I've been experiencing the same thing recently. All my friends started drinking, partying, and a lot of them still have better grades than me while I sit at home watching youtube and reading the sharty most of the time. I don't even mindlessly watch the short shit on der 'tube, I watch decent stuff on topics I actually like learning about like history, but my brain must be getting worn out at this point and the cope isn't enough.
I'm not terribly ugly, I'm not a retard, I can talk to people, but I feel very incomplete. Like you mentioned, I get advice to revise more, I know I should do it, but my brain repels it. I used to want to rope a year or two ago, got past the phase but I still don't feel great.
My only real hope is that I still believe there is the potential I can find good things to fill my time with. Thinking of buying a skateboard and trying that when I finish my high school exams (Jannies I'm 18 don't ban me niggas), going outside more and trying something new might help. Also going to buy a PS3 since they're cheap, trying to find more ways to enjoy my life.
>Everything people use to cope is some form of a Jew piggyback riding youGeg, but probably true. Even the things I listed are feeding the jew because I have to spend money to do them, even if its second hand stuff. Try to do things that involve the least amount of money and that can have a long lasting effect, maybe try going on long walks outdoors, instruments, art, reading a topic you like, whatever interests you.
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