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For the last couple of days I have been consistently angry, and I know its not good to keep your cortisol levels spiked but I can't help myself
For context, its my last full week at school, we have major exams in less than 3 weeks. I'm the nigga who dumped his best friend like a month ago because he was a psycho that was manipulating people n shieet.
I have literally nobody to talk anything serious to. I had to get rid of my only close friend for being a retarded 'apeson with a massive fucking ego, and now im stuck with all the other niggas. Since exams are so close, all i want to do is focus on revising for those so I can get into the unis of my choice without having to go through the niggerhell of clearing (britbong schools). When I'm not revising, I'd like to have some time to go outside and get some sun and fresh air to remind myself that I'm a human, and I like doing that by skateboarding.
Instead of being able to get enough sleep, revise efficiently, and then go outside a bit every day, I have to go to my shithole school. We already finished all the topics so I can spend every lesson revising whatever I need to. My issue is that I end up spending nearly 3 hours a day on the bus commuting to my school filled with jeets, then I have nobody to talk to because I'm not close to anyone, and then school wastes my time even more by having mandatory "fun" activities during form time, and lunch time. At home I don't even eat lunch, just breakfast and dinner, but since I have to rush breakfast to get to school, I have to eat their goyslop food. What triggered this massive paragraph of SNCA is that in my maths class today a girl (jeet brown if that matters) spoke basically non stop the entire fucking lesson. Normally I don't give a shit but she has a clearly distinguishable voice, so its hard to ignore, and she was practising for spanish oral exams so it wasn't just mixed into the regular english background mumbles.
If I'm thinking logically, I know that the reason I'm angry is because of lack of sleep (i basically never get more than 6.5 hours, normally between 5.5-6) and lack of social interaction, but I don't want to rationalise this shit.
I have also not had a single girlfriend, and only one female "friend" that I will most probably never speak to after exams are over. I'm going to be ending 6th form (high school 16-18 for mutts) with no real friends and no female relationship experience. My secondary was a boys-only school so I had no shot getting girls then.
The more I look at it, the more I am noticing the signs of it all being over before it even began. I'm probably somewhat a sperg so socialising doesn't come easy to me, and I can't force myself to do goy key-jingling activities like parties. I tried, I don't like them. I can't even fit in that well because I'm a euromutt that isn't racially british whatsoever, and I have a retarded sounding voice with an accent anybrit notices ev&doe I spent my whole life here.
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â„–86811[Quote]
>>86810 (OP)the only reason I posted this is because I need to tell this to somephono, otherwise theres a chance I will go ER
I tried telling my mother (who wouldn't let me skip today ev&doe everyone else did, my physics class had 5 people in it) about it, and she was like "oh but you must have got something out of it, you could skip the next school day".
I have one actual school day left, and its the last one. If she had let me just bunk I would have done more work, relaxed properly, gotten more sleep, and instead I'm here having a cortisol spike
â„–86812[Quote]
>>86810 (OP)I've heard that britbong schools are absolute niggerhell due to browns + cheecky lil bri'ish cunts, i.e. not even the whites make for good company
>Normally I don't give a shit but she has a clearly distinguishable voice, so its hard to ignore, and she was practising for spanish oral exams so it wasn't just mixed into the regular english background mumbles. make fun of her for the poojeet accent, that'd maybe get her insecure enough
>>86811I used to go to mcdonalds & kebab places in my senior year
if you want to use that time to study you could just go to a library and revise there
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>>86812unfortunately she must have spent her whole life in this shitty country, she speaks english like a native. I have a retarded voice and accent, and have spent none of the last 2 years interacting with my class, I'd probably get burnt at the stake by the school for making fun of her.
The whites mostly don't make good company, i agree with that. My school is a grammar school in a big city, so its majority jeet since britfags don't value education most of the time and are fine spending their entire life working a slop job and the most exciting activity being going to the pub.
I've been eating out recently, its not bad, but if I eat out its from my account while if I eat at school its from my parents, so I can't do it daily otherwise I'd go broke
(caring about money is jewish doebeit
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I do spend any of my free periods at school revising, its a waste of time to sit in the common room and listen to the dregs of society that are supposed to be some of the best in the country talk. I'm just pissed that I'm having so much of my time wasted for no good reason. Schools should give more study leave, if you can't study by yourself, you need to learn how to before uni anyway
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>>86810 (OP)>I'm a euromutt that isn't racially british whatsoeverit was over before it ever even began
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NOPNHNO CARES
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no2in2 2
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>>86819nigga its the blogpost board, everything here is SNCA
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>>86814you can pack a lunch to bring to the library or something
where I lived there were none so idk if you can eat there, maybe you can sit on the ground outside without a copper busting your kneecaps for eating without a heckin loicense or something
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Stop leaking like jeez man its not that hard
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im mad when im high
im sad when im low