/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

stupid foids

I enjoy fantasizing about having a girlfriend more than actually having one. How do I fix this?

Like nigga every time I hear a normie or one of my IRL friends say looksmaxxing terms or other shit like "chud" I just want to stab them to death. Any tips on not cringing myself to death when I hear shit like this because I can't do this shit no more

I've been with my girlfriend for 4-5 years straight, and I don't feel anything towards her. I don't feel romantically or sexually attracted towards her. She says it's "normal" but I think it's fucked up and I want to feel romance. Sometimes I feel romance when I talk to friends who I don't get to see a lot, but I haven't felt it with her since year 1.
>get to the point
I think I should go to a club and cheat on her with multiple women so I could feel something maybe, or at least make her bitch and cry. Idk why she would care but seems like she does. I wouldn't care if she did the same to me anyways. Any other reccomendations on how to destroy her?

Nothing would leave me for fulfilled and satisfied in life than dancing with a girl. The thought of just getting lost in a young girls eyes whilst moving in tandem - willingly and longingly - makes me want to weep. Gripping her hands and swaying about with chemical sparks of what makes up love practically shooting off in any and all direction like a firework. There's something so warped and wrong in the fact that I cannot, and likely will not be ever able to do this. I've been to a singular school dance in my entire life, and I spent the three hours alone sulking in the corner of the venue, all short-lived attempts at getting into the large wealth of students dancing in the center being rejected by my own embarrassment. I have so much love to give and no-one to give it to. Kill me now.

Most people see me as disgusting and I'm still female presenting. I have weird fucked up fetishes (scat porn, female chastity, humiliation). I genuinely feel like killing myself sometimes but it makes me so wet to think about some guy, obviously stronger than me, spitting on me and insulting me. I will never be masculine. why the fuck does it turn me on so much?

I have tried over the past half a year or so to find some girls that are in my area through instagram and stuff and I've written with multiple of them and I've noticed that 99% of them are just plain boring.
They don't have any interesting hobbies or interests. Even if they have unique aesthetics and stuff it's mostly like some kind of fucking larping, as in they don't have any deeper interest in the stuff they claim to like or are only surface level interested.
Where the fuck are women that have hobbies and not just "partying and working out"?

ive been having bouts of life fatigue and thinking how absurdly mundane my life has been due to the fact my social life is virtually nonexistent. I just wish i could have a deep and meaningful conversation with someone with whom i dont have to fucking jester or pretend to like for the sake of keeping pleasant company or keeping a reputation since for the past year ive only had like one seriously autistic friend who is turbo terminally online and god every time we hang out its a fucking embarrasmnent to be around

some days i just wish i was brought up normally in my home country instead of dealing with this limbo of being a 2nd gen immigrant where i legit have nothing to be proud of or that i dont know who i am
i might as well have been brought up with no family since i know essentially nothing about my relatives barring my parents and sister, and even then my fucking father is absent and distant and my mother is a narcy bitch who ive just been stonewalling ever since our last argument over a year ago.
it was all from the like the most mundane chore and i asked her to organize and clean out the garden shed with me since there was so much shit piling up and i wanted to try store my bicycle inside, since i didnt want to leave it out of the rain to rot. so i ask her to do it and she initially agrees to it, saying that she’ll do it after lunch. then i ask her a few hours after lunch and she just loses her shit and martyrs herself, bitching throughout the whole thing for no reason and i asked her why are you so angry all of a sudden and she said that i was like forcing her to help me organise the shed (EVEN THO I LITERALLY ASKED BEFOREHAND.) and then when we had to dump some things in the car to transfer it to the recycling centre, i told her that screaming at me for no reason and being such a rude bitch to her son isn’t acceptable, and then she just lost her fucking mind saying that i sound just like my father, that im ungrateful and worthless, i should be hit, if my grandfather was here A etc etc.
on the way back i was just silent and then in my room she just barges in and i literally cried in front of her begging her to try and be a good mother and i just lost it, where i just pointed out all of her retarded narcissistic behaviours (which i can explain if anyones curious) and all she said to me was “you suffered too much”
not even an apology or accounting for herself just the most retarded statement ive ever heard and then left my roPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

listen to the sun king guys

anyone know any mindless desk jobs like data entry? preferably something where i can veg out with YouTube playing in the background, but with more job security. I don't mind the pay being bad doe

this site is a black-hole filled with fucking losers and social outcasts jesus christ i have neve seen such an autistic, defeatist and unbearable group of bunch of genetic dead-ends
its over for 99% of you and im happy i am not as unfortunate as you fucking politically extreme retards

TESTAMENT I
MANKIND IS A FAILURE.

FREE WILL IS A FLAW.

LET THE EVIL OF THEIR OWN
LIPS CONSUME THEM.


THEN I SHALL BEGIN AGAIN,
WITH MY WORD AS LAW.

Discussion only about irl action. Onlyfans users should be 'oxed and 'aped.
>What is escort?
<It's when you give somebody money to get laid or get girlfriend/boyfriend experience.
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Would you try it?
Even if it's just kisses und hugs, fun time together and emotional joy?
Do you see it immoral/disgusting?
Would you turn your back on your friend o algo if she/he is a prostitute or use such servises?
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>'teen why are you asking?
<I'm a faggot and want to help pipu get boyfriend expirience, I also want money

do gums made to strengthen your jawline actually work?