/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

Why do you want to kill yourself?

>>85323
because I am unable to live. I already know I will be one of those people sleeping on the streets.

>>85324
What's your situation like

>>85325
I'm 18 last year of school I havent studied I dont want to study I live with my mother we are broke she will kick me out soon because I dont do anything other than rot in bed all day I dont want to work or improve on my situation. That's why I see sucidie as the easiest exit

>>85326
to you, is suicide easier than working on improving your situation?

when you imagine 'improving', what do you see it as?

>>85327
yes. Improving would actually involve putting in effort for once. But I believe I am incapable of doing so. That's why if I dont kill myself I will end up a homeless junkie. But suicide is just a few seconds and no more effort is ever needed afterwards.

>>85328
have you considered drugs like adderall or antidepressants?

>>85329
Yeah but I dont know where to get the former, I'm going to speak to my doctor tomorrow hopefully, perhaps he will help somehow. But I feel like no amount of medication will help me put in effort.

>>85330
often, the first step is the hardest. fear can keep us in a loop where we never believe we're capable because it's been so long since we actually tried to do something.

also, often, 'improvement' feels daunting because you lack a plan. what would you need to accomplish for your mom to not kick you out?

also, really consider the drugs. if it were slightly easier to do things, would your life become more liveable?

>>85330
Hey man, listen I'm gonna be blunt here, killing yourself is a fucking faggot thing to do, think about your mother man, shes raised you for all of her life, fed you clothed you, everything under the fucking sun. And youre just gonna end it all? Thats just a huge fuck you to her dude, and everyone else who cares about you. How about you get up off your ass and go apply for a job, have you ever tried that because it really sounds like you haven't.

I ain't trying to say all of this to bully you or put you on blast, I'm just telling you how it is, straight up. Suicide is an incredibly selfish thing to do and its a huge fuck you to everyone who holds you dear.

>I think I might kill myself soon. I already tied a noose. I'm going to see my doctor but I doubt he can help. Maybe they will institutionalize me if I tell them about my plan.
Hopefully

>>85331
I agree with him. Im not usually for meds but it sounds like a little bit could help you out, and yeah you may feel like a zombie but hopefully that feeling like a zombie will bite you in the ass to fix your life up so you dont feel so compelled to take them.

>>85333
No fucking Soul Award
unless your talking about him hopefully getting the help he needs. than in that case, yeah hopefully.

>>85332
I used to have a part time job before, I used to put in effort and stuff but last year or so I realised how pointless it is. and honestly i dont care if whether its selfish or not

Did I make it in time? I ask, as someone who infinitely respects Sharty and each of its users with their personal fate, their grief, and trials, please don't do this. Sharty always appears much colder than he actually is. When it comes to the precious fates of our peers, no matter where they are or what unbearable burden has fallen on their shoulders, we always do everything in our power to be united wherever possible. If everyone here were to meet face to face, they would be a reliable support for their comrades who are now driven into a dead end. Don't do this, because fate, by carrying a person through crises, can open up opportunities for a way out for even the most desperate souls.
If nothing can convince you otherwise, which would be very scary for me personally, please postpone your decision until April 30, 2045, so that at least for a nice number… No kidding, find whatever you can, if you can't, we'll be here exactly as long as necessary, but don't do anything irreparable, you only have one life, your actions could be irreversible

Please at least try the meds OP

If you're Christian OP, consider going to Church more and praying more. It will absolutely help alongside all the other advice everyone else has given

Not saying to be like these Televangelist retards who say all you need to do is proclaim your faith and everything will be good. But praying and Mass alongside your other efforts to improve will help.

>>85326
I'm in my last year of school too, don't do it. Killing yourself is gay as fuck. Your mother probably won't kick you out, especially not if you show some value, so even if you dont work at least do some chores and help out, she will appreciate it. She probably cares about you a lot more than you think. It isn't over for your exams as well, separate an hour a day to study for specifically the subjects that matter for whatever you applied to, if you can get 1 solid hour down a day every day until exams you should be able to get at least decent grades. If you want better, work a bit more. Do past papers.

Take the fucking meds if they are offered. I know we all talk about meds being bad but between that and the noose the meds are better. Talk to the doctor, talk to your school counselor, talk to your mother, talk to a priest if you go to church, just don't kill yourself, its not worth it. Take that noose and burn it or bin it, don't be a tranny going ACK when you haven't even experienced adult life.

Don’t do that nigga

This is an embarrassing reason to kill yourself. You want to do it because… you're lazy? What do you even do all day? What stops you from actually being productive? Why do you lack motivation? Don't do it man, especially when you haven't even tried yet and have no life experience. At least try to go into the army if you really think you can't do anything yourself.

