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i dont want to shit up the log with my emo whining but i dont know man im so fucking tired right now im going to fag out even if its just 2 threads or something
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>>16353924 (OP)become Catholic or Orthodox, whichever is easier in your location or works better for you doctrinaly. this is a spiritual problem
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i dont even want to make what im saying sound cool because it genuinely just sucks and is pathetic. it just sucks ass and i want it to stop. This is something that tiktok larp niggers never seem to get
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>>16353942i'd rather not. i personally cant believe that stuff.
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>>16353950no im not some plebbit atheist im just agnostic
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>>16353949Thanks, also gemmy audiobook
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>my heart aches
nigger its a heart disease, stop eating mcdonalds if youre amerimutt, chupa chups if youre euromutt or takis if youre latinx (otherwise, stop eating goyslop and at least do 1 hour of exercise frequently)
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>>16353956you cannot actually believe that i was being literal
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>>16353956also im not brown i dont eat these latinonigger foods
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>>16353951its the same difference, your lukewarm approach to spirituality is draining you.
>>16353950no one can do anything (positive) without God, if you accept Him you will find the ability to believe in him
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>>16353972listen man i respect your religion and all but i dont really feel like being shilled christianity right now. I appreciate that you are looking out for people like me but i dont think you are going to be able to convince me. Im fine with my normieGOD self improvement and meditations
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>>16353980i know i cannot convince you, i can only inform you. once you realize that your nightmarish reverie is being caused by an unstable foundation for your life, you know where to go
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>>16353965oh you mean >my heart aches metaphorically? shit… uhhh i was raped yesterday and oreos or something
<either way dont fall downwards and avoid bad habits or else your view on life will enworsen
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>>16354008I mean, i just dont see why my "foundation" cant be something as simple as a moral ground, or general rule of discipline? I mean, on a philosophical level, i believe that some sort of spiritual "God" exists, but i just dont buy the christian thing man
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>>16354023yeah i need to quit 'ooning asap
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>>16354029im also trying to stop using tech altogether, since i want to become a luddite. But its pretty hard to interact with the 'sphere when you dont have a PC
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>>16353942I did this yesterday and I got raped today.
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write poems
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>>16354048interesting suggestion. im a decent writer so maybe i would
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>>16354024you clearly do see why but are ignoring it
>my heart aches with the deep sorrow i feel in every waking moment. its a gnawing, insecapable feeling that i cant rid. i dont know how to stop myself from feeling so unimaginably low.>yeah i need to quit 'ooning asapif youre not being stopped by the concept of spirituality then how is the Christian moral ground and rule of discipline not clearly the better choice?
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>>16354057Give it a try.
Christ loves you btw
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>>16354062Honestly, i like pretty much all aspects of christianity except for the God belief itself. If it was just a spiritual movement i would be all in. But i have a hard time truly believing in a abrahamic God.
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>>16354077made me sound like a pooner ew
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>>16354075This stems from a lack of understanding God, it is better to go along and believe in Him little by little than to avoid Him and be stuck in the mud. You can still practice the other aspects of the religion in the mean time and doing so would leave you in a better position than most Christians who dont interact with the spiritual or philisophical side of the religion
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>>16354111i like christianity and christians, but i dont believe it myself. that's all
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>>16354113i bought a Bible as a gag a year ago or so
maybe its finally going to come to good use
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>>16354111following God's discipline is empty without His guidance, i can respect youre following of it a lot doebit
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>>16354123i reccommend you read 1 Corinthians and Romans
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>>16354113Personally, if i were to believe in a "God", it would be more as a all-encompassing force or spirit rather than a Him, an existing singular being. i don't know if some types of christians would agree with me but that's how i interpret "God"
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>>16354125i'll keep that in mind.
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My nigga what exactly is making your heart ache? If no one knows what problem you have then nobody can fix it
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>>16354132Loneliness and depression
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>>16354135Do you think you are depressed from being lonely? Or are those 2 things separate?
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>and also some self hate too but idk (before you deleted you post nigga)
Is there any specific things you can think of that you don't like about yourself?
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sandnigger fairy tale derail award
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>>16354140Honestly, i've always willingly chosen to spend my free time alone, and i've never felt a want to connect with other people, even though i'm quite socially competent, but now? It's gotten to a point where i'm really starting to miss having actual connections, and i think it's making me partially depressed, even though i think my general lifestyle and routine is the worse part of it. (Honestly, i feel like im inflating how bad it is by calling it depression, but i am feeling very low. I still live in a beautiful house in a beautiful country, and i can never truly give up in life like some other people have shrunken to.)
