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What keeps you going foward. Why dont you just give up

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He was a handsome young man. Now look at him. Uncanny and doomed to a life of troonery.

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I genuinely need help, last night I gooned to dross although I'm not gay

I fear the porn addiction will only get more and more degenerate and none of the porn quitting advice helped me

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why does my intelligence fluctuate so much
I used to be smart before but now I'm stupid I feel stupid slow brain fog most of the time but sometimes feel normal sometimes i feel like im very drunk cant do basic things cant read properly cant think properly but im not. am i retarded? i dont do drugs btw never did just got drunk a few times.

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Jew rant

I don't like being jewish, i completely understand why hitler did the holocaust and if not for the unfortunate circumstances of my birth i'd be the most antisemitic guy around. I'm not religious, but i did try and go to a synagogue to check out my community, and holy shit basically every guy over 40 looks like the happy merchant caricature and they're living human pieces of shit, i've noticed the more jewish they look the worse people they are, and they're all very rich as well.
I do find jews disgusting and parasitic, sometimes i feel like im the only one of (((them))) who wasn't born with unfathomable greed and devilish intentions. How do i form my racial views without contradicting myself? I'll never be able to unjew myself obviously, the ashkenazi blood will be in my veins, but simply siding with jews because they're the same people is really retarded.

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How do I stop being a faggot? I do find women attractive but men too, I want to become not a faggot finding men attractive. When I was 8 or 9, some older kid touched me and sexually dominated me although it wasn't full-on rape. I think that made me gay, you can see a huge percentage of lgbt people experienced such things. Homosexuality is a mental illness and i want to recover from it. The gayest thing ive done is sucking a dick when i was drunk, so im not extremely extremely pozzed hiv faggot, ive only sucked 1 dick so im not extremely degenerate and i regret thhat deeply and think of it was the worst mistake of my entire life.
And no im not baiting, i genuinely want advice to stop finding men attractive and undo the brain damage and stop fantasizing about men

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How do I look?

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those who are second-generation immigrants, how did you manage to learn your mother tongue
i didn't learn it whilst growing up and it bothers me a bit, i'm sorta blaming myself since i never really read any books or put effort into learning it
tho at the same time my parents never taught me it directly, just expected me to speak it ev&doe they spoke english to make me assimilate better

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Time destroys all things, don't waste it.

>22
>kissless virgin
>no close IRL friends
>no known talents
>no driver's license
>still technically haven't graduated HS
>homeschooled with no siblings

Though I'm introverted, I usually do fine in social situations, but as I get older and nothing changes, it feels increasingly difficult to talk to people without felling embarrassed. Every Thanksgiving when my family asks me what I've been up to and I tell them nothing, it feels exponentially more humiliating each time.

I know I can still probably turn things around, but being this far behind in life is nothing short of a humiliation ritual, especially when interacting with your peers.

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A couple days ago i think i almost overdosed on DXM, i threw up a lot and such (showing certain symptoms of serotonin syndrome). But something feels very different then usual. i feel a sort of deep resonant depression more so then usual, and i cant seem to pinpoint why. Might be the dissociative effects or some related to the fact i almost died, but i feels deeper then that.
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Any words of wisdom?

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i want to make a post on here because pol is just not serious. if you aren't from western europe or north america move on. the question is, how do you feel about the so sudden change of demographics in our countries. it crushes me that the new world order loves it so and that no one seems to care. everyone i know is an atheist who doesn't even seem to care that they are alive. how long can we go on like this. its heartbreaking. i can't be around normies anymore, they are almost soulless. all the churches are empty, no respect for elders, alt-culture is encouraged. how do you cope with your homeland diseapering. it seems there is nothing we can do either. (((shootings))) and et cetera lead to nothing. everyone on here and xitter hypes up some big revival but i just see more and more decline every day. how do we cope? (i have hobbies).

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wordswordswords vent o algo

I have no other friends outside of this site so I might as well type it here

I'm at a point where i'm contemplating ending my life. I’m abused by my stepdad who consistently shoves and hits me, and insults me on a daily basis over the smallest shit. My mother witnesses it and barely does anything, she usually blames me for how HE acts.
>"well you should've just left him alone that's just how he is"

I don’t go out much anymore and I just rot in my room most of the day, I've become incredibly burnt out with college, and over the years I’ve lost most of my friends. The one permanent friend I did have, I don’t speak to anymore. It feels like every day is this permanent hell that I created for myself, and I'm at a point where I’m contemplating just overdosing and getting life over with.

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Today is my birthday, and I turn 19. It is a tragic day that only seems to worsen every year.

I am a failure, deeply unhappy, and [user was banned]
Even fucking though
- I have loving and supporting family
- I have many good friends who care about me
- I have a cute and caring girlfriend
- I do not worry about food, water, or finances
- I live in a nice house in a first world country
I have all the essentials that a normal person would require to feel happy, but nonetheless I cannot move beyond the thought patterns and doomerisms of a depressed shut-in.

Over the past year I made what most would call meaningful progress.
I exited a three year NEETing phase, got a GED, and signed up for the local community college. I gave mental health treatment processes another try. I am again trying coping mechanisms (lol!), how to re-frame negative thoughts, behavioral activation, getting over social anxiety, etc. I started getting outside and exercising more. I learned how to drive and passed the license test. I stopped being an incel and got my first ever girlfriend, and I went on dates with her, and lost my virginity to her. I've been reconnecting and talking more to old friends.

I failed some of my classes, I get in fights sometimes with my girlfriend, and I'm not as fit as I would like to be.
But anyone would think it is progress at least. I understand rationally I am moving forward in life. At surface level it seems I am measurably making progress, getting better at life, and every other synonym for positivity you can think of. I think these are good things - but in reality, I don't feel good about them, and feel no better on the inside. I still lack greater purpose or meaning to live my life and get out of bed for. I have found no sustainable convictions to not just become (an hero). I do not feel happiness or fulfillment in my day-to-day activities.

I wonder if I even have the capability to change. I might have rolled bad genetics with an impossible win condition, and my brain is simply wired incorrectly - that I am not made to live a fulfilling life or experience meaningful happiness.
I have tried different treatment plans, different medications, different mindsets, different environments. I have tried tens of different extracurricular activities - sports, clubs, instruments, hobbies, jobs.
Nothing ever manages to stick. Nothing is enjoyable enough that I don't drop it half a year later. I probably lack a soul or heart. The machine has been built broken, with critical parts lacking.

I will keep trying. If I am still like this by my late 20's I will likely mysteriously-dissapear-forever-for-unknown-reasons. I have not lost all hope, but over the last year of my life I have lost some more - and it is highly probable I will continue to lose hope over the next year as well.

Happy birthday 19th birthday to me

Thank you for reading.

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Haven't masturbated in three months

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I WILL FUCK UP MY SLEEP FOR NO REASON

today i didn't sleep, and i thought it would be fun to stay up for three days, i think i can do it, will update but i'll probably fail geg

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where am i supposed to find foids to talk to? the ones at my university are all RETARDED and my hobbies usually dont attract people my age. have any of you ever cold approached anyone? how did it work out?

R: 3 / I: 0
talking to a foid for 2 months only to get ghosted

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is being a single straight male stigmatized nowadays or am i and every dude i like all at the bottom of every social hierarchy
are people projecting their degenerate desires onto me and assuming that im some kind of predator because i am interested in women

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I don't think I've masturbated a single time in my life. Is this a good thing or are there real benefits to masturbation (is masturbation reducing risk of prostate cancer true?) I'm worried that if I start doing it it'll spiral into an addiction.
And I know you can jerk off without watching porn. I will never watch porn, it's terrible for you.

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total foid death btw, reminder that they are subhumans who choose subhumans, this is why there is so much violent people in the world, retards (foids) mistake scum behaviour for superior genes. and then the scum becomes the elite and acks foids and becomes a problem for normal humans (normal males).
>muh uh foids dont choose you!
no, i dont choose foids, i choose 2d animeGODS. why settle for less, when there is literally perfection?

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how many of you cacas have homicidal thoughts

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would you have a boymoder bf/gf if they loved you
i think i would
yes i most definitely would

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Does anyone else here have good genes in everything and is just kind of a sperg

Im tall white with an average face good frame and 6.2 hard i just need to stop bring a sperg.

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tell us some interesting stories from your ancestors/family history

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where the women at i need one.

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Dudes will genuinely be 300lbs, retarded, stinky, dont floss, broke, tasteless, cheese pull when they take out their airpods, but still pull because theyre preselected and have a perm or some shit

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My mom was scolding me and I said she's obsessed with me and bbc

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What did you guys achieve this week?

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Is this man aryan?

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life really is over once you hit 18 (unless you are chad)

i have scoliosis and slightly fucked up knees + hip (its all is connected) and doctor told me that treatment would have been possible while my body was still growing but now that I am biologically mature the best they can do is prescribe me some exercises that will keep the pain in check


currently still in denial and will get second opinion (some people grow until their early 20s after all haha …)

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Robot Test

ITT we do the robot test

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Friendship

I want so badly to have just one true friend. Here I can find fleeting moments of connection with some of you but it will never compare to the feeling of having a lifelong companion whom you understand deeply and love like a brother.

Recently I have been reading Tolkien and it has lead me to understand just how lost this sort of friendship is. They have been almost completely erased from our culture, and don't even let me start on the bastardization of same-sex relationships. Everything is secretly gay now. The world is so focused on romantic relationships that every other kind of relationship is neglected and becomes purely transactional or for pleasure. In tLoR, friendship is something so integral and beautifully written, it hurts so much to think back on my own life and remind myself that I may never see this kind of love. This is all just fantasy and virtually impossible in the modern day. I will never endure such a hardship that leads me to form these bonds and it will not happen naturally because I am socially inept. In some ways, Its not my fault. Modernity has trained all of us to care pick gratification over virtue and most of us almost always will.

Despite all of this, part of me is still optimistic. I see many people complain about the same things I do and it gives me hope that I may find one of them. If you have a similar experience please tell me.

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how to quit masturbation. i can quit porn and have done it for years at a time before. i know can quit porn anytime and i am only mildly addicted but what is the point if i am still cooming. i want to quit for religion, btw.
i hate it

R: 3 / I: 0
working and socialising is absolute hell
i would rather spend my whole livelihood living off neetbux, playing video games and watching anime than to accomplish anything

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My father has been in the hospital for the past 2 weeks, he almost died after throwing up blood, if my mom hadn't found him he surely would have died. He has needed his leg amputated and only recently began breathing on his own again.

Today I came in to sit with him with a little while, and he is awake now but incredibly confused. On top of that, his voice is gone and he is constantly out of breath, so it takes him a long time to say even a simple sentence.

Anyway, today he called me over and began asking me some random, inane things. Though clearly due to his state of delirium, I let him speak. He said something about a hotel, me giving him my number, and something about going back to a room. After about 10 minutes, I realized in horror that my own father did not recognize me as his son, but thought I was a woman he was flirting with, or a prostitute.

My life is a never ending hell of humiliation.

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anyone here write in their spare time? like journaling, poetry, storytelling etc.
just as a hobby or to pass the time

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spergmaxxing and commandomaxxing

most autistic dudes dont engage in basic hygiene and are fat chuds and most autistic women wont tolerate that. I feel like if you self-maximize and pursue autistic women you'll have better odds than the general population. Assuming you're an honest person.
<unrelated space
I know a dude who's 5'4 and commandomaxxed, i think he's an airforce cadet, very fit and competent and a leader. He gets uppies from his 6' fiance and the rest of you are 5'10 worried about being too short.
<related space
most of you cant fuck on account of 4 factors which looks and height won't fix
1. soyciety made it difficult
2. you are a selt-pitiful chud who chooses to think bad thoughts (other people can tell and will avoid you, this can't be masked, you need to give yourself peace, real ones know happiness is a choice)
3. you are autistic (blackpillnuke, statistically this is worse than being crippled and retarded)
4. you are afraid of consequences (which is fair but if you never climb the tree you will never get the banana)
<
if you are a young man you should go on an adventure and put shit on the line. Don't be normal or waste your time. We are entering an age of heroes and of devils.

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ritalin + mcat maximum drug user

hi /r9k/
snorting some ritalin
already high on mcat
talk to me or ask me questions or something…

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This is ATHEA.

She is the goddess that the athiest people worship in their religion.

Say hi to her via prayer anytime!

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Spamming boards with gigas is nigger faggot behaviour

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The way people treat politics nowadays is completely backwards.
Normally, it should go like this:
>Philosophy is acquired first, it explains moral values and pure political ideas.
>History is linearly learned after that because to understand the motivations behind all the historical events you must understand the ideas that caused them
>Politics, as in current day political news and discussions, comes last since it's the continuation of everything that preceded it.
But in today's society most people start off with politics. It's pushed everywhere because people will judge you for not participating in it. Conclusions are reached based on emotions and social pressure rather than actually thinking. Unlike learning philosophy, it's easy and rewarding to repeat political ideas because of the social applause you get from it. That's why people get indoctrinated so quickly into political ideologies. Some might delve deeper into history (and again they'll probably go backwards on it by starting from the modern day) but without proper understanding of philosophical ideas and logical thought, they will look at it through the lens of their adopted political ideology. And then they finally look at philosophy but once again they will likely use it just to reaffirm their already believed viewpoint and ignore ideas opposing it.
The reason people don't notice this is because it makes them feel like they're getting smarter by going deeper while all it does is solidify them in their false conclusions.
Examples:
>clittycel watches a vril edit on ig reels
>starts watching nazipilled vids on youtube
>looks at history trying to find jews and based germanics everywhere
>joins the nazi network to find other wholesome natsocs
>gets recommended and reads exclusively the authors like nietzche or hitler or smth
<foid hears something about socialism from one of her friends
<starts watching breadtubers on youtube
<fills her tiktok feed with commie 'ganda
<looks at history trying to find the burgerois and based proletariat everywhere
<gets recommended and reads exclusively authors like marx or engels or smth
And no, I'm not different than this. I also fell for this trap, hence why I'm on this website. I'm just sharing this thought I had to maybe give some of you a reality check.
^posted it on r9k award

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Do looks actually matter? This is a genuine question and I don't want it to become a BP thread

From what I've seen looks do matter but not so much as people say they do, most people would overlook your looks if youre likable if charismatic and entertaining, what i think this whole "looks matter" thing is about getting a girlfriend/boyfriend and whatnot, ive seen normal looking if mediocre guys have girlfriends (doebeit by societal standards theyre ok), like average height guys who are shorter or the same height as their girlfriend but not so short

i think what matters most is the face tbh but im not sure, what dk you think?

