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Poop and niggas farting
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>>15736774it's DNB o algo
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Have you had a support buddy before to keep you accountable?
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Read Neitzsche and become a vitalist, perhaps?
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>>15736796not really. The closest person I have around me is my mother but I rarely talk to her and if I do it's only about some business. I am avert to close relationships I think I'm schizoid.
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>>15736803I was think about reading him, but I think I am what he defines as "The Last Man", and I don't really think I see anything wrong with that, even though I am suffering.
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So there you go buddy, the logical conclusion of atheism and nihilism. Touch some grass, try to make new friends, work out and study some theology
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>>15736812I can try to help you if you don't have anyone. Obviously it would be better to get an irl friend that you talk to often
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>>15736847no don't worry there is no need to help me
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>>15736850You are acting like this takes effort geg
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Find Christ asap
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God abandoned us
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>>15736860I wish I could. I have read "The Brothers Karamazov", "Crime and Punshiment" and "The Dream of a Ridiculous man". All it is is a g9iant leap of faith and deserting all reason just to blidnly believe. I don't think I can do that. I genuinely tried. I have read some of the Old Testament and it's absurd.
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>>15736876Honestly I kinda agree even though I was raised Christian. Although from a social cohesion perspective it's the best religion.
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Op what are you searching for by making this post. Tell us
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>>15736835>>15736903>>15736907but how exactly do I start believing? I see no way other than a blind leap of faith. There is simply no logic behind it.
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>>15736918I'm searching for help. I am suffering every day of my life.
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>>15736924What kind of help exactly
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>>15736926To escape whatever it is. The nihilism. All I ever feel is the conflict between my human nature that assigns meaning to my life and its objective worthlesness.
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>>15736922You know the bible was still written by people right it's not some constant that will never be tampered with or misunderstood or whatever. You can go to a print shop and change some words and a lot of customers won't notice and believe what it says in their version. If there is something you just can believe, just believe in your own slightly altered faith, it's better than nothing.
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>>15736941Yes I understand, but how do you think the help will come? Will it be a change of mindset or what are you searching for here? I want to help you btw not making fun of you
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>>15736962I think the only way out of this situation is to simply forget these thougts. I noticed that when I partake in action, I "die" in way, and become the action itself, or at least those thoughts die. I become "me". It's the time when I am dead and yet I feel alive. So yeah, maybe those thoughts will go away. Maybe there is a way to make them go away. The nihilism.
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>>15736981What do you mean by action
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>>15736991just dedicating myself to doing something. For example making this post. Or talking to my friends. I become dead, I am the action. I am no longer alive, I am talking to my friends. The thoughts are gone. I am simply the action. Nothing more. That's when I feel alive, even though this 'me' is dead. The thoughts are gone.
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>>15737008You’re a faggot
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>>15737013geg im not, im just drunk
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>>15737008Yeah that's how everybody works. You just need to get back on track and stop being a failure. Do you at least have some goals/responsibilities
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>>15737023i used to have goals. i used to value being smart, or intelligent, in field like mathematics. but now i realise that it's worth nothing. simply zero. but then nihilism came. and now i value nothing. good = bad. pain = pleasure. doesn't matter. it's all worth zero to me. I wish i could regain value in something. i wish i could have a meaningful goal. but it's impossible. since even if you present me with a meaningful goal, i will simply ask: "why should i follow it?" and there will be no answer. and therefore no reason to follow that goal.
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>>15736770 (OP)Kill niggers thats all you gotta do
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>>15737055geg i don't even know how i ended up on this website. I'm not even racist or transphobic. I guess I'm just a tourist who liked the vibe on here or something. I cannot be racist. Since it requires motivation, a reason, to be racist. I don't have one. Even if niggers have the highest crime rate? So what, I don't care.
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>>15737050Damn that's pretty screwed, but respect for the math skills. Let me ask you something, do you not want to reproduce, have children be a father? That should be a goal. Or do you just not care? Well you have shown that you are self conscious and are able to operate away from the nihilism, so you can fix yourself
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>>15737086Yeah I don't care about having children to be honest. Why would I have them anyway? There is no reason to have them, therefore why should I? To prolong my genetics or whatever? Why would it matter? I don't think I could ever be in love either, since it also requires a certain "leap of faith". Just to love someone. And for what? Their looks, their personality? Just asssigning value to them. I am unable to do that unfortunately. Even though I believe that nihilism is true, I still think it's an illness.
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>>15737110You are basically engaging in doublethink rn, quit this retarded mentality that you know is retarded. You actually do care about something, fixing this. Honestly I don't know how to help you here because I don't know what it's like to be that unbothered. If you want to add me somewhere anyway I would be glad to try to help you because helping people is aryan
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>>15737135I know. I know that seeking help contradicts the belief itself. But I think it's the conflict between the biological me that seeks survival, and the rational me which seeks logic. I probably should go to a psychiatrist (even doe that's faggoted). Again, I'm sorry, I'm very drunk right now so what I say might not make any sense to you.
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if you REALLY want a motivation, download the app that destroys all opps in your new iphone
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>>15737164No I understand what you mean. Take your meds I guess