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>>86421 (OP)now thinking back on my life, my enviorenment did make me a faggot, growing up i didnt have a father figure, literally no male figure in my life, bullied and emasculated by the other kids making me feel insecure and not like a man, called girlish by other people, the same older kid who touched me epi's me in real life by literally forcing me to watch some sick shit, this all happened when i was little
as a teenager, i just wasted away on the internet atleast i wasnt getting bullied irl, though my previous interactions made me afraid of people and i would just degenerate for years wasting time on 4cuck and other degenerate places, but finding the sharty was one of the best things that has happened to me because, my eyes were opened to the harms of degeneracy such as trannies and faggots because that raisin is so normalized on the internet outside the soysphere, im glad that i have a puritan mindset that ive learned from this amazing community
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Somephono needs to create a poll to see how many users of this board are The Raped
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>>86428i wasnt raped, that person just bullied me weirdly
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>>86421 (OP)>posted the fag-pill 'meme'that is arguably the gayest thing you've done and every christpilling nigger is exactly like you- ZERO changes except maybe they affirm their gayness
>The gayest thing ive done is sucking a dick when i was drunknigger… why?
>How do I stop being a faggot?1. quit porn
2. don't think like a fag
>When I was 8 or 9, some older kid touched me and sexually dominated me although it wasn't full-on rape.3. find a way to recover from this
nigger. thats fucked up and disgusting. i guess try not to beat yourself up too much but quit the faggotry. you'll only end up as a depressed faggot like the rest of them and then you'll be in the lake of fire for eternity. have a mind-set like that and maybe you won't be a faggy nigger anymore
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>>86422also probably start working out so you don't look so much like a faggot then
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>>86431i posted the fagpill meme because it wonderfully portrays how disgusting faggotry is, and im undeniably a self hating faggot albeit trying to change.
>nigger… why?The guy who i sucked off always said i looked feminine and girly, he was straight but i was girly enough for him i guess, and he comforted me and acted as a good friend when i was feeling down and my mentally ill deranged brain somehow wired it with sexual attraction, im afraid that if i meet another friend who im really good with, my disgusting fag brain will ruin it by making it homo attraction so im considering taking ssris that supposedly turn off/reduce sexual cravings and libido though i have no friends so thats not a worry, or ill just stop being a degenerate to the best of my abilities and pray then ill stop being a fag one day
and thanks for the rest of the advice
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>>86435i will spend the rest of my life, working every second, never being lazy or resting, and working my hardest and smartest to become rich as possible and donate that money to like the homeless or something and becoming the best person possible to atone for that horrible sin of sucking dick, genuinely traumatizing and i hate myself about it, the worst thing is i enjoyed it at the time though i was drunk
ill use that horrible mistake as motivation i guess
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Find solice in christ. God forgives everyone.
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>>86436you're being too hard on yourself
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>>86438thanks, i need to pray and work hard as possible to change
>>86439being tough on myself as much as possible, might give me some atonement or peace from it, maybe it wont and i will forever have to live with the fact that ive sucked a penis, that will forever be a weight on my shoulder i guess
if i pick a profession and skills i enjoy doing and learning, it wont be so bad if i studied and worked as much as possible
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>>86435just a question. did your friend initiate the act?
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>>86441yes but i dont want to think of this shit ever, i wanna move on and forget
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>>86435>i posted the fagpill meme because it wonderfully portrays how disgusting faggotry isi was referring to the
demonic nigger faggots who spam the christpill meme
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>>86442so you were taken advantage of by a faggot kike nigger? i don't thing you need to beat yourself up about it as much as you do
>im afraid that if i meet another friend who im really good with, my disgusting fag brain will ruin it by making it homo attractioni doubt that would happen, unless someone else came along who wanted to take advantage of you. i would be more careful of that rather than yourself
>im considering taking ssris that supposedly turn off/reduce sexual cravings and libido though i have no friends so thats not a worry, or ill just stop being a degenerate to the best of my abilities and pray then ill stop being a fag one dayi wouldn't suggest it because of the permanent side affects they can cause- like impotency or depression. stay away from porn like its cancer and you should be feeling better.