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The reason you're not accepted in society isn't because of the jews, or the foids, or whatever other group you want to blame, it's because you're a sperg. I'm not going to act like society isn't super fucked right now but that isn't the main reason for our problems. You can alter society as much as you want, change culture, faith, the economy, or whatever else, but it won't change the fundamental fact that normal society will never accept us.

Does this mean you should turn into a blackpilled faggot who whines about his life all day? No. You can still pursue success and improve your life, but you should always do this with knowledge of who you are. Your experience is not what 99% of people will have, and you need to learn to adapt to this instead of constantly complaining about how difficult life is.

No matter what don't fall for the schizo bullshit you see online, the idea that everything bad in your life is part of some heckin psyop to specifically target you is a coping mechanism. The NWO certainly exists but it's not going out there and altering everything in life just to specifically fuck over you, people still live good and productive lives in the modern day, no matter how much the algorithm wants you to be a doomer.

Lastly, do not hate the normies. Obsessively whining about how people don't like you isn't going to solve anything, their views on society are their own and they understand us no better then we understand them.

Next time you want to write up some schizobabble about how society is a heckin humiliation ritual, take a second to think about whether or not this is a problem non autistic people will actually face

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uni foids topics of discussion seem to boil down to a few things:
their immediate surroundings
their next plans to go out and get passed around
how chad won't reply to their texts and is so toxic
reinforcing the socially acceptable run-of-the-mill tiktok slop psyop for this week

i swear, none of them have greater motivations exceeding upholding the social dystopia we live in, only men have the capability to go further than these surface zones

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fuck yes i got £500 extra leftover from my gib-me-dat loan from uni
what should i spend it on

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rant about family

personally i've never felt close to any of my family members, parents included
when people talk about hanging out with their family and making it their main reason to continue living, i can see it from a logical point of view as to why they do (having consistent, caring parents who actually gave a shit about your development, involving their lives around you) so of course they have great attachment to them
as to mine however, it's a bit less affectionate
i moved away from my native country when i was one so i only had consistent contact with my parents and sister, however my parents constantly fought and separated about 3-4 times, before finally divorcing when i was 12

i struggle to remember a lot about my upbringing, but i can summarise my direct family in this sense
my father was pretty aloof and not engaged with me at all, legit the only things i can remember is him letting him drive his car one time when i was 16 and helping me with homework a couple times, he gave child support and hung out with me at weekends for like a few hours, but i was essentially tagging along to chores and people he had to meet for business purposes/collecting shit and my mother who pretty much raised me was a narcy bitch who lost her shit like once a week, and had mood changes from the smallest things and always ranted on about "teaching me life" and "my parents did this (usually beatings) when you did this, consider yourself lucky you ungrateful rat"
i had probably hundreds of arguments and shouting matches with my mother over SNCA, and i had always seen her treat strangers a lot better than i did, people always said that i was so lucky to have a mother like her which always gave me whiplash
my sister, however i feel a bit guilty about considering i don't know much about her, apart from her failing education and sometimes did hard drugs to cope with her life circumstances and was raised with me, tho i never actually bonded with her a lot like a brother usually would
as for my extended family members, i barely knew anything about my grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins etc. though i sometimes think about the life i could've had chilling with my male cousins and just enjoying my youth with my family playing minecraft and whatever

im 20 now, and just recently heard that my uncle died and i didnt really feel anything when i heard this, now i feel like a sociopathic piece of shit but it just feels like im forcing myself to care about it. once i'll be at the funeral i'm going to feel so fucking weird about it, just like how i was with my grandparents' funerals

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retarded faggot cant do college

im close to fucking breaking
im in a eurofag college i never wanted to go to with my fucking parents breathing down my neck, I hate what im studying i never wanted to go to college in the first place I genuinelly feel like such a looser typing this into the void and each every day i feel myself inching closer to ending it all slowly. the goypills only do so much to block my intrusive thoughts.
I have dreams and aspirations im constantly working towards and no matter how hard i work i get constantly told ill never be able to do it and should just be happy with my complacent faggot life under the thumb of some nigger i probably will want to kill after 20 something years, i know im not special i never will be but im sick of bottling this up.

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i goon to futa ama

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phasic vs tonic dopamine

phasic (fast release) dopamine: novelty & quick pleasure. Porn = gambling = doomscrolling = hard drugs. These things are inherently the same.
tonic (slow release) dopamine: motivation & desire. Going on a walk, eating something healthy, self-maintenance
The more phasic (addictive) activity, the less tonic (motivational) activity and you won't feel motivated
<What do?
Before doing complex work (writing, studying, problem solving), stare at a wall for 20 minutes. Minimal stimulation. If it feels uncomfortable, it's working. This will put you back to your baseline understimulated mental state and it will be easy to work. After a few weeks of this practice you will make progress with your ability to focus. You should commit to it for at least 30 days.
When you take a break, don't scroll. Go for a walk or something.
And never goon

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how does the gooner pipeline go?

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so im about to finish my first year in electrical engineering and im probably going to fail, so im considering dropping the course and swapping to a humanities subject like human geography or politics for next year
i honestly do not enjoy the idea of working in STEM, the amount of mathematics and physics im doing makes me bored out of my mind and i really dont care about circuit design

i guess i chose engineering since i didnt want to take a meme degree + my parents pressured me into it and im just doing what my dad did, but my fav subjects in school were history, geography and politics
so now i just feel like i wasted my time and took out an extra year of debt for nothing

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those who interact with a lot of gen-z and people, is it true? that there is a “great awakening” and that people are slowly becoming more conscious or at least aware of certain politics and algorithms being pushed by a certain groups?
the other day in my gym i passed by two uni students talking about someone “getting funded by big yahu” and peoples views on israel when in a safe, non economic effective space is that of slightly negative, and that they shouldnt have influece over uk/us politics as much as they should, and that politicians are incompetent

now, this may be due to me only using insta (no tiktok, shorts, snapchat etc. only use whatsapp or discord for the lads) as my main form of socal media, but i keep seeing and hearing about restore UK. im a bit hopeful but again skeptical, just like how i was with reform. obviously the main issue that presses everyone in the uk is about migration and keir stalins inadequacy to deal with it
plus due to the fact that everyone “knows” what a chud and all the other internet lingos WHICH ORIGINATED from our sphere, makes me feel a bit unsure about everything as to if any action will be taken, is it all just a normie larp?

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stopped hanging with autist

not sure if anyone remembers ages ago but i posted about making a friend in the gym who is an actual autist and didnt stop talking about ancient rome and is also a instacaca racist (he threw out nazi salutes during halloween)
the dude is absolutely insufferable to be around and is a ticking social suicide time bomb, every time i was out with him in public istg he always did the most socially unconventional things and interacted with so many random students at our campus when he wanted to hang out
he just couldnt stop talking about jews, i even made w comment about the jews livng in his head rent free (haha) and couldnt stop talking about racism and ancient Rome and all the esoteric larping shenanigans

truthfully i think he was just a friendless autist during his upbringing so he just latched onto these things, absolutely tanked his social awareness skills and shit
now it completely beckons me as to how he has so many other friends and shit but im guessing its because of sheer volume and how much he interacts with people
but good god now every time i am around him in the gym out of coincidence i just try not to say or do much around him

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Whichever one of you faggots is this

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personal stories of online interactions that pissed you off

ITT: personal stories of online interactions that pissed you off


>be me
>american
>use NewGrounds
>see a post comllaining about age verification laws which effect the site
<if you dont know NewGrounds has a lot of porn but also the ability to filter out porn, which is enabled by default, as it should be in my opinion
>some, what I can only assume to be, boomer liberal faggot future mass grave occupant is talking about how this is all the fault of "teh evil MAGA" cult members
<side note a democrat put in a similar statewide law for my home state
>I say in response somthing like "most of us who vote republican are just choosing the least bad option, the democrats take our guns and raise our taxes, the republicans do annoying shit but yk… we can still have our ability to defend our selves"
>then some other bullshit is said about "le heckin fox news fear mongering" then… on NewGrounds? of all places
<NewGrounds is very pro free speech
>the liberal then says something about "of course you use steam(i have my stesm linked in my NG bio) you probably think censoring videogames is antifreedom of speech, do me a favor and leave me alone"
<I have been nothing but nice up to this point, in a bit i had left out i kindly explained my political veiws(Hoppian Libertarian)
<because they clearly didnt understand that people can be on the right and not 100% agree with the mainstream right wing party
>then they accuse me of being unable to get dates and watching Andrew Tate?
<they clearly went through my account so idk how they missed me saying I had a girlfriend in multiple posts?
>then also accused me of watching the quartering and "le heckin fearmongering"
<they brought up fear mongering a lot
>so then at this point i just kinda lose my fucking patients and decide to say all of my skitzo opinions about drugs in the water and satanic pedophiles and then call them a future mass grave occupant

thank you all for reading this bullshit

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I feel like I miss something in life, or someone in life in that matter, even doe I never met that 'someone'.

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told my friends im a faggot

I was chilling with some friends, we stayed up overnight and watched films and stuff, and one of the two guys who stayed started talking about his battles with porn addiction.
Unfortunately due to alcohol and THC in my system and tiredness since it was like 4am, I made a very bad decision and told the other two guys that I was struggling with homosexual thoughts.

At the time they both seemed fine with it and we had all sorta talked about personal stuff so I foolishly assumed the stuff we'd been saying wouldn't leave our circle.
However since then, one of the two guys has apparently been spreading around that I'm a faggot to other people.
I've already got a dm from someone asking about it. What the fuck am I supposed to do now? Do I just own it at this point?

>quit porn, repent to god blah blah
I've tried allat before and it has not worked

Anyway that doesn't change the fact that my friends know I'm a disgusting faggot.

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something something normgroid

Honestly at this point I feel better being a normgroid then isolating myself to an imageboard about bald men with glasses. I don’t care if muh hecking kikes control me I’m trying to focus more on my real life situation than internet bullshit. Tired of being chuddy.

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i do gaba so mi aryan skin whit overdozerovka

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foids > transo peepol

last night I had a dream about hanging out with a friend I havent seen since 2025, who also is transo and we looked around the house while my parents were outside. this dream made me realize "holy shit I need to date women" because every second of the day is about this troon and this tranny and I AM FUCKING TIRED OF IT. I want to date a REAL woman and love a REAL woman and NOT pretend to date one.

R: 2 / I: 0
been thinking a lot about missed opportunities in school
a few jb's were interested in me at the time but i was too socially awkward and shy to pick up on it
and a few friendships faded out purely because i couldnt pick up on queues as naturally
a little bit pissed tbh

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i was about to have a wet dream but the girl told me to wait 15 minutes cuz she was busy then i woke up

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giggers you missclicked, this is /r9k/, not >>>/qa/

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A note on looksmaxxers and BP in general

Image is related

No idea where else to write this as realizing i essentially have no friends who i can relate to, but I have realised that being obsessively interested in the lookism circles the manosphere/pills of the internet, progressing from the redpill "hustle" and "grindset" sigma culture to then the blackpill and lookism since 2022 whenever that raisinty mewing and sigma shit memes blew up, from the youtube circle involving initially hamza, tate, fitxfearless, to then fitxfintess, to then WW, FaceandLMS, to then IncelTV (rehab) and DBDR, made me realise that "yo, i might actually just be autistic and insufferable to be around"
Like, honestly if i met another person who shared my similar "interests" or similar backstory, and they actively follow these people, I would be subconciously be thinking that "jesus, this fucking guy is a loser lmao" or that if i met another soyjak.party/4chan user irl i would feel disgusted being around them.

This is going to be a bit of a ramble but being involved in these circles has provided nothing but making me cynical and jaded around people, it makes me nearly non-functional in my workplace knowing the psychology of why some people act a certain way around others (lookism). I feel like I've poisoned myself and lost my childlike wonder knowing that a lot of human interaction is based on subconscious calculations and measurements of "normalness" and how much a person can provide certain benefit to each other, which is why i just do the bare minimum at my wagie cafe job and barely have to interact with customers outside of necessary pleasantries.

Anyway, what was I saying? right, my main point is that interacting within these niche internet circles doesn't really provide you any good (unless you actually have access to good networking opportunities or have a severe physical disadvantage, that of which you CAN solve with plastic/bone surgery) and most likely if you have discovered these circles on your own volition, its a sign that you are just a social reject and making up for lost social interactions by interacting with these extremist sub-cultures.
Normal people don't obsess over "social skills" or "game" or "Looks". They just live life and have fun connections with others without questioning themselves all the time.
So go out and live your life.

