/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

I don’t play vidya, don’t do drugs, don’t smoke, don’t drink, don’t gamble, don’t party, don’t date, don’t have any major life achievements, don’t have any good stories, don’t have any ambitions, don’t have any friends, don’t like myself, don’t like anyone else, don’t have social media, don’t have anyone that cares about me (don’t say family that’s a given even if you are a mediocre human being), don’t sleep well, don’t eat well, don’t look forward to anything, don’t have any hobbies, don’t see any joy in life, don’t want to live anymore. (THIS IS NOT A SUICIDE ANNOUNCEMENT NIGGERJANNIES)

Okay, I will respond
If you don't have anything to look up to, go do something that you could look up to. All it takes is curiosity and knowledge from diverse sources, and it seems that curiosity is the thing you lack. You think that the world is this very sad, bleak place, where the only way to feel happy is to be a normie. Your view of life lacks curiosity of all the different things in the world. The truth is that you have to live life like YOU want to live it instead of bothering about shit nophono cares about.
For starters, think about your values and find something that matches those values. Doesn't matter how you do it, you could ask ChatBBC for all I care.
Alternatively, try going on youtube and find a video where someone explains a subject they're passionate about. It could be literally fucking anything, but if you keep going, you may stumble across something that actually interests you.

>>82186 (OP)
>Everything people use to cope is some form of a Jew piggyback riding you with a carrot on a stick
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>Everything has felt very existential lately like my consciousness and body are not one.
you get close to it after this, but yeah, not doing anything you think is valuable makes life feel empty
if you dont know yet what you think is valuable then just do a bunch of shit and figure it out or something
>I'd rope
there is no next life, hippies are wrong about that.

I've been experiencing the same thing recently. All my friends started drinking, partying, and a lot of them still have better grades than me while I sit at home watching youtube and reading the sharty most of the time. I don't even mindlessly watch the short shit on der 'tube, I watch decent stuff on topics I actually like learning about like history, but my brain must be getting worn out at this point and the cope isn't enough.

I'm not terribly ugly, I'm not a retard, I can talk to people, but I feel very incomplete. Like you mentioned, I get advice to revise more, I know I should do it, but my brain repels it. I used to want to rope a year or two ago, got past the phase but I still don't feel great.


My only real hope is that I still believe there is the potential I can find good things to fill my time with. Thinking of buying a skateboard and trying that when I finish my high school exams (Jannies I'm 18 don't ban me niggas), going outside more and trying something new might help. Also going to buy a PS3 since they're cheap, trying to find more ways to enjoy my life.

>Everything people use to cope is some form of a Jew piggyback riding you

Geg, but probably true. Even the things I listed are feeding the jew because I have to spend money to do them, even if its second hand stuff. Try to do things that involve the least amount of money and that can have a long lasting effect, maybe try going on long walks outdoors, instruments, art, reading a topic you like, whatever interests you.

None of these will really replace the existential dread of not being like everyone else, and knowing that the future isn't great, but maybe if you have something to look forward to or something fun that you can work on it can help make life feel dead.

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>>82311
OP here, I love taking walks. Nature is the only joy I have left. I think the inability to apply advice originates from a deep disbelief in your own abilities subconsciously. You don’t even get the chance to consider changes you could make to better your life because your brain already threw it out.