/soy/ - Soyjaks

when my friends don't give me attention i start feeling like shit. things aren't the way they were anymore, i don't have the courage to say anything because i don't want to be vulnerable in front of one person who seems to have a grudge against me and who is the only one i can never be casual with because if i say one negative thing (not an issue with everyone else because everyone else can take a joke and/or criticism) absolutely leaks and shits pants because everything is personal somehow). this one is the only reason why i can't feel comfortable interacting with my friends, why can;t get back into the groove i had.

i feel terrible when nobody acknowledges my existence but i know this is a bad thing so instead of giving into it (like they do) i just do my things like a normal person and every once in a while have a moment of weakness where i whine to a friend in private about feeling alone, but i'm strong enough that i don't do 'attention-seeking' harmful behavior. because it's bad, being dependent on others is bad. but i'm mad that this one they get away with being a whiny ignorant tralala and i can never even say anything because otherwise i'm being confrontational or something and ive tried for months and years to better our relationship but it persists somehow because they arent willing to be the better person. sometimes i feel like throwing everything away and burning down every single bridge i have with every single person i've ever talked to in real life or online. whatever, i'm just writing this because i'm mad and need to complain into the void

feel free to reply with "SNCA" or something to that effect, or whatever you feel is funny or innapropriate. i don't need feedback or consolation from anyone. and yes i know that nobody cares and that /soy/ is neither my personal blog nor a 'cord "venting channel". again you can sage this thread or whatever you feel