/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>84514 (OP)
Dis was my situation the same time last year. It was mostly triggered by a foid being a retarded foid but also partly from wishing I was at home instead of college. Ask yourself what similar factors are at play for you. Did you recently go through a breakup, are you homesick, do you feel isolated at school, are you overworked, etc. If there's anything that sticks out that you think is ruining your life, ask yourself how to get over that, and your emotional stability could return. (btw, just saying from experience, if it's heartbreak, you really just gotta power through for what might seem like forever, but it DOES end eventually. this is one thing that's definitely harder to get over)

This is just a normal stage in not-being goycattle, you'll get used to it eventually.
If it makes you feel any better you can pretend the people around you have the same problem but are better at hiding it (A- cope)
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you should try to stop caring as much about social situations because being a nervous wreck wont make you more likable
if you dont want to pretend you should tap out temporarily, also use your social skills for important people, dont waste 90 speech on the pot-smoking villager, use it to ask for a raise or to make smalltalk to a manager
you'll get over the fear of social rejection eventually, because, as you are right now you will continually get more anxious until you repeatedly embarrass yourself, at which point you can learn to stop caring and chill out or go insane
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at this point, you'll start catching yourself doing weird shit out of curiosity, since you're now uninhibited that "true" "self" can express itself
more accurately would be to say you'll become more impulsive and spontaneous, at which point these drives will inhabit you and retvrn lebenslust

>>84514 (OP)
felt like this a while back, got over it eventually.
Leave any friend groups where you feel like the people are goy robots. Wasting your time with people you don't care about, that you know don't care about you, makes you feel hollow. If theres people that you enjoy spending time with, try to talk about things that you care about personally but you never showed in your fake persona.
Try to find new groups at school that you normally don't interact with, could be a club. When you meet these people, try not to hide your real self too much, and see if anybody actually likes that.

>>84520
im friends with everyone, and everyone is a goy bot to be honest.

Im just nice with everyone so that school life is just generally easier, but the problem now is that i feel like out of instinct I am playing this almost "people pleasing" verison of my self. sometimes i also feel like i've lost my quick wit and instead make these really stale jokes

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>>84514 (OP)
Dont you dare go hollow

>>84536
help me then

>>84538
DONT listen to him! Hollow is just fine! Empty people are not less human!

OP here again, I think maybe i just need to isolate for a while or something. like be alone with my thoughts so i can figure everything out. my spring break just started, and I wanted to actually use it to do the productive things that I wanted to do previously, the other bad news is that its a week long, and i dont know if thats enough. thoughts?

I think maybe I need to watch falling down and then old videos of myself

Get better man. God bless you

I feel u my nigga, all of my "friends" are genuinely ZOG bots who just repeat the latest tiktok memes and opinions and they never talk to me outside of school and I have no skills outside of video games

>>84514 (OP)
dude are you me