>>86697I was absolutely hammered off a few pints and decided to get a shower. Said fuck it and had a wank, no urges or anything, just "ah sure, why not?" like a retard. This literally and metaphorically washing away the mental conditioning against urges that I had beat myself into. Since then I've been stumbling to get back into retention proper again, as it's not exactly a headspace your body - wired to breed, or at least do something approximate - will enjoy. But I feel somewhat confidence this time around, and I'm putting my foot down proper on this decision now.
The only reason I'm in any way cocksure now that I'm going to get back on it is because I gave "EasyPeasy" a read last week and frankly it hammered back in what I'd told myself only last year overnight. One of the best pointers I can give for the first few weeks or so, is that whenever you get any urges, just hold your breath and flex your calf muscles until it goes away, or you need to breath again. This both puts your body into a panic mode trying to breath, and directs blood elsewhere, redirecting all bodily function away from your penis. As well as this, don't forget to also tell yourself why you decided to stop in the first place, and why you stand nothing to gain from masturbation. I found that in and around ~80 days last year, my brain was conditioned enough sober as to where it just gave up trying to make me wank, thusly making it so when I got any urges, it wouldn't do anything to my brain. I'd still get hard, more-so than before retention funnily enough, but now without the mental aspect.