/soy/ - Soyjaks

I have an autistic little sibling, and I honestly don't like her.

She's 6 and completely non-verbal. She just randomly screams and sings the same 3 or 4 "songs". Sometimes she gets mad for no apparent reason and starts loudly crying. I haven't developed many feelings for her that a brother probably should have. I just don't like her and find her annoying. To me, she is still a 1 year old baby.

I also feel bad, though. She will one day go to a public school and get bullied for over a decade. My parents feed her absolute slop and let her be on a phone or tablet 24/7. I don't know if they'll be able to take care of her forever, and me having to take care of some autistic adult in a few decades sounds like a nightmare, so I'm scared for her future

Maybe it'd be better if she were never born. I can't imagine anything good is waiting for her in like a decade or two. Now she is a "cute" little kid but eventually she might be an 18 year old non-verbal autist that screams all day and that's all she will be