I don't want to look effeminate
'teens I was looking in the mirror properly for the first time in a while and I realise my physique is really quite effeminate and kind of twinkish. I have been going to the gym for 2 years (1 year with properly targeted and consistent strength training), have taken up sprinting and running a month or two ago, and have done two martial arts (one for over a year and one for like 6 months). And I don't have a great amount to show for it. I have become quite slender (more than before). I have a pretty clear hourglass figure where my hips are past as wide as my shoulders(not that wide) and I have a slimmer waist than my hips. I also quite have thick legs and thighs and a round pretty big arse.And I don't have much definition on my physique. And I'm pretty tall which exemplifies the slenderness. It's not that I'm not strong (I know I am) but I don't want to really do nonfunctional training and a lot of what I do requires training a strong lower body. Doesn't help that I have thick and long lashes and a small mouth. Anyway just frustrated that I just have to wait potentially years for the training to develop me more. I don't know what I can really do about this that doesn't derail my trainingEvil Peas
I ate 4 bags of the Kasugai wasabi peas in one afternoon and it messed up my taste buds for about a week. I couldn't taste anything on the front of my tongue and it felt kind of rough. Please be careful. Also, I used to eat the Taiwanese wasabi peas a lot, but after this experience they taste like nothing to me; I think I have messed up my wasabi pea sensitivity. Despite this, I still eat both kinds frequently.Why do women do this?
I was walking up the stairs to my dorm and there were 2 women ahead of me. Since I always go up 3 stairs at a time I had to pass them since foids always walk really slowly. Anyway when I got off the stairs I heard the two of them burst out laughing and I am pretty sure it was because of what I did since the laughter started right after I got off and they had halted their conversation as I walked past them. I hope they trip and fall over the railing and die. This is probably the 3rd or 4th time something like this has happened to me on the stairs.I hate being a mutt
Why did my parents have to make me? I am composed of two completely different ethnicities from across the world and do not have a connection to either of them. I have two stupid foreign sounding last names that are not related in any way and an odd first name that ironically enough has Celtic/Germanic origins. I am basically human slop, a little bit of spic, a little bit of Jew, a little European and some sub-Saharan African too. Nothing about my existence makes sense.rumination tips? (OCD/pOCD/etc.)
what are some tips to stop ruminating? i find myself getting caught on thought loops occasionally, especially because of obsessive-compulsive disorder.foids > transo peepol
last night I had a dream about hanging out with a friend I havent seen since 2025, who also is transo and we looked around the house while my parents were outside. this dream made me realize "holy shit I need to date women" because every second of the day is about this troon and this tranny and I AM FUCKING TIRED OF IT. I want to date a REAL woman and love a REAL woman and NOT pretend to date one.is this ego death?
recently I've felt very depressed, I feel like I don't know myself anymore. I feel hallow.nobaldi vent post
i spent two years trolling some 'cord and forum and now the absolute bottom-of-the-barrel freaks who run them are obsessed with me. i ran multiple alts and always had a vpn on, but somehow these literal schizos managed to pull my actual mobile data ip.i was careless a few times and leaked it.Can't get a job at 20 and feeling suicidal
I can't get a job because I don't have a DL, can't get a DL because I can't get a job. My family refuses to let me go to driving school. The only way that'll change is if I just be a NEET until I'm 25 (unhirable without experience) because then I won't have to get a DL.Should I dump my gf?
The GF started smoking a ton of weed today because I didn't pay attention to her for 5 waking hours and she isn't knowledgeable or cultured on anything, she only likes really bad movies, podcasts with whores and shitty pop music. She also can't go more than 10 minutes without looking at instagram and youtube shorts and argues daily when she gets too comfortable with me. She is obsessed with becoming famous even though she does nothing serious towards that end. Her main pasttime other than these things is sitting there with me expecting me to entertain her or sitting there in a shitty mood and expecting me to make her feel better even though it's impossible. I feel like I learn way less and go out less because I have to talk to her all the time (we live apart and she visits me every so often for a few weeks at a time). She recently failed out of medical school immediately after getting in because she is retarded and has a 3 second attention span, and because of that she won't even be able to see me in person when we thought she would be able to.share a fun intimate moment!
since from what i hear it's adults only on this site now, any chuddies want to share a (fun) experience of theirs during sex?dealing with tragedy
help me deal with this, please.Is it okay to be slow?