>>86442i would say you've done enough acknowledging here. i hope you get better 'teen
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>>86443yeah its another baitcord forced meme
>>86444>so you were taken advantageI wasnt severely drunk, just drunk enough to do stuff my sober mind would be too scared to do. I still said yes, i agreed to sucking him off, i had developed feelings for that guy. and that guy knew it. Its both of our faults for being disgusting fags, if i personally never developed feelings, then he wouldnt have picked up on it and none of this would have happened. He was a great friend who comforted me, im a fucked up individual even before all this as i wrote in my original post, i was the disgusting faggot who made it gay
Im the one who developed feelings first, so the guilt kinda goes to me, and if another nice friend comes along, im scared that might repeat, though ive been purposefully isolating myself until i develop as a person fit to socialize, meaning no longer a degenerate so i hopefully will leave all this behind
well the real jartycuck was the older kid who touched me when i was little anyway i need to move on from this too
If i solve my touch starvation and loneliness by finding a woman, i think my faggotry will totally cease to exist
thanks for the advice and hope
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>>86446undo the severe braindamage, im op and at worst im a bisexual but i cant properly even know what its like to not be attracted to women and only men, so i cant give proper good advice, i will never know what its like from your mind and life.
And are you sure you dont find the curves of a woman, beautiful feminine face, or anything sexual and beautiful about women? Seriously none?
If not, then "try to" is my only advice, stop thinking about men, stop intrusive gay fantasies and redirect thought, senses and attention to something else, dont goon obviously, pray if you're religious, and generally try to live a good healthy lifestyle, it helps mental illnesses alot simple stuff like diet, sleep and exercise
If you're coming at it from an incel angle and you do find women sexually appealing but you just dont like them, the bp is just bullshit, reality is greater than that
>picrel is a nepalese trvth nvke №86455[Quote]
>>86421 (OP)>>86447Did you notice that sexual affection towards men is not innately yours? It's forced on you "from outside" and you're resisting it. Openly gay faggots just stop fighting and accept these intentions, that's why they are so mentally ill and broken.
These are really not innately yours, and that's why:
PARASITIC WORMS IN YOUR GUT RELEASE CHEMICALS WHICH AFFECT YOUR BEHAVIOR BY TURNING YOU INTO A FAGGOTEvolution made them do exactly this, as fetishist faggots are much more likely to spread their eggs than mentally normal hosts.
Get rid of worms and you will no longer have any degenerative sexual interests, your need for masturbation will also significantly drop. It won't be instant but you will feel much better after a couple of weeks. Read parasite pill on the wiki if you want to learn more.
It's good that you are rejecting this filth, I hope you heal and become normal. Spread parasite pill to other affected people, faggotry is purely biochemical thing so mental exercises and praying won't help.
№86458[Quote]
aversion therapy
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>>86455what do you have to prove the parasite pill is actually real
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>>86455from my experience its something psychological than a physical worm. I never got fucked in the ass. Its more hopeful for me if its a purely psychological thing i can fix with willpower than if its an actual worm inside me. I wasnt fucked in the ass by anyone so i dont think i wouldve gotten it
>>86457the guy wasnt black
>>86458thanks
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>>86460You can get infected in any way, like forgetting to wash hands or eating fast food from a 'jeet. It doesn't have to be exactly anal sex infection.
Your psychology stems from hormones which are affected by worms. You should really try deworming, it won't make you any worse, only better. Most likely it's pinworms, these faggots are the most common. You don't need any medical prescriptions, simply take some pyrantel. Just don't do any crazy shit like eating metal blades, castor oil or coffee enemas.
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>>86460>from my experience its something psychological than a physical worm.loneliness is also a cause. its basically a radical attempt to get human attention.
