/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

I already left on last year’s November but somehow got back to posting. It’s still fun and all but I’m noticing the impact it has on my general mood and behavior, like prolly every social media platform, yet you are more investigated in Imageboards since they tend to be more like a game where you really interact directly with users instead of the boring static state that generic social media finds itself in. Tips on how to avoid browsing the site every time after you literally just woke up?

Tonight I am overcome with such an intense feeling of loneliness and longing that I can't sleep.

I remember going to the mental hospital a few years ago for what my parents interpreted as suicidal behavior. There was a girl there who seemed to grow attached to me in such a way that no girl had before or has since. Though they did not allow contact, she would always lean as close as possible to me. She'd ask me to save seats next to me for her. She would show me things she wrote and drew. She would look up at me with big brown eyes and smile just when I looked back. All of this does probably sounds like the absolute bare minimum for human contact if you happen to be more socially capable, but for me it's the most affection I have ever experienced. Now it's gone because, naturally given the nature of a mental hospital, I was not able to ever see her again.

I have countless, countless stories like this from my youth. Girls just pining for my attention and affection in my youth and me not being able to give it to them. It was mostly due to cowardice. Now I've grown up and those days are over. I know better now, and I really do have the means to love a lady and give her my affection, but it's no good. These days I feel incapable of any human connection. I'm nice and friendly and people exchange pleasantries with me and as far as I can tell people like me, but I just feel nothing. Sometimes girls will even do similar things, they'll giggle and smile but it's just nothing. Most girls I get to know now are whores anyway.

I have never had a girl hug me in any romantic capacity. I've never held hands with a girl. I've never kissed a girl. I've never cuddled or had sex. I've come so close so many times but not any time recently. I'm content with waiting for someone who is right for me, but I simply cannot escape the feeling that the time has passed and I will never be loved again. Now I am just a failure, a high school drop out who can't connect with human beings and has a suicide attempt under his belt. Maybe I've fucked up irreversibly.

All of this writing and sentimentality is somewhat out of character for me, but I just needed to get it out.

normgroids love to say it gets better when in it never does. one of the dumbest copes out there

Thirsty, thirsty Thursday
Yo-del-lay, yo-del-lay-ee ho
Yo-del-lay, yo-del-lay-ee ho
Yo-del-lay, yo-del-lay-ee ho
Thirsty, thirsty Thursday
I'm up and I raise my cup, singing everything is gold
Crew neck and a white blank check
I'll be moving on my own (yo-del-lay ho)
I walked on sippin' on that love
It's another bumpy road
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how do i js stop cutting myself and taking Xannies?

67 niggers tonguing my anus right now

i want to die

Do any of you happen to have knowledge or know any books or documentation on how to be scientifically physically attractive?

Like why does the top dude look attractive while the bottom dude looks like a soyboy?

I’m a believer in the Peter principle and I believe that in order to be successful you need to have a working system or you will fail.

tfw your balls get stuck in the microwave

I've given up dating women; primarily, their diverse and widely differing character traits put me off. I wouldn't describe myself as bisexual, although I do think it would be more complete for me to venture into the world of homoeroticism and find someone somewhat similar to me. It's important to me, however, that my partner is rather calm and thoughtful. Now, my empirical observations have contradicted me: faggots have always been loud and trivial. Nick Fuentes fits this image, he is ideological, unbearably loud, and has completely submitted to the mematic sociolect.I can't stand people like that and long for someone with whom I can engage in armchair philosophy on the balcony during a cold winter. Of course, I'm fully aware that generalizing from a few examples to the whole group is unreasonable and, above all, illogical, but so far nothing has changed my mind. What do you guys think?

You are not special, As a true non-normie I see pattern how normies try to Larp as non-normies and call actual non-normies as normies. Stop the faggotry, real non-normies dont talk to people and they dont care about normie things like relationship/dating with normie foid(And normie foid larpign as non normie) YOU ARE NOT SPECIAL, YALL ARE SAME FAGGOT NIGGERS

it gets better nusoi i swear

This guy who I stalked for months raped me. He had 10 or something more girlfriends. I told him not to stress. I cooked for him and I looked after him. He then cheated on me! I hate men. Men are disgusting cheating beings. Fuck incels fuck lonely men.

How the HELL does this happen?

it’s late and i don’t know if anyone’s going to see this by the time it matters since nobody even uses this board especially during euro hours but im seriously considering sending a long message to an ex i last broke up with 6 months ago tomorrow, im at a loss as to what i should currently do and i don’t have anyone else to go to for this.
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i want to get some kind of closure and leave the door open for a potential relationship but i feel like we’re sort of through, she’s currently matching profile pictures with some autist she met 3 months ago on the internet (basically my replacement) and it demoralizes me even more
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i just need to get this all out since there was a lot left unsaid. i understand this could be a horrible idea, especially since she doesn’t react well to any sort of serious conversations and i really don’t want to reopen any wounds but to me it’s way better than just never speaking again. to tell you the truth i really don’t know what i seek to gain by doing so but ive just felt so miserable ever since we broke up, she meant the world to me. do any ‘teens have genuine advice on how i should go about this?