And when i mean slow i mean in stuff like understanding concepts,understanding punchlines to jokes,school work growing up and most things in my life. And the thing isThe normies' genetics cult theorem
I noticed that despite real self-improvement actually being possible in every field of human capability in the modern world, you still have normies shilling it and shaming you if you do it. I distinct the real self improvement, the kind that is enough to change your destiny, such as iqmaxxing or looksmaxxing, from ineffiecient things like gymmaxxing or outright cope such as "be confident bro". Whenever you bring up things that actually change your destiny, an npc nigger swarm mobilizes to either tell you that it doesnt work despite mountains of evidence in favor of said self improvement method or ouright shame and call you names if the efficiency of a certain method cant be denied. A good example is a looksmaxxer called Androgenic. If this guy just popped into youtube in the form he is now, normies would be meatriding him to death, but since he showed his journey and showed that he actually changed his destiny, he is radioactive to normies. Anyone who denies the role that they were given by genetics is automatically a blasphemer in the eyes of the normies. This goes both ways: if someone naturally good at math abandons this field and goes on to create music, for example, he would be called out and encouraged to do the thing he's supposed to do, while someone not naturally good at math will be clowned on if he tries hard and denies his destiny, and if he makes it and matches the level of those who had a headstart in this field, normies will say that they actually encouraged him all along and deflect critisism using his example.Am i retared?
I feel really detached from people, of course im still nice to them and i try to be polite but i don't feel any comradery towards them. When i help people its because i feel disgusted by them or because i feel some sort of hatred for what they represent and i want them to change.STOP MAKING THESE THREADS
If I see anotherThe femoyim are gay
Immature foids are very quick to accuse you of being gay because she is projecting.Why do i miss her
I kind of miss my ex, even if i'm in a new relationship. Sometimes i just get reminded of her, and i get some kind of feeling, it gnaws at me from the inside. My relationship with her wasn't anything special, and it kind of just lasted through out the summer. It was a situationship to be honest. I wasn't really treated that well. After she threw me away like yesterdays trash, we didin't talk for 2 months, and one day she reached out to me, sent me a friend request on instagram. I remember it vividly, i was playing l4d2, and my phone buzzed. I saw the notification, but at the same moment a tank spawned in. Both those things caused me to hyperventilate, and i think i almost fainted. For the next 3 weeks she really tried to crawl back in to my life, saying how she misses our friendgroup and all that. A little later she found out about my new girlfriend. That discouraged her a bit , but she continued to try and grab my attention anyway she could, and ultimately gave up once i blocked her on instagram after i couldn't take it anymore. Tho, to this day she still does weird things. I was playing a game, saw i had a spectator, and the only person online on my friend list was her ( i forgot to un-add her, and i did after ubsae what she was doing). Maybe a day later i saw her on the street. She did say hi but she looked really miserable. My friends and i do usually clown on her for the way she acts and what she does, but somewhere for what ever reason, i still care for her. A part of me still likes her.How do I move on and stop being a fag
My girlfriend broke up with me the same week my grandma died (like a month ago) and it sucked. I started taking this kratom 7-oH shit to avoid thinking about anything.Take the BVLL pill
So I've been dealing with this strange habit/coping mechanism lately where whenever I feel effeminate or low confidence I just start masturbating to cuckolding porn but importantly I only ever self insert as the bull and try to find only videos from that pov. It's actually worked pretty well. The thing about confidence is that it literally improves everything else in your life. You don't have to go through some stoic mental gymnastics to reduce your sensitivity to pain and discomfort because those things just happen naturally. You don't have to worry about what's right and wrong because your testosterone and drive to dominate will take care of that for you. Your mind doesn't wander and lose its train of thought because the only thing that matters is your superiority. I feel more intelligent and experience a level of mental clarity that I never even expected to be possible. It just feels so natural. For context, this is coming from someone who used to be so porn addicted I could only get off to the idea of being a gay bottom. I've even penetrated myself with various objects to fulfill that fantasy,and used to self insert as the cuck in that genre of pornography. Now I've taken the reins and find myself wondering why it ever felt so wrong? It feels like my body is finally doing all the work for me. It's not even that hard. Once you fall into the groove of valuing yourself first and wanting to dominate, you don't even entertain the idea of failure. It feels like living in a dream that just never ends. Someone slap me awake before I become a psychopathic narcissist.nofap megathread
making this because the board is always flooded with these anyway. i need advice because i am stuck in the most predictable loop and it is ruining my head.I feel like death.
I have nowhere else to vent about this because I have no person to listen.no more gooning (blog)
alright, i keep relapsing so i'm making this thread as a reminder to stop.st. paul le GOOD?
i've been looking into the bible after having a bout of skepticism towards the second half of the new testament, mainly centered around paul. i understand it is understood that he saw Jesus in a vision on his trip to damascus with a few unnamed witnesses to the event which caused him to renounce judaisim and embrace Christianity. while i would like to take him at his word, i find issue with the fact that the testimony of these witnesses isn't included in the bible and we have to rely on paul's word alone. i'm wondering if any of the Christians on this board can give an explanation for why his account is taken as seriously as the other apostlesWomen are Gayer than Homos, SNCA probably.
