/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

My mother decided to fucking eat dinner outside instead of asking me to bring the fucking table inside and then got mad at me and my dad for not realizing she was doing this bullshit. I said "why are you doing this? you could've asked me and I would've helped" and responded with "shut up, leave me alone". Am I crazy? What the fuck am I doing wrong? She always pulls this sort of retarded asshole behavior and then spits out venom at us. I used to think "Hey, maybe I'm wrong and also responsible for something or whatever" but this was the last straw. There was NO reason for her to do this, I always felt guilty for not feeling affectionate towards my mother, for never wanting to say to her "I love you", or for thinking that I would grieve my father way more than my mother if either of them died. I am so fucking sick of this and I don't know what to do. I can't tell this to a real person because of shame. Am I crazy? Am I wrong? Are all women like this?