>>85332
Not op but if I kms I will try to repay my parents back all of everything they invested in me, to get square with them, before I waste myself. I know I can never repay that value, but alternatively I can try to become someone so awful that to rid them of myself would be a mercy. Or if that doesn’t work, then fuck them. I am being selfish and don’t deny it. You cannot sue me because I’ll be dead. Admittedly all the guilt of that (plus the sliver of hope that things get better) is why I am still here. Even still there is no meaning to life and everything turns into dust in the end so who cares

>>85346
rare sincere gem on 'arty
seca

i once had a near death experience from ingesting sodium nitrites. i was pulled into a tunnel of light and there were screams everywhere, other people suffering, all around me, i could hear every single one of them. i genuinely believed i was in hell.

i had that exact same mindset as you before i did it and let me tell you, if you die without ever reaching what you were capable of, if you just go like that, you do not go peacefully. people do not decide to end their lives like a rational thought-out plan. they get the idea, it sits there, it festers, and then one day you move like a puppet and you think okay this is it, and you do it. its like a fog you walk into.

and in buddhism there is something about this, i cannot fully explain it, but dying that way, incomplete, in that state, the consequences of it are not nothing. they are not peaceful at all and it will not end your suffering.

OP do you want to talk through this?

Update: I was prescribed 5mg of Lexapro. Probably won't help.

>>85407
Yes, even such a step will already be a deed. Any deed, but a living, life-affirming deed!

I just talked to my mother and I want to kill myself even fucking more now. She just says I'm faking this to get out of all responsibility and wants to beat it out of me. I think she might be correct.

>>85415
Why is your mother so mad at you anyways? What responsibilities are you ignoring and why are you ignoring them?

>>85415
Interpreting words in a situation of despair and despondency may not be as effective as intended. Many people barely articulate what they really think, hiding their thoughts and acting impulsively, which can be outwardly interpreted as aggression.

I ask once again, for the sake of clarity, that you should never make irrevocable decisions based on other people's words, even if they contain a hint of hostility. It's very good that you still have the strength to report your active actions right here on this site to us and to me, so that we can read you, hear you, and respond to you.

In any case, whether bitter or joyful, keep in touch. This way, we will know more and our range of actions can expand, as I would immensely like to be your support and salvation, even if we are separated by thousands of kilometers. If you don't receive the words or gestures you need in your family, I myself will say the words and all the necessary gestures. The main thing is to keep moving and pull yourself out. Your actions over the past 24 hours already give me hope, which needs to be fueled every day! (I already see one of the people asked you some pretty good questions. With them, the situation will become much clearer for us.)

>>85326
Get a trade o algo

OP are you still with us, don't go

>>85482
Yes, I'm still here. I'm going to school today.

I decided to come here because 4chan isn't working. Is this place like the zoomer version of 4chan? If I hang out here long enough will I get a 17 year old otaku gf?

>>85492
This isn't 4chan. The sharty isn't a place that you will find the degeneracy of 4chan, don't expect to find porn threads here.

>>85493
I'm not asking for porn. I'm asking for a hook up with a 17 year old.

>>85495
jardy cucks rule

>>85495
The 'cuck produces yet another pedo. You will not be getting a girlfriend here, and definitely not a minor.

>>85501
he's probably 17 too retardGOD

>>85502
rule 13 o algo, jannies should ban xim then

>>85503
I don't know about others, but I would stand up for my friend Soyteen. Here on Sharty, every teenager will be my ally…

>>85495
DOCTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! BAN THIS JARTYCUCK NOW

>>85504
most of us probably started on this site as teens, i don't care too much, but that doesn't mean we can just accept people lusting for minors. We can't tell their real age, so assume everybody is an adult

>>85508
It's just that sometimes even 17-year-old girls can have a size 3 breast. If the breasts are flat, this will be grounds for strict scrutiny to determine how attractive the immature type is to the person. Personally, I would always check age first, but I wouldn't allow people 21-23 to be stumped, just like myself. A five-year age difference is a healthy norm, and I honestly admit that if I really fell in love with a 17-year-old girl with large breasts, I would do everything in my power to maintain the relationship for a year until she reached adulthood. Perhaps this is less strict than the unwavering principles of Sharty require, and this position is rightfully worthy of criticism. The only thing I will say in my defense is that in my entire life, in reality, I never saw a single beautiful girl in my school or university community. So we're talking about opportunities for a better future, which I would personally welcome

>>85509
nigga is a massive pedo
if you are 22 there is a problem with you dating a 17 year old. With the logic of a 5 year age gap being healthy, it wouldn't be a stretch to say that when you were 20 you would date a 15 year old.
Why would you not be fine with an 18 year old. Its a 1 year difference, and now its legal and you aren't a pedo. I understand what you mean about some 17 year olds looking older, but that isn't an excuse. A 5 year age gap doesn't matter when you are both adults. It doesn't mean its fine for a 17 year old to date a 22 year old. Think of the differences in life experience, one isn't even in their final year of school, and you are at the age of having finished university. The age of consent isn't purely about biological age, but also about mental age, a 17 year old isn't developed nearly as much as you are.
Don't expect any support for your pedophilic ideas here.