Since literally middle school (im in college rn btw), I have seen more and more instances of girls who are either fixated or straight up obsessed with gay people or gay sex. It genuinely irritates me to no end. When i was in 6th grade, there was a girl that I could only describe as a protopoon who was possibly the most annoying female-adjacent creature walking the earth. All she talked about was fucking tranime, and how she loved the idea of her favorite male characters being Homos. I had no idea about my self identity so lowk she was almost like a friend to me because I was a sperg loner until like 8th grade, but she literally referred to us once as looking like fuckbuddies, IN MIDDLESCHOOL, and that was about all I remember of that because my poon sensor kicked in and made me steer clear. Every other girl who liked anime from middle school all through highschool had a similar thing, exept not so retarded and abbrasive. If they weren't talking to other faggot-loving femcel autists about how obsessed they were about their gay fanfic crushes and how wet it made them, they were fantasizing about poons and gaylords in every other form of media. Its as if every girl who manages to dodge healthy male interaction from ages 12 to 18 instantly becomes obsessed with watching two twinks eat shit out of each other. Obviously some girls were more annoying with this shit than others, and I generally get along with and can hold conversations amicably with gays and lesbians and trans ppl, pretty much everyphono, but god damn when they can't shut themselves up about it i get like retard cortisol spikes.blogpost
I fucked up. I didn't really think much of it so I kept taking more and more LSA and doing it more often, and I felt nothing these past few months.sperg whining
>wait for the right one to come along broWhat is this feeling?
I dont know why but I feel like im falling behind in life or something, like all of my friends are either in sports, in honors, or have girlfriends meanwhile I just doomscroll on the internet, play video games, and jerk off. I have always felt alone even though I have friends and a loving family (I rarely talk to my friends outside of school so that may be a factor) and I have no skills. I know that im young and I still have time in me but I think my teen years are fucked, God knows what awaits me when im an adult.I have an IQ of 101, am I a super genius?!
So I had recently gotten a type 1 autism diagnosis and part of the aftermath was getting a proper IQ test to see what accomodations I would get, like it's not just a pattern taking quiz but also physical block manipulation and word association so I think it's thorough, it's much a relief that I'm not mentally retarded I'm just a foid deterrent and boomers hate that I don't stare at their eyes, but with the average IQ getting lower among Americans (I get that it's because of shit skin immagrants o algo) but does an average rating actually make me a modern genius? Like Einstein? I was always really good at tests but sucked at projects and taking instructions at work make me feel like a bumbeling idiot. Anyway I'd also be interested to hear ways in which you chuds excel in and areas you feel like a cacaThe BBC Unites All
Racist women were raised to believe niggers are wild dangerous animals who will rape them with their big dicks. However, rape is the most common fantasy of all women, and in racist girls' minds the two become inseparable. It's the taboo and the fear which drives the racist woman's secret lust for BBC.Nofap thread
The title is self-explanatory. I wouldn't say that my problems with pornography are excessive, however it's something that I still don't feel proud about and want to change about myself.Beards
People who have a beard or any facial hair shouldn't be taken seriously. You're wearing pubic hair on your face and it looks like shit. probably >50% of the people who grow a beard do it because they're simply too lazy to grab a razor a few times a week. The other groups not accounted for in the lazy retard category (although there's probably quite a bit of overlap) are as follows:My thoughts as a former incel on foid attraction (you VILL read all dis)
Something I've observed with women is that there are basically 3 categories of ways they are attracted to men, which I will list. The line between the points two and three is blurry with a lot of overlap, but they are distinct things.THE TIME FOR THE ZOOMER ROBOT COUNTEREVOLT AGAINST THE BOOMER SEXUAL REVOLUTION HAS BEGUN
Every Generation until the Boomers didn't pick their own partners. IT WAS THE PARENTS and specifically THE FATHERS the ones who had to fight the wife or the husband for their sons or daughters. This was especially good for young men, who could focus on themselves, instead of wasting time on the dating market. Then the boomers came with their free love, destroying the traditionalist patriarchical powerstructure which BENEFITED EVERYONE!!!! Its time for us TO SET IT BACK AND GIVE OUR JUSTICE TO THE BOOMERS and Gen X! I AM NOT GOING TO DATE ANY WOMAN OR PARTICIPATE IN THE DATING MARKET! That's what I told my parents. ITS THEIR RESPONSIBILLITY TO FIND ME A FUTURE WIFE! And guess what? THEY ACCEPTED! Every reactionary robot out there must do the same! Lets force the zoomers to reinstate patriarchy!ill relapse so whatever fuk my chud life
Im going quasi bhuddhist mode for a week and will be distancing myself from any forms of social media and vidya games for a week, and everything else except for my alarm app and anything work related. Basically im gonna try to unfuck my life, or at least attempt to. Because NGL i don't know whats gonna happen but i'll try mentaining a healthy routine and see what works and what doesent. What's for sure is that my base dopamine level will be lower and i'll concentrate more, or something. I should probably start my grand plan right now because its very late at night. See you in a week and wish me luck. Please.it's too bp-pilled
I can't stand being subhuman anymore. Every time I look at my face I see all the flaws, like my upper eyelid exposure, my terrible skin, my nonexistent ramus, dorsal hump.question?