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>>16354129ironically thats exactly what God is, its easier to describe something that you can refer to so most Christians will refer to God the father who is one part of the Holy Trinity. it is difficult to explain the Trinity but essentially God is one being and three persons
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SSRIS NOW!
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>>16354152not really, which is kind of why i deleted it. If anything im probably more of an egoist.
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>>16354167i think i do have some reddit "im better than you" type of way of thought which makes it so i dont want to talk to other people. i dont really feel like making myself more humble either though.
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>>16354123if you do end up looking into Christianity you should also attend a few masses, sola scriptura as protestants put it sounds appealing on paper but is ironically anti-biblical
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>>16354160>starting to miss having actual connectionsIt sounds like you used to have connections but you dont have as many now? What changed between now and then when you didn't feel depressed?
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>>16354182the vast majority of people are niggercattle so you're not necessarily wrong
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>>16354183worth mentioning since i might be on amerimutt hours right now but im a european so im not sure but i think christian masses work different here. i would only really do that if i were to actually convert.
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>>16354189I just really, really don't like talking to shabbos goy cattle. They bore me extremely and i always feel like im talking to a wall when i interact with them. I might be too picky for that but i really value who i decide to become friends with and i cant force myself to befriend people for the sake of having friends.
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>>16354186eh, not really. ive pretty much always had very few connections. i only really have a couple of IRL friends, and even them i dont really talk to since we've mostly all grown apart.
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>>16354193if you can attend Catholic or orthodox mass its ~the same globally, protestant mass is varied even in the united states because theyre so fractured that their jurisdictions have their own doctrine
<yeah fair enough, i enjoy attending the mass but ive heard people get bored of it.
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>>16354208i mean, i still enjoy spending my time alone, but i think such prolonged isolation eventually damages the soul, even if you're a true hikikomori. i just need one or two people i can regularly talk to so i don't go insane and kill myself or something
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So do you think you feel lonely about not having "true" friends? You said that the people you talk to are all goy cattle.
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>You said that the people you talk to are all goy cattle.
Or that you dont like talking to goy cattle or whatever you get my point nigga.
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>>16354225yeah, i mean, i can talk to npcs any time i want, but it always feels shallow to me. i feel like i need someone with at least some of my own interest so i can actually talk about things im interested in. ive only ever really talked to one guy that was mildly interested in soysphere stuff, but he was just a tiktok larper and it unironically just pissed me off more than anything because he had no clue what he was on about
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>>16354231most of them are
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>>16354220if you do go for traditional lutheran because that protestant denomination is the closest to Christianity. a ton of protestant denominations (especially in the nordic region) arent actually Christian
><these are from muttland but similar examples exist in europe. theyre heretical because they contradict the will of God
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>>16354238i mean nordic churches are probably lgbt neutral but they definitely dont do this shit im trans btw
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Do you have interests outside of soysphere stuff? Getting "true" friends on the sharty is hard since everyone is anonymous, plus you wont get IRL friends on here
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>>16354252yeah ofc. i just said sharty stuff because its a good example of my sperged out interests
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What do you like about the soysphere anyway? If you dont mind me asking
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>>16354271This and raids are what keeps this site alive, blogposting too often is a disease
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>>16354271i dont know what a better answer would be but thats the primary reason im here. I guess i, on a deeper level, feel at home with the chuddy userbase since i somewhat relate to them, even if i do it in a way more volcel way.
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>>16354282i dont dislike raids or anything, i just dont enjoy when (somewhat) innocent people are raided for gegs, since im still quite a normie moralfag and am not as politically chuddy as some teens. I only really condone doxxes that are about literal zoos or pedoniggers. We might hate troons but i dont think doxxing them is worth it unless they're proven groomers (which most of them are, honestly, but still.)
Also, blogposting is significantly less poisonous than the constant porn spam and NAS posts, even if they are also annoying when overdone.
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You said you dont like talking to goycattle. How would you define what a goy cattle is or how they act? What exactly dont you like about them? (so you know what to avoid)
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>>16354271i pretty much only frequent /soy/ and /r/
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>>16354301Tiktok using, vape having, algorithm slutting, normie politic, safe-edgy, crowd-thinking, close-minded, uneducated normies. "Just follow the stream and it'll all work out"
To me, they are robots, they dont truly exist outside of whatever company they're employed to, or whatever seat they're occupying. I'd much rather find someone with an actual SOVL.
