>>84343 (OP)i relate to you heavily, we all have our own pace of learning, its better to just accept that and make peace with it and learn with the internet, you can replay a video however times you want, you can talk with chatgpt to explain which parts you specifically dont understand about something, you can ask it to word it in a way that helps you understand
the internet is a blessing to slow learners like us
For social things, i never cared because i dont need other peoples approval