/soy/ - Soyjaks

I'm considering trooning out [Serious]
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Trooning out is certainly an option available to most people living in the modern, first-world society. However it is not without its own consequence. Most troons are hated due to being extremely ugly in their woman form. If this was not the case, if trans women were better looking, or at least as good looking as actual women, transphobia would've been much less significant. This is the case in many asian countries, where trannies pass so well as women transphobia becomes much harder to perpetrate. So if I were to troon out, I would need to be a good looking tranny or otherwise my life would be hell.
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It is difficult for me to assess how I will look as the opposite gender, however I am aware of many masculine features present in my body, which reduce my chance of passing and thus making me an ugly troon. If I had certainty that I would've been a pretty woman after the transition, I would easily do so. But this certainty is impossible, and so I have to weigh the risks.
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The reason I am considering transitioning in the first place is due to my AGP fantasies, similar to how Ted Kaczynski assumed for a short period he was transgender due to having the same fantasies of being the female in sexual context.
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Another option I have is becoming a femboy, which is a fair compromise, as I do not attempt to pass as female, while I feel like one, also without losing my male privileges.
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The main reason I am not already trans or transitioning is because of how much effort it takes! I tried shaving both my legs once and it took me about 2 hours and afterwards everything itched for days, so I never did that again. Learning make-up, hair styling, voice training and whatever else trannies need in order to pass is also in my view an exhausting process. Taking estrogen is a risk of regretting the decision later along the path
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Please if you have read this far do not hate me, I am just a 'teen that is confused due to the exposure to trans ideology.