/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>97978
>That's my theory, at least.
it makes sense, since you were sad and depressed huge dopamine bursts from gooning were a powerful tool to "bend" your sexual interests.
<can you list all fetishes which you acquired from the Russian?
>A couple of years, maybe?
gradual exposure to fetishes is most harmful and has strongest desensitizing effect
<what made you chase bigger females as time went on?
>Because this Tello guy still has some of his comms up by that name. We might need to raid him some more.
good idea but I don't have much time now. sent you more info.

>>97983
achieving goals gives dopamine too so it can be a productive replacement for gooning once the person gets into game well.
setting a huge punishment for breaking streak is ineffective since one can't fully impose strong punishment onto self, especially with willpower/self-control issues. instead the benefits from keeping your streak must outweigh joy from gooning. doe I can't think of any such rewards yet. any ideas?

>>97986
why did you start watching porn in first place?

>>98043
>can you list all fetishes which you acquired from the Russian?
Vore, burps, larger sizes, slob, taurs, outright NSFW and males. Those I remember.
>what made you chase bigger females as time went on?
No clue, frankly. Again, kind of gradual.
>sent you more info.
Doc. *. Tos. THIS** out in the open???? How are feds not up their stomachs????

Goodness gracious…
A pillow is fine too…

>>98044
They will have to vary person from person. For extra gamification let's call these goals "quests". Defeating debt is a goal, and with debt the principle is it's health, the interest is the regeneration it does monthly, and the payments you make knock down the principle.

So a chud on a debt slaying quest that is distracted with porn, and hopefully NOT paying for it, would focus on that.

Skills gaining is important too. A chud on a quest for skills and knowledge would outline what he wants to learn, and go about working on that.

Each punishment should have components, both healthy. the "This is why i am doing this, because i wish to be free from this addiction" the punishment section, and "this is the damage my porn addiction has done to me" retrospection.

The game will need rules, penalties, and rewards, but these will have to be based on the individual.

>>98073
Have you tried it yourself?

Somebody just give me a morbidly obese male snep that is also horny and subby and top and turn me into a musclegut tanuki so that i could use his pillow bottom at -30 in pristine unjewed private Siberian forest…
Shove a can of dewormers in me beforehand but I'M STARVING FOR A MALE…
its stupid to be a virgin nazoid furry but thats who i am…
Yes nusois are like this ev&oe im not nu
Russian's back to being male-hungry…

>>98048
>Vore, burps, larger sizes, slob, taurs, outright NSFW and males.
you certainly were groomed nigga.
>No clue, frankly. Again, kind of gradual.
let me guess, they aroused you stronger?
>THIS** out in the open???? How are feds not up their stomachs????
it's cat-and-mouse thing mostly. if a brim site shuts down it reopens somewhere else. also most their antimatter 'p sharing grooming communities are invite-only instances on the clearnet with strong cryptography. they're kind of picky whom to invite but some 'teens succeeded infiltrating some instances in the past. still, a lot of diddys are opsec demons. it puzzles me doe how much people can get away with being shameless pedoniggers even if there is evidence against them.
>>98072
marge? did you fuck a pillow?
>>98182
yeah you certainly need a can of dewormers
>your letter
do NOT watch any irl stuff! and stay away from inflation like from fire. this videos you attached are worse than that obese furry art. if you can't control yourself at all just watch your drawings of furries instead of those horrible videos. yes, it's so terrible that I said this. in general irl fetishes are worse than fictional ones since at one point you will try it yourself. which is REALLY bad.
now that I see what things lust leads you to I'm glad I have rather strong discipline. you should strive for it too.
<did you see any ultra-fat furries before you got addicted to them? like before 2022. what was your reaction?
<will you start fighting your addiction? it gets out of hand now.

>>98189
>you certainly were groomed nigga.
As an adult. Riiight.
>a lot of diddys are opsec demons. it puzzles me doe how much people can get away with being shameless pedoniggers even if there is evidence against them.
They still can be id'd quickly…
>marge? did you fuck a pillow?
Yup. Was quite fun. Does it count or anything?
>yeah you certainly need a can of dewormers
Don't forget the snep and the tanukifier.
>did you see any ultra-fat furries before you got addicted to them? like before 2022. what was your reaction?
Of course, I saw some. I though of the fetish as weird.
>will you start fighting your addiction? it gets out of hand now.
You are this certain now?

>>98073
one of strongest motivation points I can imagine is reminding yourself about damage gooning does to you when you have an urge. loss of energy, cum stains and stench, wasting your time, fetish brimstone etc. after seeing what Hungarian sent me my disgust towards gooning increased tenfold.
started reading that book. are there any instructions for practical application? I'll try it on myself after finishing it.

