/soy/ - Soyjaks

I took a bunch of wrong decisions and now i have to wear diapers.

I'm 29 today soy, but when i was around 24 i had a lot of trouble sleeping because i was constantly waking up to go to the bathroom. So being the lazy idiot i was at the time i decided to wear diapers in bed to solve this.

While my nights of sleep have been the best i had for a while. I started to get complacent and made the dumb decision to wear it whenever i wanted to have an extended gaming session. Over time this weakened my muscles and got my bladder to shrink since i didn't even make an effort at holding.

Had i looked for medical help at this point maybe i wouldn't even be writing this post. But i didn't do it out of shame, and the stress and anxiety got so bad over time i started to have bowel accidents too.

By the time i got to talk with some doctors there wasn't much that could be done. We've tried everything so far and nothing works. I'm almost 30 now and while they said this can probably be reversed i don't have a lot of hope in it.

I can't even see myself as a man anymore, i'm a little fat too so whenever i see my reflection on the mirror wearing a diaper i think i look like a clown.

I've lost some friends over this, and a girlfriend is out of the question, no sane woman would want a guy like me. I don't know if this post will help me at all, but i just wanted to get this off my chest for once.


Please help me I don't know what to do soy.