FUCK, i know i said the other thread would be my last and i'm aware that i should stop making these. however, i felt as if i needed to dive into something i didn't dive into before.i'm not sure if i ever mentioned it in full detail until now, but do you

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confirming something Chud nnFAIUDL 12/08/25 (Mon) 23:05:52 №74389 [Quote]

FUCK, i know i said the other thread would be my last and i'm aware that i should stop making these. however, i felt as if i needed to dive into something i didn't dive into before.
i'm not sure if i ever mentioned it in full detail until now, but do you think it's really only my OCD at this point?
every single time i start worrying and stressing over it, i keep having to clear my throat constantly as if i'm being strangled.
at it's absolute worst, i couldn't even go to sleep at night a few times before.
it's like attempting to solve an intricate puzzle within my mind whenever i try and stop it, as if i have to do the "right things" in order to make it go away for a moment.
in a way, it's also like my own head has me at gun point to force me to keep worrying about it and making these shitty threads and doing whatever else it requires.
<REDDIT
NOW, i'll mention the exact worry it's associated with and repeat what i said before but for you to review it with this thread's context; do you think i'm some actual lolipedobranigger that shouldn't breathe, or is it really some meaningless obsession that makes no sense?
from 16 to 20 i had a porn addiction before i finally stopped at 21 (this year). during when i was already an adult, i was carelessly gooning to some of these teenaged tranime characters, AND at only 16 and 17 i was stupid enough to goon to some actual branigger material. none of this was in a dedicated way, but in a way where i had some instances of it happening when i wasn't actually thinking of it. i even had a few incidents of it earlier this year before my birthday.
with that laid out (again), do you think you can confirm this as something that is just OCD atp and that i deserve to finally move on considering i already stopped gooning and got way more responsible?
maybe i'll actually get to break this cycle by naming what might be my actual problem, idfk. at least now you can see why i couldn't stop posting all of those stupid ass threads.
<REDDIT 2
also, i didn't make that miss circle futa thread. that was bait made by someone else, geg
and yes, i'm who actually posted >>74090 (OP) and all of the other ones before it
i also have to apologize to you for wasting so much of your fucking time, i'm not even kidding. i can't believe i'm making another one of these again but at least this has some sort of an actual explanation.
god damnit

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 00:01:03 №74393 [Quote]

i'll also mention that i've had some weird OCD related obsessions like this years ago where i "needed" to constantly think of and do something the right way, also to add more to that "exact worry" part, at 18 and maybe 19 i might also have gooned to more tranime slop that might have slightly leaned towards the weirder shit i gooned to as a 16 and 17 year old teenager, though of course like the other stuff i wasn't really thinking of it when i did it and i thought of it as "more porn" as retarded as that sounds, later on i think there were some other teenaged tranime characters i feel like i should've known the ages of which i decided to turn my brain off for to stupidly use as "more porn" again. i'm getting everything out there to see if all of these worries can be confirmed as strictly OCD and to also see if there should be nothing to worry about anymore, it's embarrassing but it's a better alternative than having my own mind torture me about it

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 06:41:00 №74410 [Quote]

>>74393
adding some more details here, there might even be some crap i can't remember and i don't even know how accurate this is
like what i described that happened at 18 and 19 might've even also happened somewhere after i turned 20 too, i can at least say it wasn't as horrible as the "actual branigger material" i described from a few years before it though
<PREDDIT
BUT my actual point is that id like if someone verified this as a ocd related worry that doesn't even really have a purpose, it sounds dumb but i can't even really trust myself the most despite the fact that you probably think i'd be able to see what it is
i know this is SNCA and now it feels like i'm somewhat making a duplicate of my other threads, but the symptoms i described can really suck whenever it stresses me out

Chud IehZBhSM 12/09/25 (Tue) 07:02:12 №74413 [Quote]

test aasd 2

Chud IehZBhSM 12/09/25 (Tue) 07:04:33 №74415 [Quote]

holy shit nigger, ur an autistic baiter pedophile who likes reppeys.

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 07:06:09 №74416 [Quote]

>>74413
marge
>>74415
you have no idea how hard it is to deal with obsessive compulsive disorder

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 07:26:48 №74420 [Quote]

i really wish i was baiting or making it all up but it's an actual problem that makes my head want to explode, it's not even something i can totally control

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 13:21:30 №74449 [Quote]

>>74420
whenever this gets really bad i can feel my hands trembling and my throat begins feeling dry, it's like coming down with a really bad sickness of some sort and it makes you feel restless

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 14:18:44 №74460 [Quote]

do i really deserve to get to move on from this?

Chud 9nBpI0Xd 12/09/25 (Tue) 16:00:12 №74464 [Quote]

>>74389 (OP)
Me but with BBC

Chud zE1!VP4o 12/09/25 (Tue) 16:54:11 №74465 [Quote]

>>74389 (OP)
Please end your life at the earliest possible convenience. Thanks.