>>85509
>I would do everything in my power to maintain the relationship for a year until she reached adulthood.
>admitting that you're attracted to minors
nusois… what is this??? are we really groomertrannies

>>85512
xhe said xhe is straight from the 'cuck, to nobody's surprise. WE are not groomertrannies, this person is too new to even consider a nusoy, more of a 'cuck rapefugee

>>85513
>>85512
>>85510
I sincerely didn't mean to incur Sharty wrath. Sorry. I didn't say I was with 4cuck; I've been here on Sharty since the fall of 2023, although that's impossible to prove anyway.

I deeply apologize and regret, even to myself, that my worldview deserved such anger. Yes, I understand the need to purge any hint or premise of pedophilia. Purity and innocence are the most important things the younger generation needs, and as a user of this site, I must be a champion of that.

I tried to imagine hypothetical scenarios, but I only wanted to talk about rare cases of necessary competition that could relieve you of loneliness. That is, I was talking about girls of indeterminate age who, well, already appear mature, with everything they need in place. I may have overlooked some things, but here's a hypothetical situation: suppose you and I are the same age and studying at the same college. A hypothetical girl X, of unknown age, 8/10, or even 9/10, appears in our field of vision. We both find something interesting and simultaneously learn her age. She turns out to be 17. According to your principles, upon hearing that she's 17, you'll run away and never speak to her again. In that case, I'll have more competitive resources. And the 22-year-old student will be forced to limit his options to other equally 22-year-old bitches who will demand more from a henpecked husband they can't consider dominant.

You'll then have only three options: find a girl your own age, who is 90% likely not a virgin and who will destroy you as an easy buck and then destroy your family, or sit on /pol/ as a virgin until 30 and meet a generation even more defiled by modern media. Yes, you'll have more authority, more guarantees of a strong family, and more time for career advancement, but this is a somewhat forced, inert path. The third option is only possible if your charisma can move mountains. If you have the charm to keep girls your age and even older around. Yes, I admit, I can't do that.

I don't know, I've been writing this nonsense for too long. Moreover, I ask you to note that all my thoughts are inconsistent with my personal life experience, and in any case, I don't intend to start a relationship with anyone, probably even in the next few years, for many reasons. A five-year gap should be the norm, because a bitch with too much pride will destroy your family. Young people need to learn about relationships, and I'm extremely glad that your guidelines are so sacred. For the first time, I've said so much that people don't even consider me a nusoy. It's sad that our views didn't align in some places, but for this I will always love you and your laws

>creating elaborate hypotheticals to justify grooming a minor
yep, this one's going in my cringe compilation

attentionwhore + you wont kill yourself anyway

The fact that you’re still here posting is the only proof I need that you’ll never actually do anything.
You. Won't. Kill. Yourself. And. You. Never. Will.
Save that script for a therapist, bitch ass nigga.

>>85521
Hehhh… even the author of this post now has less reason to be ashamed than I do. I can at least support him in this, that he's far more incompetent. Why is this cringe? I think we're all counting on maximum sincerity here, even if my limits are a year removed from your taboos, which I equally respect and consider a priority in almost all cases. Moreover, without them, there wouldn't be Sharty, a place I immensely respect for its righteous fight against pedophiles. I haven't seen a single beautiful girl in all this time. Decent guys shouldn't settle for half measures. You should always aim for 8/10, 9/10, and 10/10. They're a huge minority. There are only two problems for a guy: competition and a bad female character. Competition is decided by your own strength, will, and resources, but in a teenage situation, when they're not even allowed to consider options younger than themselves, it makes their freedom less real, trapping them in crises they could otherwise avoid. (But some people need them, I agree.) And secondly, it's the girl's nasty character, which is either incorrigible or doesn't align with yours, or she'll see you as a weak link and launch an aggressive, hysterical domination that will destroy everything. Any girl your age can crush all your vitality, take your money, and leave. Everyone should understand the risk with any woman, as all women are liars and manipulators who need to be caught in the act, preventing them from becoming more insolent and bold. I think this sounds reasonable as a personal choice, which I can adhere to, and I also see your principles as the correct standard of behavior

>>85524
stop posting

shit thread
>>85524
>You should always aim for 8/10, 9/10, and 10/10.
GEEEEEG you wish. You will die alone.