№74090[Quote]
i'm going to be a retard and make YET another thread like as if i didn't make a billion of them already,
—>;
>>73315 (OP) but i think i irreparably rekt my brain with porn. you'll geg at this (and you should) but i gooned to way too much hentai and rule 34 that it shits all over my self-image and there might be some things (like media) i can't look at without feeling shame because of it, it feels as if there's a part of me i'll never get back. there's also the fact that i can't really do much and i can't even be comfortable sitting down to watch or play something, not to mention my health is crap. i also keep getting these zits which don't seem to stop. i'm not even worried about anything anymore, i feel empty and have no energy at all. if you were in my position, what would you even do at this point?
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there are also some more details i haven't mentioned here which are in my other thread, it seems like 4.5 years of this was enough to fuck me up however and it went on from 16 to when i finally decided to stop after recently turning 21. i'm not even sure what i can think of atm
№74094[Quote]
what I would probably do is larp exercise just to feel happy. Or I dunno, Live with sadness in your heart and just stop looking at porn. You know porn is really sad. Idk how niggers can look at it. It's the saddest shit in existence.
№74095[Quote]
>>74094i've stopped looking at it for months now thankfully, it's just left me in a mess
№74096[Quote]
>>74095yea so exercise. Porn is literally just a sad giver, it's not like there's something wrong with you it's just you need to do something that gives you dopamine
№74097[Quote]
I've had this same shit happen to me 100th times but the moment I do like anything dopimean inducing it goes away. I thought I was so depressed one time that I was staring up at the moon wishing I would die, but then I had like 1 bite of good food and suddenly felt normal again.
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>>74096probably true, i'll see about it.
>>74097that happens yeah, one thing that still bothers me about it is the r34 goonslop i've seen considering that can ruin certain media for you.
i did hear that re-engaging with the affected media can remove that effect, but it still feels like a stain on my memory in a way and it feels as if there's still some shame tied to it. maybe i just think about it way too much?
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>>74098top ten media kike jew trans porn artists make r34 out of:
fnaf
anime
thomas the tank engine
bbc idk
like blud just don't watch anime or thomas the tank engine. Like I get what you mean I can't look at alot of things the same way after having my brain run through, but most media is fucking soy anyway. Like who tf actually likes anime.
№74103[Quote]
>>74102geg good point tbh, the effect will probably wear off on its own after a while too so i could be stressing out over nothing
№74107[Quote]
>>74090 (OP)you are literally overthinking this shit. you should get out of the mindset that you are the victim forever and can't get out of the pit that you fell into, stop posting these threads you're quite literally making it worse
№74108[Quote]
>>74107not wrong, i can't even complain about your take because you're spot on.
i suppose my biggest worry is feeling like a irredeemable jartycuck for my actions that happened during my whole addiction period
№74109[Quote]
>>74108the thing is who the fuck cares if you were a porn addict 300 years ago if you don't bring it up like a retarded ape
№74110[Quote]
>>74109its only in your mind btw
№74111[Quote]
>>74109i only got to quit a couple of months ago so it comes off as more shocking to me, the fact i was gooning to underage tranime characters while already an adult seems fucked (whether it was the outright branigger shit i messed up with or the teenaged ones)
what makes it feel that way is how it can be a gateway into some bad shit, proven with how loliniggers go for real children
>>74110i guess you're right, but i'm not sure how thinking that it's only in my mind alone can totally invalidate some of the worries of it
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>>74111while less worried about it now, it's still a bad time that i went through that's hard to totally shake off quickly
i wanted to add this precisely because it wasn't exactly "300 years ago"
№74113[Quote]
>>74111>>74112look, my point is that there's a difference between taking responsibility for your actions and chaining yourself to shame forever, don’t treat this like a life sentence especially if you quit already
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>>74113that's fair man, i respect what you're saying
i can own up to the fact that i am being really retarded with making so many of these snca threads and i have to thank you for having the patience to reply to me like this tbh. i need to stop doing this like you've told me to do so
№74115[Quote]
geg i also noticed i said "the fact" like multiple times in this thread, i honestly need to add more variety to my messages
anyways everything you've said is honestly true, i'm not sure what to post anymore but i do know that i'm finally going to stop posting about this
№74117[Quote]
i'm not sure if f96uyPk! is still here but if you have more to say, i'd like to hear it
i have to admit that the problem with me is that i seem to needlessly worry about stupid shit. i likely have to control myself better when it comes to that
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>>74117last bump, i know it's embarrassing i'm still posting in this thread without any recent replies
though i've been honestly doing better today, right now i'm just looking for some ways to generally improve my mindset (specifically with worrying about past/small things)
№74124[Quote]
I'm the other guy with the OCD and i didn't realize this thread was up but whatever. My mind went fully crazy yesterday because i felt like gooning to some Sick Incest Tranime stuff and eventually went to some AI gf site before getting irritated by it and leaving. I was suffering about 3 hours of insomnia that night. I got sort of enlightened the day after and realized i need to stop my phone addiction and stop isolating myself by any means (although i will have to distance myself from my mother because she keeps overcontrolling me and criticizes me often). I also have read a old samurai story where some guy gets into a prison and gets tortured by a gang because he refuses to speak before eventually killing everyone and escaping by using tricks (I have read it before but it felt more real this this time). It sounds weird but this exact story made me feel like all my problems are caused by lack of willpower wich. Although stuff like this is easier said then done i feel alot thougher then before rn. Thinking about some of the other stuff i have done still heavily sucks either ways telling myself i was underage anyways kinda helps but not alot doe
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i'm going to fall for the bait and mention that
>>74129 (OP) is a false flag even though i'm sure anyone can tell geg
№74132[Quote]
>>74131Are you the real OP?
