/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

I'm pretty sure I've begun to develop some kind of psychosis. Lately I've have constant bouts of severe stress where I feel like I'm about to die or I'm in severe danger.

I think this whole started maybe a month ago. It started off with me constantly imagining that I was in a warzone, it was things like randomly imagining a sniper scope in a window or thinking that there could be a machine gun in truck beds. I didn't really think it was real but it kept happening to me and I just didn't know what to make of it. It seems to have decreased now but they still occasionally effect me.

Other than that I've noticed that I keep having violent fantasies. I keep imagining myself participating in a riot, or a shootout, or stabbing someone. It's not revenge based or anything, the people are just random dudes, instead it seems to be something about the thrill I get from it.

It's like I'm just fantasizing about committing mindless violence for the thrill of it. I know it sounds disturbing and it is but I don't think I take it very seriously, it's just something that constantly pops into my head.

The thing I mentioned at the start with bouts of stresses started a few days ago. They get more intense every day and I swear in the most recent I was seeing things in the corner of my eye. So far they only occur when its dark. Oddly enough I can't say I'm particularly scared of them outside of when they're actually happening.

This whole thing probably sounds unhinged and random but I just don't know how else to write it. I'll try and elaborate in the comments and I'll answer any questions if you have them. I just have no clue what's happening to me.