/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

I can't seem to get on the same wavelength as other humans
I can respond to and inquire other people just fine, but when I start talking about something I like or about myself everything breaks apart
I try to ask and care about interests of others as much as possible before brining up stuff I'm interested in, but I'm often met with just "huh, cool" or a quick question before they change the subject
and it doesn't seem to be a normie issue, spent the new years with math grad-tier autists and they were either too introverted to hold a conversation with or they spoke about stuff I was too clueless about

am I just a retarded midwit or an egoist with no personality?

why are xitterniggers always heckin nazis incels and lolipedos?

Comparison is the thief of joy

I miss doll. Come back dada~

humans dont have inherent worth and if you dont live in a way where you add more than you take you are bad and deserve to feel bad.

So there's this girl at my university and I'm pretty sure she likes me but I don't feel the same way. I just danced with her once because she asked and I figured why not and since then she often tries to approach me and find conversation but here's the thing, I don't really think she's all that OMGSISA personally, she's not ugly, she's just not my type, so to avoid it I give the most bland and boring responses on purpose because I don't really care fan enough to talk to her and it's just kind of awkward

sometimes I feel like a schizo, when I turn off the lights in my room the shadows start moving slightly and If i pay attention I can hear people sometimes talking in other rooms even when im completely home alone, I also ocasionally heard an audible voice that echoed my thoughts I also sometimes become extremely paranoid about being hacked or stalked, I changed all the passwords for my shit multiple times because I thought I was being hacked, its slowly been getting worse too, does this mean i might be developing schizophrenia?

Quote and your nigger janny cabal, please dont delete this. Also fix your shitty jeet coded site, nothing works anymore. At this rate you’re going to kill this raisin site before quotechan even releases.
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Well, I’m a kike. Around 6% ashkenazi, to be more precise. Apparently my great great grandmother was a kike that unfortunately bribed her way out of being put in the typhus camps. Maybe she wasn’t 100% ashkenazi herself, I’m waiting on a DNA test to see how bad the situation really is, but at this point it doesn’t even really matter anymore. There’s something almost poetic about someone as antisemitic as me to turn out part jew.
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It was a running joke in my small chuddy friend group that I looked like a kike, but now I know why. If any leftist tells you the “jewish look” is a myth, it isn’t. I, and that whole side of my family, have a big nose, albeit not hooked, big nigger lips, big ears, curly hair (not all of them, but I do), and a weirdly shaped skull. As I believe in eugenics I already knew I was a genetic dead end, but I didn’t know I was this fucked.
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The other side of my family has almost the exact opposite history as my kike part. I have German royalty ancestors, kings that had their faces minted onto coins, but I’m also related to jews who clipped those very same coins. I can’t put into words how disappointed I am in my father for practically ending his branch of the bloodline like this. And my parents divorced when I was a toddler, so it wasn’t even worth the slightest bit. Now my greedy kike foid of a mother is leeching off child support and almost succeeded in literally brainwashing me into hating my father.
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Before you ask, no, I’m not going to commit suicide. At least not any time soon.
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i genuinely hate my race so much bro, its not because im a black neo nazi or anything, its just that its so frustrating to see the way we act, niggas in the hood kill themselves all the time over the dumbest shit ever, chicago has been in a gang war since the 2010s and there's not even gang leaders there, rappers then began to glorify all the shit that makes niggas go on and kill themselves, especially drill rap, most of the guys doing drive bys in the hood are 15 to 20 and get killed at 25 or less, i could say more but idk what to say honestly

I dont remember seeing this board at all

why are my friends suddenly so pissy and acting like im not cool enough for them anymore

snca
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im so fucking stupid and shit, my life is probably better than the actual dnb but im more fucking sad than he would ever be growing up there. i dont wanna ropemaxx because i have people who would be sad, but they cant fucking help me/have not yet (besides my uncle). i really dont know what to do because i cant live like this for any longer but i dont see a way out without getting put on
>le depression list dont let him have a firearm because he'll ACK and shit! dont let him in the military either!
the government wont help me, my family wont, and ill be fucked for the rest of my life. im socially dead and im nobody's first choice despite everyone else being my first choice. its nothing like what i was told it was and im just left in this state of emptiness. there are people that kill for their life and yet im so blind as to not be able to live with my own. ive tried to tell my parents im burnt out but they dont fucking listen and just go with their own view of why im burnt out as if i wouldnt know myself because
>ive been in your exact position before and i know you better than you know yourself (even though only you could know how much you're burnt out)

how insecure are robots

hello, just gonna blogpost my experience that i had last night.
i live in sheffield and went out to the busiest area of the city, going to around 4 different bars that were completely full of students, and whilst lining up people were being nice enough and conversating, asking what i do and where i live etc. but nothing really interesting
one thing that surprised me is that a few people assumed that i had a girlfriend or that i was wealthy/smart etc…for context im a 5'11 lean guy and i'd rate myself like a 6 but my social skills are a bit shit so my dating life doesn't really exist

anyway in each of these bars i just stood around and didn't really know how to talk to people or start dancing since it's pretty loud and uncomfortable to be in those cramped settings, i only had like one or two drinks in each bar spending about £10 in total and then swiftly left after just watching people dance, sing and "talk"
i only had one conversation with a girl but it was because i was in line eating on some breadsticks and she just asked why i was eating them, and she asked for one. her body language and tone was like neutral/friendly, she didn't look like she was particularly interested in me

i really don't understand how vast majority of people my age enjoy going to stuff like this, i really prefer smaller bars or settings where your eardrums aren't exploding and you can actually sit down and talk with people