>>15823602 (OP)im not a hypochondriac so i dont have any crippling fears of diseases. since im of poor genetic quality i don't really fear having cancer or tubercolosis or anything like that, the worst that can happen is that i die and i have nothing worth living for except my parents anyway. the only thing im afraid of is brain damage but thats only because being a neurotypical midwit is literally the only advantage i have in life (alongside being white, albeit whether this is still considered advantageous in current year because of da joos is debatable) and i dont want to lose one of the only things i have going for me. hence, i don't smoke, drink or do drugs and never have.
<im also 99% sure i already have some form of brain damage already from overexposure to fluoride in my very young formative years and to a lesser extent throughout the rest of my life, inhaling far too much plastic model glue by accident, hitting my head a few times and showing indicators like having low stress tolerance. in short, if its already over, you can't be sad about losing