>>15897940thanks, its hard to find tbe beauty in life when im spending time on negativity, i think i have to quit the internet, since everything is negative expect for learning objective neutral information like math or languages.
I think the root of my suffering is self hate, i hate everything about myself and too much of a coward to ack, i guess the solution would be staying in the present/mindfulness and making peace with myself and the negative things i have no control over