/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

For the last couple of days I have been consistently angry, and I know its not good to keep your cortisol levels spiked but I can't help myself

For context, its my last full week at school, we have major exams in less than 3 weeks. I'm the nigga who dumped his best friend like a month ago because he was a psycho that was manipulating people n shieet.

I have literally nobody to talk anything serious to. I had to get rid of my only close friend for being a retarded 'apeson with a massive fucking ego, and now im stuck with all the other niggas. Since exams are so close, all i want to do is focus on revising for those so I can get into the unis of my choice without having to go through the niggerhell of clearing (britbong schools). When I'm not revising, I'd like to have some time to go outside and get some sun and fresh air to remind myself that I'm a human, and I like doing that by skateboarding.
Instead of being able to get enough sleep, revise efficiently, and then go outside a bit every day, I have to go to my shithole school. We already finished all the topics so I can spend every lesson revising whatever I need to. My issue is that I end up spending nearly 3 hours a day on the bus commuting to my school filled with jeets, then I have nobody to talk to because I'm not close to anyone, and then school wastes my time even more by having mandatory "fun" activities during form time, and lunch time. At home I don't even eat lunch, just breakfast and dinner, but since I have to rush breakfast to get to school, I have to eat their goyslop food. What triggered this massive paragraph of SNCA is that in my maths class today a girl (jeet brown if that matters) spoke basically non stop the entire fucking lesson. Normally I don't give a shit but she has a clearly distinguishable voice, so its hard to ignore, and she was practising for spanish oral exams so it wasn't just mixed into the regular english background mumbles.

If I'm thinking logically, I know that the reason I'm angry is because of lack of sleep (i basically never get more than 6.5 hours, normally between 5.5-6) and lack of social interaction, but I don't want to rationalise this shit.

I have also not had a single girlfriend, and only one female "friend" that I will most probably never speak to after exams are over. I'm going to be ending 6th form (high school 16-18 for mutts) with no real friends and no female relationship experience. My secondary was a boys-onPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Haven't masturbated in three months

those who are second-generation immigrants, how did you manage to learn your mother tongue
i didn't learn it whilst growing up and it bothers me a bit, i'm sorta blaming myself since i never really read any books or put effort into learning it
tho at the same time my parents never taught me it directly, just expected me to speak it ev&doe they spoke english to make me assimilate better

total foid death btw, reminder that they are subhumans who choose subhumans, this is why there is so much violent people in the world, retards (foids) mistake scum behaviour for superior genes. and then the scum becomes the elite and acks foids and becomes a problem for normal humans (normal males).
>muh uh foids dont choose you!
no, i dont choose foids, i choose 2d animeGODS. why settle for less, when there is literally perfection?

high rn and I have come to the realization that the simple things in live are the key to "surfing the kali yuga"
Imagine getting high with your friends at like 12am, except one of you whos the DD or some shit and you end up going to waffle house car pooling
yall are getting plates of food, its now 1am yall all work together or some shit probably night shift(getting jobs off ur friends is the method btw, if your homie got a job you can maybe become a coworker if his boss is chill)
but yall all gotta be somewhere at 2am till 10am or later, but rn you dont care about that shit
you get one of those hashbrown stake bowl things with the american cheese on it and some toast
you eat like a starving african child
you all pile into a car playing music and go off to work, then the poor bastard DD can get high in the walk in freezer or smoker ally or take an edible

I went out drinking with my friend and for some reason decided to overcome my shyness and try talking to some foids for fun, there was a group of three girls I approached
they were discussing some guy one of them was currently seeing and she asked me for my opinion, the guy supposedly "raped" or got too pushy with some other foid in his past but now he told this foid that he's scared of doing it again
I told her that at least he's self conscious of his problems and one of the foids said "you sound manipulative", am I?

anyway they didn't seem interested anyways, so I had a quick autistic rant about some snca movie, did a 360° and walked away home.

marge why do people keep opening their arms to me when I come back to them even doe I did shitty things to them

This is ATHEA.

She is the goddess that the athiest people worship in their religion.

Say hi to her via prayer anytime!

hi /r9k/
snorting some ritalin
already high on mcat
talk to me or ask me questions or something…

where the women at i need one.

I genuinely need help, last night I gooned to dross although I'm not gay

I fear the porn addiction will only get more and more degenerate and none of the porn quitting advice helped me

I'm a 4th year community college student but at least I don't have to work since I live with my parents also I'm 6 feet tall.

How do I look?

He was a handsome young man. Now look at him. Uncanny and doomed to a life of troonery.

does anyone here have real friends ? like friends in real life that consciously choose to hang out with you . maybe even form a deeper connection