Im 17, i never had a girlfriend or anything like that, only a date with a girl that obly wanted me because she was depressed and also lied to me a lot. We dont talk anymore
Ive always feel bad about myself, and honestly I gotta say I hate myself, and I hate most other people too. I hate a lot of stuff, I hate woke gay sensitive fags, I hate ghetto stupid niggas that make me feel ashamed of being a mulatto mutt who will be seen as a subhuman nigger by others everywhere I go, I hate used up roasties. I hate a lot of shit, but I suck it up.
Since I entered my teenage years (fuck this stupid nigger chud life) I always felt outcasted, I didnt fit anywhere, everywhere I go people made fun of me, girls never really liked me and I was pathetic, felt pathetic, unadequate and undesirable, because I was fat, brown and a awkard nerd who is also probably autistic. Im not fat anymore thanks to puberty but I still feel like shit about myself and genuinely think about ending this shit.
What else can I say? I feel resentment to women, especially those who are used-up and deny it, they say i am a misogynist and a incel for not wanting to kiss a roastie who already gave herself to dudes that would be the exact kind to brush it off in my face the fact that I "dont get any" because I like this and that and because im like this and that, fuck that shit and fuck these fucking sluts. And you know what? So what if im an incel? So what im a misogynist pig? So fucking what? I would still be clowned by everyone and ignored and seen as a beta weirdo by girls even if i was a bluepilled white knight and a simp and a cuck, its all the same in the end.
Honestly, I told myself that if i reached 20 and never got anything I would just give up and accept that I'm just too whatever to date, my parents will probably keep asking me as they dont get my situation cuz they did get laid at my age and will not understand what it feels like, probably someone will think im gay, but whatever.
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