>>98191
>As an adult. Riiight.
you seem to lack self control plus you were in vulnerable emotional state. so I think it's grooming.
>They still can be id'd quickly…
not all of them, it's theoretically possible to use these instances while not giving away any info whatsoever. I think some of them do it like that.
>Of course, I saw some. I though of the fetish as weird.
and you completely disregard what'd you think in the past about fetishes of your current self. is the pleasure more important to you than anything else?
>You are this certain now?
I was certain before but now I'm ultra certain.

>>98195
>you seem to lack self control plus you were in vulnerable emotional state. so I think it's grooming.
Fair enough. Not sure if the Russian wanted me groomed thoughie.
>is the pleasure more important to you than anything else?
Depending on what you imply by pleasure.
<The Russian wasn't involved in me 'aping the pillow. He was baffled even. It was clean and I did launder it afterwards with other dirty clothing.

>>98196
>Fair enough. Not sure if the Russian wanted me groomed thoughie.
you both were responsible since you wrote him first. still there are cases where victims actively seek out groomers themselves
>Depending on what you imply by pleasure.
bodily pleasure. enjoying lowest physical things.
>The Russian wasn't involved in me 'aping the pillow. He was baffled even. It was clean and I did launder it afterwards with other dirty clothing.
it disgusts me and makes me geg at the same time. the cum will remain, it's hard to wash away and get rid of, including smell. whose pillow was it? and why did you get this idea first place?

>>98198
>bodily pleasure. enjoying lowest physical things.
Huh. Not really always. I like tinkering with things. Math gives me pleasure from time to time too.
>whose pillow was it? and why did you get this idea first place?
It's mine. I own this soft huge furrear replacement. The idea… Long story, but can be told. HIGHLY 'TISTIC!!!

>>98200
>I like tinkering with things. Math gives me pleasure from time to time too.
that's a good kind of pleasure. not low certainly.
>It's mine. I own this soft huge furrear replacement. The idea… Long story, but can be told. HIGHLY 'TISTIC!!!
go on

>>98202
Okay…
I did forbid myself to pleasure myself with hands, for some reason… It all worked well until late '24, when the Russian found out about the way I worked it out (by laying on the floor only in my underpants), rightfully gegged and told me to stop being retarded and listing after floors. I suppose, he did groom me this time….

>>98204
how long did this self-restriction work? and how is this connected to pillow fucking?

>>98205
You could've laughed at least.
The restriction did work for 4+ years. It is connected because that's the same action…

>>98206
that's not funny for me since I wanted to get rid of gooning too (without restrictions like yours doe)
it reminded me of a situation when I was 14. once I got aroused in my bed at late evening and I started swinging forward and back on stomach rubbing my dick against bed. I came really fast, like in 20 seconds right into my underwear. the worst thing is that mother was in same room as me (she was sleeping doe). I quietly went to the toilet to try clean it off with tp. the stain was huge and it remained like that even after laundry. still embarrassed about this.
<why did you keep pleasing yourself against floor and watching porn?
<why didn't you outright ban watching porn or gooning instead of this hands thing?
<how did you get new fetishes without using hands?
<did you fuck the pillow just recently or in '24?

>>98207
>why did you keep pleasing yourself against floor and watching porn?
Eehhhh Idk at this point.
>did you fuck the pillow just recently or in '24?
Only after switching to males.
<I'm falling asleep now

>>98209
ok then answer it tomorrow

I finally got dewormers. I don't know whenever or not all my psychological problems that i suffered from the last 2 years are gone already but i don't feel any serious attraction to that depraved shit anymore it's almost as if I have been possesed by a demon. However the symptoms make it still very likely. It took a while that i could convince the doctor because she said "no saaar worms can't cause stomach ache and it's only when your ass itches"

>>98210
>why did you keep pleasing yourself against floor and watching porn?
Again, what I was watching was under restrictions too. I suppose it was the metaphorical leash for me.
>why didn't you outright ban watching porn or gooning instead of this hands thing?
Could I? I still did it only once a week, if not more seldom.
>how did you get new fetishes without using hands?
With my eyes and my brain. Similarly to "Hmmmm… This species isn't too far off. I'll allow it."
>did you fuck the pillow just recently or in '24?
That is, luckily, a rarity for me. The pre-last time was in January.
<I guess I better be more subtle with the Russian regarding deworming. He knows there's a thread on deworming I'm "insulted" in, but hasn't seen this one. Tips?

