/soy/ - Soyjaks

>Be me 19 mtf repper in college.
>rep because I’m a nepobaby who is dependent on my conservative family for literally everything.
>Can’t enjoy life because everything hollow, empty, and I feel like sub human trash.
>Dysphoria and self hate about to reach terminal stages because my grades and physical health start to decline to the point my mother yelled at me about it on Thanksgiving.

Do I bite the bullet and do diy behind their back? I can do commissions as a side hustle to get diy. My main issue is if they’ll notice because even without boobs my chest sticks out through my shirt just because god gave me a gross upper body.