>>76998>>76999I think the problem here is that you try too hard to get yourself true love and get disappointed when some dumb fuck laughs in your face. It's not nice, but for fuck's sake it's not "personal 'Nam" levels of mental trauma. If anything, this should be an opportunity to learn from yourself and from others instead of pulling yourself down. It may be an issue on both sides, with you forcing a relationship and a girl who sees you as a subhuman. Sometimes, people try hitting targets they can't realistically achieve, or they need to improve their social skills.
In short, find friends, not lovers. A friend is not only more likely to be open about that stuff but you can improve your social skills by talking about whatever. Forcing love doesn't work because love requires balance, with both sides working together.
And lastly, WORK ON YOURSELF! Get some hobbies, improve, and find people that way. It has to be something YOU like, not someone else. Focus on yourself, and then try finding love.
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