>>98216
>it's almost as if I have been possesed by a demon.
so much this. parasites really POSSESS you and make you do horrible things. but now they won't, congratulations with TPD. there's also a theory that "devils" in some parts of bible refers to parasites.
btw which 'teen are you?

>>98246
>Again, what I was watching was under restrictions too. I suppose it was the metaphorical leash for me.
so it was not effective at all.
>Hmmmm… This species isn't too far off. I'll allow it.
that's the trick which would eventually lead you to 'z or even worse. make sure to eradicate such thoughts.
>That is, luckily, a rarity for me. The pre-last time was in January.
GEG you still fuck it? I thought it was only once
>I guess I better be more subtle with the Russian regarding deworming. He knows there's a thread on deworming I'm "insulted" in, but hasn't seen this one. Tips?
the biggest tip: first deworm yourself then others.
<does he know about sharty?
<and how did he know that there's a thread on deworming where you're "insulted"?
btw nobaldi insults you here. you know well what sharty-level "insulting" means.

>>98263
This one
>>96772
I still feel some slightly weird stuff on my stomach at night btw altough no pain so it seems like almost all of then -acked! ig

>>98264
>GEG you still fuck it? I thought it was only once
That's the best option for me, aside from eating those pills.
>does he know about sharty?
Yes, back when he was a virgin. He doesn't visit imageboards anymore though.
>and how did he know that there's a thread on deworming where you're "insulted"?
I told him about it. Didn't show it, but tried to advertise the 'pill to him. Little success, to be fair.

>>98266
some may have immunity to med you've taken. if you want total parasite death try different dewormers or diatomaceous earth. it mechanically -ACKs them so they can't get immune to it

>>98268
>That's the best option for me, aside from eating those pills.
holy marge… how can be fucking a pillow best option?
>Yes, back when he was a virgin.
what year was it?
do you want to test wormpill on him and then if it's successful take it yourself?

>>98270
>how can be fucking a pillow best option?
I'm confused myself now…
>what year was it?
Late 2024 to mid 2025.
>do you want to test wormpill on him and then if it's successful take it yourself?
I guess so.

>>98273
>I'm confused myself now…
Laundering and maintaining overall a human-sized plushie would be too complicated and sort of tortury. I don't want that. Besides, how do you hide a 7 foot morbidly obese plushie? I could have guests, you know. Humans are abysmal because much realism, as well as my v-card still mattering.
<I'll grab me pills after sleep. Better refer to the list.

>>98306
They sell gooner toys, but to be brutally honest if you consider those then that is rock bottom and you are letting your desires override you common sense.

There is this lie that keeps getting told, that everyone used to fuck all the time and we live in unnatural prudish times. It's a lie, they did NOT fuck all the time back then, if they did they would have died of stds or childbirth. Most men back then focused on surviving and their projects.

>>98307
>They sell gooner toys, but to be brutally honest if you consider those then that is rock bottom and you are letting your desires override you common sense.
They look awful too.
>Most men back then focused on surviving and their projects.
No wonder. Human societies weren't as much of greenhouses as they are today.

>>98273
what do you fear regarding wormpill?
>>98306
why is pillow better in your opinion than just using hands? I don't get it and it's so weird. probably that pillow of yours stinks
>Humans are abysmal because much realism
then why did you get aroused by those fat antimatter videos?
>I'll grab me pills after sleep. Better refer to the list.
posted it before here >>96184

>>98458
>what do you fear regarding wormpill?
I just have to check if it works first.
>why is pillow better in your opinion than just using hands? I don't get it and it's so weird. probably that pillow of yours stinks
You must have some medium-term memory loss. I launder the pillow. I put it in a washing machine.
>then why did you get aroused by those fat antimatter videos?
Low bitrate and sounds. That could be the reasoning.
>posted it before here
Thanks, will check it.

They don't have the stuff from your list

>>98461
>You must have some medium-term memory loss. I launder the pillow. I put it in a washing machine.
that's not enough to fully get rid of the stench. plus you did it multiple times.
>Low bitrate and sounds.
promise to me that you won't watch any of those anymore
>>98462
try other shops. if there are no such meds too you can order it online, it's risky doe. btw food grade diatomaceous earth mustn't be that hard to get, you can take it every day for a week and then use meds. this will get rid of biofilm problem

>>98464
>promise to me that you won't watch any of those anymore
No more perverted and wormy humans bloating their bowels. Plausible enough.