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how hard is it for modern gen-z women to not be obese
jeez
will have a 1000x better dating life than me doebeit

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there are many foids who, succumbing to peer pressure, where skimpy clothes and sports bras in public against their better judgement. Then if a man speaks to them, she assumes its so he will try to hit on her, and she gets angry. When you ask how many sets she has left, she just glares at you.
>WHY ARE MOIDS SUCH CREEPS TRYING TO TALK TO ME WHEN IM CLEARLY IN MY UNDERWEAR

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Is it normal to be constantly misanthropic and hate interacting with people? outside of the internet i generally do not like being around others
i feel like people constantly look down on me and treat me like im a stumbling moron, so i do the bare minimum when im forced to interact with cashiers, strangers in public areas and whenever im in the city, whenever i have to go there for errands or studies etc.
I can’t be bothered going to societies or any extracurriculars, and i think im generally a miserable person to be around

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Why is there so much tranny "art" but no mainstream art on the other side (except MDE probably)? It upsets me that we are not the ones making cool shit.

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grey pil is arianester then blackpill you blackedcells

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umm, guys?
what in the earth is happening?
what with the sudden gigachad spam eh?
well, i join because its kinda funny i guess..

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introvert

>Going to the store
>Many people
>Womans
>Scare
>Leave the store
Yes, I'm an idiot

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hi hi hi drug addict foid here on r9k how is it going !!! i love abusing prescription meds like stimulant adhd meds… how shoul di get help?

Pic is sum art i made in gimp on lots of acid :))))

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where do i find an evil manipulative woman like this

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Background Character #Ϫ3

I know this probably won't come off as relatable to most of you, but I feel that I waste so much of my time online trying to connect with people when I know that, fundamentally, it's a futile endeavor. I'm not going to list any identifiable characteristics or names, but I've namefagged, avatarfagged and gimmicked around on multiple different boards (r9k excluded, I'm not that much of a fag), on multiple different websites, just to achieve nothing. Fundamentally, I still feel separate to other people no matter how hard I try. I oftentimes get these thoughts in my head that I'm not human, that I'm a supreme being above everybody else or an animal so far beneath them depending on my mood. Although I prefer my status as a background character in real life, a plus one for others and just another face in the crowd, I sometimes wish that it weren't so online, since the internet is the one place where I should truly be able to truthfully and meaningfully express myself, perhaps even to the point of establishing connections.
<preddit
I viewed the opening of SoyBooru's forums as a new opportunity to take another swing at making myself known, perhaps even establishing some shallow connections, but I gave up after a week following some particularly vexing feelings of shame, inadequacy and hopelessness at my own failures. I know it's stupid to think that something as minor as responding to people or earnestly engaging in a thread about a controversial topic with people I don't know already is too daunting a task for me, but it's quite true. I've tried different chatrooms, different imageboards, different hobbies, but I still somehow always feel as if I am sitting at somebody else's lunch table with somebody else's friend group, one I am not a part of. I have "friends" in real life, although I don't really want to refer to most of them as such, as they're only people I get along with because we share classes together and I know how to act in their presence. It's nothing like how people are friends in movies or television, and I make sure to never act vulnerable or share some of my less normal interests in their presence. None of my friends trust me either, since I actively choose to not speak with or go anywhere with them outside of classes because I don't view them as worthy of my time and energy. Why is it that I can at least make surface level friendships in real life, but its so difficult to do so online, the one place where I can truly be honestly myself?

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is liking old internet aspects old fag dysphoria?

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I think my brain might be fucked. I’ve been feeling miserable for what feels like months for no apparent reason whatsoever. I can’t think of many big reasons as to why I feel like this. I have friends, generally good social skills, I’m not out-of-shape, not incredibly ugly, not too retarded, I don’t even live in a shithole country. What’s so niggershit about this is that I’m aware of all of it and ofc don’t want to be miserable, I just don’t know what to do to make it stop. I feel maybe I ruminate on thoughts, but even then it isn’t something I do consciously, and if I ignore the thoughts and distract myself I still feel bad afterwards for no reason. Another thing is that I think I might be scared of time passing or something. Sometimes I count the minutes as they pass, or the seconds in my head and freak out over wasting time ev&doe I usually have nothing to do. But even then I don't think either of these can explain why I've felt like shit. Fuck, sometimes i’ve had waves of suicidal urges, even though I know suicide is retarded and i’d never do it. It’s not even me thinking about killing myself, it’s just a feeling I can’t control and it fucking sucks.
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My life hasn’t always been like this, and I seriously don’t know if I just fucked my brain somehow or what cause I genuinely can’t think of any causes for this, it’s just slowly gotten worse over time and I just want everything to go back to normal.

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It's all white

>be me
>in ap anatomy class
>dissecting rabbit's digestive system
>shit is still in the colon
>partner is a foid and some boy that doesn't do shit
>foid doesn't want to help dissect or wear goggles eve&doe the teacher said so
>guy flirts with girl the whole time
>found the liver, stomach, colon, kidneys, and large intestine
>rabbit shit pellets and brown goo that has been chemically preserved cover half the atrophied stomach
>frantically look for the white spot for the pancreas
>find it because I asked the teacher
>teacher got mad and quit helping
>the spleen is attached to some random fold in titfuck nowhere smeared with stomach acid and shit
>can't find spleen b4 class ends because the white spot I am supposed to look for is masked by the stomach acid and rabbit shit
>foid complains that I didn't find the spleen eve&doe she didn't do a single thing

Why are women like this? Who signs up for AN AP course w/o intending to dissect an animal? God I hate group projects so much

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since i was probably about 7, i've spent almost every waking moment of my life in front of a screen. the addiction has gotten so bad that i can hardly even comprehend that there are worthwhile things to do outside of my computer. what do i even do at this point? i obviously know that it's bad for me but nothing else feels rewarding in the first place

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I hate being a mutt

Why did my parents have to make me? I am composed of two completely different ethnicities from across the world and do not have a connection to either of them. I have two stupid foreign sounding last names that are not related in any way and an odd first name that ironically enough has Celtic/Germanic origins. I am basically human slop, a little bit of spic, a little bit of Jew, a little European and some sub-Saharan African too. Nothing about my existence makes sense.

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I wonder what % of us are faggots

(picrel of rob halford cause hes a queer)

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A girl has called me super smart in my college classes multiple times we never talked before though meaning? Ive not been helping her or anything.

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They can drug me as much as they want but it still won’t solve me not caring about any job in the future and having 0 aspirations. Nothing excites me and I am unable to visualize a happy future for myself even when I’m medicated and not in a depressive episode.

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eds

Anyone here take SSRIS/Anti-psychotics?

For the past Month I've been on 2MG of Abilify (Ariprazole) daily because the thoughts in my head are too negative and they get too loud about embarrassing/cringy shit I've done in my 20 years of living. I guess an idle brain is the devil's workshop.

I feel as though I'm getting a placebo effect because yes I've been feeling better but I think my problem was solved moreso because I've been eating healthier and going on hikes daily.

Recreational drugs can also be discussed. Had my fun with them last year

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how do i stop being an autistic sperg hyperfixating on basic social interaction? sometimes i have these moments of enlightenment where the hyperfixation goes away, it always seems to come back though. Which is honestly even worse because i actually know how much greener the grass is on the other side.

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>latinx-nigger mutt (Dominican papi)
>fat manlet (1.67m 90kg)
>Probably autistic, can barely socialize with normgroids my age if they aren't autistic like me
>Only Foid that liked me enough to be my gf was a lesbian who used be me as a rebound then nearly cucked me
>Mentally ill
>Gooning addict since 9

I think about suicide daily

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Why do i have so much self doubt, that I’m like not funny enough or that i cant achieve anything. Like a weird mixture of ego death and imposter syndrome. I also feel like that i cant relate to anybody either, i still talk to people but its like a deeper connection cannot be formed.

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Hello /r9k/ i had this idea and i wanted to share it here to maybe get some other peoples view points on this idea/theory/philosophy bit.
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I recently bought 10in pvc pipe, cupling (to go with it), duck tape, and 50ft of paracord because i want to make a home made whip.
<well why?
Because i dont think that forgiveness of ones sins is as simple as asking for forgiveness, ive been making the same mistake for a long time and i think it would be easier to forgive myself if I put myself through some pain. And also because i think i just deserve it in general.
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No this is not like how women cut themselves they do it for different reasons then of what I’m doing it for, such as hating themselves, getting attention, getting pity and or approval.
Some reasons as to why i am doing it: as a means to aid in self redemption, also ive heard somewhere whips are used for self discipline i dont know how true that is but i can see in my case that it might help to be used in that way. I do not plan on sharing to people in my public life that i needed to put myself through a “purification process” nor would i want to. Most of the scarring (if any) would be on my back covered up. Another thing I do not hate myself as that is a illusionary cycle of self defeat, i hate the part of me that has allowed me to do sinful actions, and again i do not think that forgiveness is just some simple thing you do, it should be much deeper and respectful process more akin to redemption then that of “forgiveness”
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Let me know your thoughts and such

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Is this true nigger cacas?

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iron posting

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advice for mitigating swearing

Do any 'teens have advice on how reduce frequent swearing. I don't swear (mainly "nigger" "faggot" and "cunt") in conversations, for that I don't have conversations daily. I swear when alone, typically when driving due to how niggerlicious the niggers I have to share the road with are, today I felt bad, as I actually cussed someone out, when a cyclist failed to yield and got in front of me, forcing me to abruptly brake. I was so annoyed that I rolled down my window and shouted 'faggot' at them. Any advice/tips would be appreciated.

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Doomer is just the rebranding of loser. /r9k/ is the loser board.

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nubmer 1 blogposter

I practically sold my soul to get admitted a heckin' wholesome prestigerino new england college at 18 but would've been 10x happier just going to a local snca college back down south

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Just go to africa you dumb white niggers the women there will literally throw themselves at you if white all the niggers are short as well. When I went to Zimbabwe and South Africa I had good looking women getting their panties wet over me its a literal cheat code.

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Holy fauci just look for they/thems in online spaces and it’s an almost guaranteed a mentally ill woman who is attention starved

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I took ze meds

I was the poster about tips to stop being anxious a little bit ago (if anybaldi remembers) and I got on ssri's
<plebbit space
Also I took the advice and ive been sleeping more and trying not to go on bald man glasses website too late

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>bosnian oldfag
<huge SNCA leakage, I needed to say this somewhere

Kill all Boomers. TBD (Total Boomer Death).

I hate old people. They had life easier than we can even dream of. They retired by 60, some by the age of 50. Yet they waste all of it. Time, money and freedom is wasted on the old. They sit around all day, refuse to learn anything new for the last 30 years, keep watching their zog news and fuck everything up politically by voting for whatever the jew on the TV told them was the better choice.
Any good boomer died in their youth. I lost a great-aunt ~5 years ago, and never met my dad's dad. They were both hard working people, my grandfather died of a bad blood transplant and my great-aunt got cancer, probably from the stress of her useless children begging for money all the time. All the good boomers are gone. The grandparents I have left are the most stubborn, thick headed animals I've ever known. On my mother's side they have been screaming and fighting since before my mother was born, spent their entire retirement arguing with each other, and now that they are over 80 years old they decide to divorce. Because of these niggers being old as shit, my mother has to help with the online documentation, and I hate seeing my own mother, who is working full time at an age where her own mother was already retired (somehow retired at 40 btw), being stressed by this bullshit. Stress is the biggest killer. Anybody who works hard or worries for others will die young, and the scum will linger the longest like mold. They are killing the nation I live in, the UK, as well, they get paid more through pensions than the average working person gets from work, they eat all the medical resources, and it still isn't enough, the greedy oldfags want more and more and more and want the younger generations to "just work harder" to cover it. They aren't greatful for anything they have. I hear my parents struggle to get appointments for pre-emptive measures, blood tests, etc, while my grandparents complain about doctors wanting to check up on them too often. Kill all boomers. Cut them out of any healthcare system, let them pay out of pocket, then we'll see if they like it or not. Either way they won't leave any money for their children/grandchildren so at least this way they don't drain the state too.
They aren't grateful for what they had and have. They want more. They look down on those who are working harder than they ever did, and suffered more than them, telling them that they are lazy. Even their parents in the silent/greatest generation saw through them, they saw that they were a generation of spoilt, lazy people that would first push for the liberalisation of everything, accepting faggots and trannies, the sexual revolution, etc, and then once all of the policies THEY wanted were enacted, they tell us how the past was SOOO much better, and that everything has gone to shit. YOU did this you stupid old bastards. YOU messed everything up, yet you want us to look after you until you reach the age of Ϫ00, draining those younger of them of their youth like vampires. They act like children, they can no longer do basic actions without help, they think like cacas too, but unlike cacas they have lived a gorillion years and should know better by now.

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I keep procrastinating on texting this one foid I met in college
I was planning on texting her in January, but now its April
Is there anything I should Do to break this cycle of procrastinating and actually text her?

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Last night i had dream that i was doxed on the sharty and people hanged 'jaks on my house/

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Ever since i had 2 epileptic seizures in 2024 i have just been suffering. I live in the middle of fucking nowhere. I couldn't work and i am stuck living with my parents in a hoarder house. I got my license back last month but i don't even have a car and nobody will hire me. FML i am 23 and 2 years of my young adulthood are just gone

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4chan is down again

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hello 'teens. all my friends are lefties and retarded/blind when it comes to politics. they dont know im very right leaning or how much i despise browns/mudslime migrants. i really like my friends though, so much so i almost consider them family. im scared they'd disown me and look down on me.

