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I'd like to preface this by saying this isn't related to trooning out or faggotry and is rather me asking for advice as im slowly trying to be rid of a mental issue I've had for a long time.

Im a man but I don't 100% understand how to be one entirely, I grew up without a father figure and I was mentally ill and deeply isolated in my tween/teen years and was suicidal. I've always been very sensitive cuz of autism and very physically weak and small my whole life, I was really insecure about this in high school and I was already depressed so I found myself latching onto media like deltarune and sanrio stuff and a variety of cute themed furry webcomics because I saw myself in/related to "soft" male characters like ralsei or Yonkagor's characters, I never really saw myself in or related to normal masculine men due to the circumstances of my childhood.

Originally I just did fantasies of getting away from reality like waking up as Ralsei and wandering his big fun castle and going on adventures, however it turned over time from just coping with my insecurities to actively seriously wanting to be the characters so I could be cute and "pretty" like them and not have any hardships or expectations, and because I was not well in the head the fantasy reached a point where I got the idea of offing myself to escape the real world and then going to a afterlife where I basically become one of those characters so I could BE an cute fluffy cartoon character forever.

While I have made alot of progress in subduing this it warped my perception of self where whenever I think or picture myself doing something even typing things out or reading things I don't hear my actual voice but just naturally hear some squeaky cartoon character voice in my head when I think or read something, because my brain just got used to picturing myself as that.

Whats should I do about this? I really envy normal guys who grow up and do normal lives without ever having these weird fantasies because I mostly don't know what to do about the fact my brain wants me to off myself so I can be whisked off to furry fantasyland as discount ralsei forever but I'd like to hear from you guys what I should do about it.
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Hello, it's me, the guy who wrote this:
>>97831
and some other things 'til this:
>>97841
I don't recommend hopping from one character addiction to another, just hop off altogether, just saying.

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>>99431
Pornography in general (even if softcore) kills your brain

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>>99432
I don't really consume porn or softcore porn right now. I grabbed these images to demonstrate things, especially since I needed something to break up the suspicious at first glance march of male character photos in here. and also to bring up the issue of my brain for some reason sees a purple shark as hotter than a beauty model.

I guess I should just kinda have from the start clarified that this thread was started because of the result of a long time of practicing nevergoon and avoiding feminine media still somehow ending up as much as of a furfag as when I started

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>>99433
It takes a long while, and it's a difficult path unfortunately.

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>>99431
Yeah I fully intend to hop off furfaggotry all together the issue is I have been trying to do that for a long time now with no success so I obviously need help and ideas

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>>99434
I found the book "breaking the cycle" is really good it teaches you to just recognize your brain is leading you on a thought train to a sexual behaviour and cut down said train before it leads to actually doing so.

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>>99437
>>99435
Good, very good.
I hope you will succeed with your task that is at hand right now.
Rememebr to cut the thoughts even when they are minor, getting distracted from those is great too.

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>>99438
Its been hard due to adhd and so on but I hope to improve

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can't say i relate to your exact circumstance but ive always been a wuss up until about a year and a half ago. Lifestyle choices are a big part especially regarding how consistent you are in keeping them (i.e. a plan for your day/week, which you deviate on depending on what is actually feasible).
diet, dress habits, hygiene, routine, physical activity.

The most important part of the change is finding how to 'translate yourself' into what a man is like. this will take time, so patience is needed. by translating yourself i mean that you should look at the personality you have (tendencies in social situations, in regards to talking and interaction as whole), and converting them to what a man would do.

for myself the best way of doing this is has always been to find the courage to do stuff i wouldnt normally do. For example: id never break up a fight before, but now ive done it twice without escalating anything. ive held a speech for my grandpa's 80th birthday infront of a very large family crowd.

usually the habits i take on start snowballing once i keep them for long enough, its always a good idea to find a role model though. either in classical fiction (because its actually written by men and not some whiney marvel nepo new-yorker comic artist) or through family; it's best to find someone who you are able to know personally (male family members, heroes from mythos, bible stories, saint stories). I always look to my to my grandpa as a rolemodel because i know him well enough to understand his way of life, but not to the degree of my grandmother ,a sibling of his, or a friend that would know his secrets and failings. So 'creating' or finding a hero to measure up to while still realising that they aren't flawless is a good way of pushing yourself closer to manhood. "follow the step of your forefathers" or however the ancestor is praised.

also get of the internet, less time on this virtual reality is the only way to get real.
Dominus tecum.

