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I have nowhere else to vent about this because I have no person to listen.
I am alone and I feel like death. I wish that I had love in my life and someone to talk to but there is nothing. I do not have any hope of love or human bonding anymore, there is nothing for me in this world.
How alone are other people on this imageboard? I no longer have any online connections either, I have never gone to a party in my life or had a girlfriend, I am khhv. The few male friends I had either betrayed me greatly or have not spoken to me in a long time. Loneliness is destroying me but I do not feel like escaping it anymore. I am the type of person who understand defeat and this life has defeated me.
When every single attempt ends in failure I cannot believe that it could ever be different, recently something happened to me that has officially decapitated my faith in this existence, I won't bother explaining here though.
I am going to die alone and nobody will ever have loved me. I do not just mean a females sexual attraction or anything, I mean everyone. They have no care for me, I thought they could be similar to me but I was wrong. Males are just as bad as females when it comes to treachery and selfishness.
No one understands me, no one can help me, nobody will ever be in the same boat as me, nobody cares about what happens to me, it would feel better being six feet under.
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>>83724 (OP)>Nobaldi understands me, nobaldi can help me, nobaldi will ever be in the same boat as me, nobaldi cares about what happens to me.Yes everybaldi is alone because nobaldi will ever know anybaldi truly. Does your mother really know you? If not did she ever love you in reality?
<nobaldispacePeople only know what they can reconstruct about you in their own minds based on what you present about yourself conciously and unconciously. The thing is even if your outwardly presentation is inline with your inner self most people still, can hardly decipher these signals in the correct way that would give a good understanding for them about you. In a way everyone is alone.
The only one you can relie on is yourself and not one else.
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>>83733tsmt. Being alone by yourself to clear your thoughts will help you become a better version of yourself.
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>>83725Marge what is this website. It seems to be a chatroom with bird avatars
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>>83743a furry chatroom where you can fulfill your fetish coal fantasies
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>>83724 (OP)real bro. real
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I talked a bit with some coworkers at work without really making any new friends. Then one day I noticed a poster put up by one of them in the break room advertising a karoke meet up outside of company time. Asked the guy organizing it for information. Went to the spot and had fun. Ended up joining the same association group as the guy from work once I learned he was using their space every time he hosted the event. I also paid attention to the local newspaper adverts then on and joined any event including Christian stuff since I already went to Church, that I read about and was able to make the time for.
My own personal concern is not if all these people honestly like me or if I will ever have a girlfriend. I just do these things cause they can be benifical and often are a bit of fun. It also prevents me being a sad sack all day thinking of death or doubting in God's love. I got over thinking of my own lackluster looks or shit spot in life once I realised how grateful I am to live in a world where I can mostly do what I want despite others indifference towards me. Once you get past that hurdle everything gets brighter and you stop pussy footing around going to thr gym every week when you known you aren't seen or botherkng others. Just do what you love and stop hating on the one person capable of making you feel good daily.