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Why are modern men so cucked?

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Does anyone else struggle with being an irl soyboy? Meaning a man with no masculinity and a complete consoomer. Im probably the least mascuiline man ever, faggots and trannies have more balls than me. I have no mental fortitude and strength to quit my addictions and bad habits, im too mentally weak to work towards my goals. Not only that i have negative testostorone, no capability of aggression and im scared of everything, and i cry often. And im a huge consoomer of goyslop, not only that im racially stereotyped as being feminine and weak, my brain is strong in ethnic/racial self hatred so that gets to me like a soyboy.
my body looks like picrel despite me eating like a pig

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'teens i need your opinion. I am a virgin despite having a gf before and i am not a fan of short relationships and that kind of bullshit. However i am getting too old to be a virgin and i fear i will embarrass myself when it matters. I look good enough (and im tall) for the ugly girls to approach me themselves. Do i just go on tinder and just accept that beggars can't be choosers and go fuck an ugly bitch and finally get that shit off my chest or do i keep searching?

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When was the last time you cried?

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I kind of just fuck with my reputation for fun
I've doing this since middle school and its probably hurting me
Everyone thinks I'm crazy
But whats the difference between a sperg who carefully manages his reputation (and inevitably fails) and a sperg who says crazy shit all the time

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Narrowly avoided huge faggotry

Just going through r9k and im now realizing ive basically had a strong attraction to a foid thst isnt purely sexual. A good chunk of my freinds are either faggots or foids and as a caca i loved troonslop like undertale and if it werent for my older bros i legiteimately think i would be a plebbit "silly cars :3" nigger

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How many dates it took (you) to ask her to be your girlfriend? I am pretty sure she likes me just need to time it right

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tldr; im imagining fake negative things in my head because my brain is addicted to negativity and i want to stop.
Is anyone else's brain so addicted to negativity that the brain comes up with imaginations containing very negative scenarios that upset you?
And those imaginations are not tied to reality at all, its not something like worrying about money or career or politics, or something worth worrying about.
I have nonsensical hypothetical imaginary scenarios often. I wont get into detail but its something like being in some imaginery world in some wilderness and there are a bunch of people there and they hurt me or socially exclude me, this makes me feel the sensations of rejection, humiliation, bullying and loneliness that my brain keeps playing over and over again, sometimes if its extreme those people start attacking me physically because of how much they hate me, and since my brain comes up with such scenarios those imaginery people know my worst flaws and sins, insecurities and generally everything bad about me so their words hurt me deeply. And I'm not crazy or delusional, i 100% know that these are just imaginations and not real at all, but that doesn't stop me from feeling sad and crying from those imaginations. I know how stupid all of this sounds, and I really, really want to stop having these imaginations, but I can't; my brain is addicted to the whatever brain chemicals get produced from me feeling intense feelings of self-hatred, imagined violence and gore, exclusion, rejection, loneliness and general sadness.
I think my biggest problem is intrusive thought rumination. The cure, I think, is mindfulness and staying in the present moment, but I'm mentally too weak to do that. I'm thinking that pills will really help me, but going to a psychiatrist sounds scary, and pills might be expensive in my shithole country.
I would be at so much peace and happiness if I stopped having these imaginations and I could just focus on living my life, appreciating the beauty of the present and working towards building a better life.

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wordswordswords o algo

Long story short I think I was misdiagnosed with autism.

Since i was a kid i was told that i have autism (high functioning) and there were those weird plans for assistance in school because of that etc. but recently i've been thinking about it and the "symptoms" i have barely match up with it at all. I don't have the usual retarded symptoms and issues of an autist and i've never really felt that different from others around me. The only real setbacks for me are with anger and procrastination

Best guess is either i have adhd or no obvious condition at all, but idk and i'm trying not to overthink it. I guess i could try to improve on my current issues doe.

>snca speaking to a wall o algo

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Howdy soyteens, been awhile since I've been on the Jarty.
Thought I could quit, I got a girl, and she thinks its not good for my health.
But the Jarty never rests, and I never needed much sleep anyway.
Apologies for my soyspeak being rusty as a paintless steamship drifting in the Dead Sea.

How have y'all been Soyteens?

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No women are attracted to women all women are straight and lesbians are all pretending.

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I think I might kill myself soon. I already tied a noose. I'm going to see my doctor but I doubt he can help. Maybe they will institutionalize me if I tell them about my plan.

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This is my reaction to me reading your crappy blogposts

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Am I being schizophrenic?

I think for the last several months I’ve been talking with AI more than actual human people

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I spent all 4 years of highschool on my phone talking to retards online in class instead of getting a good gpa

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This my first serious post on this board and I thought I'd start off by sharing something that I kinda need to get off my chest and has really weirded me out since it happened.
<preddit space
Basically, I woke up this morning (well, actually it was in the middle of the day, but whatever) from a very odd dream I had.
The dream goes as follows, or from what little I could remember…
<preddit space
It was me in a room alone with a woman, whom I perceived in the dream to be French (don't know why). From what little was comprehensible in the dream visually, we sat at the edge of what looked like a bed and she told me she had been informed by a friend of mine of the details of my personal life and that she was sorry that I was going through such a rough patch.
<preddit space
The remainder of the dream from this point I can't adequately describe in order of how it happened, but after she had told me this, she hugged me or consoled me to such a point that she had noticed how her words and actions affected me, and saw I was on the verge of tears. She then comforted me by telling me it was okay and rested her head against mine, to which it felt like in the dream a stream of tears fell down my face afterwards. This was followed by her kneeling down in front me, and from the dream if felt like she was ready leave the room, but before she did this she told me it was okay and trusted that I was wasn't going to do anything rash after she leaves.
<preddit space
She then left the room and I was left there on the edge of bed alone and proceeded to facepalm and breakdown.
<preddit space
Now, I've always had very weird dreams that I can't explain, like ones about having sex with your mother or little fairy-like creatures flying into your penis as a child and making you orgasm (at least the latter is probably exclusive to me only). So it's not the dream itself I really care all that much for, it was my reaction after I woke up from it. After I had awoke, I tried to at least ponder on the dream and why the fuck I had it. When I spent enough time thinking about the dream, the woman in it, me crying and breaking down at the end, I quickly started to get a lump in my throat, and afterwards started to have my eyes water. I then said to myself "this isn't a big deal, why is this affecting me so much", almost as if I had started to feel emotions that were out of my control. This eventually led to me fully sobbing and a stream of tears falling down my face, probably the first I had cried in a good while (not saying im some kind of badass or something, but I rarely cry or really even get in such a state). When this happened, it honestly felt like it was forced on me, like it was out of my control, something happened in that dream that was so powerful that it forced my psyche to turn the waterworks on after I had simply wondered what it meant, whether I liked it or not.
<preddit space
Anyway, that's it, it just was a very weird experience and I felt this board was the appropriate place to rant about it.
(call me a faggot and all that other shit, I would expect nothing less :))

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im on day 24 of nofap right now, but i have to wonder, when will i stop feeling sexual/romantic attraction to subhuman roasties of the lesser sex?
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today i woke up with a strong morning erection which is something i haven't experienced in at least a month, although i don't exactly know what caused it. most sexual "fantasies" i conjure up in my mind are ineffectual in making me aroused, even if they are tailored to my specific fetishes, and i quickly tire of them. i already have a pretty low libido/romantic drive to begin with, but sometimes when i see a specific female who is present in some of my classes, i feel a light romantic inclination towards her, which i know is irrational and retarded, given that i will never be able to truly love and have romantic love reciprocated to me in turn. maybe i should settle for tulpamancy, but i dont know. i don't like the idea of letting a demon live inside of my head, even if that demon looks and sounds like pinkie pie. thoughts, soy9ksisters?

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Is it okay to be slow?

And when i mean slow i mean in stuff like understanding concepts,understanding punchlines to jokes,school work growing up and most things in my life. And the thing is
never really realized that im slow until like 2 month ago. The really weird part is that I've never been diagnosed with any disability like autism or dyslexia so I may genuinely be retarded and honestly I feel like shit knowing this probably can't be changed

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I think my friend is a psychopath, he's genuinely a completely different person around everyone he knows and he goes through girlfriends like nothing, he "knows" probably like 100 different people but I don't think he's true friends with even 10 of them. he once told me and our other friend that he doesn't feel empathy for anyone not close to him but later went back on it. he used to be ugly and unpopular but he had a "glow-up" of sorts and I think that caused him to crave appeal, he just wants people to like him because he never really had that before, I think the reason he's so affectionate to all his relationships that barely last 2 weeks is because he enjoys seeing these women vulnerable and dependent on him just to cut it off. he also makes fun of people as soon as its acceptable to the other people around him, I don't really know what to think about it and really its kinda funny to me but I wanna know what you guys think.

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oh no no no no, /troon9k/ what is this raisin?

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dreams

what do you see when you sleep?

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What did you googoogagas achieve this week?

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i think the priests daughter likes me what do i do
And whats with this pattern im noticing of priests/pastors daughter throwing choosing signals to eccentric spergs
Am I being deceived
And one of the homies said the priest would have too high standards for my retarded self to live up to

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Desperate men exist?

I'm a femcel and I don't think they do exist. My ex boyfriend from soy was desperate for me at first but then he realized I'm severely autistic and ditched me.

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What do I do with my free time?

Me personally I just play videogames, go on this website,go on tiktok or ig, and maybe jerk off but I always feel unfilled and I tried quiting tiktok but I literally had nothing to do but watch tiktok geg

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Hey guys, just wanted to give you an update on Lindsay.

Lindsay now absolutely refuses to clean up after herself at all. She still refuses to use the toilet which is fine but she NEEDS to clean up after herself. Other than that she is an amazing roommate and we all really like her but this is really becoming a problem. Our boyfriends and girlfriends don't even want to come over anymore. She says it isn't a big deal and that we're making a big deal out of nothing. She says she doesn't tell us how or where to use the bathroom and it isn't her problem that the rest of us just happened to agree on using a specific place to shit when we met and that having roommates means having to make compromises sometimes and putting aside our differences to keep peace in the house and that everyone is hanging up on her.

I went to the shop where she works and from talking to her co-worker it seems like she doesn't behave this way at work or I assume he would have said something so I don't know what her deal is. She refuses to actually discuss this. She doesn't know this yet but Josh is considering moving back with his parents in Wisconsin.

I got along with Lindsay right away when we met and is a super close friend but this is making me wonder if our friendship will even last. Thanks for listening again you guys and I'll keep you guys posted.

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Happy birthday! Oh yes I am certainly ready to do it! July 8, 2003 I am pouring it right now and it should be ready soon. I can see both sides and it was a very weird lottery. So! Okay. Well she's about to come on gotta go watch those niggertits flop around and support ol' paddlebags. Good luck, everybody!

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Am I fucked? I have less than 1 real month of school left and I have 1 person who I think I will realistically still be in touch with after it ends.

I have a couple "friends" but they're more just people I orbit around to stave off boredom, there isn't a connection. I had 1 other close friend until last month but I had to cut him off for exposing himself as a psychopath.
Nobody seems to dislike me but basically none of them will go out of their way to talk to me either.
Since I'm socially inept, what are some aryan hobbies to distract myself with. I already do things like play vidya, read and go outside, give something interesting.

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Redditors are such retards. I've seen so many posts like this where some whiny little fuck hears something racist, goes on reddit, everybody tells them "(((REPORT IT TO THE UNI)))" and then they say they actually will. This person trusted you enough to let them know that they think jeets are inferior people (Snopes checked facts), they have 3 weeks left, and now they want to destroy their entire future because of it.

I'm aware this is stupid and that I shouldn't spend time on plebbit in the first place but its crazy there are goys that are like this, and that probably go on to say that they believe in free speech.

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what the fuck is this board, i thought this was for robotics FUCK YOU

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Rate my day

8:15 wake up
8:15–8:45 brush hair/teeth, get dressed, etc.
8:45–9:15 breakfast
9:15–9:45 GOON
9:45–10:15 cram for class
10:15–12:00 class
12:00–1:45 GOON (coomed)
1:45–2:00 grab bite of lunch
2:00–3:30 class
3:30–6:15 GOON (warming up out of refractory period)
6:15–6:45 dinner
6:45–10:15 GOON (coomed)
10:15–10:45 shower
10:45–12:00 watch anime (currently WataMote, yes how appropriate, IK) and YouTube vids on Chinese history

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Evil Peas

I ate 4 bags of the Kasugai wasabi peas in one afternoon and it messed up my taste buds for about a week. I couldn't taste anything on the front of my tongue and it felt kind of rough. Please be careful. Also, I used to eat the Taiwanese wasabi peas a lot, but after this experience they taste like nothing to me; I think I have messed up my wasabi pea sensitivity. Despite this, I still eat both kinds frequently.

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How do i deal with the fact that i was born a fucking jew, if Hitler would have just finished the job i wouldnt have to be a discriminated minority. I hate myself, i face actual racism and bullying at my school baaically everyday and my parents are refusing to move to israel because they are russian soviet boomer patriots. I go online and get offended at antisemitism there like a fag, i cant live without the approval of others since i was raised to always give in and avoid conflict. I am taking meds because it would be actual niggerhell without them, but i dont want to, i want to feel happiness and fulfillment instead of nothing.

