/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>86421 (OP)
now thinking back on my life, my enviorenment did make me a faggot, growing up i didnt have a father figure, literally no male figure in my life, bullied and emasculated by the other kids making me feel insecure and not like a man, called girlish by other people, the same older kid who touched me epi's me in real life by literally forcing me to watch some sick shit, this all happened when i was little
as a teenager, i just wasted away on the internet atleast i wasnt getting bullied irl, though my previous interactions made me afraid of people and i would just degenerate for years wasting time on 4cuck and other degenerate places, but finding the sharty was one of the best things that has happened to me because, my eyes were opened to the harms of degeneracy such as trannies and faggots because that raisin is so normalized on the internet outside the soysphere, im glad that i have a puritan mindset that ive learned from this amazing community

Somephono needs to create a poll to see how many users of this board are The Raped

>>86428
i wasnt raped, that person just bullied me weirdly

>>86421 (OP)
>posted the fag-pill 'meme'
that is arguably the gayest thing you've done and every christpilling nigger is exactly like you- ZERO changes except maybe they affirm their gayness
>The gayest thing ive done is sucking a dick when i was drunk
nigger… why?

>How do I stop being a faggot?
1. quit porn
2. don't think like a fag
>When I was 8 or 9, some older kid touched me and sexually dominated me although it wasn't full-on rape.
3. find a way to recover from this

nigger. thats fucked up and disgusting. i guess try not to beat yourself up too much but quit the faggotry. you'll only end up as a depressed faggot like the rest of them and then you'll be in the lake of fire for eternity. have a mind-set like that and maybe you won't be a faggy nigger anymore

>>86422
also probably start working out so you don't look so much like a faggot then

>>86431
i posted the fagpill meme because it wonderfully portrays how disgusting faggotry is, and im undeniably a self hating faggot albeit trying to change.
>nigger… why?
The guy who i sucked off always said i looked feminine and girly, he was straight but i was girly enough for him i guess, and he comforted me and acted as a good friend when i was feeling down and my mentally ill deranged brain somehow wired it with sexual attraction, im afraid that if i meet another friend who im really good with, my disgusting fag brain will ruin it by making it homo attraction so im considering taking ssris that supposedly turn off/reduce sexual cravings and libido though i have no friends so thats not a worry, or ill just stop being a degenerate to the best of my abilities and pray then ill stop being a fag one day
and thanks for the rest of the advice

>>86435
i will spend the rest of my life, working every second, never being lazy or resting, and working my hardest and smartest to become rich as possible and donate that money to like the homeless or something and becoming the best person possible to atone for that horrible sin of sucking dick, genuinely traumatizing and i hate myself about it, the worst thing is i enjoyed it at the time though i was drunk
ill use that horrible mistake as motivation i guess

Find solice in christ. God forgives everyone.

>>86436
you're being too hard on yourself

>>86438
thanks, i need to pray and work hard as possible to change
>>86439
being tough on myself as much as possible, might give me some atonement or peace from it, maybe it wont and i will forever have to live with the fact that ive sucked a penis, that will forever be a weight on my shoulder i guess
if i pick a profession and skills i enjoy doing and learning, it wont be so bad if i studied and worked as much as possible

>>86435
just a question. did your friend initiate the act?

>>86441
yes but i dont want to think of this shit ever, i wanna move on and forget

>>86435
>i posted the fagpill meme because it wonderfully portrays how disgusting faggotry is
i was referring to the demonic nigger faggots who spam the christpill meme

>>86442
so you were taken advantage of by a faggot kike nigger? i don't thing you need to beat yourself up about it as much as you do
>im afraid that if i meet another friend who im really good with, my disgusting fag brain will ruin it by making it homo attraction
i doubt that would happen, unless someone else came along who wanted to take advantage of you. i would be more careful of that rather than yourself
>im considering taking ssris that supposedly turn off/reduce sexual cravings and libido though i have no friends so thats not a worry, or ill just stop being a degenerate to the best of my abilities and pray then ill stop being a fag one day
i wouldn't suggest it because of the permanent side affects they can cause- like impotency or depression. stay away from porn like its cancer and you should be feeling better.
>>86442
i would say you've done enough acknowledging here. i hope you get better 'teen