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just become christpilled
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>>86468true im a very lonely, touch starved and insecure person with lots of mental problems, thats a better explanatino for me being a fag than worms
the man who i got close with, was like an antidepressant made me cheer up and a break from my misery, and i got attached in a gay way
>>86473theres nothing wrong with ex lgbt people who wanna change for the better and become normal and straight, its actually a good thing
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>>86475there have been a gorillion faggot posts on this board, everybody who doesn't suck dick has had enough
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>>86475Likely it's both. When did you deworm last time? You should do it at least once a year
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Dude just ignore it
That's all you really can do
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so…. your bisexual?
№86564[Quote]
My question is how come retarded faggots like you get to suck dick on a whim like it’s nothing meanwhile intentionally bisexual niggas like me are khhv truecels both ways just end me
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>>86564you're a disgusting faggot who can't get either gender, just end it already faggot
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>>86563yeah id probably listen to this OP, it could be worse I guess
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>>86564if gay men reject you its so over.
they'll fuck literally anything
Brutal.
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>>86476okay understandable, but ill still reply to the people in this thread, and i dont suck dick, i only did it once
>>86501ill try ze pills then
>>86559yeah disengage from homo fantasies as much as possible and instead try to replace them with thinking about beautiful womvn though not in a gooner way, honestly i need to spend my time and energy on something that actually matters
>>86560Yes though i disagree with labeling people with "sexualities", and i disagree with the term "sexuality". Theres no such thing as a sexuality, its simply tiers of homosexuality, like how someone has mild depression, moderate depression and severe depression, same concept applies im moderately homosexual as in i do think about men often(when i dont have the willpower to fight back and i let those thoughts consume me), but i still find the beauty in a womans curves, body and face.
>>86563>I don’t think it’s healthy to beat yourself this much over your sexuality because you really have no choice over who your attracted to. I agree on that part, its a mental illness and i didnt choose to develop it. Though fundamentally no matter how much a tranny or a faggot doesnt force their identity upon others and just shuts the fuck up about it, even in secret that person sucking cocks and biting pillows is wrong, its fundamentally a mental illness and a disgusting thing to do, it can never be rationalized to be okay.
>Straight men even really experience emotional intimacyThats meant to be experienced with a beautiful wife, and i will experience with my future wife oneday
>t’s largely inconsequential in the grand scheme of things in my eyes though.From reading the simple words it may seem that way, but the sensations of another guys dick in my mouth is fucking haunting, its a heavy burden on me, no matter what language it is, words cannot fully encapsulate the sensations and the qualia of it, we all bear our own crosses that another human with another mind will never experience and feel the sensations evandoe that person consciously understands what is explained by words
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>>86564a good friend of mine who comforted me and helped me now hates me because of what i did, the pain and regret is eternal and will always act as God's lesson to not be a sodomite
Please dont be a fucking faggot, if you find a good friend one day, dont let ur faggot urges win
https://godhatesfags.com/If you're struggling with these thoughts, think of the beauty of women, even if you have to be a little sinful about it like the curves, boobs and beautiful feminine face, still do it because its better than thinking about men, think about whatever beautiful woman you can envision in your head, a lustful thought about a woman is better than a non lustful but still intimate thought about a man
and if you're bisexual because of what 4cuck r9k and incel forums told you about women and not because you seriously think about men, say you're like this and ill explain why that doomer raisin is not to be trusted
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If all else fails take testo o algo
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>>86585Man even if you wanna go through the puritan Christpilled route listening to the Westboro Baptist Church about anything is just retarded bro. These evangelical protestant dumbasses border on Qanon levels of psyopped retardation. If anything I feel like you should get help from someone in an Eastern Orthodox or Catholic church, or maybe just any competent Presbyterian or Lutheran church if you need true spiritual guidance for this.