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My gf of 10 years came out to me as trans and has been recently transitioning to a boy. She doesn't want to get rid of her pussy though so it it gay if I stay with her?

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I wish I was a normie

I wish I could enjoy sportsball
I wish I could enjoy more shows and movies
I wish I had siblings
I wish I didn't get filled with anger when seeing couples of a similar age as me

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How do I stop gooning to tranny porn? Seriously, when I get the urge of watching porn, I atleast have the intention of watching straight porn, but in the end I always end up watching jartycuck tranny porn garbage.

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People think Im gay or asexual for not expressing my sexuality or something
But I never felt welcome to
I dont understand what people want or expect me to do
I believe this is why Im a 'cel

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The absolute fucking state…

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The normies' genetics cult theorem

I noticed that despite real self-improvement actually being possible in every field of human capability in the modern world, you still have normies shilling it and shaming you if you do it. I distinct the real self improvement, the kind that is enough to change your destiny, such as iqmaxxing or looksmaxxing, from ineffiecient things like gymmaxxing or outright cope such as "be confident bro". Whenever you bring up things that actually change your destiny, an npc nigger swarm mobilizes to either tell you that it doesnt work despite mountains of evidence in favor of said self improvement method or ouright shame and call you names if the efficiency of a certain method cant be denied. A good example is a looksmaxxer called Androgenic. If this guy just popped into youtube in the form he is now, normies would be meatriding him to death, but since he showed his journey and showed that he actually changed his destiny, he is radioactive to normies. Anyone who denies the role that they were given by genetics is automatically a blasphemer in the eyes of the normies. This goes both ways: if someone naturally good at math abandons this field and goes on to create music, for example, he would be called out and encouraged to do the thing he's supposed to do, while someone not naturally good at math will be clowned on if he tries hard and denies his destiny, and if he makes it and matches the level of those who had a headstart in this field, normies will say that they actually encouraged him all along and deflect critisism using his example.
What are your thoughts on this?

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Is it bad that I enjoy smelling bad?

my room smells like feet and my mom complains often

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is Faggot edating acceptable just as a fling, not a long term thing, just to keep eachother "not lonely"?

Its treated like a relationship I guess but we probbaly both know it isnt long term just to keep eachother company, and are attracted to eachother but im not sure if thisll be a long term thing

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Fuck this shit board

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I like smelling bad when I goon

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I dont want acne

How do I get rid of acne its making me insecure and look like a troon.

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I turn 20 next week and I still don't have a gf

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Good Morning, Have a Good Day

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vaping has suppressed my appetite so much that i can’t finish a full meal anymore unless i have one meal a day. I make sure to eat balanced meals so i’m not lacking on vitamins and nutrients. i’ve lost a bunch of weight and look pretty lean now, i used to be very insecure about my body but not anymore. vaping looks gay as fuck but it’s cheaper than cigarettes. i save money on groceries, i feel energised, i love my body. shoutout to nicotine.

only thing is that it tastes disgusting. i only get menthol because sweet flavours make me want to puke. not saying you should start vaping… but i feel great. and before anything is said, no i have not and do not experience withdrawals. i can go days without vaping if i need too and have no major cravings.

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I feel talentless, I want to draw, I want to know how to code like my friends do

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Living in France as a North African is pure suffering. My sister is the ultimate BWC slvt and she refuses to even look at an ethnic man. She gets away with it because we are from a special Berber ethnix group so she looks basically white while I am just stuck looking like a shiskin.

It's gitten so bad that I have unironically developed a massive cuck fetish. I cannot even walk to the local gas station to grab a snack without the universe mocking me. I will be standing in line and see a WMAF couple laughing together and it feels like a physical punch to the gut. It is everywhere I look and it never stops. Every time I see a white guy effortlessly mogging me I feel a mix of intense rage and pathetic excitement. It is over for me.

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The closest person to me ever told me I was bad at one of the few things I thought I was good at

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I wish I didn't have to participate in soyciety

I wish I could just spend my life on the sharty

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How do I stop being a hypochondriac?
It's really fucking exhausting

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Everyone else has a Drivers liscnese but me and i cant stop myself from procrastinating it

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I'm afraid of ending up like Asmongold. wasting away but never maturing.

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rumination tips? (OCD/pOCD/etc.)

what are some tips to stop ruminating? i find myself getting caught on thought loops occasionally, especially because of obsessive-compulsive disorder.
and yes, i was the one making so many of those repetitive threads a few months ago, sorry for that. i think the way my mind gets stuck on things causes me to behave that way

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I don't want to look effeminate

'teens I was looking in the mirror properly for the first time in a while and I realise my physique is really quite effeminate and kind of twinkish. I have been going to the gym for 2 years (1 year with properly targeted and consistent strength training), have taken up sprinting and running a month or two ago, and have done two martial arts (one for over a year and one for like 6 months). And I don't have a great amount to show for it. I have become quite slender (more than before). I have a pretty clear hourglass figure where my hips are past as wide as my shoulders(not that wide) and I have a slimmer waist than my hips. I also quite have thick legs and thighs and a round pretty big arse.And I don't have much definition on my physique. And I'm pretty tall which exemplifies the slenderness. It's not that I'm not strong (I know I am) but I don't want to really do nonfunctional training and a lot of what I do requires training a strong lower body. Doesn't help that I have thick and long lashes and a small mouth. Anyway just frustrated that I just have to wait potentially years for the training to develop me more. I don't know what I can really do about this that doesn't derail my training

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To stop gooning keep busy all day go for a run do some calisthenics play a game learn a nigger language like Spanish make sure you are tired when you go to sleep to not relapse

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Wich minority do (you) actually hate (besides troons obviously) ? Also give me some reasoning because most minorities, well atleast racial minorities differ much in behavior and can’t be caricatured like a tranny who follows a strict ideology. Ofc generalizing is heckin bad but I want to laugh at chuddy opinions

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why are they like this?

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Why do women do this?

I was walking up the stairs to my dorm and there were 2 women ahead of me. Since I always go up 3 stairs at a time I had to pass them since foids always walk really slowly. Anyway when I got off the stairs I heard the two of them burst out laughing and I am pretty sure it was because of what I did since the laughter started right after I got off and they had halted their conversation as I walked past them. I hope they trip and fall over the railing and die. This is probably the 3rd or 4th time something like this has happened to me on the stairs.

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https://www.youtube.com/shorts/YhDvGRZYOl0
Why do (You) give "weird girl" a try?

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I’m vantawhite but my penis is a bit swarthier compared to the rest of my body am I going to die?

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The entire by song "juicy" by mtunes has been fucking ruined for me because of my mom

My ma used to be a prostitue in a shitty neighbourhood, not the Bronx as in hood niggas everywhere, but you could go to the local park and see some tweakers and maybe a homeless teen

If not done in a car/motel/bush/there house it would be done at my house, my house was a fucking deathtrap, mold, rats, hording problems, but we couldn't find anything better.

I never really went outside as a kid, it was too dangerous and a maze, also my ma didn't know how to raise a child, she was the living definition of young at heart, she essentially refused to grow up, she still has this "2000's Young adult diva" attitude, so me and my brother had to teach each other how to grow.

One day at home, she'd brought one of her "friends" and went to her room, she'd loved r&b as a genre so she played some on a shitty Bluetooth speaker to mostly act as a "silencer" of sorts.

My bro was at his school, whiled I'd watched SpongeBob on the tv cuz 2010 Nickelodeon and shit, anyways 20-ish Minutes later.. I started to feel hungry so as a 9 would do… I would go to Mama's room to ask for food.

Dumb fuck didn't even lock the door, so I'd went in and guess what, sum bro lookin like a black Jesse Pinkman cowgirlin my whore of a mother, all while juicy played in the background, I'd simply closed the door and went back to tv in stunned silence, a short minute later, the dude leaves, and my ma never even said anything or try to consolidate me, while later my bro comes back and she acts like nothing even happened, though he'd knew something was off.

It's kinda hard for me to listen that kinda music without thinking of that moment, most of my life has been shit, a lot of stuff that I don't really care to go into here, but if this post does well I might post some more stories here.

I still that hope that things will get better, I'd just needed to vent.

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nothing ever fills this hole inside your heart.

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haiii hai hai hai haiiiiii

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If I doxx myself will someone show up to my house. I need friends

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i have a dilemma, no this is not bait, i’m genuinely reaching out for advice since this board is good on their nofap and anti porn stuff.

but yeah, i’m a foid. never revealed it on this board and if i ask for advice on here i usually just lie and act male. i’m moving in with my boyfriend and i have a porn and masturbation addiction and he doesn’t even know that i watch porn. i don’t really know what to do because of course we are sharing a room/bed but i have an incredibly high libido that he can’t catch up with all the time. and as soon as he leaves my house i start instantly jacking off because i never finish from sex and it literally “blue balls” me and leaves me unfulfilled and horny for the remainder of the time that he’s over. i don’t know what i’m going to do because im never going to finish during sex and now i can’t really masturbate or watch porn because that’s extremely embarrassing to get caught doing. i’m scared that im never gonna be able to have an orgasm again because of this whole dilemma but also knowing me my porn addiction will probably take over and i’ll watch it locked in the bathroom. idk i know this is weird and gross but i need advice desperately.

BYA: yes im a girl
i have asperger’s
yes my boyfriend knows i use the sharty, we bonded cause he uses other altchans too.
neither of us are normgroids

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Whoah…

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Things puberty didn't give me:
>a manly voice
>thick facial hair
Things puberty did give me:
<ass hair
<chest hair
<armpit hair
<a fucking jungle around my dick that I have to cut constantly because it grows really fast and when it's grown out it starts sweating and stinking constantly
FUCK YOU, nature. I HATE YOU. And for the record, I'm 22 so it's already over for the voice part and I probably won't have a good beard until I'm like 35.

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Blud ts so tuff

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Make million posts about foids NOW

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Does anyone here have an inferiority complex?
I often struggle with the idea that I am subhuman. Both physically and mentally. I am always tired, always lie in bed, can't exercise. I tried going to the gym for a year but made 0 progress. I was going 3 times a week and pushing myself to the limits.
Mentally I feel retarded. I feel like I am much more stupid than everyone around me. Mostly due to the brain fog. I also think I have low IQ even though I did well in school as a child and took part in many maths competitions. The couple IQ tests I took online all show >140 IQ, but it's probably extremely inaccurate. Now I am struggling with study. I am in my last year of school (jannies I am 18 already) and I have completely given up studying because of how difficult it is for me. So it means I will most likely do terrible on my exams.
Also it happens that I am from eastern europe and I have a belief that my country is full of inferior, weak people, and I am one of them.

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how do i stop being so anxious

ive been freaking out for no reason and I just wanna know if theres any other options besides taking ze meds (ssri's)
<reddit
Im usally not an anxious person but i havent been sleeping and i get paranoid about shit

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Being the poor/flat girl has shattered every ounce of confidence I might have ever had.

I went to a rich school due to a technicality with the school district boundaries and when everybody started growing their boobs I never did. It was like literally no boobs just nipples.

Also since all the other girls were rich they would come back from Christmas break or Summer vacation or hell even a three day weekend with bigger/better/bouncier/more boobs and wouldn't stop bragging about them so I felt even worse.

Eventually everybody started treating me like I'm retarded and not my own age because of my small chest. Even when I was 17 everyone else was treated like this big, bouncy and boyant boobs woman while I was this boobless little bitch.

So in the class picture I am there with no boobs surrounded by other girls who have two or three huge ones bigger than my entire face!

I hate being the "flat Patsy" everywhere I go. Ladies, get huge jugs while you can so you don't waste years of your life like I did.

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>foid adds me
>She's a chud, extremely racist, and white
>notices I'm not white but is okay talking with me
>wants me to go meet up with her and be her bf
<REDDIT SPACE
>another foid adds me
>turns out shes a lonely pooner not on T yet
>she has bpd, autism, ocd and is white
>does not even look that bad for a girl and is skinny
>wants me to go to her country and fuck her brains out when I get the chance and be her bf
<REDDIT SPACE
>foid adds me
>don't talk to her much but she's started randomly posting pictures of herself after adding me
>she's posting about the things we talked about
>also white
You know, I couldn't even have a gf due to my job but now even if I was able to, I don't know if I want one because picking one of them would leave the others out and it makes me feel bad.

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Social approval is the only thing that motivates a large portion of the population
Facepill beats the heightpill but foids are still looking for the tallest male around because it increases their status among other foids
For males, sleeping around increases social standing, they do it because it makes them look better among other goyim
These people do obviously bad shit like drink soda all day and watch goyvision because its socially expected, surrendered their soul to the zeitgeist. And then question me for not caring about goyvision and going out of my way to spend money on slop because its le normal.
All of my friends have become addicted to zyns because getting a nicotine addiction is trendy even though its literally just cancer and spending with no upside.
I feel like I'm the only one who doesnt care about Disney, anime, or trending video games. Its apparently unheard of to not care about games or tv shows.

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Has anyone else been seriously stunted by helicopter parents?

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is this ego death?

recently I've felt very depressed, I feel like I don't know myself anymore. I feel hallow.