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>>16354308i'm not saying that you should be different for the sake of being different, i mean, someone has to be the boring one, but i personally dont want to interact with you if you're that person.
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>>16354299yeah the 'oxing 'aping and 'illing goes too far sometimes. like when its a litteral who that runs a (relatively) innocent account or when its just a random person for gegs. in an earlier thread they sent some reddit normies to joyjak just for liking 'jaks
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>>16354340the fuck is a freemason
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>>16354354sort of like a european version of Kabbalah,
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>>16354299Its bad when its uncreative and constant, I do group the porn spam and bait into blogposting because it can often be the same
I think you're right I stopped doing the jackbox because people started spamming dnb 'oodist and tookout the soyjaks as the punchline for the most part. Raids like the textwall or printergobrr where the geggiest and why the trolling is fun.
But the nophono pedo raids are kinda lame unless they get arrested. When we do big raids like taking down that bwno site a month or two ago are what raiding culture should aspire to be and is the geggiest.
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>>16354375to clarify, when i say blogposting i mean only neutralplier blogs, all other types of blogs can die out.
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>I'd much rather find someone with an actual SOVL
I have this concept in my head called a "functional P-zombie". If you don't know a P-zombie is someone who looks and acts like a normal regular person but doesn't actually have a consciousness or free will or anything, they are basically meat robots that do exactly what their biology and emotions tell them to. Most people are functional p-zombies, they have consciousness and free will but they dont use it, they are just passive observers in their own body, letting their brain and emotions and evolutionary biology make all the decisions for them, which means they can be manipulated like animals. If you wear red around a bull it gets pissed off, if you give a dog a treat to reward it for doing something it knows to keep doing that thing, if you give a functional p-zombie a tiktok algorithm or vape it will keep using it since their brain has been hijacked and manipulated.
>words words words schizoniggerbabble
Do you know what I am talking about? Do you think this is what you are talking about too?
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>>16354406Pretty much exactly what i'm saying. You get it
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>>16354406tsmt, ive thought this for a while but i could never explain it as succinctly as this
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>>16354024I agree it doesn’t need to be Christianity specifically but everyone does best with something in that place and Christianity (at least in most of the western world) is suited best for the task IMO. Even without believing any of the metaphysical aspects it can be a good way to connect and get some grounding to go to some extracurricular church groups. A lot of churches near me hold events specifically for skeptics and are very friendly and inviting, they don’t dodge real questions and don’t judge. It’s a nice atmosphere. Best of luck teen just remember things can spiral downward but they can also spiral upward. Do something different in your day to day and you might be surprised how quickly you feel better
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>>16354452Do you work at mayonnaise
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>>16354507no but i wish i worked at a mayonnaise factory
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>>16354497Thanks for the talk christbro. I will honestly consider it, you convinced me more than i thought you would, even if i wouldn't say that i'm convinced yet.
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>>16354412I am in the same boat as you tbh, I isolate myself from others and don't really have a "real" connection to anybody because most people are functional P-zombies. The difference between me and you though is that I don't feel lonely about it at all. And I don't get angry at people for being like this. I learned just to accept it and still interact (or not interact) with people and help people despite it. You don't get angry at a bull for charging at you for wearing red, do you?
So I don't really have a solution for you my nigga, sorry. Maybe keep trying to find friends who share interests with you and eventually you will find a non p-zombie? They are rare.
As for going to church, I think that is a good idea but I am not sure that it will solve this specific problem. There are plenty of p-zombies there too, and the church leaders know this, which is why they use weird poetic and emotional language all the time when talking about whatever they are teaching. God is the ultimate non P-zombie though so I don't think it is a bad idea to have a relationship with him.
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>>16354524>The difference between me and you though is that I don't feel lonely about it at allI usually dont either, its just been to long since ive really talked with someone and its bumming me out right now
>And I don't get angry at people for being like this.im not really "mad" at people that are like this, i just think it's sad and i more so feel bad that they aren't truly using their human rights.
>I learned just to accept it and still interact (or not interact) with people and help people despite itOn good days im like this, but when im on my chuddier side i really struggle with this, i know that its probably the better decision though, i dont truly dislike p-zombies, they're all fellow men at the end of the day.
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>>16354542how old are you? maybe try joining a club, even an online one can help