Is what I'm doing with my life weird? Am I behind everyone else?
I'm 18 for context
I just found out that my best friend had been dating some foid to "test" if he was alone of his own volition o algo. I was convinced he was equal to me in that he didn't have much of a social life, but hes been doing all that apparently, and after telling the girl he didn't gaf and insulting her she leaked. Before this point he nearly had sex with her, but he stopped just before doing it because they were drunk and he didn't want to risk it
Everybody my age seems to have done some sort of crazy social thing, or have shit going on in their lives. I'm not doing good at school because I can't push myself to revise, and otherwise I do nothing interesting. I go to school, i go home, i go to school, i go home, rinse, repeat ad eterna. Ev&doe I'm older than my friend I only just went to my first party with alcohol today. I'm a mid-tier white guy, ~6ft, so its not like im repulsive to people visually, and i probably have some sort of assburgers but its not severe enough that i can't make friends. My friend is probably autistic too, but the nigga told me he wants to spend uni fucking around. I thought he was better than this, but I guess hes the same as the majority then. I have basically only him as a "close" friend along with one other guy, but hes a lot more similar to me in his interests and isn't very social at all. I feel like ev&doe I try to be nice to people, I struggle to find others I click with, and I don't get invited many places by others. I don't think anybody necessarily dislikes me, more that they simply don't care.
Am I behind everyone else for not having a large social circle or social life? I feel like a subhuman after hearing that basically everybaldi at my school has had some sort of romantic experience, some sort of crazy social experience, and I might be the only one who nobody remembered about when the invites were sent, that was forgotten instantly, that had no impact on anybody. People who have a hostile shy personality get attention, my friend is probably less attractive than me, is there anything im doing wrong or just bad luck
Feeling like the biggest oofy doofy in a room of people who act like them but are secretly all hypersocials. This post isn't necessarily about female attention, more about not having these social events in my life
sorry for the massive paragraph, at least it isn't the thrembillion
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