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I currently don't have romatic attraction to anyone but despite this I've been imagining a girlfriend for the past month or so. I imagined so many tiny details about her, her entire appearance, how she would like to dress, height, nationality, favourite food, interests, relationship with family, everything. When I have free time (and sometimes even when I'm working) I imagine interacting with her, our first kiss, our spending time together first as friends and then as lovers, how we introduce each other to each other's families. All of that despite the fact that she's not fucking real. It seems more pathetic to me than gooning to tranime characters. It's like I made a tranime character myself and then start imagining a detailed relationship with her.
>inb4 find a real girl and have sex
I am an autist, my teeth are full of cavities, I abuse prescription medication, I'm ugly and depressed. No girl would ever want me
>inb4 ack
It's a sin o algo. Also I have a schizo theory that since my mom miscarried identical twins in the past, I am a soul of one of these twins in the body of the other, so I must live for two. I have no confirmation for this but it somehow seems reasonable to me
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OP made a self-serving masturbatory tupala
His greymatter has like 10-12 weeks tops before he becomes schizo
Its over
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>>16814466It's not a tulpa, I never tried to manifest her to the real world
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>>16814440 (OP)you're born into the greatest nation in all of human history, be the next aristotle or something
Also isnt greek very orthodox christian? I would guess there are lots of nice women out there with good values
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>>16814483Yes but most of the women in my university already have boyfriends and even those who don't won't look at me. I am trying to study diligently but still feel lonely
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>>16814490women are ultimately attracted to a male that can provide a stable good life to her and her children
idk if ur really ugly as u describe it to be or its some negative delusion, but even if you are that ugly you cannot change it
Obsessing over something thats unchangeable is retarded which is what the whole blackpill thing is and its retarded so just focus on getting a good stable high income career and it seems ur doing it right now with your studying, good luck
What about visiting churches and trying to meet people there?
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>>16814440 (OP)kill yourself asexual greekpedo
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>I'm ugly
Unless you have some absurd genetic defect i doubt it can't be changed, start working on yourself both physically and more importantly mentally.
Also, wompas generally care less about physical appearance due to evolutionary traits or something.
Start eating better and getting more regular exercise, even something as simple as a 40 minute walk a day can improve your overall mental and physical health drastically.
Maybe get a hobby as well, learn to play the recorder or other cheap instrument. Or perhaps coding, or reading.
If you have a defeatist mindset, you will lose, never give up hope and you might win. If you think you are a loser, you will be a loser.
Sorry for the words words words.
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>>16814513In the churches in my area it's mostly old people attending and the only people who tallk to each other is if they already are acquaintances. I tried attending a Protestant church (I am Orthodox but I wanted to see the differences between denominations) and it did seem like I could meet someone ther but my parents eventually prohibited me from going because it wasn't Orthodox. I will try to work because that's the only way but I will still feel lonely. Thank you anyways
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>>16814522Choke on bibisi Colourlesscuck
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>>16814537Thank you for the wordswordswords. I worked out last year but then got into university and part-time job, leaving me less time, but I will start again im trans btw
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become a wo.yn
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>>16814564I don't have even the slightest wish to troon out, nor did I have in the past
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>>16814569good
>>16814440 (OP)the english flag gave good advice but i did this for a while too. im not mentally great so i dont wanna give advice. but try to use her to motivate you to genuinely improve yourself and become someone that a real girl could love. and even if you dont find a girl, you will have made your life better by becoming someone you think she would love so much more.
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>>16814576Thank you. There's nothing I can do but try. And I hope you will become mentally better too
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>>16814589ain't that the truth.
and trust the process. it's rare that someone puts in effort and life and gets nothing. you might not get exactly what you went in doing something for, like how you might study all day and night just to not get 1st in your class. but i can promise that even though hard work won't always give you the exact outcome you want like a specific girl in a specific timeframe like a year, hard work will improve your life and open up a future you might not have seen coming.