>>74581some more details; it went on for so long after 16 too and it was so destructive to my entire life, i can't believe that i was even able to stop it recently.
i know for a fact that video made a huge difference because i was drawn back to the EXACT same content that i was exposed to as a 12 year old, i hate that youtube even allows any of it on there.
that's the end of my blogposting doe, time for me to actually take a break and get off