I am weird, and will always be weird. I am not interested in anything or anyone. I have fallen from the heavens I experienced as a caca. Doing nothing but eating chicken nuggets and playing Minecraft clones on my tablet. Now I go to a SNCA community colleg

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Anyone experience this? Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:00:05 №82500 [Quote]

I am weird, and will always be weird. I am not interested in anything or anyone. I have fallen from the heavens I experienced as a caca. Doing nothing but eating chicken nuggets and playing Minecraft clones on my tablet. Now I go to a SNCA community college to study SNCA fields to get a SNCA job to raise an SNCA family and die an SNCA human. I am not a person whose presence is appreciated or desired, despite me wanting that to be the case. I am eccentric, ineffective, cold. I cannot function as an adult and require medication to maintain my mental faculties. I waste my time on this site trying to get validation from every Scob and Chud while my grades are slipping and I have core priorities like sleep and basic hygiene to attend to. I do not have any friends. My relationship with my family is ok but it’s not the best. I love them, but the last time I spent time with my father was helping him run errands. He screamed at me until I cried because he was agitated over things that do not pertain to me. That was not nice. I mostly keep to myself because years of chronic depression has lodged a permanent disability in my psyche. Sure I can function on meds and perhaps imitate the routine of a ordinary working class adult, but I will never be the same. The acceptance of my subpar circumstances and personal failures, both within and outside my control, have handicapped whatever joy and virtue I can experience in this lifetime. Everything now is just a script, and free will doesn’t exist.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:05:11 №82501 [Quote]

OP here, why am I such a useless lazy nigger? Why do I have to take meds to even get out of bed in the morning? Why am I like this? Did YHWH personally curse me? My life is very brimmy and I don’t like it.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:06:24 №82502 [Quote]

I might have that schizotypal personality disorder thing.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:06:54 №82503 [Quote]

I hope people care enough to respond to this pathetic tirade.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:08:03 №82504 [Quote]

Yes I’m part brown before anyone asks. I can’t help it.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:08:30 №82505 [Quote]

Not a jeet or a nigger though.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:09:43 №82506 [Quote]

Yes I’m on meds. Zoloft and Wellbutrin. They clearly don’t work though.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 07:12:55 №82507 [Quote]

That’s all I have to add.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 11:35:59 №82512 [Quote]

I feel u OP if that makes you feel better

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 11:37:28 №82513 [Quote]

My entire life after 15 feels like an endless useless humiliation ritual that I'm forced to be involved in

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 11:43:11 №82514 [Quote]

Currently undergoing a humiliation ritual called psych ward so I can get a pass from an even worse humiliation ritual called mandatory military service and then hopefully I can spend the rest of my life peacefully working a soulless minimum wage job and playing video games in the free time

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 12:08:23 №82517 [Quote]

get off the meds dude TRUST me.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 15:07:44 №82526 [Quote]

>>82517
The Wellbutrin is keeping me going doe without it I would be worse than I already am.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 15:13:10 №82527 [Quote]

>>82500 (OP)
What I've tried is to go just a little crazy. Act out, find trouble, spice up your boring life. But don't do what I do and find a way to make it more than just a cope (like it often is with me). Aim to wrench your freedom away with your own bare hands and claim it for yourself, then fully enjoy the spoils. That's only what I've done for the past couple years, though; only a recommendation.
If there's anything that you definitely NEED, it's to get off those damn meds. That shit isn't good for you. SSRIs cause permanent damage to your brain.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 16:02:08 №82531 [Quote]

>>82501
combining wellbutrin and zoloft is a bad idea
you get increased risk of seizures, and significantly lower cognitive function
if you have MDD zoloft by itself should be fine, theres no real reason to take both, except OMGSISA are generally more afraid to take you off medication than prescribe new ones.
Your doctor probably prescribed both because neither worked, from your posts the combo likely still doesnt work, so you should get different medication entirely
if there has been no positive change in 12-50 weeks you should be taken off zoloft and wellbutrin
>>82527
truke, hut weaning yourself off SSRI's is dangerous, notable withdrawal symptom is ACKing for no reason
i'd recommend cymbalta, because its less cognitively taxing, but taking it means avoiding painkillers and anti-inflammatory drugs (aspirin, ibuprofen, naproxen, advil)
you'll need to taper off zoloft and while slowly uptaking cymbalta
if cymbalta doesnt cause any improvement after 8 weeks you were likely misdiagnosed

