β87352[Reply]
Why won't I study? I always feel like it's a immoral thing. I know that I have to, but I feel so much anger and pettiness towards it, that it makes me repulsed.
My parents always forced me to be the 'smart kid' and in my highschool days I was begging them to switch me to a more tardy school than the hardest one, they didn't budge however and told me that I could choose what I wanted to after HS. That didn't happen, I still wanted a tardy menial job. I originally didn't want to go to uni, but my parents pressured me into it, and I chose a random one since I felt neutral to it, and didn't want something which I felt passionate for because it would probably make me hate it.
But now I can't force myself to study, it feels like this path is something out of my control. Sometimes I suck and my classmates and professors bully me and tell me to drop out to some low class path instead. I consider and wish it too, but I figure it's way harder because my parents won't financially support me nor help me out getting a 'tard' job like they have been refusing for so long. I know it's what I was meant for, why won't anyone help me?
I like the physical part of the uni, but I have 5 tests which I've failed, and I need to fix, but I feel so angry, but I know that there's nothing I can do.
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>>87379>TBH drop out if you hate it that muchI don't /hate/ the trade itself, I just don't want to study because of my petty childish thought patterns, complexes and grudges which I hold due to the fact of how I got here. I think I would like the job itself when/if I get the degree, but I don't want to because it wasn't my choice.
β87425
What I am trying to say is that I always see "success" as submission, opening the books is validation of the system, passing validates the tag put on me and learning is just pleasing people above me, even though I logically know that to be independent and survive I need this trade.
β87458
>>87414Ive never heard of anyone doing that beyond highschool
β87459
>>87424Maybe try to form a complex over not studying. Also what you said sounds a lot like ODD or some antisocial disorder
β87496
>>87359>I can give you some tips to IQmaxx thodo this