>>16759071>>16759064>>16759056i think about how writing in only lowercase would lure a new demographic into reading this book. hello sophia from
new york city. i see you as you open at random to specifically this page, by total coincidence. it's not coincidence, in reality. i wanted you here, in this obscure manhattan book shop that you kill time in until your friend says she's outside. tonight, when you walk home, ill follow you and catch the main door to your apartment complex before it closes (don't want to ask a stranger for the code). ill watch you undress only to stare disgusted at yourself in the $10 walmart mirror your parents had shipped to you, at your request. you couldn't afford that? really? ill watch you order takeout time and time again because you are far too "busy" to learn how to cook your own meals. sophia, ill watch you cry over shitty netflix shows. ill watch you molest yourself to porn you found thru extremely SPECIFIC search terms. ill watch you spend more of your parents money on things in poor taste. you were stuck for a while, debating whether or not you could pull off fake designer or not. i saw that. you went with the real one, surprisingly. not really surprising, it's your parents money. ill watch you attempt a new workout routine, which lasts all of exactly 5 minutes. ill watch you lose a little more ambition. ill watch you read listicles on buzzfeed, the ones you share with your friends who don't actually click them when you send it. you keep doing this for months and come summer they will lose all respect for you. especially elizabeth -she's not a total normie like you and she's well aware that buzzfeed is for empty fuckups like you, sophia. ill watch you for all this time and not once lust for you, SOPHIA. SOPHIA YOU DISGUST ME AND YOUR PARENTS ALIKE. SOPHIA, STOP GETTING DRUNK AND VENTING TO BODEGA CLERKS. THE ONE YOU'VE BEEN FREQUENTING AS OF LATE CAN'T EVEN SPEAK ENGLISH. HE MASTURBATES TO YOU WHEN HE GETS HOME. SOMETIMES HE CAN'T EVEN WAIT THAT LONG AND HE'LL CAUTIOUSLY START RIGHT THERE, UNDER THE REGISTER, WHEN HE THINKS NOBODY IS AROUND. SOPHIA, YOU'RE GONNA GET RAPED AGAIN IF YOU KEEP DRINKING LIKE YOU DO IN THE PLACES YOU GO.
SOPHIA, THOSE "CUTE, WELL-READ, PRO-FEMALE" NYU GUYS BUY THEIR ROOFIES THE SAME WAY EVERYONE ELSE DOES: WITH WADDED AND SWEATY CASH, GIDDILY, HALF-ERECT AT THE THOUGHT OF THE NIGHT AHEAD. IN THE HOURS LEADING UP TO SAID NIGHT, THEY'LL STARE INTO THE PILL LIKE A MAGIC EIGHT BALL. "WILL | GET LUCKY TONIGHT?" HE SAYS, SHAKING IT AROUND IN THE BAG. IT SETTLES AND READS "YES, GRANTED THE BATHROOM DOOR HAS A LOCK AND THE MUSIC IS LOUD". SOPHIA, YOU SAD SOW — YOU BROUGHT THIS ON YOURSELF. SOPHIA YOU RAPED THE WORLD WITH BAD DECISIONS AND NOW IT RAPES YOU BACK. HOW MANY TIMES WILL YOU EXCUSE A MESSY DRUNKEN NIGHT WITH JESUS' DYING ON THE CROSS. THAT WASN'T FOR YOUR SINS. YOUR SINS ARE YOURS, AND YOURS ALONE. YOUR SINS ARE YOURS TO CARRY.
YOU KNOW THOSE PEOPLE WHO SPEND ALL DAY SHIT-TALKING RELIGIOUS FAITH ON REDDIT? JESUS DIED FOR THEIR SINS, EVEN, BUT NOT YOURS. HOW PATHETIC, SOPHIA. HE DIED FOR MINE, SOPHIA. DO YOU WANNA SEE HOW I'VE SINNED LATELY? SOPHIA, YOU BROUGHT THIS ON YOURSELF, SOPHIA THE SAD SOW. SAD, SAD, PATHETIC AND SAD. SOPHIA, FIX THIS. SOPHIA, ONLY A PACT WITH SATAN CAN SAVE YOU NOW. SOPHIA, SOPHIA, SOPHIA. STOP READING BUZZFEED SOPHIA STOP NOW. STOP SHARING THEIR LISTS. STOP DRINKING BAREFOOT WINE ALONE. STOP DRINKING SUTTER HOME ALONE.
BUY A GUN SOPHIA. POINT IT AT YOUR HEAD WHEN YOU ARE SAD, HALF-JOKINGLY, HALF-SERIOUS. IT'S USUALLY UNLOADED AND THE DRY FIRE CLICK MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD BUT THIS MORNING | BROKE INTO YOUR APARTMENT AND PUT A LIVE ROUND IN THE CHAMBER. TONIGHT, AFTER YOU GET WINE-DRUNK YET AGAIN, YOU'LL PICK IT UP AND SCARE YOUR GAY NEIGHBORS. WHAT A WAY TO GO. COMMITTING SUICIDE BY ACCIDENT BUT NOBODY EVER KNOWS THAT. THEY WILL ALWAYS THINK YOU WANTED OUT, REALLY REALLY BAD.LOL.