high standards for my retarded self to live up to

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Desperate men exist?

I'm a femcel and I don't think they do exist. My ex boyfriend from soy was desperate for me at first but then he realized I'm severely autistic and ditched me.

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What do I do with my free time?

Me personally I just play videogames, go on this website,go on tiktok or ig, and maybe jerk off but I always feel unfilled and I tried quiting tiktok but I literally had nothing to do but watch tiktok geg

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Hey guys, just wanted to give you an update on Lindsay.

Lindsay now absolutely refuses to clean up after herself at all. She still refuses to use the toilet which is fine but she NEEDS to clean up after herself. Other than that she is an amazing roommate and we all really like her but this is really becoming a problem. Our boyfriends and girlfriends don't even want to come over anymore. She says it isn't a big deal and that we're making a big deal out of nothing. She says she doesn't tell us how or where to use the bathroom and it isn't her problem that the rest of us just happened to agree on using a specific place to shit when we met and that having roommates means having to make compromises sometimes and putting aside our differences to keep peace in the house and that everyone is hanging up on her.

I went to the shop where she works and from talking to her co-worker it seems like she doesn't behave this way at work or I assume he would have said something so I don't know what her deal is. She refuses to actually discuss this. She doesn't know this yet but Josh is considering moving back with his parents in Wisconsin.

I got along with Lindsay right away when we met and is a super close friend but this is making me wonder if our friendship will even last. Thanks for listening again you guys and I'll keep you guys posted.

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Happy birthday! Oh yes I am certainly ready to do it! July 8, 2003 I am pouring it right now and it should be ready soon. I can see both sides and it was a very weird lottery. So! Okay. Well she's about to come on gotta go watch those niggertits flop around and support ol' paddlebags. Good luck, everybody!

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Am I fucked? I have less than 1 real month of school left and I have 1 person who I think I will realistically still be in touch with after it ends.

I have a couple "friends" but they're more just people I orbit around to stave off boredom, there isn't a connection. I had 1 other close friend until last month but I had to cut him off for exposing himself as a psychopath.
Nobody seems to dislike me but basically none of them will go out of their way to talk to me either.
Since I'm socially inept, what are some aryan hobbies to distract myself with. I already do things like play vidya, read and go outside, give something interesting.

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Redditors are such retards. I've seen so many posts like this where some whiny little fuck hears something racist, goes on reddit, everybody tells them "(((REPORT IT TO THE UNI)))" and then they say they actually will. This person trusted you enough to let them know that they think jeets are inferior people (Snopes checked facts), they have 3 weeks left, and now they want to destroy their entire future because of it.

I'm aware this is stupid and that I shouldn't spend time on plebbit in the first place but its crazy there are goys that are like this, and that probably go on to say that they believe in free speech.

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what the fuck is this board, i thought this was for robotics FUCK YOU

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Rate my day

8:15 wake up
8:15–8:45 brush hair/teeth, get dressed, etc.
8:45–9:15 breakfast
9:15–9:45 GOON
9:45–10:15 cram for class
10:15–12:00 class
12:00–1:45 GOON (coomed)
1:45–2:00 grab bite of lunch
2:00–3:30 class
3:30–6:15 GOON (warming up out of refractory period)
6:15–6:45 dinner
6:45–10:15 GOON (coomed)
10:15–10:45 shower
10:45–12:00 watch anime (currently WataMote, yes how appropriate, IK) and YouTube vids on Chinese history

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Evil Peas

I ate 4 bags of the Kasugai wasabi peas in one afternoon and it messed up my taste buds for about a week. I couldn't taste anything on the front of my tongue and it felt kind of rough. Please be careful. Also, I used to eat the Taiwanese wasabi peas a lot, but after this experience they taste like nothing to me; I think I have messed up my wasabi pea sensitivity. Despite this, I still eat both kinds frequently.

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How do i deal with the fact that i was born a fucking jew, if Hitler would have just finished the job i wouldnt have to be a discriminated minority. I hate myself, i face actual racism and bullying at my school baaically everyday and my parents are refusing to move to israel because they are russian soviet boomer patriots. I go online and get offended at antisemitism there like a fag, i cant live without the approval of others since i was raised to always give in and avoid conflict. I am taking meds because it would be actual niggerhell without them, but i dont want to, i want to feel happiness and fulfillment instead of nothing.

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My gf of 10 years came out to me as trans and has been recently transitioning to a boy. She doesn't want to get rid of her pussy though so it it gay if I stay with her?

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I wish I was a normie

I wish I could enjoy sportsball
I wish I could enjoy more shows and movies
I wish I had siblings
I wish I didn't get filled with anger when seeing couples of a similar age as me

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Baby

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Except:
There's no robot.
There's no porn.
There's no faggot garbage.
There's no tranny garbage.