>>98269
Yeah i've been feeling extremely sick and weak right now and started having gooning thoughts and feelings similar to the ones i first had. I obviously did not goon but i have no idea what's going to happen next

My problem with worm theory, is that the parasites like Toxoplasmosis are in the brain not the gut. Also with an outbreak you would find people with similar behaviors clustered in the same location. In fact you could deduce the source of an outbreak by this.

Then again, as we have learned from the latest food poisoning epidemic, the chemicals that they use to clean the produce do NOT kill cyst forming parasites. I also don't recall seeing this much degeneracy back when i was younger, and people ate out WAY more often because it was very cheap.

Now epi? I honestly suspect a lot of this is the result of all the damn smut that flooded the internet back in 2008 when smart phones came out. In fact we have posts here where the kids were talking about how youtube videos triggered them. Which fits with EPI. The rules for cartoons changed too, and they no longer were bound by ethical codes or required to be screened by child psychologists.

So why not hedge the efforts and do MULTIPLE things to beat the porn habit? It's an extremely hard habit to beat. you can go to the doctor and get medication to treat opioids and alcoholism, in fact often the same pills! but when you say "i jerk off too much" they don't treat it as a problem. That's what makes it hard to beat, it's socially acceptable. It often feels mandated in fact, because if you are not out chasing girls society hates you. They need you to be a consooomer who is trapped in the workforce.

>>98510
>Now epi? I honestly suspect a lot of this is the result of all the damn smut that flooded the internet back in 2008 when smart phones came out. In fact we have posts here where the kids were talking about how youtube videos triggered them. Which fits with EPI. The rules for cartoons changed too, and they no longer were bound by ethical codes or required to be screened by child psychologists.

I remember getting EPI'd after finding a book featuring erotic art in a book store. Months later i got into Hentai. I think i might have been EPI'D by some Anime that made me get into some fetishes here in there before that but it probably didn't fuck my brains out as much and was mainly just me being a cringe retard

>>98510
>My problem with worm theory, is that the parasites like Toxoplasmosis are in the brain not the gut.
they can be elsewhere. in muscles, liver, heart etc. strong dewormers course through the whole organism and some (like fenbendazole) pass blood-brain barrier. doe toxoplasma cysts cannot be penetrated so it's irreversible.
>Also with an outbreak you would find people with similar behaviors clustered in the same location.
first I thought like this too. actually fetish is a result of combination of parasites' chemicals plus individual's unique biochemistry and experiences (porn he got exposed to)
>Then again, as we have learned from the latest food poisoning epidemic, the chemicals that they use to clean the produce do NOT kill cyst forming parasites. I also don't recall seeing this much degeneracy back when i was younger, and people ate out WAY more often because it was very cheap.
good point. in my theory to awake a fetish there must be 2 factors present: cause (parasite) and trigger (porn). and hence 2 methods to get rid of it: abstinence from triggers like easypeasy or removal of parasites. with the latter you can view triggers and they won't have any effect on you, I tested this on myself. to how degeneracy progressed in society, primary hypothesis is the spread of porn and pro-gooning propaganda. I also suspect that they can spread small amounts of parasites on purpose (for example through public water supply) but it's way too far-fetched.
>Now epi? I honestly suspect a lot of this is the result of all the damn smut that flooded the internet back in 2008 when smart phones came out. In fact we have posts here where the kids were talking about how youtube videos triggered them. Which fits with EPI. The rules for cartoons changed too, and they no longer were bound by ethical codes or required to be screened by child psychologists.
this, in the past there were way less triggers. plus degenerates weren't socially accepted so they stayed in their enclosed small communities.
>So why not hedge the efforts and do MULTIPLE things to beat the porn habit?
well I didn't say that deworming is the ONLY solution. combined with other methods it's in fact stronger.
>That's what makes it hard to beat, it's socially acceptable. It often feels mandated in fact, because if you are not out chasing girls society hates you.
to successfully spread porn they first had to make it acceptable. and slowly they did it in the span of multiple decades. now if you're anti-porn everyone will think of you as some ultra-conservative retard or even a sect member.

>>98595
>first I thought like this too. actually fetish is a result of combination of parasites' chemicals plus individual's unique biochemistry and experiences (porn he got exposed to)

I don't think it's necessary because of parasites. I had fetishes since I was 12 but I have been infected since 2 or years or so

>>98626
How do you know?
<nurega

>>98045
groomed by a madness combat fan

I'm hideously bored and not horny whatsoever. What do?

>>98920
maybe read parasite pill pdf? there is some bs but also interesting stuff

>>98887
idk why but both a lot of troons and chuds like this game

>>98626
which fetishes did you have?