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>>99190
It's a longwinded answer, but basically protein is overhyped unless you are a lifter or athlete. Protein mainly helps with tissue repair, if you lift and exercise a lot, protein will help your body recover. In this way, protein is tangentially related to testosterone, because exercise increases testosterone. Protein is also related to testosterone in that some foods like fatty red meats contain a lot of protein, and also containing other nutrients that aid in male hormone production. OP really doesnt need to worry about his protein intake, he probably only needs 40-60 grams a day.

A recommend fruits because they contain many nutrients (as well as other compounds that don't specifically qualify as nutrients) that help you feel better and help your body function. when people say "eat your fruits and veggiess", people mostly focus on vegetables because they seem "healthier". In reality, the main benefit you get from vegtables is lots of fiber (which is still extremely important). Fruits contain the vast majority of your non-fat-soluble vitamins and minerals, as well as anti-oxidants, flavonoids, polyphenols, and many other niche compounds that your body needs to function properly. Without these, many secondary aspects of your hormonal system wont function properly and your body wont be able to produce or utilise its hormones properly.

Dietary fat (not to be confused with bodyfat) is crucial for hormonal function. Think of your hormone system like a distribution warehouse. One of the crucial uses of dietary fat is that it acts like delivery trucks. Your body uses fat to move hormones around your body. If you don't get a good amount of health fat, your body can't create and move the hormones around. There are many different types of dietary fats though, some good, some bad. It's best to stick to things like healthy oils, nuts, avocado, dairy products and eggs, as most of these foods are PACKED with other nutrients as well as fat.

So basically, protein is just for tissue repair, vitamins and fats are for making you feel better and helping your organs to function.

man i wish this website had a fitness board…

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>>99188
Dude at this point just get off the internet. Like seriously. Throw everything away and live a normal life for a few years. THE INTERNET put this stuff in your brain, and you are spending all fucking day on THE INTERNET.

It's not even that hard tbh, I threw my smartphone away a few months ago and just use a flip phone now, life is so much nicer without it.

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>>99350
I dated a girl that looked EXACTLY like this jak once.

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>>99449
tsmt, doe I will start slow. Changing to a flip phone will make some things impossible for you. Get something like a PiHole (software for the Raspberry Pi that can block websites) or a VPN with DNS blockers as a start

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>>99452
Just buy a laptop and use bluestacks for anything that is mobile exclusive. The ONLY thing I haven't been able to do on a desktop is log into my old whatsapp account, which I just used bluestacks for.

You literally do not need a smartphone. It is a goycattle psyop

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>>99454
Isn't bluestacks chinese spyware? Waydroid could be better if OP is on Leenux

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>>99461
Whats worse, having some chinese spyware on your laptop, or being a completely mentally ill faggot that can hardly even function and wanting to commit suicide to go to firry heaven?

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>>99462
Nigga just find something else instead like Android Studio. This is a bullshit argument

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>>99449
See the thing is actually a bit of this stuff just kind of came naturally I as a kid was already interested in gender role reversal for whatever reason thinking it was funny, and I had this thing of people being made into cartoons that just kinda was there in my head, obviously the internet made me worse but still

Also I had been avoiding it for a long while but it just kept nagging my mind despite doing everything right like avoiding troonslop eating well doing hobbies

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Btw guys if you put the paste in something else does it get diluted and less effective? I made a cocktail of it with orange juice since I have sensory issues

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>>99722
idk for sure but dewormers tend to be less chemically reactive. you could have made a sandwich, this way it would work for sure. sandwiches are recommended for horses who can't take pure paste

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>>99732
Huh so I should next time I make a sandwhich add some paste to it?

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>>99736
yeah, don't mix the paste with other stuff in it to prevent any reactions. horses take it just on a loaf of bread or with extra sugar

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I have cancr

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>>99803
These images are pretty cancer and retardation inducing

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>>99821
maybe you shouldn't post so much furry troonslop?

