I have a serious problem and I want some advice for it. my girlfriend and I both consider watching/consuming porn to be cheating and as far as I know the only time she's done that is a few weeks into our relationship when she watched a porn video of some girl masturbating but "that's different cus it was a girl and you aren't its not my fault I go both ways" I was a bit upset but that's not the main problem. I used to have a very bad porn addiction and she knows that but what she doesn't know is I still technically view some "porn".
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I have a major fucking vore fetish. its nasty gay nigger 'spic shit I know but I've had it since I was like 9 (epi will do that to you) and I still look at vore shit sometimes. I know I'm a retarded gay faggot for this and I should kill myself for doing this, but do you think this is the same as looking at regular porn? its not like I do it to look at other girls, its the concept of the vore shit that I get off to, my girlfriend cant swallow people whole so how is she supposed to fulfill this shit? I know I need to just go completely no-fap and quit this shit but for now I need to know, is this cheating? is this the same as me looking at regular porn and jerking off to other girls or is it different because its a fantasy fetish that cant be performed in real life and is only in drawn form? if I told my girlfriend do you think she'd get mad and break up with me and cause me to commit suicide? I can live without vore, I cant live without her, and I know I should quit, but what I've already done is done. should I be put to death for doing this or can I be forgiven?
<I know some of you might think I'm being dramatic and that I should go somewhere else for this but I cant talk to my friends about this, literally no one in my life except my girlfriend knows about this fetish and she thinks that it's something I haven't been into in years and that I haven't watched any porn since weeks before I even met her. I want to know what you all think I should do. should I talk to her about it, keep it a secret (unless I tell her she'll literally never know) or what? I don't know what to do and for the 3 months its been going on I've wanted to just die from being like this.
<also jannies, none of this is a suicide announcement, I'm posting this because I need help and advice because I plan on continuing my life and my r
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