I feel like I am not myself anymore. I go to school and I have people who I am friendly with but I still feel absolutely alone, like I can never relate to this people, they all care for their short term pleasures and other shit I don't care for. And I feel like I'm wearing a mask out of some weird primal fear of social rejection, and so subconsciously I've created a fake person that interacts with everyone at my school. But I would also say that there is a true side of me but it feels lost like its hidden somewhere deep in my psyche, even now where I am alone in my room, it doesn't seem to come back. Is this ego death or is this something bigger?

this is a cry for help, I have nowhere/nobody else to ask for help. and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I feel numb

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nobaldi vent post

i spent two years trolling some 'cord and forum and now the absolute bottom-of-the-barrel freaks who run them are obsessed with me. i ran multiple alts and always had a vpn on, but somehow these literal schizos managed to pull my actual mobile data ip.i was careless a few times and leaked it.

even though that usually points to a completely different city, they’re claiming they know exactly where i live. these freaks have nothing but free time, but i'm 99 percent sure they can't actually dox me cuz i take opsec pretty seriously and i live in europe.

also the idea of being doxxed isn't even what scares me, it’s just that i accidentally left enough of a personal silhouette for them to actually target. now the attacks feel way too close to home because they aren't just yelling at an anonymous user anymore. it’s honestly depressing and it makes me feel like complete shit.

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Can't get a job at 20 and feeling suicidal

I can't get a job because I don't have a DL, can't get a DL because I can't get a job. My family refuses to let me go to driving school. The only way that'll change is if I just be a NEET until I'm 25 (unhirable without experience) because then I won't have to get a DL.
It has gotten to the point where I'm genuinely suicidal. There are food shortages because my family is so retarded to the point where they spend d all their paychecks as soon as they get them.
It's to the point where I'm considering suicide because it feels like all I could ever do is consume product, get excited for next product, shitpost here and then off myself because my life will not get better.
Please somebody just let me know anything I can do about this. Please just tell me if there's a way for me to get a DL.

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i think i haven't felt genuine happiness in years. i hate this world and myself, but despite the people that care for me idk if i can't tell anyone about how i feel. i just don't know what to do man

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I'm a bpdemon who hurt and pushed away the few people whom held me dear, including my gf loved me and was way too patient and gave me way too many chances. I am all alone all day every day, and the only reason I didn't do what I want to do is because I know my parents would be devastated even though we don't get along most of the time because of my short temper and irritability. I fucking hate this life.

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"just put yourself out there"
Its kind of a catchphrase for normies but i just realized i dont know what it means
I have no idea where to meet women (much less how to escalate without another dude getting in my business)
No arrow I look like that

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how is everybaldi doing today?

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How do i deal with ethnic self hatred, recently discovered im 1/8 jewish and i cant even go to israel since i do not qualify under the law of return to leave my shithole eastern european country. My whole life i held antisemitic beliefs and they stuck around. I cant accept who i am, i constantly think about it and get in a bad unproductive mood, what do i do 'teens.

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>the release from chains and the turning away from shadows toward the images themselves and toward the light, this is the ascent from the underground into the sun, toward those animals and plants there, and toward the brilliance of the sun, which dazzles so that it is hard to look upon, but the reflections in the waters of that which is divine, and the shadows of true beings can be seen there, rather than looking only at the shadows of images cast not by the sun, but by some other such light — another compared to the sun
This is what happens when you go outside and stop gooning all day on your computer nusois…

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Just finished my FUTA goon sesh AMA

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Should I dump my gf?

The GF started smoking a ton of weed today because I didn't pay attention to her for 5 waking hours and she isn't knowledgeable or cultured on anything, she only likes really bad movies, podcasts with whores and shitty pop music. She also can't go more than 10 minutes without looking at instagram and youtube shorts and argues daily when she gets too comfortable with me. She is obsessed with becoming famous even though she does nothing serious towards that end. Her main pasttime other than these things is sitting there with me expecting me to entertain her or sitting there in a shitty mood and expecting me to make her feel better even though it's impossible. I feel like I learn way less and go out less because I have to talk to her all the time (we live apart and she visits me every so often for a few weeks at a time). She recently failed out of medical school immediately after getting in because she is retarded and has a 3 second attention span, and because of that she won't even be able to see me in person when we thought she would be able to.

Should I get over her and dump her despite being attached to her or is there no point because all women are like this, so if I get another gf it will just be more of the same?

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share a fun intimate moment!

since from what i hear it's adults only on this site now, any chuddies want to share a (fun) experience of theirs during sex?

the reason for the thread is both laughs and reassurment for those amongst us who havent yet done anything, and are stressed about it. lord knows it could have helped knowing how silly and stupid it can be when i had my first time. there is so much negativity on the internet in general about this topic so let's keep it positive!

i'll start: during my first time i was stressed out as hell since neither of us had done anything before, and i had trouble getting hard. it was a rough situation for me and my self esteem, and she saw that and she js decided to say something along the lines of the jews projecting a goybeam straight into my neurons to reactivate my primal foid-hating chud instincts or some shit like that. i laughed my ass off and while i still couldnt get hard, i ate her out for a full hour and thats the most fun i've ever had

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dealing with tragedy

help me deal with this, please.
my gf was raped when she was 5-8 years old. because of this, she developed BPD.
i was her first kiss but i had to leave the country, so i cant rake care of her anymore.
Yesterday she ignored me for a full day and i exploded and said some.. nasty things about her.
i think about her (and her uncle) day and night. she told me before i blocked her that she decided on suicide (she has 2 attempts).
Help me. Im on the heights of despair. I want to die.

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im going to be honest i made the thread as bait within 30 seconds of thinking of it but i do have some
>heckerino lore for my 2 hour video essay
for the character
tldr abused girl that grew up in a bad neighboorhood, but also a sperg and terminally online unable to connect to real people around her, gets mildly groomed by 765 type 'cords, before staying on imageboards & forums more brimstone than this one before -ACCKKING from unresolved mental issues. What should i add to the story of mentally ill self hating black girl nazi?

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its not a problem, this board was good but since quote fucked the site this board was left with the most retarded people ever but whatever, i haven't posted in this site since january anyway

maybe im just a schizo, which i probably am since i have mood swings, but i dont even feel anything at all, i dont feel happy but im not a depressed faggot loser who cuts himself, i could tell a lot of stuff about my life but i just have nothing to say honestly

i live my life normally but sometimes i think of doing stuff to at least make me important, i guess i'll die like a loser nigger who's gonna just get stabbed by a bpd girl

that is all

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How do you guys decide when to ask on a date on dating apps? I lost my chance with a really cool girl because i asked too soon

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My 18 year old sister's room is just across the hallway. Whenever she talks with her friends she yells very loudly and I can hear almost all of it. Right now she is talking to her friend, who is a 14 year old girl, about sex. I specifically heard her say "You have 3 bodies at 14!" as a good thing.

What the fuck is going on? I feel like I'm fucking dreaming. I have such an urge to protect the youth, and here my sister is participating in this debauchery and corrupting such a young girl. Meanwhile I have no friends and no girlfriend. So while I'm not slaving away at my wagecuck job, I have to sit in my room and hear this. Just wretched.

I hate her and I hate this world for being so evil.

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Jesus was not a jew he went against the rabbis and jews that did stuff the old way. Talmud call his a demon in hell burning in excrement. Muslims also want to call him that because they lost geg and their prophets is basically a ancient Diddy and likes little kids. Like Muhammed made Aisha clean semen like this is the 2nd most followed religion. Jews also work with mudsliimes like in immigration like how jews send mudslimes with 91.3 iqs to europa to "BTFO" the europeans even doe europeans can btfo 100000 mudslimes.

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theres no life after high school, you become a blue collar worker, get erectile dysfunction and die.


too any nusois still in high school reading this enjoy your last days. Because beyond graduation its over. Once your an adult no women would like you and your body will start rapidly deteriorating before you know it.

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Hello fellow 'teens, before I start: Yes I am a retard and this is not bait, I am just kinda confused.
<Plebbit space for effect
I didn't watch porn or masturbate for about 4-5 months and now I find even thinking about porn of any kind of it revolting (Don't ask how that happened)
but lately I've had a lot more thoughts about sex and general relationship thoughts, and I find those distracting and wrong. Maybe it's the goonerniggerbrain still being up or something
<plebbit space number 2
basically I am religious and I just want to think about sex and such stuff less. Any ideas, 'teens?

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I've heard enough anecdotes to believe that the young generation generally believes that you need to start stacking bodies in middle school
More sex = more social approval
Did pedos really groom EVERYONE
When God destroys the West I will not be surprised or angry

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how the fuck do i stop using my phone all the time? h

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/drug/ - DRUG GENERAL

What are (((your))) experiences with different substances, what would (((you))) recommend and what would (((you))) advise against?

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Thank you quote for rolling back the website, good night

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Hi /r9k/ how are you enjoying the nulog?

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Am i retared?

I feel really detached from people, of course im still nice to them and i try to be polite but i don't feel any comradery towards them. When i help people its because i feel disgusted by them or because i feel some sort of hatred for what they represent and i want them to change.
Some people at my uni consider me as part of their friend groups and keep inviting me to their activities but i just don't get why, i feel like my conversations with them are really dry. Recently a few of my old classmates from middle school and high school called me wanting to hang out again. They seemed to remember me in a positive way but i dont remember anything about them, i even forgot some of their names. Why do people like me but i dont like them? Is there any way i can be normal?

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i dont know what im going to do with my life, that is all and i hate my cousin

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>maybe I will be a real woman
i suffer from gender dysphoria
I treat gender dysphoria the same way one would treat any other mental illness, as something bad to be suppressed
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So, I want to stop suffering from gender dysphoria, can anyphono suggest me therapy that won't strap me to a chair and chainsaw my penis off and charge me 900,000 dollars?

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does anyone else play cs surf anymore and if so whats ur opinion on it and whats the hardest map u ever beat im genuinely curious and also do u listen to music with it or no

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has anyone tried finasteride? I can't do minoxidil because I have a cat? I'm currently like Norwood 2 at 18 geg

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STOP MAKING THESE THREADS

If I see another
>WAHHH IM FAPPING I CANT STOP FAPPING WAHHHH I CANT STOP JERKING MY TBP
thread again, im going to do something terrible to ALL of you niggers. This is such a fucking retarded ass problem, but most importantly a fucking NORMIE problem. Literally who cares what u r jerking off to unless ur swallowing turds in a woman's restroom, RIGHT about to troon out, or jerk off to actual children its all SNCA. literally no one knows what u jerk off to unless ur publicly advertising it and no people can't "sense" that u jerk off to porn unless u have one of the above listed problems. The average normie especially our generation (zoomers) jerk off to insane depraved shit, I think its pretty obvious from the (((memes))) that are on goycial media sites so don't beat urself up over it or lose sleep over it.
<seething space
I'm going to you why you are jerking off okay? It's not because you are some fucked up goontermensch who is addicted to porn. It's because ur life is fucked up and you have no direction and ur just going through the motions of living. If you have nothing going on, nothing to look forward to ur going to chase easiest most readily accessible dopamine hit (porn). You don't have to read some porn quitting SNCA bible and study it and do daily affirmations or write a fucking blogpost everyday on /r9k/ you need to actually do something with ur life everything else is retarded. There is a reason why most men have a "porn addiction" its because most people are subhumans goys that live for nothing besides instant pleasure. If you have a "problem" with porn you are like a pathetic ass druggie piece of shit I see on the street, in life there are MUCH more serious problems you should be worried like how you are going to survive or live on your own in this jewish economy. Please stop doing retarded ass things like no fap or joining an eastern orthodox hungrarian based trianon yugoslavian europoor christpilled church to quit porn okay? If you need to jerk off just jerk off dude who gives a fuck and PLEASE stop making threads about this shit these are problems only CHILDREN have which is like fuggen epi every time you make one of these threads.

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average foid match experience
>match with male
>post him in group chat
>fat feminist friends say he's the worst ever supposedly because hes not 6' 6 figures etc, but the real reason is theyre isolating the foid to manipulate her
>ghost after 2 messages
And the femoyim eventually become what the other foids are manipulating them into being, which is fat retarded and Chadsexual
They are controlled by social pressure, if you date a foid then mind who she surrounds herself with.

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Is it normal to watch cartoons made for little kids because its such an escape from all the negativity and misery of the world? Everything just feels so negative on the internet and in general, but cartoons are always so innocent and happy, and a good escape from all of this. You just forget about all of the world's problems and you're in this magic cartoon world where everything is happy and such, does anyone else relate? Not because im a sperg or anything like that

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urethra

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>Oh Chuddy, I love you!

Do you think you'll ever get to hear those words?

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how do I stop memory hoarding, I could just say fuck it and delete all the retarded docs I made but then I would probably do it again

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Is what I'm doing with my life weird? Am I behind everyone else?

I'm 18 for context
I just found out that my best friend had been dating some foid to "test" if he was alone of his own volition o algo. I was convinced he was equal to me in that he didn't have much of a social life, but hes been doing all that apparently, and after telling the girl he didn't gaf and insulting her she leaked. Before this point he nearly had sex with her, but he stopped just before doing it because they were drunk and he didn't want to risk it
Everybody my age seems to have done some sort of crazy social thing, or have shit going on in their lives. I'm not doing good at school because I can't push myself to revise, and otherwise I do nothing interesting. I go to school, i go home, i go to school, i go home, rinse, repeat ad eterna. Ev&doe I'm older than my friend I only just went to my first party with alcohol today. I'm a mid-tier white guy, ~6ft, so its not like im repulsive to people visually, and i probably have some sort of assburgers but its not severe enough that i can't make friends. My friend is probably autistic too, but the nigga told me he wants to spend uni fucking around. I thought he was better than this, but I guess hes the same as the majority then. I have basically only him as a "close" friend along with one other guy, but hes a lot more similar to me in his interests and isn't very social at all. I feel like ev&doe I try to be nice to people, I struggle to find others I click with, and I don't get invited many places by others. I don't think anybody necessarily dislikes me, more that they simply don't care.

