/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>77980 (OP)
damn this shit is depressing

the only way to get rid of ur paraphilias is to find god otherwise its over. I have struggled with paraphernalia as well and whenever I think about gooning I remember god is watching and I wouldn't crank my cock if Jesus was in front of me. eve and oe I dont follow this all the time it helps and has been helping me.

Damn Blud…. 6 years old. Your life is kinda fucked I would suggest to visit a psychiatrist ASAP before you drift further apart from society and into degeneracy.
Hope you will get out of this massive shithole one day

I saw those on youtube when I was young as well, think it hit the algorithm because they had a lot of views (probably because it was strange and something to laugh at).
I havent had lasting damage from seeing it tho, how come some people do and others don't. I'm sorry btw OP, your hatred is justified.
Maybe when you jork it do it without any screen so you dont get more depraived idk.

Jesus christ and I thought I had it bad with epieing myself when I was 13

>>77997
Most psychiatrist won't understand your problems

its not your fault.
every modern man battles lust its probably the most common vice and its a symptom of the degeneracy pushed by our society.
the good thing for you is that you acknowledge it, which means you're halfway to recovery. and miles ahead of the majority of other men.
just follow the basic bro advice (lifting, running, nofap, nogoon, religion) its all about willpower though and these things take time so dont beat yourself up, you will get through this but obviously its not easy and requires consistent effort.

Same but it was some extremley disgusting tranime stuff i never had mental issues over anything but i developed severe POCD and HOCD over the years and got messed up addictions particulary femdom

>>78180
Femdom isn't that bad tho unless it's the extreme shit with the bondage and stuff like that tho like I wish I had a femdom fetish (I mean I like it not in the fetish way I think) instead of what I have tho

>>78181
Yeah but mine relates to the tranime stuff wich is even worse and it makes me much worse when i overthink it. Although i would have a better time coping if it wasn't for my OCD because it got me extremley low like actually trying to test it or having messed up experiences irl.

TGD… Look what they've done to our cacas…

hello chud, same shit here.
had an EPI at the age of 6 too through youtube, except it was that one sonic fighting game thats also porn.

it gave me a porn addiction, gave me trauma, got me to tell another innocent kid about porn and it also gave me a furry fetish. it semi turned me into a fag too, because of how faggy furries are and how it eventually got me to gay furry porn.

dude, it sucks, it really fucking does. ive been doing better cuz of my psychologist and stopping my porn addiction, but the fag shit kind of stuck itself to me forever and i still want to engage with furry shit.

i dont know if it will ever get solved completely or if i will eventually fall to it, but i still want to give it a shot yknow? the solution is to stop obsessing over it cuz you dont know what the future holds for you, and focusing on taking care of yourself and other shit (school, gaming, gym, etc). a thing i like thinking about is how, despite it all, we're the ones who carve our fate, regardless of our circumstances, you can still choose to be stronger than your issue, stand for what you truly want in your live and not what was imposed onto you by your EPI and just not engage with all of this lusty bullshit and fueling our trauma further.

be safe. dont ACK yourself just yet.

oh and you might want to not hold so much hatred in your heart. our hatred is justified, but its not noble, and it just corrodes and rots us from the inside. if you want to be better than what hurt you, you should probably stop the obsession with always thinking and the always nagging thoughts of what could've been and how much you despise these people.

See, from my experience, obsession makes you only think about this thing, so it makes the issue bigger and bigger, and it becomes everything you are and swallows up everything else. eventually you become your hatred. you become a faggot.

obsession, aside from hatred and anger, also causes depression and anxiety, which might lead you to feeling like shit because of being nauseous/sick and having stomach reflux like i did and wanting to commit suicide from how unfair your circumstances are. I swear to god, if i hadn't stopped the thoughts by just choosing to live my life and seeing what comes next i would have likely killed myself.

>>80773
It sucks when you actually ended up doing messed up stuff wich started actually affecting your life even in a small scale

>and i still want to engage with furry shit
i mean as an urge, i dont actually want to mess with that any longer but it still haunts me.
>our hatred is justified, but its not noble
HONESTLY, i dont know about it not being noble actually. i still dont know if fags and troons are victims of a sickness instead of being the sickness themselves (kind of like us) or if they are just naturally and will always be sub-human, or if theres two types, or whatever other hypothesis.

ill probably make up a better perspective on the issue whenever i feel like thinking objectively and research the matter, but i still dont like em regardless.

>>80773 (You)
>It sucks when you actually ended up doing messed up stuff wich started actually affecting your life even in a small scale
for sure. sometimes i remember the grossest things ive done and it feels like my hands are stained and cant be cleansed. scary shit. glad i didnt end up affecting other people though.

FUCK I KEEP REPLYING TO THE WRONG FUCKING THING

>>80779
>glad i didnt end up affecting other people though

Neither did I but it's messed up because i couldn't sleep a whole night for watching some Branigger stuff and my mom was asking me what was going on it was a massive nightmare basically. I almost got caught a few times watching Branigger stuff a few times in my School etc. but it doesn't go much further then that

wow just kill yourself kek

I remember watching lesbians kissing when I was 6

>>80820
fuck u thats not nice nigga

just say you like dick in yo mouth nigga

Visit a shrink.

>>80955
watched cp award 🥇

>>80958
It wasn't 'p doe but it's still messed up

OP here

I did get some shit fixed tough
reversed my gender dysphoria, reversed and I am now attracted to irl human proportions, instead of house sized boobas