/soy/ - Soyjaks

i am 24 years old and i just got married. and i am a virgin so my wife is my first person ever and i am her first person too. we got married 2 weeks ago. but i have not laid a hand on her.

sadly my dad always made it forbiden for me to ask him anything about sex or any advice. i saw some things online while doing research but it all seemed so extreme. so i did not know how to approach my wife plus she is very shy.

so 2 days ago i decided to act. i pushed myself at morning and told her that we should yk do something. she said to me that she does not also know what should we do. so i suggested like anyone maybe we should take our clothes off a bit and it was so awkward idk why am i like this.

anyway it was my first time in my entire life to see a woman actually naked . i have never laid my hand on a woman and when i saw her like this i went insane, the touches are very soft and i went feral. seriously i never felt this feeling in my entire life. i have never drunk alcohol nor have i ever taken drugs.

but 2 days ago my mind was so blacked out i am someone who is very dedicated to my work and building my life very carefully. for the first time i was not thinking about anything at all. nothing was on mind i was like an animal and i hate this. yes when i was at the moment it felt good. but now i am thinking of it and i am not like that.

my mind was gone and the only thing on it was her. i am affraid that i might hurt her during this if we did it again. she said that it is fine but i don't know to what limit can i go.i don't know how fargile can her body be or how intense can i go. she also has needs and i want to sleep with her again really bad. but i am terrified of that state. i was literally not using my mind at all and it never happened to me.

i tried to ask my dad but he does not want to guide me. and i looked everywhere until i just decided to post here.

please guide me ‘teens i feel so lost., how could you tell?