/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>POTENTIAL SCHIZO BABBLE INCOMING
I don't know whether its the new meds I'm on or the fact that I had an argument with my mum (I ended up making up with her so don't worry) before, but I had what can only be described as a spiritual awakening. I was in my room seething but then for what reason I have no clue about I imagined myself going to church, being happy and having a community. I also started thinking about some small christian towns and how everyone knows eachother and goes to church together and it started getting to me and for the first time in years I cried, though they were tears of joy. I couldn't describe this experience in words so I'll demonstrate how impactful it was by saying that in general I'm a very unemotional/rational person, I think crying is weak and solves nothing and for me to be so overcome with emotion that I start to cry the experience would have to be powerful.
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Originally I was going to make a post seething about my mum but this experience I had really changed my mindset. My family doesn't care for religion at all and I'm not even baptized, my limited experience with christianity is going to a church as a caca (I remember this because the priest kept on going on about a metaphor with a conch shell in a bowl of water, and he asked kids from the pews about what it meant. All the cacas just said it was a shell but I gave the right answer about the metaphor and I still remember it because of how proud it made me as a caca), singing carols at my cousins church and doing scripture in primary school. I'm not very familiar with religion and church in general so I'm looking for advice from christian 'teens about what they think I should do. The only Christian I know that takes it seriously is my maths teacher whose greek orthodox, we're very close and I've chosen him as my mentor so we get to discuss things in his free periods. He told me he has a son my age so when I get back to school in a couple weeks I'll ask him for his thoughts.
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I know I might sound like selfish little fuck for saying this but I'm a little worried that when I go to church it will be full of old people that don't want newcomers (I'm 17 and live in australia btw if this matters). There is a bible study group at my school doe the guy that used to lead it left school and the new leader is this brannigger type (he watches nick fuentes and tranime) so I probably won't join it, plus it kinda seems like he's trying to proselytize uninterested year 7 cacas. If any westoid 'teens go to church could you tell me the age range and how many young people there are, also if they're welcoming to newcomers or not.
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If I end up converting it would probably be to catholicism because I don't really like protestants for reasons I'm not bothered to explain and they're also the largest church in my country. It's also because I like the idea of a traditional and universal church, I was also considering orthodox but most orthodox churches in australia are greek and I kinda feel like I'll be the odd one out by being an anglo in a sea of greeks/eastern europeans.
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If you read all this I just want to thank you for caring about my SNCA issue, my friends and family are all agnostic (doebiet one friend says he's catholic but he doesn't go to church), the only person I'd be comfortable talking about this too is my maths teacher I mentioned earlier but I'm on holidays now so whining on the shardee is the only thing I can do right now. Any advice will be appreciated.