/soy/ - Soyjaks

so im not gay or anything but i was kinda dared to go on a date with a guy while i was dressed up as a girl.

like i have a friend who said it would be fun and nobody would even know it would be me. she helped me with the clothes and makeup and then she helped me to behave more femininely for him.

well the date went well, but i felt a little awkward. like i really liked it how he treated me like a girl, being very gentle and considerate with me. he is a very lovely person, kind and considerate, not to mention much taller than me.

he knew i was a guy but somehow he was able to almost convince me that i wasn't.

i had a lot of fun and he paid for everything so i thought i would pay him back somehow. we went to his apartment and i made him feel good in a way a woman would make a man feel good. he seemed to really appreciate that.

i felt really content, almost happy. i have been struggling with depression lately and for some reason i completely forgot that i have been sad. i dont know how my friend was able to know that this would feel good.

like i wouldn't call myself gay or trans etc but if this is what makes me less depressed i would not mind doing it more.
is this healthy though? like i have been talking with professional help but i dont think it has helped me.