/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>Born 5 weeks prematurely cause my mom had breast cancer and APPARENTLY I would fucking die in the womb o algo
>Ever since I was little I was bullied for being different and acting weird
>Since 2014-2015 I feel like a fucking ghost and empty, like seriously i dont feel as full emotionally and comfortable as before.
>always bullied by the popular kids, never allowed outside until i was 14, monitored constantly
>Had a crush i was soo OBSESSED with i dedicated whole book to and took creepshots of her, around 200 pages or so, i learnt she already had a fucking bf which drove me into a state i cant even fucking describe, i broke down crying on the toilet cutting myself
>once back in 2019, the Popular girls posted pictures of me on instagram calling me slurs (im white and skinny btw)
>i had a deep self harm addiction since age of 12
>i tried to kill myself same year using my fathers Venlafaxine, 2000mg in the morning, i got a seizure in school and teachers had to call a ambulance
>spent like 2 weeks in my local hospital then 5 weeks in a mental hospital with bunch of retards forced to do group therapies
>Diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder in 2022
>my mom called me a psycho, beat me when i fought back and made fun of me for it until i left her in March 2025
>I learnt that i was on the Autism spectrum, Mom kept it a secret away from me
>Now living alone in my ex-granny apartment i managed to get into my own name before these two neaderthals i call my parents would snatch it to sell to blackrock or something, working in Datart with shitty electrical engineer degree meaning i will get replaced by a indian by 2030, tried dating and cant get anyone but gay men
I have no words to say about my life, i would rather be born indian in canada and be faced with jeet slur once a while than this life

You assholes dont understand what a gift it would be to be born fucking normal, to feel normally, to act normally, to not be awkward, to not fucking go to the goy therapist every week or so.


notes for jannies: I do not support suicide and im not annoucing my suicide date cause i dont wanna do it and dont do it or something