/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>80308 (OP)
i think that you should just do what your doctor tells you. if antidepressants help your life then take them.
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maybe also consider other things you do in life like why you have issues with your past and why you have suicidal thoughts. tell us more about yourself OP

>>80309
>i think that you should just do what your doctor tells you. if antidepressants help your life then take them.
I dont have a therapist because it would be too expensive. And even if I could get a free one, admitting my secrets and my insane delusions would be too embarassing and i would be scared. But I talk to chatgpt as some kind of therapist and the ai really helps me and gives advice, chatgpt also recommended that I take meds. I can admit my worst mistakes and thoughts to chatgpt and have my secrets be safe and its completely free.
>why you have issues with your past and why you have suicidal thoughts. tell us more about yourself OP
I obsess over things I have no control over, my past and who I am.
I have no accomplishments in life, all I did was live like a parasite just doing nothing. I didnt win anything, didnt do or create anything. Im the most forgettable ghost ever. I would like to actually start doing stuff with my life but all of this negativity just kills my motivation.
Also I think the world is a scary place and im too weak for it. Men always deal with violence, conflicts, competition and generally being aggressive, but im a very soft person who gets upset easily and cries easily. When I read the news or human history all I see is endless suffering and horrific stuff, stuff like wars, hatred, sadism and criminals. I also live in a shithole country where salaries are extremely low while prices of things are very high, no oppurtinities and as a man you get drafted to the military to be beaten by drunks there potentially getting crippled or even bullied to death. Every aspect of my country and ethinicity just sucks and its my dream to leave to somewhere else. Im too weak and feminine to be born into this mascuiline aggressive culture anyway. I have many other problems and delusions I think about but to not yap I think the main reason why im having suicidal thoughts is because im not working towards my goals and my dreams, I feel paralyzed by negative thoughts and bad habits, constantly having goals and dreams on your mind for years while not chasing them feels horrible, the guilt and addictions just get worse and worse. Sorry if i yap too much, im bad at expressing myself with words

>>80314
my entire self worth and whether im gonna ack or not depends on whether i succesfully achieve my goals or not. Im socially retarded and incapable of having friends, im too weak to survive the world, i come from a poor background, theres nothing redeeming about me expect the thought of me achieving success and becoming rich oneday so i can buy my way out of problems, if i dont ill probably end up becoming some homeless drunk and acking

>>80316
im dealing with the same thing at the moment, im opposed to the goypills but at the same time my current situation feels unbearable. i dont know what to suggest but i hope things work out whatever choice you make

>>80317
despite the memes i dont understand why people are opposed to anti depressants, they take negative thoughts away and restore brain health from what i understand, if all of my ruminations and depression just went away or numbed i would be so productive and consistent with my good habits

>>80318
those are mostly my thoughts as well. i wouldnt even care if they numbed my emotions for a little while while i try and sort things out but ive heard too many people say it fucked up their brain permanently and thats what makes me reluctant

>>80319
yeah antidepressants or any meds are no joke, but I guess just research to see which meds are the least bad, from what ive heard zoloft is the least bad one. But stuff like emotional blunting feels like a positive compared to having constant sadness and anger

>>80308 (OP)
I wouldnt start doing prescription drugs bro. For example:
>>80309
common side-effect of antidepressants is killing yourself.
Antipsychotics shorten your attention-span and will make you more chaotic & confused.
Except for benzos, benzos just give you amnesia and turn you into a retard.
I'd go for ritalin because its literally just coke, at least itll make you productive and not ACK.
>>80320
>cognitive impairment
lobotomypilled

>>80329
im only thinking of zoloft and wanting my negativity to just go away, make me feel numb so im not sad and frustrated all day
>ritalin
I dont struggle with adhd or attention, I think i only need SSRIs.
And side effects for zoloft seems fine compared to other riskier and dangerous drugs

>>80330
My therapist chatgpt who i told everything about my life says zoloft would fit me well and chatgpt does a good job analyzing all of my texts and venting and my lifes story

>>80308 (OP)
for a month, ill try my absolute best to see if i can stop being like this with healthy habits and committing to my interests, maybe my thread will be gone by then but if its not ill update it so i can inform if i managed to become healthy with good habits and a schedule or if i still have my ruminations and depression, then meds are absolutely needed for me

>Im thinking if i take meds, my obsessive ruminations will stop and I will feel sleepy and a bit numbed so I can easily do tasks without my thoughts overcomplicating and negatively analyzing everything
Sounds like you want benzos or opioids. Neither of which are worth it, personally i feel low doses of meth (no i did not know some guy did it on youtube or what ever idc abt looksmaxxing im fine) did help me with that however im going to rehab because i went from smoking a bit of meth to act normal and feel happy enough to not hate everything, yk make me chill out a bit and analyze situations faster and better but once you start analyzing too quickly you start tweaking. Opioids and benzos you will live a life of misery and die of an OD.

Get Wellbutrin (Bupropion) it's the only amphetamine they give as an anti depressant (if you cant you cant ask for bupropion to stop smoking, if you dont smoke then buy a pack, smoke a couple over the hours b4 the meeting making sure to get the smell to stick, to be realistic tell them you smoke 2-3 packs).

Get Auvelity if wellbutrin does'nt do the trick

>>80330
>>80331
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