№74133[Quote]
>>74132of course, you can tell by seeing that i have the same UID as the main post of this thread
>>74090 (OP) №74136[Quote]
>>74122i'll mention one last time that this is probably my only problem remaining atp, a lot of traumatic irl shit occurred alongside my addiction at the time so that's part of what fuels the shame the most
i'm also going to sage to prevent further bumping this, i'm not sure if anyone really cares that much but i wanted to leave this off regardless for a chance i might get another response
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>>74136this is also going to be my last thread, so assume any other one like this that gets made isn't by me
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>>74138That's sad since i rather reply on other threads because it gives me more confidence
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>>74142i mean these things have to come to an end sometime, i'm only trying to find reasons to move on
>>74124the insomnia sounds rough, hopefully you get ahold of that
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>>74143>i mean these things have to come to an end sometime, i'm only trying to find reasons to move onSame but it obviously sucks more. I hate the way it makes me look like a hypocrite but in an even nastier way then any person on this board can imagine. What i looked up was technically harmless then any brannigger content (although i used to look that stuff up between 12 and early 16 but never masturbated to it. It was extremely messed up and it always freaked me out i think i watched usually it to make myself disgusted and see how degenerate the world is.) it is still extremely nasty and disgusting to watch at this point.
>the insomnia sounds rough, hopefully you get ahold of thatIt happened because i was too ashamed for looking that stuff up and the fact that i already turned 18 in November. I eventually got rid of it there was one worse incident wich didn't let me sleep the whole night because i watched some extremely disgusting tranime. Looking back i just seem extremely messed up
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>>74146dude if you didn't masturbate to it at all, i think you have even less to worry about
i'm honestly coming to terms with what i have gooned to and i find myself agreeing with
>>74113also you should just stay away from disturbing shit like that, idk why you're even watching it. make sure you watch something that actually gives you a good mood instead
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>>74147>also you should just stay away from disturbing shit like that, idk why you're even watching it. make sure you watch something that actually gives you a good mood insteadI ask that myself too but that was months ago already. I'm mostly out of it now although i fell off extremely hard yesterday because i was probably extremely weak minded even doe i didn't goon ( i had kind of a rough day) but i don't wanna justify in any ways because it's extremely degenerate and messed up. Atleast i'm out of it again now
№74152[Quote]
>>74150this'll sound funny but what if we both came to an agreement to let this go, lets ask ourselves this; is it really worth obsessing with anymore? because it doesn't seem like it is. i'm still welcome to anyone willing to possibly hop in and give advice, but it's probably for the best if we begin trying to get our minds off of this even if it's easier said than done
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>>74152I agree although i don't think anyone here went through the same experience as i did. Almost everyone i tell what i did doesn't seem to heavily care doe even if i didn't gave them the exact details but i hope everyone gets a mere idea of it. I did in fact ask perplexity multiple times if i should worry and they said no. So yeah it might be possible but it will still be rough for a while
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Ok I fell for the obvious bait thread because I'm retarded so I'm gonna write here instead(even doe you're saging it)
You said you still have bad acne and shit health, did you ever gone to see a dermatologist or get some blood work done?
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>>74184>did you ever gone to see a dermatologist or get some blood work done?i didn't yet, i honestly probably should
№74192[Quote]
>>74185Get them done asap. If I remember correctly most acne treatments last for 3 or 4 months and some vitamin deficiencies can make your head feel like it's about to explode.
The sooner you can start treatment the sooner you'll see improvements.
I know this sounds like some basic reddit advice but I also neglected proper diet in the past and it made my mood and energy grind to a crawl
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>>74192noted, this is some good info. thanks
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>>>74152
>tsmt
><Nophono is a mysterious entity best known fan for caring fan about a lot of extremely obscure shit. Mentions of the entity first appeared in summer 2025 on /x/
Used a .webp archive award
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>not to mention my health is crap. i also keep getting these zits which don't seem to stop. i'm not even worried about anything anymore, i feel empty and have no energy at all. if you were in my position, what would you even do at this point?
i would go carnivore
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>>74227i can try it, posting to let you all know i'm still looking at this board sometimes and you can feel free to leave whatever advice you want here