>>100433today recaptoday I finally had enough money to renew my gym membership, since starting this thread I have just been doing bodyweight excerises at home. I did a full workout today and feel absolutely drained in a good way. I also cleaned my entire apartment. I will have completed 7/8 of my daily tasks today. I feel strange. I am not used to being this healthy and productive, it feels extremely weird and unsettling to me but I will keep going.
Tomorrow I am going to a church meeting that I used to enjoy attending a lot, its a small group with a lot of other people my age there. I might meet my wife award, kidding, probably not… unless? There is also a guy that goes that whom I have quite bad blood with, I'm just going to try to avoid him.
My main focus currently is a calorie deficit. I am the heaviest I have ever been right now and am quite uncomfortable with my appearance. My oven is broke so I can only eat food that can be cooked on the stovetop, so it requires a little more discipline, but I NEED to get lean before I kill myself. I will endeavour to track every single calorie that goes into my mouth from here on out. My current daily calorie allotment is 1900 but I will lower this if i don't see progress soon.
If you read all this let me know, I doubt anyone will since this is atomic levels of SNCA, but posting this in a place where people can see it helps me a lot. thank you for reading, chud.