>>86443
yeah its another baitcord forced meme
>>86444
>so you were taken advantage
I wasnt severely drunk, just drunk enough to do stuff my sober mind would be too scared to do. I still said yes, i agreed to sucking him off, i had developed feelings for that guy. and that guy knew it. Its both of our faults for being disgusting fags, if i personally never developed feelings, then he wouldnt have picked up on it and none of this would have happened. He was a great friend who comforted me, im a fucked up individual even before all this as i wrote in my original post, i was the disgusting faggot who made it gay
Im the one who developed feelings first, so the guilt kinda goes to me, and if another nice friend comes along, im scared that might repeat, though ive been purposefully isolating myself until i develop as a person fit to socialize, meaning no longer a degenerate so i hopefully will leave all this behind
well the real jartycuck was the older kid who touched me when i was little anyway i need to move on from this too
If i solve my touch starvation and loneliness by finding a woman, i think my faggotry will totally cease to exist
thanks for the advice and hope

What do you do when you're a faggot but you dont like women. Do you just kill yourself. I'm asking for a friend

>>86446
undo the severe braindamage, im op and at worst im a bisexual but i cant properly even know what its like to not be attracted to women and only men, so i cant give proper good advice, i will never know what its like from your mind and life.
And are you sure you dont find the curves of a woman, beautiful feminine face, or anything sexual and beautiful about women? Seriously none?
If not, then "try to" is my only advice, stop thinking about men, stop intrusive gay fantasies and redirect thought, senses and attention to something else, dont goon obviously, pray if you're religious, and generally try to live a good healthy lifestyle, it helps mental illnesses alot simple stuff like diet, sleep and exercise
If you're coming at it from an incel angle and you do find women sexually appealing but you just dont like them, the bp is just bullshit, reality is greater than that
>picrel is a nepalese trvth nvke

>>86421 (OP)
>>86447
Did you notice that sexual affection towards men is not innately yours? It's forced on you "from outside" and you're resisting it. Openly gay faggots just stop fighting and accept these intentions, that's why they are so mentally ill and broken.
These are really not innately yours, and that's why:

PARASITIC WORMS IN YOUR GUT RELEASE CHEMICALS WHICH AFFECT YOUR BEHAVIOR BY TURNING YOU INTO A FAGGOT

Evolution made them do exactly this, as fetishist faggots are much more likely to spread their eggs than mentally normal hosts.
Get rid of worms and you will no longer have any degenerative sexual interests, your need for masturbation will also significantly drop. It won't be instant but you will feel much better after a couple of weeks. Read parasite pill on the wiki if you want to learn more.
It's good that you are rejecting this filth, I hope you heal and become normal. Spread parasite pill to other affected people, faggotry is purely biochemical thing so mental exercises and praying won't help.

>>86421 (OP)
>I've only sucked 1 dick

aversion therapy

>>86455
what do you have to prove the parasite pill is actually real

>>86455
from my experience its something psychological than a physical worm. I never got fucked in the ass. Its more hopeful for me if its a purely psychological thing i can fix with willpower than if its an actual worm inside me. I wasnt fucked in the ass by anyone so i dont think i wouldve gotten it
>>86457
the guy wasnt black
>>86458
thanks

>>86460
You can get infected in any way, like forgetting to wash hands or eating fast food from a 'jeet. It doesn't have to be exactly anal sex infection.
Your psychology stems from hormones which are affected by worms. You should really try deworming, it won't make you any worse, only better. Most likely it's pinworms, these faggots are the most common. You don't need any medical prescriptions, simply take some pyrantel. Just don't do any crazy shit like eating metal blades, castor oil or coffee enemas.

>>86461
okay, noted

>>86460
>from my experience its something psychological than a physical worm.
loneliness is also a cause. its basically a radical attempt to get human attention.

just become christpilled

>>86468
true im a very lonely, touch starved and insecure person with lots of mental problems, thats a better explanatino for me being a fag than worms
the man who i got close with, was like an antidepressant made me cheer up and a break from my misery, and i got attached in a gay way
>>86473
theres nothing wrong with ex lgbt people who wanna change for the better and become normal and straight, its actually a good thing

>>86475
there have been a gorillion faggot posts on this board, everybody who doesn't suck dick has had enough

162 kits in my den.
Heyo call me sprout/goober :P

He/him
Silly/funny
Kind

>>86421 (OP)
JBG bro

>>86475
Likely it's both. When did you deworm last time? You should do it at least once a year