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i think at this point I'm genuinely just in denial of the fact that my incel ass is not getting laid
Like, let me point it all out:
>fat (90kg) while also being a (1.67) manlet
>probably autistic, can't really socialize normally with most people my age, my current friend group mostly just uses me as a laughing stock, can't get people to respect me
>Can't integrate in activities like partying or enjoy stuff like going to the beach for some reason, my family is always forcing me to do stuff like talking to people, they always say I act like an old man or that I'm boring, can't dance (I live in the Caribbean)
Because of this possible autism, I've also come out as weird to others my entire life, especially girls. Is easy for people to end up hating me, and of course girls won't get near me most of the time, I've been called weird and a gooner in my face several times even if I don't act sexually or try to do or say anything to them, they just see me like that. But honestly? I can't blame them.
>Also hopeless gooner and porn addict, I've been addicted to porn since I was 9 (I'm 17), I've seen (and done) lots of shit that I'm ashamed of. I've always had a low self esteem but my porn addiction only added to it, a lot of times I feel like I'm downright undeserving of love.
Mix all of this with years of bullying, loneliness and rejection and now I'm perpetually bitter and resentful towards girls, but I manage to hide my chud side so women around me don't hate me even more.
I had a girlfriend for like.. 2 weeks? But we broke up because she didn't really like me, she just used me as a rebound, she was actually lesbian and she went back to her foid ex as soon as she could. I only wasted my money and time I guess, 17yo and already betabuxxing.
I hate myself man, I'm mentally ill, I have anxiety that gives me tachycardia and I can't sleep at night. I think about killing myself often, I have thought of two methods
1) Throwing myself off some large train bridge in my city
2) getting a job as a security guard, they give a shotgun to anyone. And blow my brains off in the middle of the night alone.
Im too much of a pussy to do it anyways, I fear the effects it would cause on my family (especially my mom and my grandma) and also fear hell despite being agnostic.
I want to change, I've tried, but I lack something, like willpower or discipline, every time I try to grow or change I end up failing myself and others and hating myself even more, I have lost trust in myself. I hate myself.
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>>86595 (OP)Are you the dominican guy who commented a while ago?
Losing some weight is possible. 90kg is overweight but not so obese that you will require surgery or years of dieting. Limit yourself to 2 meals a day, and eat normally then. Breakfast and dinner work well. Don't snack in between.
If you lose weight you might be more confident in general, and if it bothers you you might not mind the beach as much.
Follow the standard procedure for stopping/reducing gooning
Don't try to interact with people any more than you have to. If you are going to uni, I recommend you go to clubs/activities that you are interested in. If you have common interests that is the easiest way to make friends if you are spergy.
You should try to do something about the tachycardia before you have a heart attack or something. Get that checked out with a doctor and see if they can give you something that isn't hard drugs to help you with that.
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>>>86595 (OP)>Are you the dominican guy who commented a while ago?yeah
>Losing some weight is possible. 90kg is overweight but not so obese that you will require surgery or years of dieting. Limit yourself to 2 meals a day, and eat normally then. Breakfast and dinner work well. Don't snack in between. >If you lose weight you might be more confident in general, and if it bothers you you might not mind the beach as much. i used to go to the gym but i dont really go anymore due to school and laziness, i dont want to be muscular im okay with just being skinny honestly
>Follow the standard procedure for stopping/reducing gooningyeah i've been avoding porn this week, even though i still masturbate because i dont plan on trying and wrestling with my hormones
>Don't try to interact with people any more than you have to. If you are going to uni, I recommend you go to clubs/activities that you are interested in. If you have common interests that is the easiest way to make friends if you are spergy. i dont want to talk with my friends anymore, i've been withdrawing socially and especially dont plan to talk with foids unless its really necessary (school) and im pretty sure universities here dont have that sorta stuff but i will try and look for something similar
>You should try to do something about the tachycardia before you have a heart attack or something. Get that checked out with a doctor and see if they can give you something that isn't hard drugs to help you with that.actually, i was recently undergoing some exams at the cardiologist, with a holter an all. but my parents didnt bother to go further. if i ever die of a heart attack i guess they will just blame it on the covid vaccine like everyone else does when a kid my age dies from heart issues
>>86656>at least you have friends it's not over for you yetThey mostly just make fun of me i barely hang out with them (which is usually awkard because they are all over 20 and smoke and drink and im a 17yo who isnt interested on any of that) and i doubt they would stick for me if something bad ever happened to me, so i feel alone most of the time
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if all you care about is getting laid just find an eazy girl and get that pussy, alcohol will losen you up enough
if you want a relationship find a girl who's similarly autistic and retarded
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>>86685>if you want a relationship find a girl who's similarly autistic and retardedI swear I have tried, I found her once, but she didn't like me back because for some reason all the girls that share stuff in common with me are lesbians or bisexual or asexual or whatever it pisses me off