/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

I am owed cuddles and kisses from at least one cute girl.

tiny gif thread

What’s the point of doing all this normie shit like going to college and getting a degree if you’re just bound to slave away for some soulless corporation anyways? You could be truly passionate about something and it will just be watered down to shit by the modern economy. I want some glory and there is none in this empty world. I don’t adhere to any religion which is the primary way people find comfort in some kind of overarching life purpose. Perhaps it’s rationally OK that there is no grand pursuit in life but it certainly doesn’t feel like it. The next thing most focus on outside of their career is their friends and family but I have no friends and I’m very neutral with my family. It’s very silly to rely on others for your happiness since most people today are fickle or cruel or downright retarded. So I don’t really know what to do. Anyone else feel this way?

I know most people here are shut-ins but what I'm talking about is a very unique sort of isolation. Whenever I talk to people I just don't feel like a person. My interests, beliefs, thought processes, pretty much everything is completely foreign. I've legitimately never had a close irl friend since maybe third grade, I have acquaintances, people I talk to while I'm doing something, but no true friends. No one I could share interests with or have a personal relationship with.

What inspired me to make this thread is a conversation I was having with a few people at my college today. They're also fairly weird and nerdy people, I mean one of them said he nearly got admitted to a mental hospital, and yet even with them I felt different. They seemed to know everyone, they knew all the gossip or whatever, and despite what flaws they had they clearly weren't like me.

I've never met someone like myself. I'm sure there are, after all this board does exist, but clearly we're pretty rare. To be clear, this isn't just social isolation, there's plenty of people who are isolated. The difference between someone who is just isolated and someone like me is that a person can be isolated from many different reasons, and can eventually overcome their isolation. I don't think me or many of the people on this board could ever be popular or normal. We're just not like them. I've never felt a desire to use instagram or other similar normie social media, for example. To me, imageboards like this are infinitely more interesting than xitter, instagram, preddit, or any other normie platform. I understand the reason people use things like that, but I just can't see myself ever using them.

I used social media as an example but it applies to many other things. I have never been able to have any long-term friendships irl because I'm just completely different from these people. Even with people who might seem similar to me I still end up feeling isolated. I just don't know how to describe it but I feel completely foreign to this world. I'm autistic and probably BPD so that like factors into it.

I doubt I explained myself well but if anyone else has similar thoughts feel free to share them or ask me questions. I feel kind of sad living my life like this but I don't think I will ever be able to feel genuine connection.

What would you do if you were rich? 10 million dollars

has anyone else written about what would happen if they killed themselves just to convince themselves not to do it?
i've ran through this like 5 times now but it does help me reflect on myself
most of the time it's just me focusing on what would happen immediately after, i try not to be biased and claim that nothing would change since shit would change like my family members missing me and i wouldn't want to put them through such a burden
i dont know what to do

What type of jeans are these called? I see people wearing them anywhere but when i go the shop all the jeans are either super baggy pr skinny and dont look like this

Do you also find your friends uncomfortable, frustrating and overall niggetly retarded after few years? I have it like that with all my closer friends. What's your longest close friendship?

Like every week I think that I am the problem but as the time passes I understand that they are frustrating niggers

what does it mean when i dont want a gf because i feel like it would get in the way of stuff im trying to get done and also i kinda just dont feel like being with anybody like that

is it a consequence of epi from when i was younger or is it just tism or is it something normal and ill eventually grow the desire later?

to clarify, i like having friends and stuff i just dont think i want to get that close to somebody like that, i just have a complete disinterest for relationships in general i think

all i care about is cars and minecraft and going to work so i can afford to fix more cars and play more minecraft

also im 23, not a troon, and not gay

Should i get fat to hide my recessed bone structure?

I wish men loved me

tomboy poonerifciation thread

i hope everyone is doing well today

It's always so fucking brutal seeing people younger than you completely lifemog you