/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>79266 (OP)
just leave the friend group, they already established you as the punching bag who wouldnt be respected.
The generic advice like dont depend your identity and self worth on other people and leave toxic friends work btw
>The only people who treat me with respect are my online buddies
They sound like good people, its not escaping your problems if you have actual human beings you're talking to.
If you're suicidal because other people are mean to you, I think you should think about how meaningless other people are, their opinion and acceptance of you doesnt really matter. They dont think about you as you think of them, they dont think their words and actions genuinely wound you, they're low iq normgroids with no deep thought behind any actions, they just do whats in the moment for laughs or whatever. Dont let retards define your self-worth.
But im guessing other people's acceptance of you isnt the only issue since considering suicide is a serious thing. There are problems you're not bringing up here or you dont consciously realize them

>>79266 (OP)
also develop skills, accomplish things, have goals in life and generally be a succesful person so you outshine the retarded cattle around you

Retards won

>only my cordbuddies understand me, fuck my heckin parents
Grow up kiddo

this will sound unhelpful but try your hardest to not care anymore. embrace being retarded by not doing some self love bullshit exercises. go frolicking in the woods eg. and if someone sees you, just nod o algo and continue doing your autistic stuff

>suicide is for cowards
It is 'jakka, you know it is.