I think my brain might be fucked. I’ve been feeling miserable for what feels like months for no apparent reason whatsoever. I can’t think of many big reasons as to why I feel like this. I have friends, generally good social skills, I’m not out-of-shape, no

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Chud 04/17/26 (Fri) 16:23:40 №85735 [Quote]

I think my brain might be fucked. I’ve been feeling miserable for what feels like months for no apparent reason whatsoever. I can’t think of many big reasons as to why I feel like this. I have friends, generally good social skills, I’m not out-of-shape, not incredibly ugly, not too retarded, I don’t even live in a shithole country. What’s so niggershit about this is that I’m aware of all of it and ofc don’t want to be miserable, I just don’t know what to do to make it stop. I feel maybe I ruminate on thoughts, but even then it isn’t something I do consciously, and if I ignore the thoughts and distract myself I still feel bad afterwards for no reason. Another thing is that I think I might be scared of time passing or something. Sometimes I count the minutes as they pass, or the seconds in my head and freak out over wasting time ev&doe I usually have nothing to do. But even then I don't think either of these can explain why I've felt like shit. Fuck, sometimes i’ve had waves of suicidal urges, even though I know suicide is retarded and i’d never do it. It’s not even me thinking about killing myself, it’s just a feeling I can’t control and it fucking sucks.
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My life hasn’t always been like this, and I seriously don’t know if I just fucked my brain somehow or what cause I genuinely can’t think of any causes for this, it’s just slowly gotten worse over time and I just want everything to go back to normal.

Chud 04/17/26 (Fri) 16:52:42 №85737 [Quote]

>>85735 (OP)
Have you been getting enough sunlight recently? Whether or not I get some sun in the day can affect my mood a lot. I notice this a lot because I live in the UK and theres no sun for half the year and I get suicidal thoughts each winter that go away by spring.
If you are worried about wasting time while doing nothing, try something new. It make the days more memorable and gives you something to look forward to. Could be a new book, a new sport, starting a new hobby, etc.

Chud 04/18/26 (Sat) 01:14:08 №85765 [Quote]

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>sleep without an alarm also get sunlight
>feel a bit better after 3 days
>cured after a week

Chud 04/18/26 (Sat) 01:15:34 №85766 [Quote]

>>sleep without an alarm also get sunlight
>>feel a bit better after 3 days
>>cured after a week
cucked by image format
was my experience yours might be different

Chud 04/18/26 (Sat) 10:41:11 №85774 [Quote]

>>85737
That's a decent possibility, especially super recently, tho it's been happening for a long enough time that I would be somewhat surprised if lack of sunlight was the main cause, and i usually get out of the house once per day for an hour or so long walk, but i'll definitely look into it. Also I agree with finding something productive to do to stop myself from wasting time. I've recently been looking for something to do/look forward to and hopefully soon i can find it.
>>85766
Yeah my sleep schedule could definitely be better. It's not that I get too little sleep usually, it's just that it's super irregular.
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I'll try to see if any of these methods help, thanks

Chud 04/19/26 (Sun) 13:02:06 №85826 [Quote]

>>85774
Thats fair, lack of sunlight just makes an underlying feeling worse. It isn't normally the root cause. If you get outside often as well then that probably isn't it.
Life feels bad for me when I feel like I'm just floating around. No direction, nothing worth remembering happening, just doing the same shit all the time, going to school, coming back, staring at a screen. Some simple hobbies to try out would be sketching, photography, bird watching, any single person sport like swimming, skateboarding and roller skating. If there is a way for you to progress and get better at it, and it is interesting, devoting yourself to it can make you feel a lot better. Next time you go on a walk take a notebook and pencil with you, sit down on a bench and try to sketch what you see, or try to pay attention to the animals around you and their behaviour. This can help make the walks a bit more meaningful, it helps if you have something to look out for instead of being stuck in your own thoughts when outside.

Chud 04/19/26 (Sun) 14:55:29 №85830 [Quote]

>>85826
That's good advice, I guess my main issue is getting the motivation to continue a hobby or project after i've already started it. It's like I get these insurmountable waves of being unmotivated for no reason, lasting days or even weeks, and it really disrupts whatever I was trying to get into, or getting into anything new. During these times i'll even try to continue with it, but it's like whatever enjoyment I had gotten from it before is completely gone. I used to always have something to look forward to, whether it be a TV show, hobby or some project i'm working on, idk what happened. I'll definitely try sketching next time I go on a walk because it being tied to my schedule makes me more likely to stick with it, and i've always enjoyed sketching.

Chud 04/19/26 (Sun) 15:19:40 №85831 [Quote]

>>85830
I don't really know what advice to give for the motivation loss. It might be worth just pushing through it, but you also don't want to force a hobby to the point that it becomes a chore, its meant to be fun after all. I've struggled with similar feelings before so I can't help there too much. For me I've assumed its depression but idk how "real" a condition it is, a lot of the "treatments" you can get are just ways for shrinks to scoop up your money. I don't think anybody with the ability to self-reflect needs a psychologist, as they won't be able to tell you anything you don't know, and you kinda need to find your own way to accept or overcome feelings. Good luck.