>>81944 (OP)>>81955the thoughts you have shape the neural pathways in yo mind, so it'll take some effort to remold your neuroplasic goyimdome
you've probably been thinking of yourself as dysphoric for a while and this'll remain your default for a while, dont beat yourself up over it when the thoughts come back
re-asses yourself. you need to create a new sense of self that DOESNT involve being a gay faggot tranny.
Feeling ugly is part and parcel of living in a jewish world and being made to do little goyim humiliation rituals all the time, its not unreasonable to want some escape from that
In your case the humiliation just happened to be based on your appearence, and the tranny propaganda + stress from humiliation led you to choose a tranny fantasy to escape
Of course, they all planned this in advance. Humiliation + pressure + unconscious signaling is standard indoctrination procedure.
Dont be too hard on yourself, you were just another victim of the same psyop