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I'm pretty sure I've begun to develop some kind of psychosis. Lately I've have constant bouts of severe stress where I feel like I'm about to die or I'm in severe danger.

I think this whole started maybe a month ago. It started off with me constantly imagining that I was in a warzone, it was things like randomly imagining a sniper scope in a window or thinking that there could be a machine gun in truck beds. I didn't really think it was real but it kept happening to me and I just didn't know what to make of it. It seems to have decreased now but they still occasionally effect me.

Other than that I've noticed that I keep having violent fantasies. I keep imagining myself participating in a riot, or a shootout, or stabbing someone. It's not revenge based or anything, the people are just random dudes, instead it seems to be something about the thrill I get from it.

It's like I'm just fantasizing about committing mindless violence for the thrill of it. I know it sounds disturbing and it is but I don't think I take it very seriously, it's just something that constantly pops into my head.

The thing I mentioned at the start with bouts of stresses started a few days ago. They get more intense every day and I swear in the most recent I was seeing things in the corner of my eye. So far they only occur when its dark. Oddly enough I can't say I'm particularly scared of them outside of when they're actually happening.

This whole thing probably sounds unhinged and random but I just don't know how else to write it. I'll try and elaborate in the comments and I'll answer any questions if you have them. I just have no clue what's happening to me.

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have you tried seeing a doctor retard?

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>>92491
therapy is jewish

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also I'd get sent to a psych ward or something and I'm not gonna deal with that

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try playing specific games so you can live all of that out

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This is R9K on bald man with glasses website. Why post this here?

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>>>92491
>therapy is jewish
<inorganic compound

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>>92497
I don't have anywhere else honestly. There's no one I trust irl with this and this board is anonymous so there's no risk posting it here

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>>92495
>>92493
i wont deny it's jewish, but i think that's better than hallucinating

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>>92529
I just don't want to go to a psychward or anything like that. Not only would that interfere with my current life a lot, I have a job and stuff, but it would permanently be on my record and I don't want to take any risks with that. I might get banned from owning firearms or something like that, I would rather just try and deal with it myself

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>>92483 (OP)
get an exorcism

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Ok, a few updates

The stress attacks have decreased and gotten less intense but I did just have one today.

The violent fantasies are about the same as before

I've noticed that I've also begun to legitimately just write random nonsense. I will open up a document and just spam random keys because it seems to bring me some sort of happiness. I should mention that I'm fairly depressed at this point in life and most things aren't interesting to me

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see a doctor my nigga

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>>92881
Do something don't be passive

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>>92483 (OP)

Go see doctor, take ur medz, stop watching violent shit

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>>92906
What am I supposed to do? I can't stop it

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>>92483 (OP)
I've dealt with similar problems, it might be just you being too keyed for society.
In this depraved world or hen shit like Charlie Kirk assassination happens (yes he was a ziocuck but he represents anyone who's not a commietroon) you just get the masculine urge to strike back.
<I'm gonna behead this Hasan nigger with a dull machete!!

You essentially start thinking like a glowie proxy shooter, at least that's my experience, you seem to be more generally violent.

My advice to you bratan, is to tune it out with entertainment, because those sentiments are not wholly wrong but whatever you feel you might end up doing if you spiral into them and follow through has a very high chance of being wrong.

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>>92483 (OP)
>Other than that I've noticed that I keep having violent fantasies. I keep imagining myself participating in a riot, or a shootout, or stabbing someone. It's not revenge based or anything, the people are just random dudes, instead it seems to be something about the thrill I get from it.
>It's like I'm just fantasizing about committing mindless violence for the thrill of it. I know it sounds disturbing and it is but I don't think I take it very seriously, it's just something that constantly pops into my head.
This is pretty normal. Did you know 1 outta 4 women fantasize about smothering their newborn? And thats with foid T-levels, so you're probably fine.
Psychosis isnt just having weird daydreams bro

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>>93405
Yeah, I have noticed that some of it has to do with political violence. That might explains the violent parts but I still don't know if it explains everything.
>>93444
That's not the only thing though. I might've done a bad job of explaining it really feels like something is happening. I'm at about the age where schizophrenia/similar disorders develop. I've read about how those disorders develop and it seems scarily similar to what I'm going through.

I haven't had any visual hallucinations but I've experienced plenty of other stuff. I have frequent periods of stress where I feel my life is at risk, I'm randomly suspicious and angry at people over things I really shouldn't, I have very violent fantasies and seem to be desensitized to violence.

I've also sort of begun hearing voices. They're not really auditory but they're more like thoughts which pop into my head and I narrate without my control. For example I often experience my life being narrated as if it's a documentary, I can sort of suppress but it's mostly out of my control. It's not a particular vivid/loud voice but it's certainly there. Other than that I experience what are sort of whispers telling me to do something or getting angry at me for doing something "wrong"

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>>93459
>having an internal monologue is being le schizo in da big '26

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You have to let the fear wash over you and accept it, it’s the only way you’ll get through this, this sounds like a mild anxiety/panic disorder, maybe comorbid with some OCD with the strange intrusive thoughts, do your best not to react with your body when these thoughts occur, don’t move or go into another room, or close your eyes etc, don’t react whatsoever and "sit” inside the fear, embrace it, feel it, and it will pass, switch your sleep schedule to get more sunlight and get more sleep if you’re not, don’t smoke weed or drink or fuck your head up with any of that. Maybe supplement some ashwagandha or something. But i speak from experience that your brain needs to rewire itself to learn its environment is safe and that’s done by being calm in your environment

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Me and OP

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>>93483
nigga I've always had an internal monologue, I know what that feels like. This seems different



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