/soy/ - Soyjaks

Yesterday, I got permabanned again, for saying some stupid shit about DNB. Jannies thought I was participating hostile off-site communities. In this time, jannies denied my ban appeal for 3 times. I had a panic attack for entire day. I literally couldn't breathe properly, and I couldn't even eat anything. I felt like my heart was set on fire. Tears streamed from my eyes and soaked my face. The depression and anxiety swallow my whole body and I thought my life is over and nothing matters anymore. The emptiness inside me slowly turned into hopelessness, as I couldn't see the point of living anymore. I faced with the worst fate I could ever imagine, and I also considered suicide as well. All I could do was just laying on the bed and crying my eyes out. I cried myself to sleep. 7 p.m. I woke up and was once again faced with a cruel reality. Now it seems like my life is coming to an end. It seemed like my time had come. My limbs were withered and emaciated, and I was now little more than a living corpse. Before I cast off this barely moving body, I sent one last appeal. At that moment, a miracle of my life happened: they accepted my appeal. I sat down, shedding tears of emotion. At that moment, I was reborn. I am saved. I could finally feel that I was still alive. That day, I died once. I came to the gates of hell, but miraculously, I was given a second chance. I was so grateful to be able to use this website again, and I vowed never to fall into the pit of hell again because of such a stupid mistake.