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>>99888
Well if I allow the normal personality to front I can't really process these emotions and interact with them as easily so I have to kind of let the retarded furry out to at length confess to my all weird fucked up qualities, of which posting these help keep me in the headspace for confessing and working out these issues

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>>100128
Thats not very nice :( Im going to look at some ralsusie to feel better

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>>100159
mining sulfur

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>>100159
I feel melanin being injected into my veins from this

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>>100159
just DON'T. niggerhellish role reversal like this only reinforces this mindset. here ralsei should be female and the dinosaur male.
once I saw a young couple kissing on stairs like this IRL. the girl was standing one step higher so that she was same height as her bf, it looked really cute. however I don't have any similar feelings towards this image since I understand its satanic role reversal nature. and they're furries, that as well.
any updates on your deworming?

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>>100159
not op but there is nothing in my life i want more than a relationship like this. call me satanic call me a fag call me a negro whatever. i cant STAND the fact that women like this do not exist. if i have to deal with another "feminine" (aka retarded child i get to pamper like a princess and do everything for while she just sits there and eats burps fucks and shits out babies) woman i am going to claw my eyes out. now dont get me wrong, i am masculine and i do want to play the masculine role SOMETIMES but if i never meet a woman like this IRL i will be forced to remain a volcel forever. fuck the jews and fuck the trannies for genociding tomboys. i will never forgive them

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>>100410
>retarded child i get to pamper like a princess and do everything for while she just sits there and eats burps fucks and shits out babies

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>>100397
Well I will admit if I get particuarly grossed out by something I tend to revert back to my furfag self since the autism makes me sensory sensitive.

But I will say that since I have been taking the worm stuff and I fasted recently I feel alot less of the "fuzzy feeling" looking at this stuff than I normally would, I have been looking into the Castor Oil cleanse to nuke the biofilm but fasting is difficult for me due to medical issues I definitely can't do 3 days as my conditions mean I basically HAVE to consume something.

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>>100490
>But I will say that since I have been taking the worm stuff and I fasted recently I feel alot less of the "fuzzy feeling" looking at this stuff than I normally would
your sex drive stops during fasting, doe it can return after that
>my conditions mean I basically HAVE to consume something
what are these exactly? you should be extra careful with it

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>>100503
Its kinda complicated but without getting too indepth my body can't really regulate alot of its normal functions so I have to manually perform certain things

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>>100503
Yeah that bit about fasting is true but I for example after taking the fenbendazole for a bit found it was easier to resist some of the urges

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>>100413
Ohnonononoo frogpedos…

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Jesus is the way the truth and the life. Also stop gooning.

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>>100531
I did that last part

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>>100531
>Giger qvote

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>>99350
Shit thread kill yourself

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>>100559
>retardNIGGER bumps anyway

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>>100559
I wanna clarify thats a separate user from me the one who started the thread I guess he wanted to "frame" me by posting his own faggotry? Idk

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>>97828 (OP)
God can forgive you, repent of this insanity and realize that you are in control of yourself. Ground yourself in reality and spend time with you family, divorce yourself from the internet and abandon these daydreams

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>>100731
Everyone seems to have this idea in their head im the usual "sits in a discord all day and goons" person but if I was I wouldn't be posting here. Because the issue is I kicked gooning and I have a healthier lifestyle but I still have these problems.

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Honestly, I feel the same way you do. I really never had any masculine figure in my since most of my male members were cucks. I honestly also find feminine more appealing then masculine. I feel like as a male it’s much harder to be feminine than it is to be masculine. I kinda wish I had more feminine features :/

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Hit the gym, join a boxing club, hit on roids, listen to tuff shi like trap and RAC, eat red meat

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>>101788
I do stuff like that sometimes to ward it off but its kind of just always "beneath the skin"

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>>97828 (OP)
Similar thing for me,I've always wanted to have something like Ralsei or Fluttershy, though for me it's always just been wanting to be like them more metally than physically (though I still do daydream about being them and being allowed to live alone in a fantasy land) and I often do find myself dissapointed in myself when I can't live up to these unrealistic role models. I used to be suicidal but it was for other reasons and it kinda just went away one day, now I just kinda feel mreh all the time and hate myself everytime I do anything because I feel like I'm a burden on other people and wish I could just fade away back into nothingness where I belong (not in a suicide way(



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