/soy/ - Soyjaks

>what is like waking up after SRS?
I honestly don't remember waking up directly. I remember them asking my consent one more time before putting me under anesthesia, and then I remember being in my hospital room later that day with my parents and a Thai nurse there. I remember feeling my groin covered in bandages and being numb with a dull pain, but being able to tell that my penis and balls were gone. I remember crying in front of my mom because I was so happy.
>OP here. Im really curious about things like identity, thoughts you had about the change
It definitely removed a lot of the imposter syndrome for me. The idea that I'm not a woman now just seems kind of quaint and stupid, as are people who say I'm not one. Like, I have boobs and a vagina now and I pass and have a boyfriend who fucks me nightly. I don't have the ability nor the right to call myself a man anymore.
>how your overall awareness of your body changed.
It felt nice to be aware of the change. My genital dysphoria was really really bad in hindsight.
>When did it really get real for you that everybody that will see you naked from this point on will see you differently? what is that moment like?
It feels good to know that, but I don't think about stuff like that very much. Only my SRS surgeon and nurses and my boyfriend have seen me down there, and I don't plan on ever increasing that list. It feels nice to wear a bikini at the beach and not worry a bit about it though.