how do imageboards get even big. Like i know it starts with a departing from a former site. Like how the 'cuck depart from SA and how the sharty departed from the 'cuck in the great soyset. But some others don't make sense like there the normal boards that get some popularity not to much like where do they advertise.im a kissless incel virgin at 18
when i think off relationships i always have an enourmus fear off being cucked because of my disgusting soyboy fatskiny body, and to be honest, what is the point off getting laid those days? getting your child aborted? sex that i also could get with a prostitute or robot even? get a housewife even doe i can easily take care of myself alone?so...tell me anon, when and how did (You) start browsing imageboards?
in my experience, i started lurking latinx imageboards as a zoomer because a jewtuber i used to watch introduced me to imageboards which in turn helped me become the person i am now. im still seething to this dayalone
Is it my fault I'm alone (and probably will be forever?) All the people who have girlfriends never tried to self improve they just got it from their genetics being able to attract women. I shouldn't have to try to get a girl its a game where i am a jester to attract women, like how it is in nature with some birds. Everyone who actually has a girlfriend didn't try they just got a girl attracted to them. None of the people who actually have a chance sit in bed at night and wonder if they will never have a girlfriend or never had A friend. I have to wonder all of this, I will forever be alone since in too neurodivergent to change."just ask out girls"
"just ask out girls" "talk to women dood"SSRI for Nofap
Thoughts on using SSRIs/antidepressants for help with nofap? I heard they drastically lower your sex drive, but also lower pretty much all other emotions which pretty much turns you into a normgroid.Anyone experience this?
I am weird, and will always be weird. I am not interested in anything or anyone. I have fallen from the heavens I experienced as a caca. Doing nothing but eating chicken nuggets and playing Minecraft clones on my tablet. Now I go to a SNCA community college to study SNCA fields to get a SNCA job to raise an SNCA family and die an SNCA human. I am not a person whose presence is appreciated or desired, despite me wanting that to be the case. I am eccentric, ineffective, cold. I cannot function as an adult and require medication to maintain my mental faculties. I waste my time on this site trying to get validation from every Scob and Chud while my grades are slipping and I have core priorities like sleep and basic hygiene to attend to. I do not have any friends. My relationship with my family is ok but it’s not the best. I love them, but the last time I spent time with my father was helping him run errands. He screamed at me until I cried because he was agitated over things that do not pertain to me. That was not nice. I mostly keep to myself because years of chronic depression has lodged a permanent disability in my psyche. Sure I can function on meds and perhaps imitate the routine of a ordinary working class adult, but I will never be the same. The acceptance of my subpar circumstances and personal failures, both within and outside my control, have handicapped whatever joy and virtue I can experience in this lifetime. Everything now is just a script, and free will doesn’t exist.SNCA blogpost
Life is amazing right now. Tomorrow I have two house viewings with my boyfriend, we are preparing to move in together and are now deciding on a house to rent. We’ve both been working our asses off from the age of 15 working and saving and now at 19 we can finally and comfortably move out into a small place. This is so exciting, both the houses allow pets so we are possibly looking into getting a kitten or rescuing an older cat from the shelter.Decided to write some more poetry
The primordial son flees full of sadness and despair,PLEASE RESPOND NIGGERS
So what the fuck am I supposed to do here? Everything has felt very existential lately like my consciousness and body are not one. It’s like I had some awesome ass past lives and this one sucks donkey cock. I take boring SNCA classes at a boring SNCA community college with no hobbies or friends to speak of. What am I supposed to do? Graduate? Then get a job? They probably get pressured to marry a woman that’s ugly because I’m running out of time? What the fuck? I live in an empty niggerhell life. I can’t think of anything positive to keep be going since I just repeat the same shit over and over again. I have failed so much in life that advice slides off of me like my brain is made of Teflon. I will never have the fun normalnigger life of smoking dope or going to parties where they blast nigger rap or experience teenage love and live in eternal blissful ignorance of the pedophiles satan worshipping Jews that control the world. Everything people use to cope is some form of a Jew piggyback riding you with a carrot on a stick, convincing you that every step you take gets you closer to it. My soul feels like it’s in eternal pain and wants to rope in order to get better odds in my next life o algo. I don’t know how to play these fucking cards.