Am I behind everyone else for not having a large social circle or social life? I feel like a subhuman after hearing that basically everybaldi at my school has had some sort of romantic experience, some sort of crazy social experience, and I might be the only one who nobody remembered about when the invites were sent, that was forgotten instantly, that had no impact on anybody. People who have a hostile shy personality get attention, my friend is probably less attractive than me, is there anything im doing wrong or just bad luck

Feeling like the biggest oofy doofy in a room of people who act like them but are secretly all hypersocials. This post isn't necessarily about female attention, more about not having these social events in my life

sorry for the massive paragraph, at least it isn't the thrembillionth nigger talking about how they are addicted to 'ooning

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i hate this board because i cant tell if whether half of this is bait or not so i just assume everything is bait which probably is true due to this site value gradually degrading.
how do i differentiate bait and fact

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Blogpost that will sound fake and gay, but foids somehow find me attractive even tho I avoid interacting with anyone if not out of necessity. I remember there were foids flirting with me since middle school, some were even older than me. Some went on for several months but I just either ignored them or told them to fuck off because I'm a schizoid chudcel. In high school some foids approached me once telling me their friend wanted to talk to me and I just told them I didn't feel like talking to anyone. The most recent case was a foid in my college course inviting me for dinner to her house and I told her I was busy just to don't tell I didn't want to.
I'm in my early 20s and I'm a kissless virgin, if that matters.

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ITT banana 🍌

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kill shitskin parents

i unironically fantasize about killing my parents and especially my mother. they neglected the hell out of me. my dad was a serial alcoholic and my mom is schizophrenic. i just want to kill them for bringing a double digit iq shitskin onto this world.

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most of the femoyim are uncaring zogslaves that uphold 0 morality and just does what makes them feel good and get the most money, to the destruction of soyciety. The majority of them think theres nothing wrong with child sacrifice (statistically Snopes confirmed)
In the old covenant they would take such people as slaves
Slavery is bad and all but theyre already slaves to lizard people who hate their guts and chaos encanted demons, so

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I fucking hate my life so much. Everything is fucked. I feel tired in the daytime and energetic in the night and have no motivation to do anything. Absolutely zero aspirations or things I look forward to. I don’t know how normal people hold a job or get a degree or be happy with themselves. Genuinely what the fuck am I supposed to do. I am an actual retard and I am destined to be the victim of natural selection.

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Just one more dose increase. That’s all I need then I will definitely be normal. Just some more meds. Just need a little extra energy. That’s all I need just some pep
in my step. One more prescription and I’ll finally contribute to society. That’s all I need. Just some more meds. A new pill and everything will be A-OK. Maybe I can even get a girlfriend with my new psyche. Just need some meds. That’s all that’s stopping me. Meds will keep me alive even as the modern world leaves me behind.

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what are your favourite Minecraft YouTubers doing nowadays?

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One inch of chin projection and I could have been htn or maybe even chadlite.

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Make all nusois read dis

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How big is your penis, /r9k/?

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Meanest thing someone said to you?

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Being sedentary is so boring tbh. Like if it's daytime and I'm not at uni/work/eating then i'm always playing basketball or just walking around and i go to home only at evening time where i would post on sherdee, play videogames or rap. I don't understand how there are young niggas just sitting their ass all day playing videogames or posting on imageboards, it's too boring

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how is everyone this fine evening?

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I don't even understand why I keep failing.
I spent my whole day today without using my computer, around around 5pm I turned it on just to read a book but about 2 hours into reading I got the urge to watch porn and relapsed. How do I stop this? What did I do wrong?

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am I retarded or something but I keep getting this constant need of organizing muh computer files, documenting shit into a file, saving stuff for memories and thinking about changing password + fixing up my accounts

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Let's make /r9k/ the biggest board in this site

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I was rejected by a Mymy cosplayer AMA
>yes she was a woman don't even ask

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The femoyim are gay

Immature foids are very quick to accuse you of being gay because she is projecting.
They do tons of gay shit with their friends; intimate sexual stories (for the femoid brain this is identical to a male circle-jerk), naked in front of each other, twerk on each other, etc.
They are more than willing to share Chad with other foids, in fact it's more stimulating.
But she's still afraid of being perceived as gay because it would make her more masculine even though she does nothing a proper kind of woman should do.
If average men did what average women do with their friends, there would be no question that theyre gay.
This is obvious to many of you but I believe some of you are less than perceptive.
>mexicaryan text reads: girls when another girl tells her shes pretty, guys when another guy tells him hes handsome

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just spent like 15 hours on my phone and it's 5:30am rn

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xhe was so sexy and pretty. I wish I could have gotten naked and bumped uglies with her.

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Why do i miss her

I kind of miss my ex, even if i'm in a new relationship. Sometimes i just get reminded of her, and i get some kind of feeling, it gnaws at me from the inside. My relationship with her wasn't anything special, and it kind of just lasted through out the summer. It was a situationship to be honest. I wasn't really treated that well. After she threw me away like yesterdays trash, we didin't talk for 2 months, and one day she reached out to me, sent me a friend request on instagram. I remember it vividly, i was playing l4d2, and my phone buzzed. I saw the notification, but at the same moment a tank spawned in. Both those things caused me to hyperventilate, and i think i almost fainted. For the next 3 weeks she really tried to crawl back in to my life, saying how she misses our friendgroup and all that. A little later she found out about my new girlfriend. That discouraged her a bit , but she continued to try and grab my attention anyway she could, and ultimately gave up once i blocked her on instagram after i couldn't take it anymore. Tho, to this day she still does weird things. I was playing a game, saw i had a spectator, and the only person online on my friend list was her ( i forgot to un-add her, and i did after ubsae what she was doing). Maybe a day later i saw her on the street. She did say hi but she looked really miserable. My friends and i do usually clown on her for the way she acts and what she does, but somewhere for what ever reason, i still care for her. A part of me still likes her.


Now, on to my current girlfriend. I don't think that i actually like her much. When i first met her (about a month and a half after i got dumped), she seemed cool, and after she eventually caught feelings and confessed, i kinda just thought "fuck it, we ball". I don't really want to break up with her tho, mostly because i'm her first boyfriend ever (no one probably liked her, because in the country i live in, people who are viewed as different get classified as retards). I don't want to hurt her, i really don't. Sometimes i think about what i feel towards her, and i kinda see some love but it's not enough to actually be happy in a relationship. I'm kind of waiting for her to break up with me. For the past month her temper got really bad. It's allways been like that but she never showed it before. I hate that i feel this way, i feel disgusting, and i don't know how i live like this. There's no purpose in doing this, and in the long run, i'll just hurt myself and her more.
What can i even do at this point ? I've been with her for about 4 months now, i'm in too deep, so there's not much i can do. And i don't even feel safe to tell this to any of my closest friends, and i have to resort to you people on the bald man with glasses website.

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How do I move on and stop being a fag

My girlfriend broke up with me the same week my grandma died (like a month ago) and it sucked. I started taking this kratom 7-oH shit to avoid thinking about anything.

Now i'm like three days off it and just feel really down. I get panicky thinking that my ex really is gone and leaving me. Just feel really depressed.

not to post a SNCA thread, I've been trying to keep my mind of things. Running, walking around the city, gaming, but I just have this gnawing feeling in my chest. I even started to pester my ex to see if she'd just talk to me once.

Idk. We last spoke 41 days ago. We broke up like a week before valenties day and I asked if she'd still want to spend it with me. It went fine.

What do I do?

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I feel like a faggot for gooning to tomboys. The more boyish they look, the more I get off on it. I don't like gay porn at all, but I don't know what it is about tomboys that I find so appealing. I mean, I can sort of explain it… It’s that feminine aesthetic combined with that twink look, and the fact that they have a vagina is what does it for me. They shouldn’t be pooners doe, as pooners are usually hairy and too manly.

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andrew

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> doesnt watch porn
> doesnt talk to multiple women
> loves me
Is it that hard moids? Here comes the muhh chad sexual incels

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i wish my penis was in the zone where you can laugh it off when someone calls it small because you know that in no universe is it actually considered small
fuck my shitty 15cm chudcel life god damit

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Worst thing to happen to you?

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which character/s do you relate to the most nusois

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no means yes
yes means anal

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watch this or something

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>just be a monkey
broootal

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mfw seeing foids on my truecel board

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After about 2 weeks of not fapping my libido always spikes up. Im at this point now and i dont even want to goon my mind is always thinking about sex i really want to have sex with a woman
What should i do about my sexual frustration?

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All I need is one more dose increase and I’ll be normal. Just some more meds. All I need is one more pill. Just need some more pep in my step that’s all. All I need is just some more meds. Some more meds and I’ll be able to be normal. Just need some more. Just need some more pep in my step.

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I lost the key to my clitty cage. WTF do I do now?

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Is there a real alternative to the sharty?
I'm asking this because it looks like the end times are near. Take a look at the caca porn on /soy/ if you aren't aware of it. Also Quote announcing himself to be admin 6 and that he will be a SLF and JSID instead of leaving the site to a successor. Is there any site that is part of the soysphere or adjacent to it that isn't dnb or filled with porn and trannies that I could swap to if/once this site dies.

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Take the BVLL pill

So I've been dealing with this strange habit/coping mechanism lately where whenever I feel effeminate or low confidence I just start masturbating to cuckolding porn but importantly I only ever self insert as the bull and try to find only videos from that pov. It's actually worked pretty well. The thing about confidence is that it literally improves everything else in your life. You don't have to go through some stoic mental gymnastics to reduce your sensitivity to pain and discomfort because those things just happen naturally. You don't have to worry about what's right and wrong because your testosterone and drive to dominate will take care of that for you. Your mind doesn't wander and lose its train of thought because the only thing that matters is your superiority. I feel more intelligent and experience a level of mental clarity that I never even expected to be possible. It just feels so natural. For context, this is coming from someone who used to be so porn addicted I could only get off to the idea of being a gay bottom. I've even penetrated myself with various objects to fulfill that fantasy,and used to self insert as the cuck in that genre of pornography. Now I've taken the reins and find myself wondering why it ever felt so wrong? It feels like my body is finally doing all the work for me. It's not even that hard. Once you fall into the groove of valuing yourself first and wanting to dominate, you don't even entertain the idea of failure. It feels like living in a dream that just never ends. Someone slap me awake before I become a psychopathic narcissist.

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nofap megathread

making this because the board is always flooded with these anyway. i need advice because i am stuck in the most predictable loop and it is ruining my head.
basically i have this one specific fetish that is honestly completely deranged. it is not illegal per se and it is not gay but it is definitely degenerate. every time i goon to it, i feel like a total creep immediately after and decide to take a break. i stay clean for maybe 1 or 2 days and the post-nut clarity makes me think i am cured.
during that break, my brain resets enough that i can literally get off to the most basic vanilla shit imaginable. i start thinking i can just be a normal person again. so i goon to the regular vanilla shit. but then, without fail, the boredom or the itch kicks in and i spirial right back down to that same specific degenerate fetish. i cannot stop the cycle. it is like my brain is wired to crave the extreme stuff the second i feel slightly comfortable.

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have any r9kcacas had a person that you treated similar to Aiko

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I'm bored or something so I'm gonna try post in this thread everyday about what I did even doe nobaldi care

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>ask out a girl i dont know
>get called a pervert (OH MY GAWD MOIDS JUST WANT TO FUCK ANY RANDOM WOMAN)
>ask out a girl i know
>get called a pervert (OH MY GAWD MOIDS JUST THINK ABOUT SEX ALL DAY YOU CANT BE FRIENDS WITH THEM)
>ask to be set up with someone
>get called a pervert (OH MY GAWD MOIDS WANT TO FUCK ALL MY PRECIOUS FRIENDS)
just blow my shit clean off

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how do you absolutely wreck your body or go schizo? not dying per say, but a way you'll be noticeably unwell. nobaldi really notices me and my parents prevent me from seeking help so i need to convince them o algo

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Does anyone have advice on how can I improve facial hair growth? I'm 18 (19 this year) and want to grow mutton chops.

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A girl on a party essentially gave me the most obvious clue that she wants me to ask her out on a date and gave me the time she is free this week and my dumbass didn't know the exact time i am free so i had to check my phone and by then some of my friends who are like a league ahead of me when it comes to girls appeared and i was embarrassed to tell her the time i want her to meet me (because she wanted to go to classes with me, what was i supposed to say? meet me at x and y so we can attend a class only i need to attend?),i felt like i would look like a retard in front of everyone
<retarded chud space
i fumbled girls before, i am only good with girls when im 1 on 1 with them not like this
<retarded chud space
I fumbled girls before but i feel like this one is GENERATIONAL please tell me you guys did something like this before it's still haunting me even as a few days have passed since the event

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I feel like death.

I have nowhere else to vent about this because I have no person to listen.

I am alone and I feel like death. I wish that I had love in my life and someone to talk to but there is nothing. I do not have any hope of love or human bonding anymore, there is nothing for me in this world.

How alone are other people on this imageboard? I no longer have any online connections either, I have never gone to a party in my life or had a girlfriend, I am khhv. The few male friends I had either betrayed me greatly or have not spoken to me in a long time. Loneliness is destroying me but I do not feel like escaping it anymore. I am the type of person who understand defeat and this life has defeated me.