>a lustful thought about a woman is better than a non lustful but still intimate thought about a manI'm not (very) religious myself but I know chastising yourself about your intimate thoughts with men to the point of committing other sins like lust for women is just not the way to go bro. You're like a textbook definition case of why people think the Church grooms people by using fearmongering. The truth is these things aren't so black and white as you think they are. Stop saving these images and listening to glue-eating Amerimutt fag-hating retards on imageboards like this and seek competent help for this because this is genuinely kind of troubling to see.
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>>86573I just have strict standards both ways to be honest. I'm six foot and somewhat above average in terms of looks. all the sexual culture surrounding LGBTQ+ culture and their participants disgust me. Knowing most faggots act that way and think that way immediately turns me off to most of my options in that field.
<alien kuz spaceI don't even know why I try explaining myself to you retards anyway. Nobody on this website understands nuance at all
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>>86600ah yes the volcel cope
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>>86602more posing wont fix anything
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>>86604>frogsissies are gay incelspepepoopas….
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>>86607y sooo insecure bby?
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>>86609just let it go bruhh
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>>86567Fucking hate this Russian faggot
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>>86619chill chill chiiilll bro ahahaha
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>>86598Yeah true, i should get real life help instead of this surface level internet information. everything on the internet from 'tube videos explaining stuff to random info i see on imageboards, its all too surface level including that godhatesfags thing
Im planning to visit a church irl, socialize there since i dont have any friends, and visit a psychiatrist that can give deeper and more personal advice than general advice on the internet
>I know chastising yourself about your intimate thoughts with men to the point of committing other sins like lust for women is just not the way to go broTrue, i said a retarded thing, the discussion shouldnt be which sin is better or worse but just avoiding it all
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>>86622All in all seems like a good plan, except for the going to a psychiatrist part. They probably wouldn't help very much and even if you do you don't want to get on the medications they would give you. I would see a psychologist if I were you.
<REDDITBut yeah all in all good plan do it bro you got this bro anything is possible
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>>86421 (OP)I'm a faggot too, luckily haven't ever acted on it and I'm definitely attracted to women as well, but fuck I feel disgusting whenever I get those thoughts and urges. I don't remember when it began or anything, but I was never raped or molested or SAed. I don't know how I could have developed this and it's confusing as fuck and I feel like I don't know my own mind sometimes.
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>>86627Oh yeah true. I am aware of that and rest assured I am trying very hard to stop watching porn and I've succeeded in really reducing how much I view, and I've almost won
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>>86628that's good, there's shit that haunts me from when i was terribly addicted. keep staying off it
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>>86629yeah I mean it has left me with some fucked up stuff but nothing illegal, just bad
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>>86630i have messed up with cartoon 'p whilst not seeing it as 'p at the time, i obsess with it about almost every second. i've been told i have pOCD, but i don't even feel like i can trust myself after it, even with no attraction or pull back to it.
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>>86632it sucks, the best i can do now is to help others out of that mess, which i can enjoy doing though.
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>>86626apparently a-lot of niggers on this board (and the cucks r9k) have this problem.
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>>86642at-least you understand that its bad.
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>>86421 (OP)just how you are, accept that you're imperfect and live how you find happiness, not dopamine, however that is, is as it is
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>>86642its just that most people are some level of bisexual and the people here are too heavy into obsessing over how they think… so you wanna fuck men? you and all of greece, you and a lot of men through history…
accept that you're not perfect and you wanna have horny sex or just learn to get real good at lying to yourself, being gay is just as bad as wanting to have procreationless sex
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>>86567i wouldn't be supprised if this was unironic troon posting, hitler please rape this nigger, to death please
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>>86622Lusting for women is not sin. God told us to reproduce. Adultery IS a sin doe.
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>>86626>>86627it's porn + worms. Worms make you lust for something sick, porn fulfills this new "need" of yours.
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>>86421 (OP)got actually diddled by a diddy blud, holy ohio
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gorillionth faggot post, go read the 'ki, you're a massive faggot for sucking cock, fuck off
this board is being killed by endless fag posts, theres already plenty to read on what you should do
№86893[Quote]
ivermectin, fenbendazole, gym and prayer