what can i do if i have this girl on mind? and i am not even mad that she doesnt want me, i just want to accept we will never be friends
so picture this, in my school there is this japanese girl who is a year younger, she is not even hafu or something like that, shes completely japanese, speaks japanese and shit and even goes on constant trips to japan.
i like her a lot, shes not idol-level cute and i dont even know anyone besides me who likes her, but for me shes a complete SISA, i like seeing at her from afar even if i know she doesnt like me and prob sees me as a weirdo, she also has this bob haircut that makes her look straight out of the 80s showa which for me is pretty cute
the problem is that i am a 5'7 shitskinned latinx mulattocel (we live in the spanish caribbean) and i wouldn't have a chance with her because of my beta nerd ass personality and incellish (actually standardcel) tendencies, unless i had like a super-confident and fliratious hood nigga thug personality or something like that, i dont know, i heard she had boyfriends and shit but i have no idea what she likes, i had a date once with a girl that only wanted me cause her granny died and she needed somone to cling to, and a kiss.
i'm on my last year of school anyways and i know i wont see her again but it keeps bothering me, shes so cute ad i just with i could talk to her, know her better.
and i actually talked with her for a while once one day after she gave me her number, i thought it was finally gonna be my moment but she only started venting how she missed her ex and shit, when i tried to talk about myself she was uninterested and said she did not like me, to then proceed to start gushing about my friend (actually white, muscular dude with blonde hair) and after that she sent him a love letter (he didnt like her at all)
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