i'm apathetic about everything relating to people, EXCEPT society. i've lost all empathy for individuals but with society it's kind of like a surgery patient that needs to be treated. i can't let fear and worry paralyze me once good work needs to be done, no matter how perilous
i'm an opportunist. every time i see the chance to play a bigger hand in things i have to take it, i can't stop myself even if it'll hurt me
most of the time it's a grueling ordeal but a great success in the end and i'll humiliate and/or punish some truly awful people.
there's legitimately nothing i'm better at than disassembling someone's hubris and using it against them.
manipulating a POS into losing all the status he's worked to achieve and doing it properly is a routine i have down to a T and i take great pride in doing it meticulously
but this urge to act is so gripping that it has actually gotten me in jail before too, because i mostly discipline myself to act out of spite rather than any good will
what's the use in waiting for everything to boil over? a watched pot will never boil, right? i want to light the spark that turns into an unstoppable force of good. not out of the kindness of my heart, mind you; but purely to spite globohomo. because anything pure and good to them is like sun to a vampire.
i frankly have never thought a single person who deemed themselves """apathetic""" to how the state of things will effect them, was doing it for a good reason.
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