When every single attempt ends in failure I cannot believe that it could ever be different, recently something happened to me that has officially decapitated my faith in this existence, I won't bother explaining here though.

I am going to die alone and nobody will ever have loved me. I do not just mean a females sexual attraction or anything, I mean everyone. They have no care for me, I thought they could be similar to me but I was wrong. Males are just as bad as females when it comes to treachery and selfishness.

No one understands me, no one can help me, nobody will ever be in the same boat as me, nobody cares about what happens to me, it would feel better being six feet under.

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I just woke up and I DEFINITELY need to quit the internet for a while. No, this is not bait, I wish it was.
Mods don't ban me this is fiction
Just to be clear, I'll probably double post this on /soy/, so don't get weirded out when you see it.
>Find fetish art on the 'affinity of some smug grey, fat cat furry standing behind a green school writing board.
>In the picture she, quite smugly, says something like
<Ok, write down "1100Ball00nB0yL0ver"!
>Much to the horror of some other character I forgot how looked
>Look that person up
>Find a wiki article, which I skim over due to length. It had extremely weird shit like what that dude called boy and girl balloons (Bim/Banjo and Gim/Ganjo if I recall correctly if you're curious) as well as pictures of balloons he owned on a plain white background. Picrel 2 is similar, except the balloon actually resembled a victorian child painting and his favorite balloon faced the side.
>Suddenly, my dream cuts to a latinx chick talking about the subject. You know those girl essay youtubers with milquetoast takes? Yeah imagine someone like that. She wasn't thin either btw, as a proud meximutt should be.
>She goes in detail about this person, and shows videos of him sitting in a dark room.
>He wore a mask, quite like picrel 3. It looked like his skin and with some angles he did he looked like a FNAF animatronic.
>She mentions how he talked about his fetish on some snca forum under the name "428"
>Turns out, the website generates numbers like this for new users, and 1100Ball00nB0yL0ver passed away soon after, so he never got to change it.
That's about where it ends. I literally woke up and said "What the fuck was that?", and I ended up writing this. does anyone have dreams this fucking weird? This is probably my very first.
Since this is the advice board, what the hell can I even do here? I'm stuck and confused.

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Help me!!!

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When you're in your room jerking off, how are you supposed to wash your hands? You’re forced to leave the room, which is a huge hassle. So I just go about my day and touch my stuff with my dirty hands, like my work laptop and my Rubik’s Cube and so on. On one occasion, a girl wanted to try out my Rubik's Cube - which I hadn't washed - and I just handed it to her. This was lowkey tough because it felt like she was indirectly touching my dick.

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>arrow
is futa a valid special interest?

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How do I a fat chud get a furfag girlfriend?

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Imagine tossing fries and water in a blender,
Mixing it down to a thick, mushy render.
Then take that paste, spread it all over your penis,
And use it to pleasure yourself till you're finished.

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I don't know what to do. I’m 22. I don’t have any friends, and I have never had a girlfriend. I don’t even have a basic education; I can’t do math or grammar. I have to use a secondary program to fix my grammatical errors as I type this. I wasted my childhood and teens being glued and addicted to games and social media. The worst thing is that I didn’t even like it. Sure, it was stimulating, but I always had a pit in my stomach.

I’m not angry; I’m just sad. I wish the internet never existed, and I could have had a normal life growing up, playing with other kids outside instead of being stuck in a dark room all by myself.

I totally get the tranime obsession with isekai; I would sell my soul if it meant I could get to experience the life I never had. I feel like I have never lived.

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Is there something wrong with me? i feel no sexual urges even doe im 18 it only happens once a month and thats before my period but even that isnt really strong i try to look at porn but it does nothing to me

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i hate women, thats it for this poopy board

R: 2 / I: 0
I stole from a grocery store and i was trying to climb a fence, when these white aryan foids were questioning what i was doing. they help me jump it for some reason also its not fake

R: 2 / I: 0
if the jews don't stop DDOS'ing and ruining my internet every 30 seconds im going to do something DRASTIC

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My wife Soytan

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Why do both my female friends keep constantly reacting to my messages with love heart emojis it confuses me

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i’m moving out with my gf in 6 days. i thought i was ready but im extremely anxious and nervous now. im a sperg she has adhd, im the type of sperg where i have overlaps with ocd and anxiety and she’s the opposite. very messy, more care free, and it stresses me out even though i love her more than anything. im scared of the room being too cluttered even doe its a huge ass room. im going to miss my dad a lot.

i know it seems like im moving out for no reason but i need my own space away from my dad, he works from home every single day and is really bad at budgeting leaving us with no food a lot of the time, plus our house is tiny. we have a dog that is very agressive to new people meaning i can’t really have friends over, it’s a pain to get into the city too and i work in the city.

i’ve saved up 4k, my rent is $116 a week including bills, and i make an income of $350 a week so i can definitely afford it. the finances aren’t stressing me out. i’m genuinely just having a sperg meltdown right now because im so anxious and stressed. i’m outside having a cigarette while writing this while she studies in my room. i was packing up my room before i went outside.

i want to cry so badly but i physically can’t, i haven’t cried in so long. i don’t know what to do chuds. i am ready but im not at the same time and i can’t back out now. i know it is the right decision to put myself out into the world and it’ll benefit me greatly. i’m only 18 and my dad says i can always move back in if i feel the need.

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I'm the only person who's ever posted on this board its all just me samefagging on different vpns

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I have to present my half assed school project in front of the whole class tomorrow, someone please kill my teacher(image unrelated)

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I paid for Tinder Plus again.

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Why are you moids like this?

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i feel old af

Idk why i feel so old , early twenties isnt old yet right?

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i say this
<Kill niggers. Behead niggers. Roundhouse kick a nigger into the concrete. Slam dunk a nigger baby into the trashcan. Crucify filthy blacks. Defecate in a nigger's food. Launch niggers into the sun. Stir fry niggers in a wok. Toss niggers into active volcanoes. Urinate into a nigger's gas tank. Judo throw niggers into a wood chipper. Twist niggers' heads off. Report niggers to the IRS. Karate chop niggers in half. Curb stomp pregnant black niggers. Trap niggers in quicksand. Crush niggers in the trash compactor. Liquefy niggers in a vat of acid. Eat niggers. Grind niggers in the garbage disposal. Vaporize niggers with a ray gun. Feed niggers to alligators. Slice niggers with a katana.
Blast niggers with Civil War cannons. Whip niggers into obedience. Slingshot a nigger into orbit. Rocket niggers into the sun. Bite a nigger and drink their blood. Drown niggers in fried chicken grease. Stomp nigger skulls with steel-toed boots. Cremate niggers in the oven. Lobotomize niggers. Mandatory abortions for niggers. Grind nigger fetuses in the garbage disposal. Kick old niggers down the stairs. Gas niggers in the chamber. Dissect niggers. Exterminate niggers. Trampoline a nigger baby into cinderblocks. Hang niggers from trees. Burn niggers alive. Skin niggers. Boil niggers in oil.

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no more gooning (blog)

alright, i keep relapsing so i'm making this thread as a reminder to stop.
i'm also making it so i don't go crazy and that i can get this off my chest, i don't know why i keep going back to it after all of the problems it's caused me.
ik this is some embarrassing shit, but recently i was doing it towards some fairly average lovey dovey romantic hentai. though while i was doing it, i was also looking at my other tabs.
during that, i saw a thumbnail of a tranime girl that i recognized who's supposed to be a teenager. this made me feel weird as hell, even if i just happened to see her while finishing to what i was originally looking at. i know i wasn't gooning to her, but it made me feel gross regardless. though, i saw it as a mistake on my part. it wasn't any explicitly sexual thumbnail either.
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after that, i tried continuing like nothing happened. of course, i was once again dumb enough to look at my other tabs while i was still doing it. on youtube, i saw another thumbnail which had a random actual kid and it freaked me out. i took it off and immediately went back to the original tab i was on and got done there. after that, i checked that youtube page again for a few seconds to have a better look at what that thumbnail was to see if i was right on it being a kid, and then i left. none of it was actually sexual or anything, but it just unsettled me seeing glimpses of that while i was in the moment.
anyways, i've been replaying these events in my mind constantly. it doesn't help that i've had plenty of other worries like this before, alongside a lot of other worrying things i did related to hentai and r34 art sites (which i don't ever want to repeat, none of it was real but it was still unsettling). i'm not even sure if i was being careful enough with that stuff just a while ago on another relapse.
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i think i've realized that now, i have to stop no matter what. it's taking a huge toll on my mental health, and it's making me even more paranoid. if you find this funny i can't blame you, since i can find some humor in it too. but this has put me through some horrible shit, atp it's either life or death. hopefully, this will get me to stop being fucking stupid. i'd like to make sure i permanently quit before i turn 22

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'teens that got through depression, what helped you get over it? I got myself to a relatively healthy lifestyle and i feel better, but i still relapse to strong depression and suicidal thoughts for about 4-6 days every month or so, really messes with my productivity and daily life. What advice would you give me to stop having these episodes?

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i have no one to talk to this about. this is going to be a long and personal post about my previous childhood trauma and what my mother put me through. i’ve come to terms with it all and partially repaired my relationship with her, we live a plane ride away from eachother but i never visit her due to my trauma but i have very long and frequent phone calls with her for some context. ive never fully forgiven her because to be honest i can’t, but ive accepted it and dont hold any malice towards her. i just got off the phone with her and she dropped a lot on me. i need to let it out im shocked and upset and its just a lot. i need to talk about it where no one knows me personally.

i was talking with my mom today and she starts crying when talking about how her stepdad has dementia and isn’t coping well with the home he’s been put into. i deemed this as odd because she never had a good relationship with him or liked him too much but of course i was asking if she was okay and what the matter was. she’s talking about how she’s struggling with it because her mom needs so much support in this time and her job is taking a toll on her for it etc etc. again she’s sobbing a lot and i felt like it wasn’t the full truth. she drops it on me that she wants to leave my stepdad and i agree, he’s a horrible man and i’ve never liked him. i console her through the call and tell her it’s okay and she needs to leave if she’s been feeling like this for years, she told me she cries so much because of how much she wants to leave and im getting pretty upset too because it’s sad hearing your mom sob to you when you can’t go see her or anything. she starts apologising to me for what she did to me and what she put me through. she used to take a lot of drugs, opiates, meth, and herion to be exact, i used to find her passed out or if she wasn’t passed out she’d be incomprehensibly talking to me and it was scary, it was genuinely like a homeless crack head who babbles at you on the street except i was 8/9 and it was my own mother in my own house. it deeply traumatised me, she used to forget to pick me up from school, she crashed the car three times with me in it because she was driving on drugs, she could barely take care of my two year old brothers too. it was a very scary and traumatic time for me that i had to do 7 years of trauma therapy through a psychologist. i’m leaving out details but just know it was bad and deeply painful. a few years after she started doing drugs she moved away to be closer to her family to get help with my little brothers and my step dad moved with her of course so it was just me with my dad which was wonderful, i love my dad so much and look up to him a lot. so she was apologising non stop for doing drugs then leaving me a year later. she drops the bomb that she wants to leave my step dad and i agree that she should do that. she goes on talking more and more about it all and she gets mad about my dad or something i cant quite remember and talks about how he always used her drug usage against her to make her feel bad and paint her as the bad guy. which i mean yeah its true you should never involve children in your junkie shit. and then she went on to drop something on me.

my dad has a chronic condition, CRPS, look it up. permanent nerve pain that’s caused for no external factors it’s your brain playing tricks but the pain feels 100% real; he described it as it felt like someone was slicing his arm open with a box cutter slowly and deeply. i had to live with my mom for 6 months while she was pregnant with my brothers because my dad was going through too much pain. during the start of month two living with her she got hospitalised due to pregnancy complications and i was only living with my stepdad and i hated it cause he didn’t treat me like his kid he treated me like a roommate and i was mad and sad because i missed my dad and my mom. well, i wasn’t actually living with her because of his CRPS at the time. she told me that he was fucked up on drugs. this has destroyed me. obviously he is clean now because i wouldn’t have guessed if i didn’t think too deeply and i was 7/8 at the time. but now it gets kind of complicated.

i have memories of the period before i went to live with my mom. my stepdad would always come to my dads house and he’s always been a suspicious guy. he was actually my dads sisters friend before he dated my mom so that adds another layer, my mom KNEW what he was like and my dad knew him in and out before my mom started dating him. he was suspicious and i had bad vibes even as a little kid. i asked my mom straight up if my stepdad has anything to do with getting my dad addicted, and she said yes.

post is too long so i’ll continue in the comments even doe snca

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st. paul le GOOD?

i've been looking into the bible after having a bout of skepticism towards the second half of the new testament, mainly centered around paul. i understand it is understood that he saw Jesus in a vision on his trip to damascus with a few unnamed witnesses to the event which caused him to renounce judaisim and embrace Christianity. while i would like to take him at his word, i find issue with the fact that the testimony of these witnesses isn't included in the bible and we have to rely on paul's word alone. i'm wondering if any of the Christians on this board can give an explanation for why his account is taken as seriously as the other apostles

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Me (19F) and my sister have this theory that during world wars all the hot and respectable men died whilst the ugly ass draft dodgers had offspring AKA current men

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Being a kick livestreamer in 2026 sounds like a chill easy job.

You get girls.
You get free money just for living life.

Sounds like a fever dream.
All you have to do is not be a pedo or commit crime.

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Jannies are obsessed o algo

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Baby

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Except:
There's no robot.
There's no porn.
There's no faggot garbage.
There's no tranny garbage.