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 16:03:33 №82532 [Quote]

>>82531
those 8 weeks exclude the cross-taper period between zoloft and cymbalta

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 17:44:44 №82539 [Quote]

>>82531
My dose of Wellbutrin was recently raised from 150 to 300. I started on Lexapro and it didn’t work. I then took Prozac and they had to take me off it because I said I wanted to ack myself. I was then switched to 50mg of Zoloft and it worked fine for about a year, then I went through a very stressful period of my life and it just fucking stopped working. I started clitty leaking everywhere so I was sent to a partial hospitalization program where they raised it to 100mg with no luck. Right around the time I got out they decided to add Wellbutrin in order to resolve my anhedonia and lack of motivation since that was the main issue and the anxiety was not a major factor anymore. I have been on 150mg of Wellbutrin for a little under a year and it worked fine but now it stopped working again and I’m back to being a lazy nigger. I have never suffered from any side effects let alone seizures so I do not expect one even if my threshold is lowered. Contrary to what you said, my Dr. Soystein actually said because I have had a better response to Wellbutrin over Zoloft, he is considering removing it altogether if I respond well to the dose increase.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 17:49:19 №82540 [Quote]

>>82527
I have this one ‘teen who I met IRL say that I should accept how meaningless the world is and revolt against the absurdity. He is a pretty hardline atheist and yet he started going to a Korean church (evendoe he is Irish) and is going to ask out a SISA he met there, whose family likes him a lot even though he isn’t even Christian. He said I should do shit like that but I don’t have the balls or know where I could even start.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 17:50:29 №82541 [Quote]

>>82514
What country do you live in Chud?

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 17:56:01 №82543 [Quote]

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>>82540
insanely keyed, life fucking sucks ass anyways literally just do whatever you want

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 18:02:48 №82546 [Quote]

>>82541
Russia geg I am a peaceful person thoughbeit

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 18:59:32 №82548 [Quote]

>>82546
I feel bad for you nigga I wish you the best

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 19:22:01 №82549 [Quote]

>>82500 (OP)

I have a similar life to you however the difference is that I am not Russian, and therefore my life is significantly happier then yours.

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 19:25:34 №82550 [Quote]

>>82549
I am not Russian nigga where did you get that from

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 19:33:08 №82552 [Quote]

>>82550
get off the thread and go do something useful you hobo

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 19:51:27 №82553 [Quote]

>>82552
Such as

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 21:30:46 №82560 [Quote]

>>82553
get a hobby that you can make money off of

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 21:32:15 №82561 [Quote]

>>82560
geg, name one hobby like that

Chud 03/03/26 (Tue) 23:05:35 №82567 [Quote]

>>82539
>Contrary to what you said, my Dr. Soystein actually said because I have had a better response to Wellbutrin over Zoloft, he is considering removing it altogether if I respond well to the dose increase.
if wellbutrin hasnt been tried in isolation thats the best call
cymbalta is a sort of in-between zoloft and wellbutrin or something
definitely taper off zoloft
did you during the periods the SSRI's worked have trouble sleeping?

Chud 03/04/26 (Wed) 00:37:40 №82570 [Quote]

>>82567
No I didn’t suffer from any side effects at all

Chud 03/04/26 (Wed) 00:41:17 №82571 [Quote]

>>82560
Like what?
>unorgeano nigga

Chud 03/04/26 (Wed) 00:41:18 №82572 [Quote]

>>82501
>>82500 (OP)
i experience this but with some differences
my suggestion would be that if you feel that nothing can be done, rot in a world of your own making; get some raisin to have fun with for a few years until it all runs out and its over
<described what i am doing award

Chud 03/04/26 (Wed) 03:45:41 №82584 [Quote]

>>82572
what differences chuddy