/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

The entire by song "juicy" by mtunes has been fucking ruined for me because of my mom

My ma used to be a prostitue in a shitty neighbourhood, not the Bronx as in hood niggas everywhere, but you could go to the local park and see some tweakers and maybe a homeless teen

If not done in a car/motel/bush/there house it would be done at my house, my house was a fucking deathtrap, mold, rats, hording problems, but we couldn't find anything better.

I never really went outside as a kid, it was too dangerous and a maze, also my ma didn't know how to raise a child, she was the living definition of young at heart, she essentially refused to grow up, she still has this "2000's Young adult diva" attitude, so me and my brother had to teach each other how to grow.

One day at home, she'd brought one of her "friends" and went to her room, she'd loved r&b as a genre so she played some on a shitty Bluetooth speaker to mostly act as a "silencer" of sorts.

My bro was at his school, whiled I'd watched SpongeBob on the tv cuz 2010 Nickelodeon and shit, anyways 20-ish Minutes later.. I started to feel hungry so as a 9 would do… I would go to Mama's room to ask for food.

Dumb fuck didn't even lock the door, so I'd went in and guess what, sum bro lookin like a black Jesse Pinkman cowgirlin my whore of a mother, all while juicy played in the background, I'd simply closed the door and went back to tv in stunned silence, a short minute later, the dude leaves, and my ma never even said anything or try to consolidate me, while later my bro comes back and she acts like nothing even happened, though he'd knew something was off.

It's kinda hard for me to listen that kinda music without thinking of that moment, most of my life has been shit, a lot of stuff that I don't really care to go into here, but if this post does well I might post some more stories here.

I still that hope that things will get better, I'd just needed to vent.