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 16:58:36 №74466 [Quote]

>>74465
too lazy

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 17:11:46 №74469 [Quote]

if you asked me to have some sort of a stroke from all of this, that would be more possible considering the stress from this is real

Chud SraqMbxD 12/09/25 (Tue) 19:34:20 №74480 [Quote]

>>74466
Doxx urself I’ll do it for you, I’ve always wanted to try out merdur (consensually, ofc)

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 19:37:43 №74481 [Quote]

>>74480
have that much of a problem with these threads? can't blame you much since i make way too many of them
i'm not sure if you're going to give an actual answer, but what's your view on this thread? is it really just some SNCA i worry too much about?

Chud 66C^cMpD 12/09/25 (Tue) 22:50:24 №74504 [Quote]

stop clogging up the board nigger with your snca

Chud LT!Aiyii 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:00:14 №74508 [Quote]

>>74481
bro if you make a thrembillion threads about this same subject nobody is going to give a shit
i don’t even read the textwalls you write anymore

to answer your question(s): fake and gay

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:19:50 №74510 [Quote]

>>74508
yeah i get what you're saying, likely i worry too much over this for no reason
i'm probably repetitive with it because of having OCD so it makes it harder to get over and it makes me ruminate about it more

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:26:39 №74511 [Quote]

>>74510
>Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) features a pattern of unwanted thoughts and fears known as obsessions. These obsessions lead you to do repetitive behaviors, also called compulsions. These obsessions and compulsions get in the way of daily activities and cause a lot of distress.
shit sucks.

Chud a2LUorOD 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:48:11 №74512 [Quote]

>>74389 (OP)
Bro has diddy ocd 💀

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:51:19 №74513 [Quote]

>>74512
trvthnvke, can you tell me if it's irrational to keep thinking of it atp especially since i stopped gooning at all
it's a dumb request but it would kind of help

Chud a2LUorOD 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:53:14 №74516 [Quote]

>>74513
Do you think about raping kids when you see them in public?

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:54:04 №74517 [Quote]

>>74516
hell no, it's not that bad thank god bro
it's just that tranime crap i saw that screws with me still since i know braniggers are considered nearly as bad as the real deal

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:57:27 №74519 [Quote]

>>74517
it went on from 16 to like 20, so it messes me up that looking at some weird underaged tranime shit continued to my adulthood (likely had the worst case of it when i was 16 and 17)
i never really dedicated myself to looking at it at least tbh, it was sort of there through me being careless and i mainly gooned to legal tranime sisas, so i think my brain was just so trained on that i was getting off on tranime shit generally rather than getting off on any actual underage aspects

Chud sZhWj9nP 12/10/25 (Wed) 00:02:09 №74522 [Quote]

>>74519
Is it the only thing that gets you off?

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/10/25 (Wed) 00:05:29 №74527 [Quote]

>>74522
i was able to goon to a real life sisa before, but for tranime porn i was really addicted to it yeah
as for the teenaged tranime and lolishit i was stupid enough to do it to before when i wasn't thinking of it, nope i didn't find that to be the only thing that got me off and i never was an actual dedicated lolipedo
i guess i already established this in my main post and >>74393 though

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/10/25 (Wed) 00:39:02 №74540 [Quote]

even though it had to be a few mistakes i did when i wasn't really thinking too much into anything, i find it really hard to forgive myself for some reason and it leads me to repetitively thinking of it
hence all of my threads

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/10/25 (Wed) 01:16:18 №74541 [Quote]

>>74540
i know constantly seeking validation is like being a tranny, but can someone tell me if i'm actually okay and that these are possibly just intrusive thoughts that don't hold any real meaning

Chud 66C^cMpD 12/10/25 (Wed) 01:25:04 №74543 [Quote]

>>74541
look can you please just shut the fuck up and stop spamming and clogging the board. a quick google search will let you know that there is a sub variant of OCD that pertains to what you’re struggling with called POCD. you’re just mentally ill and anxious and need to get offline. talk about this with a therapist or someone IRL not the sharty because they’ll keep trying to rile you up and make you feel like shit and like you’re an actual pedo (which you are not) please go and read on POCD

Chud nnFAIUDL 12/10/25 (Wed) 01:31:06 №74546 [Quote]

>>74543
tysm, that means a lot to me as dumb as i might sound

Chud 66C^cMpD 12/10/25 (Wed) 01:35:13 №74548 [Quote]

>>74546
no problem, i hope you can get some irl help and that knowing that POCD exists can give you a little closure. maybe see if there are any discussion forums for people who are struggling

Chud gVr0yDDM 12/10/25 (Wed) 01:50:06 №74551 [Quote]

Reported for rule 2, enjoy your ban